Saturday, December 12, 2009
it's 3.30am now
and i'm so tired that i can't even sleep.
it's these late nights that make me thing of the things that truly matter to me,
and all those precious opportunities that i let slip away.
you didn't reply, and it made me wonder,
of what i must mean to you as a person.
you've changed.
slowly, but surely,
you have.
i guess it's all part of the process of finding our own identities that we lose who we truly were back before we even started on this search.
it's going to be the 26th of december soon enough.
and i'm not even sure if i should pose the question.
because i don't even know if it's still bears any significance,
or i'm so emotionally confused right now that i'd just wish that life was just that simple.
but it isn't.
so here i'll be,
always wondering,
and always left here waiting for an answer.
what is it that you are looking for?tonight i suddenly was reminded of the movie - the leap years.
the movie held so much meaning to me.
because somehow i could really relate to it.
and i shared it with you because i really didn't know what else i could do.
i guess i just wanted someone else to know the turmoil that is going on inside of me.
this quote from the movie came to mind:
if you are not too long, i will wait here for you all my life. - Oscar Wilde
signed off, 3:28:00 AM
