Saturday, May 19, 2012
Senior
When you were in pri school, being upper pri meant you were the brothers/sisters to those new students. Then some quick years passed then you were back wearing shorts and being called lower sec and you were no longer looked up on. Then yet again some quick years later you were the senior batch of the school. And being in Sec 4 to me was the best so far. If i was also to choose between JC and Sec gathering, the former i would give excuses not going while the latter, i would make excuses to others to clear the time to go.
Back to the story. Then a few short years later, you were the newbs in Jc and a year passed coz you were just too AFK and JC 2 came. Junior to senior in less than 11 months. The fastest transition in the Sg education system. Then NS came. Well, you get the point.
The rate of change of time for all living is virtually the same. Its the perception of it is what makes an hour feel like a minute or a minute that feels like an hour. Relativity. What i'm saying is that, isnt this JUST TOO FAST? Sure, there was some draggy moments i loathe and wanted it to end so badly, but for those precious moments with your close frens. THAT. I wanted that to last. Who cares if you have hundreds or thousands of frens? You just need a few. The few that sticks to you all the way from the moment you met them to now. I even tried recreating some events but failed miserably. I even dreamt of certain events with you guys. Wanna meet all of you again, once more. Before we get busy with our lives or career or even family for that matter... (HUH? DARREN LOW? >.<" ) I really, really want to. Really. Jin Jja. Zhen De. Suum Ma.
Hontou Ni. Sungguh. Bangat. Whatever the language.
And then that Thursday came. A match. Whoa. From the person on that stage on the last day and years later, here. I owe you one for helping me too. Sorry if i used you as an avenue to dump/solve/get a second opinion on my problems too coz your point of view is smth i can never get. I wasnt born as one (DUH! xD). I hope you get well. From the tone, language used and content said by his mouth, you could do better. I've got your back, dn worry.
And in camp, the other joker, well, lets just say i'm lucky he wasnt there when it was all spilled into that room by those that got his back instead. He, i respect the most in there. To get him to say anything about himself was always a challenge. And he knows how to evade, though his method is nampaksal tak leh lupa tentang hal dier. Once a them, always a them.
And once again, i've got full coverage of what was going on. Both parties. YET AGAIN. And did i say the coverage was LIVE? And i've got to sit down there with some poker face when i know what was going on all the while. Been there done that. And then they lie saying that is ok and its fine and so on. Walking on that line is always dangerous and i've walked plenty of it. I hated myself for doing it but i rather fall backwards instead. But i guess its the thrill that got me into this situation yet again. Why am i always the center person when there's some dispute of this matter or otherwise? IYKWIM. Although the "otherwise" is smth that i rather get coverage on. Plus, I also do have my stand on this matter but i've got to be impartial? Wth? Its a clear cut win case if you hear the story out but NO, THEY HAVE TO GO ALL OUT.
And all of my posts so far. ALL. Its ladened with...... Nvm....
I've always got that one question that i know will never get answered. Guess the teacher was right whenever he/she said not to hold back questions and just ask during the lesson and not to ask when the lesson ends. I did get it answered indirectly when i asked others. A HCI, a PJC, an AJC you name it. What they answered was almost the same and i got a gut feeling about the answer as well but getting the answer from the teacher is always better and reaffirming then getting answers from copying your fren's hw rite? Plus, this is somewhat like an exam and you dn wanna screw it up the second time.
And once again, thank you. I cant thank you enough for aiding me to get back what i've lost in years. I really hate the other's viewpoint whenever they talk about that subject coz to them they only wanna whack. You fucking thought me well. Thats all i can say without "you know what".
