HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATT!!!!!!!! it's matt's birthday today,31st JULY!!

yesh....i feel a little bad because i totally didnt realise that it's his birthday until like 15 mins ago when i went to a7x's lj to check updates.

hahaha...oopsies..well it's a date which is not easy to rmb.

i told mae and she was like REALLY MEH?!

same reaction as mine.hahaha...well no worries,in US,it's still in the morning.so we are not late at all.and plus after this incident i think i will rmb his birthday.at least i hope.

well syn's birthday is so easy to rmb.7/7. :D

anyway,i enjoyed thinking of interview qns for mae.feel happy that she got the tickets to singfest.she gets to interview shaun from crowned king!WOW!

well,glad she could use the qns i thought of.those were meant for a7x.but i'll settle for crowned king too.they are sweet dudes.

anyway, today a friend of mine asked me this really weird question.

and all i can say is rejection will hurt no matter which method you break it to the opposite.

which rejection doesnt hurt?dont be ridiculous.

for your part,if you dont like the opposite,dont lead him on.dont bring him up to heaven and smash him down to hell. that's not right.

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i also realised that these days,the guys i find handsome seem so similar.like they got the same features.those who appreciate their family. and some other features.

cute.

GUESS WHAT?!CREATING MUSIC.NOT MY FORTE.
yea...not my thing.seriously.mmmi is making me sleep.
and guess what,i wanna watch batman again.i cant get enough of joker,two face and gary oldman.
who wanna watch with me again?!maybe should just ask bro to fix a day with cg and see who wanna watch.
speaking of which,i kinda miss fri's praise and worship session.zy's cute boyish smile makes me so wanna pinch his face.haha.
well,sat is COMBINE YOUTH CONCERT!!!!!YAY!!!!!
and also i just got the news that SAT's also the day in which my church's YOUTH BAND's FIRST CD is released!!!
YAY!!shir....you better pray alwin plays in it.or there's a photo which i doubt so.but i got nothing to lose anyway.but i am pretty sure alwin plays in it.

look.alwin.

so i was free today.thought i illustrated a simple photo of him playing his guitar.

and shir,pls bear in mind,you are in a RELATIONSHIP already.

and also he's 25 this yr.not that young compared to us alrighty.

but i dont really like his pink flora shirt he wore on sun.

and RYAN ur blog is adult content positive.(in the settings...)

no wonder i have that warning page first.

THIS WEEKEND WAS AMAZING!!!!

i never had that much fun in a long long time!

it was extremely relaxing!sleeping early and waking up without the need of an alarm clock.yes i can totally understand how ryan feels!haha.i am sure everyone felt that way before.to hell with alarm clocks.

but this weekend wasnt just about catching up on zzzzz.

it was getting to do what i like to do.go out with my family.spending time with them.buying herbal tea for my parents.

and of course,catching a movie with them.so thankful

such things are blessings sent from god.

fri's praise and worship,sat's family day and today's church service!!!!

omg,i love such moments.i feel freed from all my assignments.

today's service was amazing.i teared up again!

so touching.....i love jesus!!!!!!!! i can say that forever.

today i intended to buy some tees but guess what i spent it on PASTOR PRINCE'S DAILY DEVOTIONS BOOK!!!!!YAY!!well my bro said he will share with me.

but i cant wait to start reading it!!the word of GOD! i cant wait...shall do it tml!

well,yes i feel broke,but i got a good book.amen to that.

anyway,i saw alwin.hahaha.he was queuing up to get the book too.

anyway,right now i cant wait for the COMBINED YOUTH CONCERT!!!

alwin better play.

WHY SO SERIOUS?

million zillions kudos to heath ledger for portraying joker so darn well.

i watched the movie yesterday with my family.

and at the end of everything,i was like "all the troubles because of joker?"

he led one trouble at a time.i'm shocked.

but i really like Aaron Eckhart and Gary Oldman too.and the short appearance of Cillian Murphy.cool.

well,at the end of everything,this show just shows why i like heath ledger so much.

he can act.plus he's handsome.

i dreamt of ryan and zy.hahaaha..zy looked damn short inside my dream but his boyish smile never fails to make him look so blur.

i dreamt he was working in my intern company.oh gosh....hahaha.

also i dreamt that i was having lunch at fc 6 when suddenly the song BREAK FREE came on.and most of the people was having this praise and worship session.

hahaha.HOW FUN!!!!!then zy had his boyish smile again.and ryan was all good looking as usual with his white shirt.haha.

yesterday was amazing!!!praise and worship was sooo great.the venue was just simply beautiful.the condo's swimming pool is sooo pretty!hahaha.thank lord for that.amazing place.
well.i would have to say yesterday was really full of various emotions.
it was my eds presentation 2 yesterday so as usual i was a nervous wreck,my heart was pumping so darn hard but somehow i knew jesus was going to be there for me and be my confidence.so before i went in i said a prayer to him. JESUS BE MY CONFIDENCE and whatever that i may lack,you fill it up.
and i went in.halfway through presenting,my mind was like "I CANT BELIEVE THAT I AM DOING THIS!" hahaha.i didnt really care about the lecturers' reactions.but i did felt like the presentation was pretty long and kinda mono tone.hahaha.presentation was never once my strength.
well,comments were given.they said there are little details that i could work on. like the cover page,the binding.they said they like the presentation...what it was smooth and it was clear in the way i presented my experiments.so praise lord for that.cause i was really blur when i was doing my slides.i didnt know if i did it the right way.i just counted on faith!
hahaha.anyway,after school,went to bedok for dinner.finally satisfied my cravings for fried bee hoon :DD.then after i bought i saw the kway teow.WAH LAU!!!I CRAVED FOR IT!
anyway,after that went to praise and worship with the various poly custers.there were a lot of people there.praise lord!
had a short caregrp.and we were asked to think about the choices we have in life.there are times where we chose something only to realise that this might not be what we want.then what do we do? e.g. sometimes i feel like being in my course might not just be my thing.i might not have grace for this.at times i look at the stuffs i have to do and wonder IS THIS WHAT I REALLY WANT? it seems so clear when i chose it but now,the future seems dim.
then what do i do? quit? there are a lot of choices in life. i could take a break and use my time to find out about what i really want.but is this the best choice? i could continue what i am doing and hate it.but my life would always have that unhappiness.or i could i do my best and see what it could take me.there are a lot of choices in life.some are not that realistic.some are more down to earth.
for me,i would do best and see what i can be in the future.but whatever happens,i will keep my eyes on the lord because he is faithful.he is faithful forever.so his grace will shine upon me.
anyway,on the way home,had a wonderful time fellowshipping.hahah.great times.
love it.my bro has food poisoning so he couldnt make it.but he is not short changed.definitely not.
and in jesus's stripes he is HEALED!!!
alrighty,thanks father for everything!

REST IN PEACE SIEMENS SL75!!!!

or what tch always call it, mouse wannabe.

wtf..it's not wannabe.but it does have the shape of a com mouse.

well,it has been a good close to 2 yrs.though you keep hanging yourself.i should have seen this day coming.

it's the first time a phone died on me.when i realised my phone passed on,i was lost.

my contacts!!!well not all but some!

esp the latest ones!!!shoots!i really would love to get the contacts back.

well,currently i am using this spare nokia phone from my dad.

the buttons are easy to press but i still need to get used to it.i spent a good 10 mins finding the reply button only to realise it was right smack in the center.

things are just so different now.

somehow i really want to revive my siemens phone for one last time.i tried cpr,which in hp world is charging the bat and banging it.

not working.keeping the faith man.keeping the faith.

well,tml praise and worship combine poly custers!

awesomeness

Sept 9 Sept 9 Sept 9!

okay...it's not because it's my birthday.

but it's A7X's release of their LIVE DVD/CD!!!!

whee!!!!finally.

well,kinda know singapore will import it weeks later.but at least in US it's 9th sept.

so cool.so there's something more to look forward to.

tch...*hints hints* hahaha...TCH *hints hints*

anyway.kinda looking forward to this friday's caregrp

combine poly custer praise and worship.awesome.

well,these days my friends have been saying the word fellowship.

really cute because i only heard it during my church time but to hear it outside of my church grp,it's kinda different.hmm.

finally photos of the ZONE 2008!!

hahaha...credit the zone 2008.org for the fabulous photos.

look at pastor benjamin and his youthful hairstyle.

i prefer without spikes.

hahaha.back to work.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENDY!
may the lord be with you!!!
ahahaha...yesterday was arrow service!!woohooo!!!so fun!praise and worship was great!
yesterday topic was about love and relationship II.learnt a lot about that.but in my life right now i am not ready to commit to one yet.that's what i have telling people when they asked about this.no time for myself,where got time for the other half?!hahaha.kidding.
well,in singlehood,i can just bask in the love relationship with the lord.
anyway,what pastor benjamin talked about was really true at some point.so i love that part of the service best.
after church service went to eat dinner with caregrp.and we gave a birthday surprise for wendy!!hahaha....cute cake.glad she loved it
well,went to print my eds.i didnt know the shop closed at 3...i walked in at about 4....then the lady halfway through printing my stuffs said they actually closed at 3...i was like OMG SORRY!!!!hahaa.but they are very nice people.so praise the lord for such blessings!
well,had a good sleep so i am charged and distracted.dont want to do my work..want to play....hahaha.
passed by ryan's church yesterday and was wondering about a few stuffs.hahaha.his service so early.

been really drained lately.rushing for my eds is tough but i managed to do finish my illustrations.so thankful.
but it has taken a toll on my patience level.and my attitude.
the past few days,i think i behaved really different and kinda mean at some point or another.
the worst affected one i think are my friends.
i dont know if my friends from sch noticed this but if you guys do and happened to read this,i seriously apologized.
the days where i feel so fucked up and tired.hope you guys understand.
to tch,thanks for taking in all the shit.

eci is really tough.felt really demoralised when i saw the results.
i felt angry with myself.well i felt very impatient at some point during the eci discussions because there were so many doubts.and my tone sometimes may seem really pissed off.feel seriously so bad.

but anyway,i rmb pastor joshua saying "if you think you are a cracked pot,God can use a cracked pot too."
simply means that when you feel so screwed up,it's when his power shines in us the strongest.and millions amen to that.
well tml is church time! so stress will be gone.cares with be cast aside.i cant wait.

i got to take a little peek to what i will be like if i were to take a business course.
SCREWED.
today's eci presentation didnt go as well as we thought.questions were kinda tough to answer.and dont get me started on how some of the investors spoke.my hearing is good but not that great.
well,it's so funny.to see the various groups being so secretive and scheming (not all grps though).see the shrewd side of them.
haha...well,i dont even know if our grp got cheated by the investors but our morale isnt very high.
well,i am sooo tired.and i also realised my memory isnt doing that great.i seemed to have STM.haiz...gosh.
today,i was soo tired.sleeping at 3 and having a 8am lesson to rush to isnt all fulfilling.
i want to catch up on my zzzzzzz.like so very badly.

thanks guys.i feel a whole lot better.
didnt feel that depressed anymore since it's a total retard thing to do.
i'll just take things as they come after all i leave it in jesus's hands.
he'll know what's best for me.if things happen,then i'll take it.if it doesnt,then so be it.
i saw yong ling recently and omg...........i wonder why and i wonder how in the world did i used to like him.i mean.....right now,he's all beng-ish.not to sound insulting.

and eci....not easy...not fast.went to school,thought i would be home by 4 plus.guessed what....7...still in school.wow.but eci is good.i mean it's kinda fun.

shir once said that the thing that hurts the most is when you care for someone so much,but it's just one-sided.
that's reality...it sucks i guess.
anyway,thank god for me,i was able to shut my ears and eyes during vda.i dread that lesson now....
was eating lunch when i thought of the disgusting french movie.i froze there for a while staring at my fish soup.

i HATE french movies with a passion.

and damn that passion will last forever.

how could i even appreciate the colors of the movie when i cant even bring myself to see the disgusting scenes. i was crouching at the back of class trying not to puke my lunch,which was delightful by the way,out.

something's not right with ryan.

he is sad.or at least deep inside,there's sadness.

he said all to describe his situation is this jay chou song.

which is really sad.

to all my friends who are sad,i will do a prayer before i sleep tonight.

may jesus bless you guys.

today is fun!
went out for the 3rd church service.was really good!
even though i know my eds project and other projects are close to the deadline,i had to go to church.
i need my free myself from all obligations and just be in the house of god,and hear what he has to tell me.
i need to be at one place where i know in there,no troubles are bugging me.
when i go to church service,i walked in a troubled person,but when i come out,my mind is freed from all the worries.
it' s not that the worries are gone,but it's that i cast my worries and cares in jesus and let him face them for me.
that's why when i am stressed,i need to go to church.i need some time with jesus.praising him.calling out to him.
lord i love you soooooooo much!*gosh....about to cry*
today's sermon was soooooo true.i actually experience it myself just earlier this week.
pastor joshua is really funny too!but when he shares his dark moments,he let us know that even a pastor can have times where we dont seem to be ourselves,or the ugly side of humans so to speak.
he shared that when we have any weaknesses,we should put it in jesus's hand.if you are impatient,let jesus be your patience because he will show us the unconditional love for us.and make us shine.

i had a weakness in me,and i told jesus that i cant change myself based on my own strengths.i tried,i failed everytime.i condemned myself.so i leave it to be.this week,i saw the results of jesus's grace.i have changed and will change.

i saw alwin when i was walking to the bus stop.hahaha...precious moments ah.

this explains it all.

i am tired.

it's hard to understand someone's feelings.it's also shocking when someone close habours hidden intentions.
anyway,i read a really funny post from one of my dearest friend,who dont wished to be named,[wtf!]
he had problems with some software and the way he describes it is really funny.
he said the software is a bitch cause it keeps asking him for some code or thingy.
hahaha...glad their problems are solved.hahaha...i think a counselor was involved in this problem.if you know what i meant.

anyway,the crowbar shortlisted lists are out.to those who didnt get shortlisted,like myself,dont be dishearten.
life is not just about such things.i dont at all sore that i didnt get in.
instead i realised i changed.in the past,i would feel really sore and envious.but this time round,i feel nonchalant about it.
i know this isnt the end of all things.haha.i love it.
i seriously know that jesus graced this change upon me.and i feel blessed!hahaha.that's what i want,to change myself.
to those who got shortlisted,job well done!!!!next goal,picture yourself going on stage and practice how to smile and look great in the photo when you win something.oh yea!!!! wish i could go for the dinner.but i am broke.breaking.

scooting off,i want to buy band tees.no time but i need this freedom to free myself from all the projects.

-----lord of all song lyrics-------
Shout praises to the holy One
God makes us strong we'll see His will be done
From the highest place He came to save us
We stande in the power of His name
Salvation's work in our lives proclaim
Living from the kingdom of hope within us.

We're gonna shout out loud, it's time to let it out
It's your life in me for all to see.
'Cause our God reigns always till the end of days
We're gonna stand strong, stand tall
'Cause Jesus Christ is Lord of all.

God colors flowing through my life
I'm not the same now my heart desires
To see the whole world come to know You

this song never fails to make me happy.it's sooooo true.

i do like him.

but there's no ending.unless a miracle happens.

since things arent gonna happen,i will get rid of it when i feel the time is here.or when jesus feels it's time for me to move on.

shir dont understand why i am putting myself through this.it's alright hun.things will be fine.

ryan's language never fails to make me laugh.to my clique,i miss you guys dearly.

to alwin,congrats for your graduation!he graduated from NUS.hahaha....awesomeness!you look a lot better with specs,hun.

best still,with his cap,and his earrings dazzle at the reflection.

oohlala.

i think jesus has changed me a little.
the feelings of discourage and demoralised are taken away.
and my mind is positive.
even though i didnt get shortlisted,though i wish i had,i dont feel at all demoralised.amazing.
guess i know that once i have christ in me,my life is gonna shine.
i love that dude lots lots lots lots lots!!!

to all those who are feeling discouraged over crowbars,dont be.
there's always next year.dont look back and think what went wrong.
that's not what we live for.

was listening to one of pastor prince's sermons.
pastor mark is extremely funny.hahaha..his jokes....
enjoyed this sermon.
pastor prince was talking about one of the verse which pastor benjamin talked before.
same verse,different emotions.hahaha...

so i got the spelling wrongly.it's alWin.not alVin.so confusing.
anyway,ting hui went into army today.god be with him!
i am so happy.all i need to find is ALWIN's.hahaha

i just realised that perhaps ___ and i share the same perception about opposite's attraction.
yes,i like him,but i dont need him to know that.i am just glad to see him.
his opinion about liking someone is the same too.
being in a relationship is not what i want.

random play : ryan is so damn funny!!!!i mean his entries are like what the fuck?!?!?!?!hahahhahha..but he is a total sweetheart.
mike is basking in the fame....lucky ass.

ryan looks like alwin.

oh my goodness me.

jesus may you bring your light upon my friends who need strength and guidance.
friends in my life,they are so dear to me.whatever problems they may have,bring solutions to them.because you are the best solution ever.give them the guidance they need in their lives to get through the problems they are facing now.
give me the strength and wisdom to help them if they need my help.and in all aspects of my life and their lives,shine your light.
amen.
today's daily devotion is so awesome.i love it,i rmb pastor terrence talking about this.hahaha...
these days i have been spiritually high.hahaha...but to my bro who is tired spiritually,lord shine your light on him!may he find the revelation he needs!

ting hui is going into army tml.well,he has the blessings from god and with christ in him,there shouldnt be anything that he should worry about.
anyway,may god be with him throughout this whole time.and looking forward to see him shaved.i think he would suit that hairstyle.
can i just say LORD OF ALL is a HIGH SONG!i love to listen to it!hahaha..it reminds me of sat's arrow service.
and it means so much.i love it because it is so true.
anyway,someone i know is being a real asshole and i hate it.i mean he is such a scumbag!i hope he changes because someone may just punch him and not that i am saying he doesnt deserve that.because i feel that someone totally deserves to get punched right smack in his face.
arsehole.

i cant express just how happy i feel inside.arrow last sat totally made me so happy and blessed.praise and worship was amazing!!!i seriously felt a great presence of GOD!oh my god...i am so happy that there were a few people who accepted christ!
they are in for good things!
anyway,today even though is monday,i am still so happy!!
i really feel so favoured!
today,i realised that for my eci module,my grp's placing in the simulation game is ranked no 2!hahah..i totally didnt expect that!
i recalled my grp was kinda confused at what was required and we see the other groups so seriously discussing away.peer pressure.and when i saw the results,i was like I AM SO BLESSED!
i rmb telling jesus to help me with my simulation game because i am so confuse with it.and here i am seeing the results of his grace and lovingkindness.people may thing what crap i am talking about but to me it's no crap.
praise you lord!
and another thing was i didnt expected to see RYAN today!it made my day even more happy.hahaha...i really kinda wanted to see him and i did!haha...giving my thanks!
anyway,HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANDSOME SEXY SYN!!!!!!!!!!!
he is one sexy guy.HOT.
SYNYSTER GATES IS HOT.
ALWIN IS PRETTY HOT.
just needed to get that out of my system.

SEVEN!!!!!

7th july!!whee!

it's his 27th birthday!

6,7!!!

TOMORROW's the day!!awesome.

brian brian.

damn,i just tried sewing on a sewing machine and it's so tough.

just placing the thread is like a obstacle course itself.

i just hope things go well but i know jesus will make good things happen for me,including my sewing.

today's service was fantastic!!!!it was sooo funny too!i really wished that my friends,who are non-believers,to be there with me.and just bask in the love of god.
anyway,i seriously find one of the guitarist,alvin,from the band pretty hot.esp with his hat.haha..okok...back to the point.
well that is attraction,superficial attraction which shouldnt be the reason why one goes into a relationship.anyway,to learn more just visit my belovedmecoco blog. :D

anyway,another small things that touches me is when people whom you dont really know show gestures of concern or acknowledgement.
like today,when i was walking out of the auditorium,i saw timo and he smiled and waved goodbye.and i instantly felt really happy because i dont really know him but he actually waved at me.it made me feel really happy.
and felina,though we dont talk much she seemed like she wanted me to go dinner with the cg.but i couldnt because i was meeting my parents.so such signs of acceptance are just the answers from jesus!haha...i love that guy!!

anyway,my back pains are almost completely healed!praise the lord!!!!
apart from that,i got another news...I GOT A FOURTH GUINEA PIG!!!!!!hahaha.so now i got 4 piggies!!!!the newest addition is an adopted piggie!hahaha...name still not decided.anyway,may lord reign over my piggies!and shower them with the love so great!!!!!!

to my friends who feel at their wits' end at a problem and dont know what to do,just tell jesus to save you!shout JESUS SAVE ME!and he will come to help you and blessed you with the greatest love of all.

my BELOVED MECOCO blog is now opened!

you might see a difference between these 2 blogs.hahaha.

anyway,check it out.and hopefully through reading the posts,you will see the blessings GOD gives you when you believe in his love and grace.

www.belovedmecoco.blogspot.com

we were in the same color shirt.

black.

his little boy face.

worried shit about my back.but having the faith that jesus will make it better.

because by his stripes,i am healed!

i opened another blog,which is all about jesus lord.well,not preaching the bible but just little things about how he touches my life.

and the learnings i gained during church or when i read my bible.

the domain name is simply:beloved mecoco.

but no post is up yet.

5,6,SEVEN!!

2 more days to BRIAN's BIRTHDAY!!

whee.

4,5,6,SEVEN!!

3 more freaking days to his birthday!

he's the person i looked at every night before i sleep,apart from jesus lord.

my back hurts!!
today was a rough day for me and my back.i dont know why but my back started hurting really badly yesterday.but i was fine when i went out with yinzhen.so i am really puzzled when my back hurts that badly.but today i thought the pain was gone but it wasnt.i cant sit very long so sitting in class was a bad thing for me.and it made me fed up with myself and at some point with the lord.now i feel really bad because lord i know you're with me all this while.after confiding in you,i felt a lot better.my sis came home to give me a gel to apply and it felt good,guess lord you made that happened for me.forgive me if i may be fed up with you for the truth is i am just fed up with myself.
and when i am fed up that AZHAR DIDNT MAKE THINGS ANY BETTER!
what is his fucking PROBLEM?!he cannot just say OH LET'S HAVE LESSONS TML.so does he think he is?!so what if he is my lecturer,that doesnt give him any rights to tell us so late about the plans he made.
PEOPLE HAVE LIFE ALRIGHT!i actually made plans to go out with my mom,and if anything family is way more impt to me.but my mom said it's alright....but i am still gonna meet her and daddy for dinner.so guess what Mr A,i am still gonna have time with my lovely family...just not as long as i hope to.
i am mad,he is unreasonable for this case.people dont see what's the point but seriously who does he think he is.he's not god for sure.
anyway,lord please heal my back!praise you lord!!!as for my anger,take it away because i know i dont mean anything deeply in my heart.i am mad,and mad people talk mad things.
but lord loves mad people too!haha and guide them to sanity!haha.okok...gonna rest. :DD

"Encantado de conocerle"

so i had stuffs to do,but hands were itchy to complete this.

i saw ryan today.

i feel so happy.

i used to be a person where if i dont get to see someone i hope to see,i will feel extremely down.and i hate myself for that.

now,if i dont see him,it's alright.

if i do,praise the lord!

Random Facts.

my name is Melissa
i am 20 this year.god...
i like to wonder my bed is so comfortable .
but i don't like to lie down the whole day ,
but i can listen to songs all day.trust me. and i really love my daddy god.


I WANT
a photography camera,
to hug synyster gates,
to see my fav bands someday,
and money,
and endless CDs,
and more rest time!zzzzz
and go to US one day,
tour the world,
adopt all the animals in the world,
have lots of fun,
have a porsche,
or a mazda,
be a successful illustrator,
and...ok,i am not that greedy.
oh and more bolsters!

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