Thursday, October 22, 2009
it's been a month since i started work. all i have to say is that the going is tough.
but thank god that as the going gets tough,i have daddy god to fall back on for support.
and he has certainly blessed me with many friends who some may not be christian but they totally respect me. :) ytd was good,i was happy last night.
went to PS to have dinner with candy.finally meet her after so long.it's tough to meet up now since we are both working. but i esp enjoyed ytd because i met many friends.
i went the girls from poly. yz,hy and wy.went to collect online stuffs. brought back many fond memories of us rushing assignments,going to print,getting ready for presentations....eating at foodcourt in school. we have all grown in some ways ever since we graduated.
and one day i really wanna sit down and have a good meal with them.just to busk in their presence.
then i met candy,u could say she's like one of my closest friends. she changed quite a fair bit.seems more cheerful.praise the lord. and she's determined on mastering the skills of camwhoring...hahah! kidding! but we are both really wet behind the ears when it comes to camwhore. we would spent many mins just trying to position our HP cam....to one point, this guy came forth and asked if he could help us take a photo. and we said YES only to feel extremely pai seh afterwards. but i felt he's such a nice guy to offer his helping hand. :)
met the cg at the same place too. singapore is really small.
yeah.those are awesome people too.precious ones. :)
anyway,today i got corrected BIG TIME. have to admit that i wasn't that efficient this week.no idea why. but i was mind blank when it came to layout this book. and when i finally did do the layout text. i was corrected. and at the end of day, got corrected again. could tell my boss was really pissed even though she doesn't SCREAM out loud. for me,i am really used to using a wacom as my mouse. but i think she doesn't like the idea of it. cause i think she got a little frustrated when she couldn't find any place to put her book to sketch out the layout, cause my tablet was taking up the whole space. but to my defence, my table is SERIOUSLY SMALL. my tablet is practically the entire empty space. so if i was given the regular table that the others have. it wouldn't be a problem.
and i really am used with my wacom. i find that for me,it's a lot faster.
everyone has their own ways of working.so happen this is mine. i dont really appreciate it when someone comes and impose their ways on me, when their ways are so difficult to get used to.
correction doesn't come easy. my flesh wants to complain to someone,scream out the FUCK word at my boss behind her back. or just totally deny the mistake.
but i understand it's totally my BAD. and my fault that i'm not pushing my creativity enough.
honestly i really wonder if this job would stick with me. or that i would really choose to leave, knowing that this is really not what i want nor expected.
i can do things apart from illustration but this is really kinda stretched.
if there's life in the right choice.then i dont know if what i'm feeling now is exactly LIFE. there's no uproar unrest but neither is there any EXCITING LIFE inside. i feel just______________ like a straight line. no ups.just the occasional downs.
I am living to make your name high!
Sunday, October 18, 2009
I WANNA SLEEP EARLY!
I am living to make your name high!
Thursday, October 08, 2009
tomorrow's friday! yay!
i'm not saying i HATE work to the point that weekends are all i'm looking forward to,but i'm still adjusting to the new expectations.
i really hope i get a new and bigger desk.my desk right now is so freaking small,and my wacom tablet practically takes up the entire space.plus there are HUGE design books.
but i really love using tablet,it makes things so much easier and comfortable for myself.
i really hope i can finalise my cover design.been doing it for a wk now,kinda getting bored.
so tml,trust that i dont have to change anything.
recently a friend send me this website link, www.iamsecond.com, it's videos of celebrities and their walk with god. it's so touching,and so amazing.god is the same,he's REAL to everyone,he doesn't care if u're famous or not.
what those celebrities experienced,i too experienced.praise the lord!
i love god,everytime i think of the opportunities god gives me to serve him,it makes me smile.
sometimes i hate my family, they have no respect for what i choose to believe,i mean i rmb once i told my mom i hated how she has no respect for my beliefs.i mean she insults. she has no rights to do that, she can choose to believe her own god. but i dont go insulting her god. i mean seriously.
all i want to shout is fucking devil. he's not going to win cause god is victory, and i have god!
I am living to make your name high!
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.
-exodus 36:1
I am living to make your name high!
Friday, October 02, 2009
work has started!
i started work on tuesday,but it was kinda bad,because i wasn't feeling great.
i fell sick on monday,but was feeling better on tues,so decided to head for work, but through the day i was sneezing and coughing.and my face look damn pale.
but i'm recovering.praise the lord!
but the past 4 days,my ears have been blocked,so i can hardly hear myself or anyone else. and my voice was OUT today,could hardly speak.
but i'm alright now.hallelujah.
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working has been alright.but i left work feeling very unsure.i was afraid that i am not going to live up to my boss's demands and expectations.given that some timeline is by HOURS. so i'm just very scared that when i have not learn the robes,i'm being thrown into the battlefield already.
but i guess that is when i really need god's grace and HELP!
it's been 4 days.........and i'm feeling like this.
i really trust daddy,that i don't have to go home too late everday,and on nights when i got cg,i shall make it on time.
:D WHOOO WEEKENDS!
I am living to make your name high!
