Monday, April 30, 2012
23 More Days
Well the past 2 months felt like it didnt happen. And I've got 23 more days to go before the first phase ends. And so you might think that i've made 37 new frens? Nope... Some of which i've alr known of their background before, just havnt met them. Some of which i've messed up their lives before but they didnt know it. And yes, i'm still guilty i treated him that way. No, not him. HIM. I got a theory to test and i used him as a lab rat. And being there, good thing i got someone to talk to in the most boring of times. Sure, that person has her/his own flaws but to find someone who talks the language you speak, its rare. And i told her before, i was fucked up. But he/she was in my place before. Times like this, its good to have a lifeline i can depend on.
Well on the bright side, the letter came today and it makes me wonder if IT will ever happen again. Never in my life i learnt so many things in just half a year (or so...). The things i learnt, no textbook will write and no teacher will teach. But its the passing of experience that has enabled me to help him/her for this past few months. Well, enough of that. I've juggled none before and few weeks ago i took on 3. WTF RIGHT? I miss the good old bliss times when you know you can do it but just cant be bothered to do it. The times where you walk away because you knew doing it means you have to carry it on for quite a while. It didnt hurt to have a facade but what the heck... The guys in there broke it in 2 months. Smth that i was able to keep for years broken in 2 months by a bunch of JC kids... Oh well, its about time anyways.
And having the ability to lie without actually lying through the mouth. You know its not true and it hurts but as long as life can go on. Cant believe that out there, somewhere in Suntec City, some stranger knows my full truth. Fk it. It costs me my $264 bucks and all because of a sign i asked for. A sign that appeared on the person in front of me when i took that escalator. An inside joke that has meaning to those who knows. And so far, i've not felt that peace in months. Sharing does alleviate the problem but its there. Oh well, ottoke?
Besides, i wonder what the rest of the six have to say. Reading that on there really makes you wonder if he has ever, or lets put it this way, HOW he has done it, if he has in the first place. Its 3 years and counting? And to that other person, BT, i respect your story a lot... A LOAD. And when you thought you had a better story to tell, some other botak guy has it worst and his story was good enough that i stood up to salute.
Sorry for the cryptic blog. XZ did it on his/her FB too... AHAHAAH. Plus, if i had wrote the simple and plain truth and identities of the people, a lot will get hurt. Too many to count. And i'm still wondering what i did that made Ah Chan so pissed at me. I Pisces uh?
And oh yes, on a side note, NAMER AJER SPRINTER. ABEH TAK LEH LARI. Thanks for the song uh bro! Beh belambak uh kau ader! And confirm go, i gave my word.
