Realisation...

It is true,
We both need to wake up,
Refocus on what's important to us...
And get a grip
Before we lose ourselves...

Once again...

Finally,
All my applications lodged,
and my references completed...

Once again,
The wait starts. The uncertainty.
The anticipation of it all...

Reminds me of the time,
When I was hesitant to be with you,
To open up and accept your presence in my life...
For we both did not know what the future holds.

But this time around,
I know that back then,
I made a choice...
I made the right choice.

Because now I feel,
That I have a life here,
And not merely a career...

Thank you for filling the void...

Blue skiers and boarders :)

Yesterday's trip to Mount Buller was to do blue runs :) We had a few runs down a green run (burnt hut) to gain courage to do a blue run. And we did... HEAPS!


Addy :)


Mei & Jon just before lunch...


Loving my hotpink pants :D


Kok Heo and Jon @ Lunch :)


Mei looking quite knackered already, and Addy.


Planning the afternoon... which runs to conquer next ;) tee hee hee..


At the end of the day, when it started snowing. The weather was perfect the whole day... Sunny, and not too windy. Perfect visibility, until late arvo... around 4, when it started to snow a little....


Us, having a rest at the end of the day... before having a few last runs. :)

Left at about 5.00pm, when we took the last ride on the Horse Hill lift, to the carpark :D

It was indeed a good day... we did almost all the blue runs @ Buller, except for the Summit. We were just too tired... Maybe next week.

Jon and his mates are going again this weekend... I'm stuck working! :( boohoo... But never mind, we shall conquer the snow again when my family arrives the week after :D

WHEE!!!

Hope you guys had a brilliant weekend too...

CBF

I am so tired of hearing about it.
I don't want to know anymore.
If anything is going to happen,
It doesn't matter if I was there to stop it anyway.
If he/she makes that choice,
He/she should suffer the consequences.

I should not feel inferior.
and I wont!
I refuse to.

Because I know,
In the end,
I'm not the one who screwed up.

I left a tiny bit of me heart behind...

I am happy to be back home, but hating the fact that I'm working evening shift now, and hardly get to see my baby. Perhaps it's getting back to the big smog, and getting used to the hustle and bustle in the emergency department. Perhaps I'm missing the friendly faces and little hugs that cheer me up whenever I'm down.. Perhaps, I'll feel better when our hours coincide and we'll finally get to spend time with each other. Perhaps, I did love the place, and did leave a part of my heart behind... Perhaps....

I could cheer myself up with some visual memories while I'm feeling slightly under the weather...


Dearest Trish and Mei. Absolutely adore her! She's a darling, a capable, caring nurse, a friend, a social butterfly!


The absolutely wonderful gang!
Mel, Gary, Addy and Emma.


Mei & Pauline


Mei and bigman Ric! Will never forget our "fights" in ED, and of course, the Milo's you made for me on night shifts :D


Em pretending to be hard at work.


Neil, the porter, and Mei. Danny's the other porter, but he wasn't working on Friday, when we snapped the pics. *Stop it, Neil~! I'm not gonna become a model ok?* He "snaps" a picture of me using his imaginary camera everytime I walk by - private joke.


Mark and Mei. Friendly, ever so willing to help :) Will miss you, Mark... And everyone else in ED.


Haha! This is what they do when the department's quiet. Back rubs and scratches!

Oh well, that certainly cheered me up a little bit. But... I dunno, I might call in sick today. My head is pounding, and I doubt I can handle the constantly overflowing casualty department at the moment... We'll give it awhile and see...

I am an addict...

I couldn't help it,
I resisted for the longest time,
With all the temptation around,
and everyone else doing it...

I was in the country,
Had nothing better to do,
It was merely for experimental purposes,
and then,...!!!
I got hooked~!!!

Yes, my name is Mei,
and I am officially an addict...

on FACEBOOK.

Sad, but true...

This Is It...

Yesterday was the final day of my Bairnsdale rotation... It was good (and bad) but what's for sure is.... it's definitely memorable!!


The wonderful Emergency Department staff!!


Will miss you heaps, Lauren!


And of course, watching the interaction between Ric and Bhupesh! Hahahaha...


Vlad (the Count) and Mel


Our nights out :) and NOT getting drunk so I don't get breathalised and brought back to the hospital where I work. Kakaka. **and risk losing my P plates of course!**


The surprising winners for the night.... It wasn't because we were good, it was cuz Mel kept potting the black!! Hahahaa.. :) Oh well, none the less, still a win!!! :) I'm sure Emma agrees with me.


Bairnsdale would have been alot more unbearable if it wasn't for these two gems!!


And the good food :D


I have had sooooo much seafood (and soft drinks) since I came here. It's not funny! I think I might just die of a heart attack at 35 at the rate I'm going!


Our last night out to Paynesville. We finally found the restaurant after Liz' crappy sense of direction! She directed us to the whole turn, on the wrong roundabout!! And we ended completely lost! Thank God there was still mobile reception there!!!


Gary & I at Cruiser Club - our last night out in Bairnsdale, before the end of our rotation...

Back to Melbourne it is now~! :D

ArGgHhHh...

JUST



BECAUSE



I'M



BORED!!!



I'm so going crazy here.... I miss my pookie bear... I miss my home....

I miss.... my life!!! BOOHOOOOO...

**I was desperate enough to drop by K Mart to get this new Bonds hoodie after work today. And I NEVER buy anything from K Mart usually... But because they are having 20% discount on all clothings... and I know they carry Bonds... so I decided to go get it~! K Mart shopping man... can you believe this?! I need to get back to civilisation... DESPERATELY!!!**

Snow(ing) @ Mount Buller~!

It was our one year anniversary last Friday, so I went back to Melbourne to see my bubby. :) Yes, I managed to con Melanie into letting me off early so I could drive back to Melbourne :) Kekeekeke...

Jonny boy surprised me by writing a really really sweet card. and making reservations for dinner! ** I wasn't expecting him to do anything, cause I was gonna be home late. I wanted to arrive early to surprise him, but instead, he gave me a surprise!! **
(more pics, and another post on my pressie, and the anniversary dinner. hehe).

Had dinner @ Squires Loft in South Yarra. Had some yummilicious steak to "boost" our energy levels for skiing the next day. Yup, us snow bunnies decided to make a trip to Mount Buller to celebrate our anniversary... I know, it's not like the usual, romantic day etc, but it was what we wanted :)

The snow was awesome! Totally fresh and soft! It was still snowing when we got there... It was reallllyyyy beautiful! :) The snow is sooooo good this year, I bet it doesn't get much better!


Mei & Jon, Christmas in August @ Mt Buller.


Khar and Karen spent 2 nights there. :)
**Shut up, I do NOT look like a kid!** Ok. maybe I do... but just a tiny bit!


The cute couple - Khar and Karen on the chair lift...


Mei, freezing her arse off on the chair lift! :) And oh, I didn't fall once~! I got off the lifts fine~! :) WHEE! Such an achievement for me!!! Kekekeke...

We had an awesome day, cause we were at the same pace with each other. Nobody got left behind. We spent time together, like... really stayed together the whole trip, which was awesome!!! Did more runs than I expected. I thought we were just gonna take things slow, and chill... But we actually did quite a few runs! ;)


Karen and Khar, taking a break to have lunch..


And last but not least, I shall leave you with my frozen, Rudolph nose! :P

I had a great weekend, bubby. Thanks heaps! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY~! Love ya lots!

How was everyone else' weekend btw?? And who else is going skiing?? Hehehehe.. COUNT ME IN! It's sooo awesome this year! :) I'm so addictedddd...

Those were the days...

We've been getting medical students in the hospital recently. Not the final year students that you can usually relate to, and kinda be friends with, but first year students. Students that look up upon you, who treat you as a wise doctor and make you feel old. Those you make you feel pressured to teach them something, or at the very least, expect you to know something when they ask questions.

Perhaps I'm just not used to the transition from being a student, to now being a teacher. It makes me feel weird. Perhaps I do not have confidence that what I know is right. I do not have the confidence to transfer this knowledge to the future generation of doctors.

Seeing those first years really reminded me of the time when I first started med. When I was all eager and enthusiastic to learn all about the medical world, and to save lives! I tried putting myself in their shoes, to feel what they feel. To want to cure the world of all illnesses.

I tried to visually walk down memory lane. But I couldn't. It was all a blur... I couldn't even remember if I really did have that 'ideal' in the first place...

It's been TOO LONG...

Moving somewhere?

Someone once told me that I've moved up in the world, having what I have...
But I'd like to tell him, that after seeing his achievements today,
If anyone's moved up in the world somewhere, it's got to be him!
All the changes in his life in the past year..
The big, or little, the good and the bad.

I'm certain if he reflected upon his achievements,
he'd be totally proud of himself!

I only hope that he hasn't forgotten about the girl,
That little girl that travelled with him along the way.
That little girl that stuck around, and will always be around,
During sunshine, windy or even rainy days.

After all, success is so much sweeter shared...

Isn't it? ;)