Dream a little dream...

Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "i love you"
Birds singin’ in the sycamore trees
Dream a little dream of me

Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you’ll miss me
While I’m alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me

Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I’m longin’ to linger till dawn dear
Just saying, this....

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

Stars shining up above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "i love you"
Birds singin’ in the sycamore trees
Dream a little dream of me

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

Yes, dream a little dream of me

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I couldn't help but to smile to myself...
When I saw this... as I was cleaning up my drawer.

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I haven't smiled to myself in awhile.
But today, I thought of you, and I smiled.
An undefinable smile, for someone undefined?
HhMmmMm...

Seaworld, Gold Coast

It just sank in that I'm returning to the hospital for my final semester tomorrow. What a hectic semester this will be, albeit a little shorter than the ones before. I am excited, yet having the blues that I have to get back to my mundane routine of waking up early, and staying in the hospital till late. Oh what a life... or the lack of it, really.

The holidays have officially ended... :( And it's even sadder, knowing that this is my last holiday as a student. What a scary thought it is...

Anyway, here are some snippets of the exciting bits of my winter holidays :D The GOLD COAST PICS!

And since someone told me that he just looks at the pictures anyway, so I might as well let the pictures do the talking.



We left Melbourne at 6 am for it was the cheapest flight we could get. And we wanted to max out our time @ The Gold Coast, that's why. Hehehehe. Do not be fooled by my cheery look. I was surviving on 2 hours sleep the night before :(



Had lunch after dumping our luggage at the apartments. Headed straight out to Seaworld :D



The gang :D TMY is missing because he was the one snapping the pic.



The weather was sooooo good! :D Sunny and warm! We were actually over-dressed! But we didn't really have time to get changed before heading out. Everyone else was in shorts, skirts, spaghetti straps and thongs. Ok, not everyone... cause it was still a little chilly when it got breezy.



Mei and the pelicans.



Mei, Mich & Ade.



A candid one.



One with the girls... yet again.



The view from above **cable car**



The guys on the log ride :) getting wet wet wet *tee hee*



Mei & Jacy :D It was a breezy ride indeed...



The dolphin show @ Dolphin Cove...



Dolphins make me happy! I was ecstatic, like a happy, jumping little kid during the show. ** okay, scrape the jumping bit, for I did not literally jump** But yeah, it just somehow miraculously made me one happy little girl! ** I like them..... no, I love dolphins. I wish I could have one.



Went to see the polar bear :D I'm amazed they can survive out in the open like that. I was expecting to see polar bears in an ice box or something...



Sharks @ Shark Bay



The gals @ Shark Bay :)



Mei, @ the touch pool. Touching everything I can lay my hands on! *poke poke poke* I love the squishy sea cucumber, and the pokey sea urchins! tee hee... COOLLLLL! Star fishes are really hard... eWwWwW!



Dinner with Bong @ Cavill Avenue, Surfer's Paradise :)



One with half the group. We had to sit separately, cause the table wasn't big enough to accomodate everyone :(



And of course, pics of the yummy food! :D

I had fettucine with prawns, sundried tomatoes and avocado // Bong had the steak // Michelle opted for the seafood platter // and Ade had spaghetti marinara.

The rest of them all had spaghetti... so no pics there.

Okay, this is one longgg post. Damn tiring... Hehehehe... More to come. To be continued...

My sincerest...

Congratulations on passing your second paper.
I always knew you'd be able to do it...
despite what you think of yourself.
I've never been wrong when it comes to you.

You are only gonna soar higher.
You are destined to achieve big things in life.

Quicksand of life

I feel like too much has been happening lately.
*gasps for air*

It feels like I'm trapped in this quicksand of life...
The more I struggle, the faster I sink...
But even if I don't think...
I'm still getting deeper, and deeper.

Life, is way too complicated,
For someone who wears her emotions on her sleeves,
And thinks too much,
Even in her sleep...

I... just need... some answers.

Remember, remember...

Michelle told me that one of my olddddd primary school mate is here in Melbourne, and I didn't know all these while. The friend that sat in front of me for 5 years, in the same class. The friend who was there with me, waiting for our parents to come pick us up from school. The friend who always fought to be first in class. The friend who I was once close to...

Yes, Ken Nick. I realised that we've both been hopeless at keeping in touch. We've been so caught up in our own lives that we hardly thought about the good old times wayyy back in school. But it was certainly good seeing you again after what...13 years?!? OH MY GOSH! I'm old... you're old... We're old! :(


Ade, Mei & Ken Nick :D

Went for Thai dinner @ Bridge Road, Richmond, cause Michelle has been raving about how great the tomyum soup was when she had it with Wei Lay the other day. Sorry, but I can't really remember the name of the restaurant. *shy* It's like... next to Alberto Piazza, near Epworth Hospital (if you guys wanna know).


It was pretty good, but I felt that I got conned, cause maybe... I was just expecting too much from the way she described it and all... Was a tad bit disappointed, but it was still good none-the-less. I liked the tom yum soup, but the other dishes were only average.


One with Nick & Michelle.


Ade & Mei, with the yummylicious food on the table.

I reckon we over ordered a bit though. We were all too full to finish the rice on our plates.... and frankly, I personally think that Ying Thai still has more authentic Thai food.

The guys rang after dinner, and wanted to meet up for coffee, cause PC said that he hasn't seen us in awhile. But the funny thing was, when we finally decided on a place, and rang them back... he changed his mind... and decided not to join us after all... like WHAT?!?


But oh well, we still has a swell time... Look at cutesy Michelle :D Doesn't she just look adorable in this pic??? I'm so gonna miss her when she returns to KL. Her jokes and laughter have definitely brightened my holidays this time around.

We got to talking about the past, and she told me how she thought I was a snob back in school, and I reckon she was really fierce and violent. But oh well, after getting to know her better, she's a really really nice friend to have around. I feel like we can just talk about anything. The female bonding session on my bed this evening was sweet and memorable..


One with Michelle and the guys :D


And of course, the gals too :D *hugs*


And last but not least, Ken Nick & Mei.

It was certainly good meeting you again after such a longgggg time! I wouldn't have recognised you on the street, even if I bumped into you! :D But now, we can all hang out again... just like the good old times!

Remember, remember???

Relationships may be fleeting, but friendships last forever... *hugs*

ps: But I still believe in love, and that I'll find it one day. Or perhaps, love will find me, when I least expect it...

An unforgetable night for YS ( hot and steamy?)

It was Yong Shen's birthday yesterday!! He shouted us to dinner, and we decided to that it was only appropriate that we shout him back for something else. :D But anyways, I'll blog about dinner first, since Ade was in Perth, and couldn't make it back. So I'll give her a rundown of the night.... And to all my friends and readers too :D

Since YS put me responsible to decide on the venue, I wanted to be nice to save him some moolah. So we finally decided to have German Cuisine @ Hofbrauhaus, cause we had some voucher from the Entertainment Book :D **See, I'm so considerate and nice to you, YS**

The place was really nice. The website stated "warm and romantic" but the flash from my camera totally murdered the nice cozy ambience. Sigh...

The food was good too, albeit a little too meaty. It was just meat, sausages, meat, sausages, and more meat! I think potato salad was amongst one of the "vege's" we could find in the menu. But dinner was yum!
The beer was not bad too! :D We wanted to order red wine initially, but since we were in a German Restaurant, and their beer is constantly raved upon, we decided to settle for beer instead. **cheaper too! hahahaha** 2 points for Mei, for being considerate and thrifty! Whee!

We were discussing what to do for YS since he shouted us to dinner. And Ming Yen reminded me of my brilliant idea some weeks ago! :D And yes.... of course we executed it :D

Well, before I end my dinner post, and move on to the more exciting part of the night, I have got to post a pic of the birthday boy! :D After all, he was the star of the night *winks* and the joker too!!! Hahahaha. I'm laughing now, YS... thinking of last night :D I can't help it.... Hahahaha.. *rolling on the floor*

And one of the place. It actually looks wayyyy nicer without the strong camera flash huh?? Too bad most of them turned out blur... my shaky hands, and poor photo taking skills. Sorry...

Jia Lian was sooo cute! She was getting hot and tipsy only on half a glass of beer! Hehehe. She was sooooo cuteeeeee! Kept holding her face for most parts of the night :D

One with Kaz and I :D

After dinner, Kaz dropped us home cause she insisted that she didn't want to come along :( *spoilt sport* So we headed back to my place and watched Miss Universe for like 15 mins, so that YS could "warm up" Heheheh. Then Leo came to pick us up, as he was the tourguide for the night... The pro....

We cruised along King Street, choosing where to go, and then finally decided on The Men's Gallery. We got in and scouted around for abit, checking out the girls... had a couple of drinks... etc. :D

When YS seemed more comfortable, then we approached this girl and asked for a "favour" except that, it wasn't really a favour, cause obviously, we had to pay for it :D But hey!!! the best part was, I got to enjoy too! Hehehhee.

YS was so nervous it was hilarious looking at him. I reckon I was more comfortable with the girl than he was. She even climbed onto me... heheheheh ** hmm, I wonder if I've got any lesbo tendency ** And the funny encounter with the dancers in the ladies'. Hhmmm...


Well, I swore to secrecy, so I can't really blog about the highlight of the night.. but the few of us who were there, definitely know what I'm referring to! :D That, added to the "thing" he did in the car earlier on... MY GOSH! That will be the joke of the year! We'll never let it go!

And I bet, YS will never forget this birthday too...

Firstly, because of all that happened,
and secondly, cause we'll always give him shit for it! Hahahha

Hope you had a good one, Yong Shen! :D *toastttt*

HIP HIP, HOORAY!

and ps: to all you dirty minded fellas out there, NO.. we did NOT visit a brothel!

Where's my silver lining?

There's a saying that goes, "Behind every cloud, there is a silver lining".

But at this very moment, life sucks. BIG time. S.UC.K.S!
I'm trying hard, searching for that silver lining, no matter how thin...
Yet all I see, is bleak.
Nothing but darkness...

Nothing but pain...
Crushing on my chest, tearing every inch of my flesh.
Nothing, that could make this sadness go away...

I teared, I cried, I sobbed myself dry.
I'm drained of all emotions...
All but that sadness that remains real and palpable.

And no, this is NOT about *him*
This is not about anyone but me.
Me, and my inadequacy.

Thank you all, who has been tremendously supportive.
I know you people care... and I love you guys for that!

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I wrote this entry this afternoon, but never had the courage to post it.
And then Sau told me to be brave...
To stand strong, and face it head on.
I'm not sure if I can, but hell, I'm trying!

Perhaps, some things in life are just meant to be a certain way...
And I'm still connecting the dots to find out where I'm meant to be heading.

Italiano Nite Out...

We decided to head out for dinner and drinks last night... Cause Kelly just made it to the finals of her singing competition, and me being a glutton, wanted free food from Jon :D Since he just got back from KL with some local delicacies, who could resist seeing him? Tee hee...

As I am typing this, I'm munching on "sotong" - yes, the "sotong bakar" type that you can get from "pasar malam" and also crunchy spicy anchovies. Yummmm! I haven't had those things for agesss!!

Dinner was at La Spaghettata on Lygon Street. Jon seems to think that's my favourite hangout for some weird reason! I reckon it's Kelly's favourite hangout! Hehehhe. The food was not as good as usual, but for once, we had a group of musicians serenading us while we were having dinner. Hhmmm... Wonder what the occasion was.

Would have been quite romantic if I were to be out on a date or something. Hahahaha.. Speaking of a date, it's been too long since I last went on one. I can hardly remember what it feels like to go on a date.

Somehow, everyone was in the mood for pasta, except for me. I did want to order pasta at onepoint, but since I have been munching on junk food before dinner, I thought I'd just settle for something light. But it turned out the Caesar salad that I ordered was H.U.G.E! Like reallyyyyy bigggg!

The food looks totally yum huh? Well, they tasted alright, but they've been better. Somehow, they weren't fantabulous last night.

Jon the alcoholic, decided to order a bottle of white, since everyone was kinda having seafood :D The wine was quite good really. It was very smooth, and went down easily. The bad thing is, I turn red everytime I drink...no matter the amount! :( I'm such a lousy drinker! *sigh*

Jonathan reckons he looks dopey in the pic. Hahahaha. I'm not so sure about him, but I surely look like a lobster! *shy*

Gorgeous Kelly made it to the finals of her singing competition! We shall all go watch! I heard that dinner's gonna be served too, sounds good huh? It should be fun :D I'll be cheering and rooting for her!

Oh, we wanted to have gelati, but both Il Dolce Freddo, and Casa Del Gelato were closed, so we settled for Koko Black instead. No pics though. I got a little sick of snapping photos of Koko Black drinks. Kelly ordered a cocktail, but Jon was a little shy to order anything alcoholic, for he insisted that he wanted to be a responsible driver. Dang! I could have driven him home, if only he allowed! (and no, I don't mean in it a dirty, perserve way! You people... tsk tsk tsk ) *shakes head*

Oh well, all-in-all, it was a good night out, with great company! :D Thanks guys!

I've just been rendered speechless...

I had a late night yesterday, resulting in waking up late, and missing my appointment with friends today. *I really do feel bad. I'm sorry guys!*

I went online to check my mails with my eyes half opened, only to be shocked by a friend who sent me this video. The same video is available on YouTube as well. AND the prequel to how it happened too.

Below is a snippet taken from limkitsiang.com, who also blogged about the incident.

Students Progressive Front (SPF) member Wong Chai Yi has claimed she was shoved so hard by members of the university student council, that she fell.

This is an account in the Malaysiakini report yesterday:

She said the incident occurred on Monday when five members of her group set up a ‘help counter’ at 6.30pm at a hostel to provide information on their activities to new undergraduates and offer advice to those with problems.

Wong told malaysiakini that about 40 students – led by the council president – surrounded her group members and scolded them harshly for setting up the counter when the SPF is not a registered group.

“He told us to leave within 10 minutes, saying he did not want any trouble, but we refused to go. They surrounded us and removed our brochures, tables and chairs, and our belongings, to force us to leave,” she said.

“While doing so, they shouted at us and pushed us out of the way. A security guard witnessed this – instead of stopping them, he joined them in pushing us.”

This had been the second such incident in the campus involving SPF at UPM.

I do not know what to make of this. I do not know what else to say. I do not know how to react to this. I couldn't help but feel a sense of fear in me, as I watched the video. What if it was me?!? It COULD be me. Totally outnumbered, totally helpless...

I am glad that I'm fortunate enough not to be in that situation, but it got me thinking, "Where do I truly belong?? If people in my own country do not feel that I belong there".

And then, I felt sadness, taking over my fear...

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This post is not meant to offend anyone, nor imply anything. I DO have friends of other race who are 100% true and sincere.

But I must also say that racism exists everywhere... and I mean everywhere. Some just conceal it better, while some display that thought and act right out in the open.

ps: Being out of the country has made me 'slow' and outdated with keeping abreast with the most current issues. Lim Kit Siang blogged about it on the 20th. I think that entry is definitely worth a read.

I've always wondered...

How it feels to be a guy when...
You get dumped.

1. Help!!! - An overwhelming sense of disbelief and a suspicion you're going to vomit.
2. King of Wishful Thinking - Damage control time. You remind her of all the amazing times you shared, like when you got drunk and played with sock puppets, and the night in Phuket when you went skinny-dipping and then made love three times on the beach. Is she willing to throw all that away?? She says "Yes".
3. I'd do anything for love - You panic and desperately make unrealistic promises about self-improvement and suggest a week away together ' is just what we need'. She says "NO".
4. Higher Ground - Panic gives way to a Zen state of acceptance. Her happiness becomes paramount, and you vow never to stand in the way of that. You almost believe it too.
   
5. Don't look back in anger - Sadly, stage 4 doesn't last for long. The volume of your ranting increases to a level doctors refer to as 'psychotic'. **Note: Stay away from sharp objects**
6. Boys Don't Cry - You put on the mix CD that you made together and pour yourself a gin. By track 2, you're crying like a girl into the scarf she left on the couch. **Note: Stay away from sharp objects AND photo albums**
7. Here Comes the Sun - You're making significant progress. You've started sleeping on both sides of the bed and stopped texting her whenever you get drunk. Everything is going to be okay. It's not the end of the world, just the end of the chapter, and the next one is just going to be as amazing, maybe even more so. And if you ever get dumped again, you'll be ready for it.
   

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Personally, I don't really believe that guys do that. But then again, I could be wrong. What do you people think??? Guys out there, have you anything to share?

None-the-less, that made an interesting read. Tee hee hee..

I'm B-A-C-K!!!

I'm back from the sunny and warm Gold Coast! :( BoohOoohOOoOoo...
Kinda sad being back in cold and gloomy Melbourne... *sighhhh*
It was merely 3 degrees when we touched down, and I had no jacket on....
I was so cold, that I. was. completely. numb. BbbrRrRr...


Gold Coast was such a blast!!! :D
Here's a preview with some pics! Will blog about it when I get all the pics from the rest of them :D And not forgetting the videos too! Tee hee hee!

Us @ Seaworld

Dreamworld was the best of all!!! **to me at least** I went on all the rides! I'm so proud of myself! :D Whee!!! Will blog more about them when I get the pics yeah? Need evidence, in case you people don't believe me! Tee hee!

Superman Escape @ Movieworld! The newest attraction! Totally awesome! So good that we had to go on the ride again :D 0-100km/hour in 2 seconds! Woohoo!!!

Us @ Movieworld!

Sorry, I had to substitute the group pic with the Superman Escape pics, for the group pic is in Michelle's camera, and I don't have them with me as yet...

We stayed @ the Esplanade along Surfer's Paradise.... It was paradise indeed! I loved loved loved the beach!!!

I soooo wanna stay longer to escape the cruel winter in Melbourne... But the good thing is, I can get some decent chinese food :D Tee hee hee... I am soooo gonna puke at the sight of chips! NO MORE CHIPS for Mei for a month!

A reason, a season, or a lifetime?

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When
you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a
need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a
difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you
physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend
and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an
end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they
act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire
fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been
answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has
come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace
or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it's
real - but only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must
build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is
to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to
use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said
that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

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How could I not love you, when you're in my life for a reason, more than a season, and definitely... for a lifetime...

You know me inside out, more than anyone else in this entire world...
Even more than I know myself...

I've met my competition!

Been spending a bit of time with Michelle and WeiLay who were here visiting... Went sight-seeing with them a little, but mostly, we've been shopping and shopping and shopping!

If you guys think I'm a shopaholic, wait till you meet them! I've met my competition.. In fact, I'm no competition for them! They beat me flatttt!!!! It's kinda scary looking at the way they shop! It's as if things are free, and money grows on trees! My goshh! **faints**

But none-the-less, they're heaps of fun to hang out with!

We don't even need to have dinner :D We were just running on adrenaline, and caffeine the other day... tee hee hee...

Wei Lay just left today :( I kinda miss her already, and her stupid jokes :D Hehehehe. Finally, you got to lock your bag huh?? :D I bet one of you had to sit on your bag, to be able to zip it up!

Sorry that I didn't get to send you off. It's been great knowing you, and spending time with you! I've heard so much about you from Ade... and it's such a small world, that we are connected in more ways than one :D Hehehehe...

Shall meet up again when I get back to KL *winks*

Michelle will be heading to Gold Coast with us tomorrow! :D WHEE!!!!

It's kinda funny really... I haven't seen her for ages! But it was certainly pleasant meeting her again! We can just talk comfortably... and pick up from where we left off. She's witty, and funny! And very straight to the point! She doesn't lie about what she likes/dislikes, and is certainly not fake.

Thanks guys, for making my winter more colourful! :D

And speaking of a colourful winter, I've been shopping heaps! Sales are sooooo irresistable everywhere! Discounts, discounts, discounts!!!! Bargains, bargains, bargains! and Mei is officially broke broke broke :( Sighhhhh...

I'm currently addicted to bright colours... ** as you can see from my newest purchases**


My current favourite top :D

Just an excuse to post vain pics... Kakakakaka... I'm soooo in lurve with my new Kookai top :D Please just look at the top, and ignore my chubby face :(

I have no idea how I'm gonna wear a swimsuit when I'm @ Gold Coast... I'm so fat now :( sob sob!!!