C.R.A.P

My throat feels itchy, it's irritating...
And I'm beginning to cough...
This. is. not. a. good. sign...
:(
I can't afford to fall sick
Just when the weekend's coming...
Great... Just GREAT!...

A Med Affair...

The group got together during lunch *yes, the whole group! it's a rare occasion this semester, as everyone's got their different unit timetable and all* to do a group photo for the yearbook. I can't believe we're up to our final semester now, and will be called Dr's soon. It's exciting, yet all too scary at the same time.

I still remember when we first started clinicals @ the Austin. Going to the Northern Hospital, Bendigo, Shepparton, Ballarat, Euroa, back at the Mercy, then the RCH. Wow, we've practically been around Victoria, just going for classes everyday. Hahahaha... and now, the whole group is back at the Austin again :)

Well, since not all of us are gonna be at the Austin next year, here are some visual memories of the good times we had... Good times that I will treasure, for the rest of my life. The people that walked alongside me, in med school. Friends who know how good/crap my examination skills are, my presentation skills, my strengths, my weaknesses, my everything *well, not quite*



Mei tidying up her hair before the photo session. Sarah looking on, probably thinking "Man, this girl is vain!!" Btw, for those who didn't know, I was crowned "The Vainest Person In Class" 3 years ago... voted by my dear friends! Tsk tsk tsk.... I am SO NOT VAIN!



And contrary to popular belief, I do put up not-so-flattering pics of myself :)



Alison doing what she does best... Making funny faces.



One for the groupppp!



GRINNNN :) Candice looks soooo adorably cute in this pic!



Say CHESSE, y'all!



Candid :)



One with the girls...



And of course the guys!

Man, I'll miss playing table tennis and pool during lunch with you guys! I'll miss sleeping on the comfy couches while waiting for tutes. I'll miss the Mac equipped computer labs. I'll miss the laughters, the presence, everything... I'll miss you guys heaps! :D

At times like these, I don't wanna grow up... I just want things to stay this way forever. For time to stand still... But then again, that'll suck too, cause I'll forever remain a med student, with no moolah!!! ArgGhhhHhh..

Of crabs, and craps...

I met up with Jacy for dinner last Saturday. She came to pick me up from Jon's house for some quality time :P Since I haven't really caught up with her for some time, we decided to go somewhere for dinner, sit down and yak-yak-yak for hours.

She came up with this fantabulous idea to have crab noodles for dinner! It was absolutely yummm! We had snow crabs cooked in XO sauce @ Ocean King (I think that's the name *if I remembered correctly*) in Glen Waverley. The best part is, I didn't get any rash/itch/hives after eating the crabs! Hehehehe... *Yes, I'm allergic to crabs*



Yummy snow crab noodles

After dinner, we went back to her place in Armadale to grab some pics, and for her to recharge her phone. How coincidental could it be? Both our mobiles died on us at the same time! So we were both unreachable. I hate that feeling, of not having my phone with me. **or having a phone that is flat on battery** I feel... totally disconnected to the world, so out of touch.

I used to remember phone numbers on the top of my head. But now, I just rely on my mobile, search for the name, and press the 'call' button. It's badddd. Cause when my phone dies on me, I can't remember anybody's number!

Anyways, I digress...

She came back to my place to load the Gold Coast pics while waiting for Ade and TMY to finish watching United 93 @ Melbourne Central. ** So baddd! Never invite me!!! Hmph! ** Then we went out for coffee since she hasn't seen them for awhile, and kinda misses them... Hehehehe. Jon came back on time from his family dinner, so he decided to join us for coffee too :)



Jacy, Ade & TMY @ L'incontro



Jon & Mei

We went to L'incontro cause TMY didn't wanna have alcohol, and I don't know of any other place that opens late in the city. I hate going to L'incontro, cause the drinks suck, and the service is bad. And besides, we used to go there wayyy tooo often! :(

To top that night off, some drama happened as we were ordering our drinks **actually, TMY was ordering our drinks for us**. Hehehe.



TMY pretending to be shy. Hehehe.

Some dude didn't sign his name on his credit card slip properly, so the transaction was declined. The waiter then requested for his 'sales'/items back... and the guy got angry, claiming that IS his genuine signature, and refused to return the drinks. The whole situation got a little out of control, and the police had to come and sort out the issue. *shrugs* Why can't people just be more polite and civilised?! sighh... What is the world coming to? I hear lotsa terrible stories of people getting slashed in KL, people getting shot in Melbourne... Just makes me wonder, whether I'm truly safe at all... no matter where I am.

Oh. I digress again... Hahah. Sorry. I've just been a little tired recently. Mind's wandering beyong my control. Tee hee.

Anyways, that was my catching up with Jacy... and a reminder that I will not be in L'incontro for awhile... unless I get absolutely desperate...

Heartfelt...

I'm lying in bed, using his powerbook now...
He's snoring away, totally konked out after taking 2 cold & flu night tablets.
Looking more peaceful than ever...
Cute, pure and unaffected...

I looked at him,
kissed him good night,
swept the hair away from his chubby face,
flashed a smile and then told myself,

"Just because I don't love you the way she did,
it doesn't mean that I don't love you enough"

Because deep down,
I know you know,
without a doubt...
How I truly feel.

And time,
is not a measure of quantity,
nor quality,
when it comes to matters of the heart...
It's not how long I've known you
that determines how I feel about you.

ps: Sorry for lashing out at ya. I'm sure you had no idea what was going on. :( *hugz*

Max-ed out! (and girls with gear sticks)

Friday night is like the designated night for the gang to have dinner together. We always took it for granted, but now, we're making a point to, for we're all going our separate ways next year, and won't have much opportunity to see each other very often... Well, at least I'm making an effort to, and not let my other affairs consume the whole of me :) *tee hee*

But right before dinner, I already filled my little tummy with hot chocolate and waffles from Max Brenner, during our little catch-up session with Krystal and Samantha. Haven't seen them both in awhile, and obviously, all three of us had heaps to update each other. Hehehe.



Then met up with the gang for dinner straight after! Wahhh... I couldn't have dinner at all. So, I sat down with them, picked on their food a little, and only had soup for myself. The food there ain't too bad :) and the place is pretty cosy... I've never noticed it before though. It's like... on some little lane along Lt. Bourke Street...





The light installation was pretty cool... Just thought I'd snap a pic of it :) Hehehe.

After dinner, Ade dropped me home for abit to drop off the soup for Jon **Yes, he's still battling the cold. I'm starting to suspect a bacterial infection now, since he's been down with it for more than a week, and is feeling pretty darn crap now** then we went out again for drinks and dessert. Ade & I wanted to go for gelati @ Lygon, but old man TMY wanted Max Brenner's instead!

I was like "WHAT?!? I was only there 3 hours ago! But it's okay, I can have more waffles and hot chocolate! *grin*" Yes, I know I'm sad. It's like there's no other place in Melbourne for me to hang out. Just had to go to Max and stuff myself silly with waffles and chocolates. Hehehe.



Mei, Ade and the yummy waffles!



Doesn't it just look delicious? How can anyone ever resist thisssssss?? Mei was completely max-ed out on Max that night!



Clockwise from top left: The milk chocolate, dark hot chocolate, American hot chocolate with marshmallow, Equador dark chocolate with orchid flower oil, and the White hot chocolate.

Drinks was fun, we were discussing the size of heads *and yes, we were talking about the one attached to your neck. NOT the other one - if you happen to have more than one*. It was just hilarious... pointlessly hilarious! But that was not the highlight of the night.

After the girls dropped me home, I asked for a favour. Since Jon was sick and was resting in bed. I decided to be nice and help him move his car **obviously not moving it myself** to Vic Parade, so that he doesn't have to wake up early and pay for parking the next day on La Trobe Street. I went up to my apartment, grabbed his car keys, and came down again with Karen to move his car...

Kaz: "Err.. where's the switch for his lights?"
Mei: "Uurrrr... on the right I think. Somewhere there *pointed*"
**fiddles around a little**
Kaz: "Oh... found it!"

Kaz: "Err, where's the reverse gear?"
Mei: "Left most, top."
Kaz: "But we're still moving forward"
Mei: "Uurrr... maybe it's not right. Try the rest? Downwards perhaps??"
**fiddles with it for about 5 minutes, and car was still moving forward. Hhmm... Thank God we were on a slope, so when we got too close to the car parked in front of us, we'll let the car roll back a little, and start the whole figuring out ritual all over again.**

Phone rings!
Ade: "What are you guys doing? Taking so long?!"
Mei: "We can't find the reverse gear!!"
Kaz: "The reverse gear doesn't work. It doesn't reverse the car. We are still moving forward, not backwards."
Ade: "WHAT?! I'm coming over now" ** got down from her car, and hopped into Jon's car**

3 silly girls in the car now, trying to figure out how to work a gear stick! I swear I hate manual cars! Especially manual cars with buttons and switches at non-standard locations!

Mei: "Let's try again. Maybe you're meant to press the clutch or something when you change the gear?"
Ade and Kaz: **looked at me like I'm an idiot! :( ** "Dear gal, you ARE suppose to step on the clutch to change the gear. You HAVE to."
Mei: "Ohhh... really? I knew that"

**more fiddling around, and still getting nowhere**

Kaz: Maybe we should just call Jon?
Mei: No, it'll make us 3 sound like complete idiots. Can't even change gears? We'll figure this out...
Ade: Erm, I think we should just look into the manual. Is there one around?
Mei: Glove compartment maybe... *searches around for it*

FINALLY, we figured out how to put the car on reverse gear! So Kaz started driving, for like 4 metres before another funny thing happened! She indicated for a left turn... by turning the wipers on! Hahahaha..

Then she panicked and went "Oh no!! The wipers are on! Where's the indicator???"

Ade: "Turn off the wipers!"
Mei: *LOL* Hahahahahahahah...
Kaz: *LOL* "I don't know where it is! Gimme a moment to figure it out!" *lol*

And in the midst of everything, we missed the U-turn, and had to turn into Rathdowne Street instead, and then negotiate a U-ey there. Hahahaha. Then... after like 20 mins, we finally managed to safely park his car on Victoria Parade :) Hahahahaha...

Mei: "Such drama. Just to move the car from there, to here." *Straight line distance was probably 20 metres**
Ade: "I don't think you should tell Jon about the trauma his car went through just to get to the other side of the road. At least not until he feels better."
Kaz: "And don't tell him who drove his car!!"

Too late now, Kaz... he knows the story.

Adrenaline Pumping...

Kaz, Ade & I did something really exciting yet hilarious last night.
In Jon's car... To Jon's car... *winks*
Hahahahaha...
Will blog about it later when I get home.

Preview: "EerrrRr... Where is the reverse gear?!?"

Kaz, I was still laughing when I went to bed last night.

Happy Birthday Dear Sweet Ping :D

The Monday that just passed was Sweet Ping's 22nd birthday. It's amazing how time flies. The first time I met her, she was only 12! I can't imagine that it's been 10 years now. It certainly doesn't feel like it **Mei's just trying to deny that she's old**

Ken wanted to arrange a little surprise dinner for Sweet Ping, but obviously, the surprise wasn't really a surprise in the end... cause Ken's not discreet enough, and Sweet Ping is just darn smart... hehehe. Very 'with it' when it comes to things.


Jon, Mei & Birthday gal, Sweet Ping

We went for dinner @ this cosy little Italian restaurant called Vialetto, at Hardware Lane. The ambience was nice, although I'd rather have sat outside, under the heaters :D


Mei & Jon

Food was only so-so. The bread was hard as rock... but the main meal was fine :D Or maybe, I was just too darn hungry... We had to wait for an hour for Vanessa and Audrey to turn up :( Not to sound like a whinger, but when it says 7.30 pm, I don't think I enjoy waiting till 8.30 pm only to place an order for my food, AND THEN having to wait again!

At least Sweet Ping was entertaining us with funny stories from her vacation to Central Australia during the winter break. How she had nightmares, sleeping in tents, and dingo encounters. Hehehehe...


Ken, Sam on the mobile, and Vanessa


Chai Liann and AJ


Vanessa & Audrey

Well, a birthday dinner will not be complete without the birthday song, and of course, the birthday cake :D Hehehehe. And no, she's not 7 years old **only 7 candles on her cake**.



Too bad Jon and I had to leave as soon as the song finished, cause Ade and gang already bought movie tickets for us, for Miami Vice. We rushed off to Melbourne Central, to catch the movie, which wasn't even that fantastic. I personally think Gong Li looks a little old, and is in need of some lip colour.

But oh well, we had an enjoyable night despite all the waiting and the rushing and all... Dinner was quite yum, and Ken, thanks for inviting us to dinner :) We'll do bowling another time k? Sorry I couldn't join you guys for the party at STRIKE Bowl.

There's always another time... another year older.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY again, dear Sweet Ping! *biggggg huggggg*

Getting Comfortable

The excitement is slowly dying down,
Reality silently sinking in,
It's finally creeping in that things are different now,
As compared to two years ago.
I need to stop thinking just about myself, for myself.

I need to stop trying to 'figure you out',
Instead, slowly discover more of you in the process,
I need to...
Sit back, relax and enjoy the ride.

Designated Blogging Day

I reckon...
Sunday shall be my designated blogging day,
cause he'll be out playing golf,
and doing some male bonding...
and I'll have time to recollect my thoughts
reflect upon all that happened over the week.

Spend some quality time with myself.
:)

On Catching Up...

I realise that due to some reasons, I haven't met up with the guys for awhile. Been seeing only the girls for dinner recently... so I made it a point to book the guys for dinner and drinks last Friday :D

Yes, I kinda miss them already. Maybe it's the fact that I've been doing some thinking, and I couldn't help but realise that things are going to be different next year. Ming Yen and Yong Shen will not be around us anymore, although technically, they'll still be in Australia.

And Chee Yoong will be living somewhere in the North-Eastern suburbs I assume, whereas the girls (Ade, Kaz and I) will be in the Eastern suburbs. I can just imagine the group slowly drifting apart. But I guess that's inevitable when we all start working, and have less time for everyone else. And even when we have ample time and feel like a catch-up, the shift work will make things difficult for us.

Dang, I realise I got carried away with the sappy talk.... so anyway... we had dinner at Ming Yen's "most favourite-est" place in Melbourne, and then went out for a drink to catch up. Quite abit has happened over the past weeks and we all had heaps to update each other.



Yong Shen, Ade, Kaz, Mei & Chee Yoong @ Hot Chocolate, Bluefire Grill, Melbourne Central.

It's scary how everyone is making plans for themselves, during this transitional phase of our lives. Buying a new car, moving out to a new place, starting a new job, settling down for good/returning home... and suddenly, it hit me how little I thought about it all. How much I always leave things to fate. How I always travel with the wind, and let things be.

But now, I am no longer 18. No longer at that stage in my life where all I cared about was to have fun! I need to start planning for a future. It's embarassing how I never had any concrete plan for myself... I am a thinker, I think alot about my future, and envision myself to be somewhere... but I've never been a planner... an executer, to work towards those things.



Mei pushing and squashing CheeYoong to sit closer to TMY. Ade nudging TMY to move closer to Chee Yoong. Hahaha. We didn't want the photo to end up looking like 2 couples, instead of 4 friends... so we had to make them sit closer to each other. But they thought it was gay for them to be of such close proximity. Hehehehehe.

It's embarassing how I do not have any savings, any investments, any 'guarantee' for my future. No house/property, no car, NOT even a driver's license! It used to be funny how my friends would always tease me for not having a license, cause I never had the need to, how I always get driven by people around me like a princess and all. But at this stage in life, it's no longer funny. It's shameful how I've always depended on people around me. What if one day, I no longer have someone, anyone...?

It really got me thinking, that.. at the end of the day, all I have is... myself. It's true! My partner will statistically die before me *yes, women tend to live longer* and I'll have to live the last days of my life, alone... Old, wrinkled, fragile, sad and alone... How freaking scary is that thought?! Dang!!! It's not uncommon for old ladies to be found in their bathrooms, days later... after they've slipped and sustained a fall, a fractured hip, and nobody's at home to realise that. I don't ever wanna be that lady :(

Sheesh, I got carried away again! Something's up with my stupid mind today. I can't seem to control it wandering all over. Hehehehee. I'm sorry this is one tangential entry. **Hmm, maybe I have some psychiatric disorder I don't know about** But essentially, what I wanna say is, I appreciate having you people around me! Every single one of you. Do keep in touch no matter how busy we'll get... I realise things will never remain exactly the same forever. We might not do weekly dinners together, you might not shout me to dinner after you get your first pay check, but be sure to have me on your invitation list for your engagement, your wedding, your first baby shower, your child's birthday party...etc.

OH MY GOSH! I really need to end this entry now. It's starting to sound freaky, how much I think! I shall not scare my friends off! and more so, I should stop scaring myself!!! Hehehe. Maybe he's right. I read too much into too many things. Too many questions in my tiny little head, to always need things figured out. Perhaps, I just need to chill...

Pro-Mac to be???

I'm blogging using a Mac Powerbook G4 now :D
It's wayyyy cool!
The keyboard lights up when it's dark, and the screen goes dim when you're idle...
sorta on screensaver mode, but you can still see the screen and read stuff.
How cool is that???
Dang~! Tee hee... I think I'm gonna be converted to be a pro-Mac soon.
Went surfing for a MacBook Pro... *since someone mentioned it earlier*
I want one too~!!! So cooolllll~!!!
Mei wants to have cool gadgets too... :P

The Chubby Drool-ey

As *drool-ey* lies in bed...
looking more peaceful than ever,
I couldn't help but to wonder,
Could things get any better...

Where is this really taking me?
A thousand thoughts race through my head,
Should I just let things be?
Should I just leave it to fate?

Will the happiness be momentary?
Is the ecstacy all temporary?
I couldn't help but feel greedy...
Cause really, I want eternity.

If this is but a dream,
Then I hope it'll last forever,
Just like what you said to me earlier,
I love you too, more than ever.

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You were right when you said I was a thinker.

**Edit**

If you happen to read this some time, Get Well Soon! *hugz*

I do believe...

Robert Fulghum:

I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge -- myth is more potent than history -- dreams are more powerful than facts -- hope always triumphs over experience -- laughter is the cure for grief -- love is stronger than death.

BLISS

Jon & Mei // Richard & Kaz // Mei & Ade // Ash & Jon

Bliss... is when you have the people dear to you,
All by your side...

Thank you all.
I love you guys to bits!

Lost...

I am...
not the person I used to be.
I am...
exactly the person I DO NOT want myself to be.

I used to be independent, strong, a whole, complete.
Whatever happened to that?
Where did the old me disappear to?
How could it just vanish within me?

I feel... needy and clingy.
Within you, I lose myself.
I dislike myself for being this way.
I can't comprehend feeling incomplete.

I wanna be... all of me,
Not only a half of you.

ArgHhHh...

Dreamworld, Gold Coast

Here are the wayyyyy overdue Dream World pics.
I know I've been pretty lazy with updating, but alot has happened, and sometimes, I just don't know where to begin.

But anyhow, I'll still post the pics as promised.... These are in no particular order though.

Day 2 - Dream World.



We got up early, and took a stroll along the beach while waiting for the shuttle bus to come and get us :D



Love love love the soft and fine sand!

@ Dream World



Us queueing for The Claw.



Only the three of us dared to go on "The Giant Drop". It was pretty darn cool! Free falling 40 storeys, with our feet dangling freely!



Ade & I, while waiting for the mine train roller coaster ride. "I got molested by Kaz on the ride" Hahahahaha.



Waiting to get wet - wet - wet



One with all of us :)



The girls @ Wiggle's World



While queueing for the "Nickelodeon Roller Coaster" ride.



I hated this ride! They spin you around in gravity speed, so you get stuck to the walls behind you. Made me really nauseated. YUCK!



Trying to be funny...



I still can't believe that we managed to convince the whole group to go on the ride with us. We're goooodddd! ehehhehehe.



If you're prone to hurling, please do not go on the Wipe Out!



Can't remember the name of this... but it was fun! :D



Us @ Ocean Parade.



Tea break!



Mei, Mich & Ade... Michelle, I'm missing you already!



TMY & YS on the log ride.



Jacy, Mei *cannot be seen in the pic* and CY.



WETTTTTT!!!!



The gay couple? Hehehhee... Nah, just kidding!



Yes, Mei has miraculously reappeared.. :D

Ade was saying, attempting to snap pics of us
"Jacy, Mei and CY should be up next..."
Then she went...
"Oh.. it's not them. There's only 2 person on the ride. But Hey! This can't be... I see Jacy and CY. Where is Mei???"

Hehehehe... I know I know. I was hiding cause I didn't wanna get wet. But it obviously didn't work!

Well, more pics to come soon! ** I know this is a very disjointed entry** Sorry!

Oh, before I forget... DREAM WORLD IS AWESOME! It's a must-go!!!!!