many peop often regard me as:
one who forgets evrything in a day or two. be it gd or bad
one who dosent bother abt anything, evrything.
one who's SO optimistic abt evrything.
one with no worries, troubles.
one who just goes with the flow for evrything that comes.

but you're all wrong. im human aft all.i just happen to possess this super power of controling my emos. and i really hate it. i seem so heartless to all.

today was a pretty bad day.
had lunch with rachael today at cartel. got to see van there. but we didnt talk much. niways, aft tt we rushed down to chinatown for some casting for an advert. for HSBC together wif andrew. kinda sucked, cos i SCREWED UP! aft some photo taking i was told to do an imprompto intro abt me. i was like " hi im matthew and im 16 this yr. er no. im 17....blabla" aft tt rushed off to work. sadly, i was late.as usual. 30min this time. =

while working. van called. i answered to be greeted by a rather anxious voice asking whether rae was by my side. i tried making a conversation, but all i got was "CAN YOU JUST PASS THE PHONE TO HER!!!!" (or smthing like that) aft the call, i asked wat happened. and all i got was a calm reply frm rae saying smthing abt van's gonna work tonight etc. ok..mayb i thought van was in a hurry a smthing.
so aft work and supper, me n rae headed down to cartel. saw melvin. thought van didnt choose a wrong guy. he seemed pretty ok to me. so a few min aft sitting down, van came over. we double checked if tt was really melvin and i pointed at him. wat i received was an IMMEDIATE shot frm van. she was 'yelling' at me abt "hw childish i was etc." yes. i know u've been working the whole day.how tired you are. but u werent like tt in the past.
but ive gotta agree, it was partially my fault too.

and before i boarded my bus home, rae was like beginning to ignore me aldy. i actually have this reason in my mind of why ure like tt, but its just tt i dont like guessing all these stuffs.
niways, thanks rae for yr advice. it did help me.

ciao peops.

another bloggg

sigh..i really suck at bloggin. u guys always have so much to say..while i dont. nothing intersting has been happening in life these past days.. cept for work and mahjong-ing, my new found hobby. so i cant wait for sch to start!!
aldy told my manageress abt all my upcoming freshman orientation camps schedule, so if im nt wrong, my last working day would be on e 18th of may, wif many off days in between. so ya.ill be FREE soon. pretty soon.
while van n aud have their hk trip to look forward to, i have my camps. 3 of them in total. itll be quite alot to handle in a month though.. these camps have been organised by various clubs, like the sports club, student union club etc. it better be gd!
oh..and van, hope u enjoyed the 'small' prank abt miko.haha.

ta-da

japanese girls ROCK my evrything, ever since i watched 'swing girls' at cathay a few weeks back, a show abt several japanese students learning howta play instruments and forming their own jazz band etc.
do catch it if u have time. and do hurry cos the shw's gonna be over soon.
niways, 1-2 weeks back during class chalet, i met this cute jap girl over at downtown east. think her name's miko. aw man, evry1 of u shld have been there to see wat had happened!!
cheeeessy baby =]
cant forget tt night! being kissed by so many. haha

back to today. had my band prac in the evening as usual. kinda sucky today, cos i was the only lower brass player besides another tubist. but ya, all the pieces tt we played were like 'solo' for me. SUCKY.

oh and aud, i saw gwen today at sch in a dress. surprised she joined choir. haha

syf

bedok town's syf today.. sigh. once again, we were awarded the bronze. though i wasnt involved in it, i felt pretty sad for them. aft so maany months of practicing, evrything came to no avail. but ya, at least the medal was maintained.

tt kinda showed where we were standing. out of 30 bands on the 1st day, only 2 schs got bronze. sigh.

haha. tis yr, besides the usual 3 medals, another award was introduced, the 'gold with honour'. sounds pretty prestigious huh. and 4 out of 30 schs got it. victoria n orchid park sec were two of them. was extremely impressed with their playing! their tone, pitch, volume etc. superb!

wish i was like them.

so now im confused..wat CCA shld i join in poly?
band? bowling? tennis? volleyball? dragon boating?

shld i follow my interests or do smthing to keep in shape?

gotta post smthing to see e changes ive done to my blog.

back, again.

here i am again, bloggin. hopefully this time it'll be a constant one.haha

time really flies.. right nw, im jus waiting for poly to start. spore poly to be exact. yes...imagine e travelling time to dover evry mornin with e fact tt 'matthew's always late' etc. but ya. honestly, anyone would rather pick a better business sch.

i cant really think of what to write, mayb cos i dont have a flair for writing. or mayb i jus plainly suck at writing.

oh well. im beginning to get tired of some people. esp when they're mood swings. or shld i say 'her'. must i always give in evry single time she starts wearing tt sickening face? shhesh. dun worry.. im nt chasing her or smthing. but we're supposed to be best friends. well, i do treat her as one. but i think otherwise nw.

oh well. i'll be back~