Have YOU got something to hide?

Yesterday was the last day of our revisions. After class, we went back to uni for lunch, and then headed to the FEU rooms @ Med Fac to discuss some possible OSCE questions.

I got bored after awhile, and started mucking around. :)

Mei and Leny

The guys looking as if they just went to the prostitutes, and then got caught by the police!
*media snap snap snap*

"Encik, kenapa cari ayam?" (directly translated to: Mr, why look for chicken?) (chicken = prostitutes/sex workers)
"Sorry sorry, no comment!"

Hahahahahahah. Right! Obviously, the whole scenario was only in my head...

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I looked horrible in the pic. :(

Pardon the small eyes and the eye bags. I only managed to slip in 2 hours of sleep before class yesterday morning. The practice session went on till about 5 pm. I came home and slept after dinner, ALL THE WAY until 12am!!! OH MY GOSH! I so could not believe myself!

Dad called, and apparently, I spoke to him, but I obviously don't recall anything about it now. And Sam called *thank GOD you did!* to let me know he sent me something in my e-mail. I then asked him,
"What time is it anyway?"
"Erm, 12am"
"WHAT?!?" I literally jumped out of bed! and went to do some studying...
Till now. *obviously I took some breaks in between. DUH*
and here I am, 8 hours later... blogging this.

My form of de-stressing...

Gratitude...

I was browsing blogs, and I couldn't help but feel a little envious of my friends who are in the entertainment field. The job is great, working hours are flexible. Their colleagues are hip and happening. Basically, they're cool! It sounds almost impossible, almost too good to be true. And the best bits are, you're an icon, and you get the perks of being a little 'celebrity'.

I so wanna be like them!

There were also times that I sat down with some friends, and they started talking about the stock market, their investments, and aims of being financially independent... etc. The corporate yuppies basically! You get the drift.Dang! The gorgeous suits they put on, the killer awesome high heel shoes, the designer handbags... And of course, the best bit is having the ability to have the 5C's - cash, career, credit cards, cars, condos... all by the age of 30! **gasps**

I SO dream of being like them too!

Then I snap myself back into reality...

And here I am, with nothing to call my own. Still a student at the age of **i shall not reveal** No degree, non-existent love life, no financial stability... no what-so-ever. Sigh, what a sad pathetic life. And the situation is made worse, when it seems that I'm the only one on home arrest, cramming my ass off for the upcoming exams.

I asked myself.
"Why do you wanna become a doctor?"

The answer was there all along,
tucked away somewhere.
But suddenly, it became apparent.
"Because I can."

I'm grateful that I have the ability to, and am fortunate enough to be given the opportunity to. I have never been sure that this is what I want to do... but suddenly something dawned upon me after all these years. It's not about the money, it's not about the reputation, it's not about the prestige.

It's about me...

It's about the satisfaction I get...
It's about that kind, thankful smile that I receive...
It's about that hand that holds mine,
Old and wrinkled, yet so gentle and warm...
It's about the million-and-one ways that they say "thank you"
without actually having to say it.

Because their actions,
have already spoken louder than words.

And then I realise, that the hard work that I'm putting in now,
no matter how bad the situation seems at the moment,
is all worth it...

"I can, and I want to" - and not everyone can say the same.
THAT, is why...

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Inspired by Sue Walker, my ultimate role model :) Seeing her at the hospital today, reminded me of how much I want to be like her! Only better...

The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible.
Arthur C. Clarke

This is atrocious!

Taken from The Star Online.

Fed up. *click*

"I have fed up and negatif thinking in this moment. What should I do in this moment.

I had just tendered my resignation and due to I still in probation period so I just give two weeks notice. But since my colleague knew I was resign they seem like totally chance their attitude toward me. What can I do right now?

My Exe.already take over my job totally (in fact she dind't pass thee job for me since I join this company two months ago.)so I even have free time to write the blog on The Star. I surfing net every day when I came to work is not point but I hope I can pas it faster and join a new company.All colleague are very busy except me. My boss knew I am very free to surf net but he dind't say anything.

Pls tell me what can I do for the free 8 hour in office for the next 5 days.

I am a graduate fro ma local university even what I study was not match to what the field I join now but I keen to work why all the people not given me a chance i just do the simple filing work for the past 8 month. This is the third job. The second and third job is in a 8 months period but I already tender due to the work fuction was what I expected and what atated when I interview.

You may say that is my problem but all the way I try to solve. even I am a graduate but I don't mind work for OT if employer paid it and work under pressure. I join factory line I knew it is a fast pace environment but when I join new company for almost two month I still assign for a simple job like filing.

This is not my expected life."

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This may make me sound like a bitch, but I'm sorry to say that I did not pity him after reading his post. If I were to be the employer, I wouldn't have hired him in the first place, with that command in English. Not to diss anybody, but come on, he's a graduate from uni, not prep school.

And switching 3 jobs in the span of eight months? That will mean he did not pass the 3 months probation period in any of the firms he joined. *assuming that he spent an equal amount of time in each firm*. Having a degree does not guarantee you a job, and it certainly does NOT guarantee you getting a "high level, high profiled important job". Everyone has to start from somewhere, and for most people, it's the bottom.

It takes patience and determination if you want to climb the ladder. I am not surprised that you were not assigned to more "important" jobs besides filing, because the impression I got after reading the letter **I took several attempts, due to the difficulty in understanding him** was that you don't show initiative or enthusiasm in wanting to improve. Surfing the net everyday, and waiting for time to pass is certainly a good way to get noticed, and chosen for jobs huh??

I am totally appalled, both by your attitude, and your grammar (and spelling too). I couldn't help but think "How in the world did you graduate anyway?"

Surely, this is not your "expected life". You need to stop being in denial, and wake up and smell the coffee. Not everyday is sunshine, and work life certainly isn't. You definitely need to buck up, or you're OUT man.

** Sorry, it was meant to address "him" as a third person, but I got carried away and starting using "you", as if I was addressing this to him..But on second thoughts, hhmmm... maybe I should **

You Know the Party's Over For You...

THEN:

Clubbing @ Lavish with Paik Yee, Fun & Su Zen

Post clubbing Supper @ Stalactites // Fun, Su Zen & Paik Yee

Yong Shen, Shane, Mei

NOW:

Clubbing @ Poppy & Passion // Fun, Paik Yee, Paw Kee, Su Zen

Yummy seafood steamboat dinner // Shanice, Fun, Su Zen & Paw Kee

Can you guys spot the difference?? I'M NOT THERE!!! Wah laoo!!! Damn jealous! Go clubbing without me, go steamboat without me, eat at the wantanmee shop without me. *tsk tsk tsk* You guys are too much mannn!

Shanice and Su Zen, make sure you guys go on diet now so that you can bring me go eat all the cheap and good food back home at the end of the year! I know of some effective dieting ways. You can still eat as much as you want and stay slim :)

• climb up the (n) *insert appropriate number* flight of stairs instead of using the lift in the office.
• Do not use your AT to sit in the office and chat on MSN, or do your online courses. Instead, run around the office and disturb your colleagues. *winks* good exercise, yo?
• Do not drive to work. Wake up a couple of hours earlier, and take a morning walk, or jog if you wish, to work. Inhale the fresh morning air... :) Shanice's definition of healthy lifestyle? *tee hee hee* and Su Zen, your reversing skills suck anyway. Why not just do the rest of the people a favour and walk to work? Kekekeke.
  
• If all the above fails, go buy 3 metres of cloth, and wrap it around yourself as tightly as possible. Preferably around the tummy... Guaranteed to make you look slim :)
  

Hope to see great results when I get back :) I'll even shout you guys dinner. Chicken wings, anyone???

As you can tell, the stress has made me go bonkers. I can't believe I wrote those lame stuff.
(-_-'')
Sigh, I'm so out of the party scene these couple of weeks! Mugging at home, being a nerd... not really my definition of having a good time. *sobs*

p/s: Shanice, you're so not fat! So what if you gained weight after Miss Malaysia World? **and btw, CONGRATS on making it to the finals! Although it's old news** No big deal (the gaining weight, I mean)... we all do. I think I'm chubby now :( And the snacking when I'm studying ain't helping...

Searching for myself, yet again?

Despite all that's going on in my life now,
I hate to admit that I still miss you...
I do, and it kills.

I don't even have enough time and energy to finish cramming for exams,
yet my tiny little brains have got the time and space for you?
(O.o)
*brain oh brain, please get your priorities right*

Just what is it about YOU, that made me the way I am now?

I am...
STILL searching for my lost self.

All Dressed Up

Post Ballarat Health Services' Interview ;)
Yes, I had on my blazer *tee hee hee*

Kaz & Mei @ dinner

Ade & Mei

We decided to go try DragonBoat's Chilli Beef Noodle :)
Serving was extremely generous, and it was just awesome having hot soup noodle on a cold winter night...

YUMMMM... \(^o^)/

Oh, I just installed the CD to sync my phone with my PC. After much fiddling about, I finally figured how to transfer the pics into the comp. And amazingly, I can even edit the photos :) Adjust the brightness, contrast, crop etc. Quite amazing! Don't even need Photoshop anymore!

I'm fascinated! Shall play around with it and discover more after exams. So, there will be more picture posts to come. This one's especially for you, Ade *winks*

All that glitters...

If you hang around the beauty blogs regularly, you probably already know about High Gloss, the fab new lip gloss from Estee Lauder - it's been featured on Blogdorf Goodman, Product Girl, and eBeautyDaily.

And now you're going to hear about it here, too. Because it really is that good!

The lip gloss market is a fun one to watch. It seems like there's a new launch almost every week, with companies trying to top each other for the best shine, the best texture, the best staying power, the best scent, the best flavor. Treatment ingredients, light-reflecting particles, plumpers, aromatherapy, more, more more!

But all the hoopla falls by the wayside when the product gets on your lips. Does it look good? Well, then that's all that counts. And High Gloss really delivers.

High Gloss has been spreading like wildfire! It is incredibly shiny, is packed with itty-bitty particles of subtle shimmer, feels great on the lips, and smells divine. The squeeze-tube applicator with slant tip makes application nearly impossible to screw up, and the colors are sheer enough to wear over lipstick but pigmented enough to make an impression on their own.

All 14 colors in the line are gorgeous! This is yet another impressive new product from Lauder, which has brought us some of the most talked-about launches in recent months - notably, the Tom Ford Youth Dew Amber Nude and Azuree collections.

Available at esteelauder.com and gloss.com.

Review from Beauty Addict

** After reading the review, I couldn't help but go "Sheesssshhh! I wanttttt!" Blargh. I'm such an easy target! *slaps self* **

Long Overdue Laurent Pics

As Ade was saying, my recent posts have been quite devoid of photos. Well, the reason is quite apparent, I haven't been going out much, and I haven't found time to figure out how to transfer pics from my phone to the PC.

Yes, I'm computer illiterate. I'm technology un-savvy. So sue me!

Blah, I've been so sick of studying.. actually, I meant sick of attempting to study. I just can't seem to concentrate.. and when I finally get my ADHD self to sit down and study, I can't blardee retain the information! *faints*

Oh well, I finally managed to upload the pics :) So here are the pretty Laurent pastries that I had the other day!

The cakes are to die for! :) *uncontrolled salivation* But the price... can die! *drops dead*

My chicken and leek pie *Shiew, I know you're making puking sounds now* I just don't understand why you people don't like leek (or celery, or parsley, or coriander, or mint leaves etc. hehehe)

Sam and I decided to share a strawberry eclair. It was soooo yummm that the lady at the table next to us couldn't resist from getting herself one as well! It was absolutely heavenly!!! :)

Posting the pics now just makes me wanna go have eclairs!!

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And oh, I hope the new look ain't too plain. I was just getting a little sick of the pink. So yeaps, something simple for now :)

Yue and Fun think it's wayyyy easier to read, but Ade finds the white a little too blinding. Hehehe. What do you guys reckon?

An Inspirational Trip To 'Holland'?

I can't believe I'm actually posting something I read on TopClass (the Medical Faculty's e-learning website). But do read on...
This article is truly inspirational, and right to the point.

Welcome to Holland
By Emily Pearl Kingsley.

I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability –
to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand
it, to imagine how it would feel. It’s like this…

When you are going to have a baby, it’s like you are planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Colosseum, the statue of Michelangelo’s David, the gondolas of Venice… You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.

After all the months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says “Welcome to Holland.” “Holland!?” you say. “What do you mean Holland? I signed up for Italy. I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”

But there has been a change in flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay.

The important thing is they haven’t taken you to some horrible, filthy place full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place. So you must go out and buy new guide books. An you must learn a new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met otherwise.

It’s just a different place. It’s slower paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and catch your breath, you look around and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills; Holland has tulips; Holland even has Rembrandts.

But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy; and they are all bragging about the wonderful time they had there. And the rest of your life you will say “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go; that’s what I had planned.” Thepain of that loss will never go away because the loss of that dream is a very significant loss.

But if you spend your life mourning for the fact that you didn’t get to Italy you may never be free to enjoy the very special, very lovely things about Holland.

I'm a proud momma!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!
Yeah, I know, I sound DAMN excited huh??
That's because I ammmmm!!!

The CPA results were released yesterday,
and two people who are dearest, dearest to me,
passed with flying colours~!
They aced it!! YES!

I'm so proud!! So so so happy for you guys!
Well, I guess the studying paid off? ;)

Fun, happy lah now? Can go party and celebrate,
Sen, one more paper for CA, and then you can relax too!!
Well, getting back to work isn't really my concept of relax, but you get my point ;)
As for me, soldier on! It's gonna be over before I know it *yeah rite!*

A TOAST TO YOU GUYS! *drinks virtual shot*

OK now, back to the books for me! tataaaaa...

The "Med" Food Chain

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Conversation with a friend this evening:

He: "Gosh, I can't wait for my residency year! When you become an intern, you'll know what it feels like to be at the bottom of the food chain"

Me: "But I thought medical students are the ones at the bottom of the chain"

He: "WHAT?? You guys are not even in the chain man! Cannot make it"

Me: (-_-'') *speechless*

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The PMCV website is closing today. I can't help but to feel anxious! *sweats profusely*
I logged in 3 times today to check if I have listed all my details and Priority listing. Yes, obsessive compulsive, I know...
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Bleak Moments.

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Sometimes,
I can't help but think...
Should I give this all up,
and go home??
Home to my family,
Home to a chance, with you...

Should I???

Intoxication... Cannot tahan dy

A conversation over MSN:

Kaz : I am interested in applying to have dinner with people. I look forward to a positive response soon. Thanks.

Ade: Your application is under consideration. What have you got to offer?

Kaz: I believe that I am a pleasant person with good communication skills and I specialise in spicy chicken on rice

Mei: **confused** (O.o)

Ade: Does that mean that you are interested in the dessert house institute?

Kaz: Yes, I am pursuing my culinary interests in the dessert house institute. I believe that it is renowed for it's price and quantity as well as excellent noise level and close proximity to other patrons.

TMY: Yes, I am very much looking forward to getting a meal at the Dessert House Institute.

Kaz: I thought you just had spicy chicken on rice yesterday??

TMY: They do not just offer that on the menu.

Ade: Applicant TMY is making too much complaints.

Mei: Rightttt..... Hahahahaha. Mei would be more than proud to be given an opportunity to be a part of this respected institution.

Ade: So is the application approved??

Mei: *nods*

Ade: Application rejected for applicant TMY!

Ade: Kaz, You may commence your job at the respected instituition at 645-700 pm of the 19th of June.

Mei: May I please get assistance with transportation?

Ade: Transport will be arranged at 6.30 pm.

Mei: Thank you very much for your positive response. I look forward to meeting you at the interview prior to commencing the job.

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This is what stress does to us! (O.o)
Too many applications!!! *faints from intoxication*
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Smashingly Divine ;)

.I so so so want this dress! (And the guy too!) Hehehehe...
Since I cannot go out shopping now, I've resorted to online shopping ;)
Isn't this smashingly gorgeous?? It's a couture... *winkers*

Browsing the Divine Couture website just makes me wanna throw my books,
run away and elope with someone! Hahahaa. I just wanna get married!!!
Too bad I don't have a guy who's willing to marry me. (O.o)

Sighhh...
Looks like it's back to the books, for now...
:(

I am so nocturnally screwedddd

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I am so literally screweddd.. :(
I have officially turned nocturnal. My bio clock has completely turned 360 degrees.
I am awake all through the night, and I go to bed when the sun is up! *slaps forehead*
Darn it! I better force myself to go to bed now, as I've got to reset my clock!
I've got an early start on Tuesday, and an interview scheduled on Wednesday. I better not oversleep, or I'm dead meat!!

And I was planning to go to the hospital today, for ED. Now, I've got to reconsider that.
Think again, and think hard... *blah*

Gotta go sleep.
Nitey nite all.. *waves*
or should I say, Good morning??

It's Freaky...

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I haven't spoken to you in awhile,
I've been so busy with too many things in my life...
The endless job applications, careers nights and interviews,
Having to revise for the upcoming exams,
Start writing my elective essay,
Work for extra moolah,
And one-million-and-one other things...

There should be too many things in my head,
To even think of you,
Or be reminded of you...
I have a small brain, there's just not enough space!

But freakily enough,
I dreamt of you the past few nights.
Dreams that I remember vividly,
even after I've woken up.

After all these years, I still dream of you???
What in the world is wrong?

It's like...
My 'mind' has got a mind of its own
*I'm not making sense, I know*
Is IT not letting me let go???

Perhaps,
the answer is my dreams tonight. (O_o)
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My Sweet Surrender

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As you all can tell, I've been darn stressed out lately... Haven't been out much, besides watching "The Omen" yesterday :P
Yes, we caught it on 06/06/06! *gasps*

Besides that, I've only been hibernating at home, my fat arse on the chair, typing away in front of my computer!

Little things I do to help myself destress and keep sane :

• Gelati! Heaps and heaps of them. Yes, I've been officially promoted to become a VIP, as he recognises me now. Hahahaha. But sadly, I'm still not getting any special discounts! Darnit!

• Pretty pastries at Laurent :) **Yes, Sam was kind enough to treat me to lunch the other day** Will upload the pics when I figure out how to transfer them out from my new mobile. Hehehehe... But it was really yum! Especially the strawberry eclair!

• More cakes and pastries from Brunetti's \(^o^)/ And here are the pics from the recent Brunetti de-stressing session! Hehehe.

The cheesecake looked realllyyyy yum! But it tasted kinda... blah. Cause being vain and all, I opted for the low-fat cheese cake!!! WRONG CHOICE!!!

It was alrite, but it just wasn't as creamy and rich as the real thing!! Never settle for less! Say no to low fat cheese, skinny milk, polyunsaturated margarine! Hahahaha...

Live to eat, and die eating! ** this should be my new motto in life** Hahahahah.




As you all can tell, I eat to destress and calm myself down. Bad bad bad! It's making me fat!

Well, applications are kinda bugging me down, but I'm still surviving.. or at least, struggling to :) Hehehehe. I'm just keeping my fingers and toes crossed, and hope it all goes well. We have to come to this crossroad sometime in life. And we just have to learn to deal with things we can't change.

Tough times never last, but tough people do!

Enough of procrastinating for today! I should resort to doing something productive now.
Okay.. bye!

EDIT: I'm going for my first interview tomorrow! Wish me luck!!!
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Tonight...

It is cold tonight, as it is every other night...

I am sitting at my desk, looking out through the condensed glass window, at the beautiful night lights. Winter is here, it finally is. I could tell by the signs that my windows are always fogged up, reminding me of the subzero temperature outside.

I remember staying up late every night, attempting to study with my sister, having a hot cuppa in between sessions, cracking lame jokes, and ending up going to bed in the wee hours in the morning. Sometimes, we even catch the sunrise together. The sight, beathtaking. The sisterly bonding, priceless!

Some things have changed, but some things remain, forever.

I am still sitting here, looking out through the same window, at the same beautiful scenery... still stressing out about exams. But some things have changed. She's no longer here by my side. She's no longer here to laugh at my below the belt jokes, no longer here to play tic-tac-toe on the foggy window. No longer here to share my ups and downs. But, what remains is...

She's still dear to me. She's still my one and only... Fun, come back and take back your half of the bed! :) I miss you...

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Mei is emo-ing in the middle of the night. She's gone crazy from writing too many cover letters and filling up countless application forms! ArghHhHh... still need to study! :( Blahhh! I so so so need 48 hours in a day! **and still have 7 days a week**

Things I Wouldn't Mind Having at the Moment

I've been craving for lots of things recently... *maybe I'm pregnant... NOT* Hehehehe...

Sigh, how I wish I could find the time to get out and relax, and enjoy these scrumptious food! \(^o^)/

and last but not least...

Lunch and coffee @ Laurent tomorrow, after meeting with my elective supervisor! :D Yummm! I can't waitttt!!!

The stress is driving me bonkers!

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Blah, ED night shift tomorrow. I'm still contemplating whether I should go, considering I'm not 100% healthy just yet, and I've got a longggg day on Saturday!