This is probably the first time I've come this close to tears in months.
I've heard more about you from someone else than I did from you.
I feel so low now. Is anyone there to help me?
For the longest time, I've been fighting.
I've been putting up with all the pressure from my peers. And yet you succumbed to it.
Because I was afraid you might not be able to take it, I didn't even step up like a normal guy would do and talk to you in front of your friends.
By doing this, I got to know you less. But little did I know that it didn't make a difference too. Because you still couldn't take it.
What am I to do? I'm still stuck here after so long, harbouring everything that I have for you. And yet you've alr moved on.
Someone please help me. I can't even go on typing because every word that I type makes my heart fall faster, and my tears well ever nearer to the edge.
I don't know. At the time when you said yes to him; did he know you well?
I stay up late each night with the tears welling my eyes. Thinking about this over and over again until my head hurts.
No, maybe he alr knew you better than I did.
I keep myself up each night. Because if I lay alone in my bed. I'd just keep thinking about it over and over again.
I need to tire myself out so I won't think so much.
But you know what? You're always right. 我们连过去都没有 And yet, everything is going to be history.
If everything between us is supposed to be non-existent, Why is it that I'm trying so hard to forget this non-existent feeling that I have for you? Why is it so hard to to erase these non-existent memories?
How do you erase something that has become a part of your life for the past 6 years? If anyone has the answer, please answer me.
For those of you who think this is easy for me, or that I have a choice to just forget and walk away, then I'm here to tell you now that you're wrong. It isn't easy to forget and it's easy to just drop it and walk away.
I've never felt so alone before. I've asked all my closest friends out so I could forget all of this. But they are have their own dates with their companions.
Which made me wonder. What have I been doing? Everyone has found their happiness except me.
Why do you do what you do to me? Do I really deserve this?
You bring my hopes up and crush them down. I guess you should have made it clear. No, maybe you have already made it clear.
I know I've said it many times before. But this is where I say I've had enough. I don't understand; Maybe I never will.
I've always cared about how you felt, and you've always thought about yourself. But maybe I should let you know this. I have feelings too.
I know you've never once spared a thought about it. Because of everything that you've done. I know. Of all the times you didn't bother to reply to what I've said of all the times you pushed me away even though you agreed to meeting up. I know.
Why did I ever try so hard for someone who didn't even care about me as a friend?
You got me feeling so happy the past few days. Only to bring me crashing down today again.
Everytime we said we'd meet up, somehow we won't.
I guess the only reason why I even feel this way is because I still have faith. I still believe.
Sometimes I wished that you would care more about how I felt and treat me better.
You asked me why I wanted to see you today. Couldn't you see that today is another special day? And I have always been wishing to spend every special day with you. How dumb can I get?
