A tad too emotional.

Few days before I end my last exam in NTU, I had this strange mixed feeling. The same feeling when I walked out of RP on my last day of school. Love-hate relationship? Im not too sure.

But definitely not like the last day in Maarif. We all became cry-babies. hehe. Cos madrasah experience was really different. Its just love. No hate.

I dunno if I shud miss NTU. Despite all the complaints, no doubt NTU has made me who I am today. I thank Allah for the experience. Alhamdulillah.




Assuming I pass my final semester, I cant wait to officially graduate. And to be a graduate. I cant wait to earn on my own n live my dreams :)

I cant wait to make my parents proud of me. soon ok daddy? soon. :)
Soon we'll hv a new portrait of us. Im counting down the days....

Pesan Abah sebelum keluar rumah baca:


اللَّهُمَّ إنِّي أَعُوذ بِكَ أَنْ أَضِلَّ أَوْ أُضَلَّ، أَوْ أَزِلَّ أَوْ أُزَلَّ، أَوْ أَظْلِمَ أَوْ أُظْلَمَ، أَوْ أَجْهَلَ أَوْ يُجْهَلَ عليَّ


Allahumma inni a’udzu bika an adhilla aw udhalla, aw azilla aw uzalla, aw azhlima aw uzhlama, aw ajhala aw yujhala ‘alayya

bererti:

Ya Allah, aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari kesesatan diriku atau disesatkan orang lain, dari ketergelinciran diriku atau digelincirkan orang lain, dari menzholimi diriku atau dizholimi orang lain, dari kebodohan diriku atau dijahilin orang lain.


[HR. Abu Daud dan Ibnu Majah]


harap kpd yang membaca, dapat sama2 amalkan doa ini juga. :)


googled source

The other day, i had this dream of a luxurious shower room. Yes a shower room, a bathroom. the toilet. It was very huge and spacious. I could walk around.. and I had to walk a certain distance before I could reach the bathtub. Bathtub like wow kn! the circular shaped one. like those jacuzzi kind.

And it was so pretty coz the bathroom was gardenly-themed. Full of greeneries and flowers. And there were sunrays shining inwards. ahuh! sunrays! coz it was covered with glass on the other side. awesome sngt kan... I was like hopping around enjoying every moments for a bubble bathe. heh.

I wish I can draw out the images I had in that dream. Really beautiful Subhanallah. :)

But then soon, I saw people outside watching me. coz its glass. not so beautiful anymore :(
I panicked, i felt so embarrassed and ran out looking for daddy. lol!
And then I woke up.

My mom said I had that dream bcos berangan too much. heh.
oh well, things u do when ure supposed to study. =D

But I cant wait to design my own house if I can one day. I can somewhat imagine how my kitchen and bedroom looks like. Fresh flowers on my desk please :)


hah! keje tak, blaja malas. berangan ade ruma. mai mai.... *peace*

Why am I not feeling the exam heat?
could it be because I cant be bothered anymore? Or perhaps just because I cant wait for sch to end?

I am not so diligent today as compared to how I was for the previous semesters.
I get distracted by fb, twitter and GE stories. They seem much more interesting than exams. But mostly, I daydream.. and daydream.. and daydream.

Oh well,
I just cant wait to end this exams....

...and start living our dreams together :)


I'll be counting down the days.







Im sorry awak about semalam.
It has been good 5 yrs long.. and to fight over little things like BenNJerry Ice cream is..

well yeah Im sorry :)

I can sleep.. and sleep again.. and sleep again..




When I sleep like a polar bear hibernates, I know Im stressed.
I realize this pattern towards the end of every semester. I dont wanna wake up coz i know waking up means study...

sigh..
The pattern is so bad that u dont even wish to know.

3 weeks later... pls..

Our love-hate relationship








There's no one to irritate and there's no one to wrestle at home. I hope u'll be back soon. All healthy in one piece and our love-hate relationship shall continue.

I hate u for being so lazy. I hate u for always ignoring my nags. I hate u for always not helping me. I hate u for messing up ur room though mine is messy too. I hate u for eating my chocs. I hate u that mom made me iron ur uniform. I hate u that mom made me serve u food. I hate u for ignoring my messages. And the list goes on.

All in all, I love u because of all the above-mentioned. U are afterall, the special one for being the only son and the last child in the house. And no doubt, the smartest one. U are afterall my dear brother, who accompanies me for jogs, who listens when I desperately need that someone to talk to, who.. well yeah.. entertains me when im home during weekends.
U are afterall, second in the my list of wali after Abah. So u better love me =)

You are someone who cant be bothered on the outside, but is bothered inside.
But that makes you YOU. Ure starting a new chapter in life. I hope ure excited just like I am!

Thank you for cleaning up ur room before u go.
I'll be here waiting for ur uni letter =D
With hopes u'll return and one day be a better... nahh I wont say a better man, I'll say a better Muslim. Cos a good Muslim encompass all. rite? :)
InsyaAllah you are.