Hi people, I've got bored of my lj!
So, I spent my whole afternoon editing the template, nice?

Zoom-ed off to LJ!

meellanie.livejournal.com

x esther says (10:16 PM):
OMG
x esther says (10:17 PM):
I CANT BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING
melanie says (10:17 PM):
what
x esther says (10:17 PM):
1st u said u were gna come
and we were like
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
and then we were like ok go to sydney/melb
and we were like
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
melanie says (10:17 PM):
then
x esther says (10:17 PM):
and now we got ticks to sdy
syd
and im like
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
and when i see you, i'd be
x esther says (10:18 PM):
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
melanie says (10:18 PM):
haaha
ok this is happening alright
x esther says (10:18 PM):
sorry just very excited right now
: D
you betcha!!
melanie says (10:18 PM):
haha
x esther says (10:18 PM):
are u excited to fly alone???
:B
melanie says (10:18 PM):
yea like duh
i just pray hope and anything that i dont sit beside anyone annoying
melanie says (10:19 PM):
or anyone that pisses me off
maybe a handsome guy will do
ahah!
x esther says (10:19 PM):
HAHHAHA
or maybe some fattttt
melanie says (10:19 PM):
ahh
no
x esther says (10:19 PM):
person sits next to u
and all his fats
melanie says (10:20 PM):
omg i'mm be likke
x esther says (10:20 PM):
spills unto your armrest!!
OHH YEAH SQUISHYY I LIKE
melanie says (10:20 PM):
slp slp just slp everything wld be over
haha!
x esther says (10:20 PM):
HAHAHHAHAHA
HAHAHAHHA
dont lie
melanie says (10:20 PM):
hehe
x esther says (10:20 PM):
u know u'd be OHH YEAH SQUISHY
HAHHAHAHA
melanie says (10:20 PM):
ah ya ya
x esther says (10:20 PM):
: B
melanie says (10:20 PM):
pls just pls no kiasu mother too!
no kids vomiting beside me too
x esther says (10:21 PM):
HAHAHA
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
LOL

The thought about being in Australia!! AH! SO exciting!

Hey people, I am back with more friends!

Haha, SEE they tagged my blog.
March, Farhana and my Esther. Well, that's all.

Today I was suppose to meet Zan, Shu Shu and Karmun at 330, but it was raining Heavily!
So, I've decided to take a short nap, the SHORT nap turns out to be just a short 2 hours. How nice. I woke up feeling more tired, maybe too much sleep isn't a Good thing. Shu wen says that I slept for 20 hours, so doing a bit of math I only spend 4 hours awake. Now, I already feel so tired.

Sometimes I feel Ugly.
It's like girls around me are really hot and pretty. And I am not, I don't see myself as one. I think my self esteem has gone down, my confidence is lost and my happiness is no where near me.

I always want a way out and not try to find the solution, and I realise I rather push the blame on someone then myself. I hate me, I is a very disgusting person.

Just today, I realised that I could count how many friends I have, less then 5! I felt really pathetic.

Will you be my friend?

Next time if you see me around, say HI to the lack-of-friends girl.

I QUIT!

yes yes yes.

Working at the comex show for one day, with a boss that has an attitude problem, to quit is the only way out.

MOS, the most disgusting place ever, but I had a great time with Gaya.b! Let's go again, I promise I'll walk straight. hehe.

I'm looking forward to my trip to Australia! YEAH! I know I've been mentioning it many times on my blog. Just too excited!

It's 3pm and I am not feeling hungry at all.
Going to meet zan soon!

=B

I think I want to shift to livejournal soon.

Holidays have been fine, I went gym-ing yesterday and today I had a good swim, both with Gaya P.

Guess what I saw at the pool! Handsome Hot Guy, HAHA! He look kinda old though.
It's probably the last time I'll see him.


Recently I've been giving much thought about my relationship, now that it has been on a rest mode, I still feel that being tied down is not fun at all.
I hate the feeling of commitment.
I hate the pressure, the memories and the guilt.
I hate facing things alone.
I hate everything we shared.
Goodbye.