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Monday, August 31, 2009 @7:50 AM
♥ hot title:Start of a BUSY WEEK!
我很累！！！ 可是。。。 我能怎么办？？？ This is seriously gonna be such a busy week ahead… Monday to Sunday I will be stuck at causeway point… SORROW YET HAPPINESS!!! I dunno how to describe my feelings now… im worried! but what can i do? Pray… God can i have a simple prayer requst??? Grant me good night sleep everynight! this is all i ask for…
Monday, August 24, 2009 @9:32 PM
♥ hot title:i see the rainbow of happiness
Spirit of unhappiness is slowly fading away… thank God… i see the Rainbow of Happiness today… I thank God for my parents for being with me and accompanying me today… although they might not know what i’m facing at this very moment but i thank God for their presence… i’m trying my best to LET GO AND LET GOD! tomorrow gonna be my last UT and then rest and preparation for Causeway sales… i know more problems might be coming… but God will bring us through once again… He is a faithful God… Oh! So what made me see rainbow today??? let me tell u… i have all my favourite food… happy to the max… woots… kk… gtg… sleep… and wake up study UT! :)
@12:29 AM
♥ hot title:a spirit of sadness
I can very much identify myself with the person in the picture! I’m now living in a moment of confusion… A moment of pain at heart! I’m experiencing a spirit of sadness… I DON’T LIKE SUCH FEELING! I just realized that whatever i’ve learnt from service today… something which struck me real hard… is something i need to apply immediately… The Lord says… “If i’m not your Lord of all… i’m not your Lord at all!” familiar??? yes… not new but reminded… this was something i prayed this morning before i go service also… that God will speak directly to my heart might not be something new but something i knew long ago and i need to be reminded… You must be wondering… cheryl what really happened… one of things will be friendship… that probably is only 10% of what im experiencing now… i just felt that history is repeating itself and probably my personality is those that is very mature one and i just can’t stand it when ppl don’t behave the way they are at their given age… but… this is passed and i don’t want to drag this further… anything was ig… the very moment i saw May’s email a few days back i stunned… i knew that the day will come that i will need to carry on all the burdens at the very point i agreed to take up presidential role… extremely hard when there’s no Vice-President… and the moment i’m ask to sent out email regarding the issue… i was reluctant… i know it would hurt the hearts of the little ones but i just got to do it as instructed… after sending out… i felt so heavy at heart… and i had my advisor who ask me sent it out tell me that im too fierce… im confused! haix… then i have junior come and apologize… what’s the use of apologizing after everything when my shoulders are already so heavy… i kept telling myself… FORGIVE AND FORGET!!! 
Lord right now… at this very moment… i want to stand at Your feet to surrender whatever it’s hurting me and confusing me into your loving hands… Lord i commit my life into your hands once again… forgive me for the times that i only relied on my own human strength… Lord today i want to give you my all in exchange of all of you… Daddy God, today i proclaim that you are my Lord, my Father, my King, my Comforter, my Strength, my Deliverer… Handling whatever problems i’m facing today into your loving hands… praying for you to move your hands in the midst of my life knowing You are my Lord of everything… with you i shall have no fear at all… i HOPE IT WILL… “YU GUO TIAN QING!”
Friday, August 21, 2009 @5:04 PM
♥ hot title:how? im slacking
Oh no… how??? cheryl tan is slacking now… and im suppose to study… arghhhhhhhh… this whole week is UT week… focus cheryl tan… 2 more UT to go and i will be free!!!! yeahness… but yesterday was a random day after UT, Meetings and everything… when stress level increases… craziness also increases… 
Saturday, August 15, 2009 @8:53 PM
♥ hot title:A super fun and hectic week!
I had a super duper fun but hectic week… monday was a total rest day for me… but tuesday to fri was really mad… i see stocks under i scared… the experience we all had at the sales was great… my take is… unless we are granted LOA, if not i will never want to be involve again… its tiring… although i really enjoy doing events… Even as i had such hectic week… my gastric never fails to come and visit me… had it on monday and tuesday… i even went to an extend of vomiting on tuesday… first time in my 20years of age… terrible… and after all the busyness… i skipped lunch and dinner yesterday and GASTRIC REVISITED ME A FEW HOURS AGO!!!! PLS BE GONE IN JESUS’ NAME! ALRIGHT!!! Enough of me talking crap here… let the pictures speak!
Tuesday, August 11, 2009 @7:59 AM
♥ hot title:A brand new day committing it into the hands of God!
As I start off my busy and long week… I need to learn to commit it into the hands of God! and allowing Him to be in the center of everything… 
My week is gonna be as busy as the picture above! 
In the midst of my busyness… i need to learn to have FAITH and TRUST in the Lord! Because when we have faith in the one and only true living God, everything… circumstances and whatever that is negative will begin to be CHANGED! 
In this Process… im also learning to fix my eyes upon the Lord and upon that very Cross that He send His Son to die for us… truly and surely… it’s the way to my freedom! 
But before all these faith and changes can happen… we must first know the ABC of God… First we must accept HIm… Second is to believe that He is God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit! and Lastly but not the least to connect with Him… 
With all this i believe that i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me… So what we can do now is to PRAY! I will come to You in prayer I will seek Your face I will stand within the gap There will I intercede For every time I pray I move the hand of God My prayer does the things My hands cannot do For every time I pray The mountains are removed The paths are made straight And nations turn to You I am weak and helpless Lord You, my strength shall be Guide me with Your gracious hand There will my victory be
Monday, August 10, 2009 @8:39 AM
♥ hot title:a long way to go…
i’m at the very start of the day now… knowing plenty of things are ahead of me… but at least is so calm… daddy and mummy not home… they went to work… no one to nag at me… don’t like people to nag and come to me say this and that when i’m so busy… looking at the picture above… it really seems very calm yet this road im taking today is not short at all… it seems never ending and perhaps i don’t know when it’s ending… i find this picture like 2 mins ago… it reminded me that even though i have so much work to revise on… never ending pre-event preparation… but God reminded me something… towards the end of this picture its so near to the sky… now my interpretation is SKY=HEAVEN=GOD I feel God is telling me from this picture that “Cheryl, i know i know and i know you are super busy… but draw near to me every single moment ya… remember you wanted me to give you a confirmation on something? confirmation won’t just drop down from heaven… you have to seek my face first, you must come into communion with me first…” this might be a normal picture to all of you… but it speaks great revelation to me man… I just feel that in this season of my life… im so busy until sometimes i take God for granted just like my vending machine… when i need Him, i put in a coin=pray and press the button=cry to God… what is this man… im so reminded again yesterday morning when we met to pray for the service… that God our father had been so so serious and faithful towards us… that He even sent His one and only begotten son to die on the cross 2000years ago… He did so many things for us so seriously so that we can have life and life more abundantly… but we many times failed Him… I HAVE MANY TIMES FAILED HIM! While He is always so SERIOUS with us we always take Him for granted! I just felt a slap on my face while we were praying on sat and sun… God seldom do that… I REALLY NEED TO BE SERIOUS WITH HIM! I prayed that He would allow me to pray a special prayer to Him… “God I want to be serious with you… show me your way… guide me back into your straight path… path of righteousness… stir up my hearts… break my heart for what breaks yours O Lord! i ask of you today that you will TAKE ALL OF ME IN EXCHANGE OF ALL OF YOU! Daddy God, help me to pull through this season of my life so that i can learn to be more and more like Jesus! Help me Lord to have the fear of the Lord… 
I really want to go the cross and have a intimate fellowship with my Lord and allow Him to teach me and guide me…
Saturday, August 08, 2009 @9:39 PM
♥ hot title:Pre–Event Preparation
Now cheryl eyes like want to close liao… i had been really working so so so hard for my event… till my sleeping hours or not enough liao… This period of time is the pre-event preparation… cannot breathe liao manx… alot admin work to do… as well as physical things to be done… and in the midst of all these busyness… don’t worry… i will never forget to take photos… hee:) Not forgetting my most fun cell members… we had our gal SHAPE outing and estella’s place… yummy bbq and great ppl… thanks leaders for planning all these… although i was tired but i really enjoyed the fellowship… and there were lots of laughter and joy… bcox our dear rebecca was there… she never fails to bring joy to our lives man… and lastly… my love and joy… to attend prayer every sat… although im tired… but i went… but i got to say… i was drifted away spiritually… while dani was praying… most of us were remembered that God has treated as so seriously in every aspect of our lives… but sometimes, or most of the time we had taken him for granted… making wrong decisions even not realizing them… certain things was bothering my heart… and that was why i wasn’t too active in crusade for the time being… if the crusaders realized… God confirmed what i wanted to do… I think God for that… its a burden down… but troubled… how to bring it across leh… so coincidently… Choy heard the same thing as well… and pastor daniel confirmed it as well… probably that is it… i will take another few days to pray and confirm before wanting comes back from YA retreat… Hear my cry for mercy as i call to you for help, as I lift up my hands toward your Most Holy Place. (Psalm 28:2)
Thursday, August 06, 2009 @8:07 AM
♥ hot title:What time did i sleep???
If really really very super tired physically and mentally… Till i really lost count on the number of hours i’ve been sleeping… i don’t quite even remember what time i slept last night… But thank God that finally FYP evaluation is OVER!  This is Mr Marcus Yee my team mate… 
Infront of us… my dear sleeping partner in crusade camp… Ms Jorrie Tan! We were doing on the same project! Oh ya… i just wanna share something with all of us… recently i have been really irritated by people around me that doesn’t work things out according the way i wanted it to be done… but God reminded me that no man is perfect… and we must also be like God since we are made in His image… which is to love people just like how God loved us and is still loving us… So you sad and worried ppl… let me tell u the only way to be encouraged… is when u know who is your creator and the words that He puts in the bible ya… :) Enjoy your day ahead!
Wednesday, August 05, 2009 @8:21 AM
♥ hot title:Ultimate Sport Sale@RP
Recently Cheryl tan had been way way way busy… ever since report submission of our FYP! I had been so busy planning with my leaders for the upcoming sales at RP… its really alot of effort put in by my student leaders especially qiuyi and gordon… probably this is their first ever BIG EVENT they are organizing in their 17-18 years… im really proud of them… Do come and support if you can… its gonna be really really awesome! 
Somehow i feel that my physical body is going to break down soon enough… Was just reminded by Karen… “Gal, you are overworking again!” yes indeed… i think if these ig events were to be my fyp ah… i will score with flying colours man… but too bad huh… I think i have been missing LMs and all huh… very bad i know… but i need to prioritize… cox now event is more important… and somehow i got a feeling i won’t be able to go for the sept camp… **my laptop is seriously giving me problems now… how sia???
Sunday, August 02, 2009 @12:03 AM
♥ hot title:
CHERYL TAN is seriously tired physically... but i truely enjoy what im doing... I really found joy in leading and events planning... so fun... after all i believe its worth it... somehow i feel that im more and more drifted away from crusade... even crusaders...
in the midst of happiness... there are also irritated-ness... i really hate ppl making me do double work... i really don't like ppl make last minute changes.... u think is fun to irritate ppl... what a joke... let ppl irritate u la... u see how u feel... im busy enough... no need more business ah...
whatever it is... im trying my best to forget it all... cox my God is GREATER! in Him i stand firm... in Him i find peace and joy...
so today... a bit tiring ah... my eyes closing ah... am awake since 6am... was at SMU at 8am... SIFE student leaders dialog... dont like ppl who say they coming but end up not ard... to conclude... some other poly really look down on us... till they see our power... they went WOW!!!
so after sife dialog was shopping... had a great time... TIME OF DE-STRESS!!! More shopping tmr... and good dinner tmr with huisi, andrea, bert, choon hou and gang... :)
Buaix... :P
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