Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Bah, my school work's finally catching up on me.. And guess what? I've yet to do anything about it. Ye, I guess I've brought my baggage of procrastination along with me from Secondary school to TPJC. I've carried my belief that I work best under pressure - that I work best doing last minute work. I don't ever want that to be proven wrong, although I know JC and secondary school work are two different stuffs that work entirely different. But how would I ever learn this lesson till I've really been proven wrong? I will admit for one that I am not a consistent person, though the notion has appealed to me on several occasions. But hey, being consistent involves tons of work and time and I'm still not committed to what I'm doing yet. Man, do I sound like a real slacker or what. Bah, I really do hope someone would give me a slap on the face and tell me to wake up from this dream-like state that I'm in now.
Socially, I've been facing problems as well. I ain't sure if the people around me are insensitive or I'm just oversensitive. But I've been told that it's the latter. Ah well, that doesn't come as a surprise for a boy who's been branded so many different names over the years. But then again, everyone deserves their own right to their names, uh? I bet I've contradicted myself when I made that statement (I do call people names too.) but I try to learn. Yes, I do. For one, I try to make sure the namecalling that I go about ain't offensive. But yea.
It is quite astonishing how someone can tons of supporters for leadership and then have all of them turn their backs against him in the course of one week. Very astonishing, indeed. The workings of social beings are perhaps still beyond my reach. I guess I'll just have to sit back more often and just for once, try to listen and observe. Instead of reaching out and
get observed. No, I should learn how to take the wheel.
signed off, 11:06:00 PM
Thursday, May 04, 2006
One word. Exhausted. My apologies for the severe inactivity on my blog but I seriously can't perform with my current energy level at 5%. I'm gonna die out. Thankfully, council investiture was a success after the many late nights of rehearsals and the setting up of the hall.
Long live council! =)
signed off, 7:23:00 PM
