When the stress is getting a bit too much.

I couldnt find time for my own space (except masti. heh!)
but yet, loads are nowhere near done. In fact, it seems like the loads are increasing exponentially each day. Huge i tell u!

I have no idea what ive been spending my time with.
I wish for a day when I can simply do nothing. I mean really nothing. Perhaps just breathe the fresh air... smell and enjoy the beauty of God's creations. Wonderful.
I wanna see how beautiful life is. Because I know it is. But the state that im in doesnt seem to be so.

I guess the things that are expected out of a final year final sem undergrad is a bit too much. No, not a bit too much. Its really too much! Its week 6 and im still in complete mess. I was never this messed up before. And by mess, I mean really unorganized. Because I know Im an organized person. I would usually have all my lecture notes ready, nicely binded beforehand, tutorials nicely done on papers and filed up for easy readings. And everything was almost consistent throughout.

But nowadays, when I wanted to go lecture and realize I forgot to print 'em out, I realized Im not being me. Something is just wrong that Im like this! And the fact that its already week 6 and not a single nicely done tutorial is completely horrible. I hate mess. Everything is just EVERYWHERE. I just couldnt find THAT time anymore.

And I feel extremely tired these days. I need that rest. I need that sleep. I need that long loooooooooooooong sleep to recharge. Im the kind who needs to sleep a lot. Because each sleep is light. A very light sleeper I am.

I wake up when someone talks.
I wake up when someone on the light.
I wake up when someone walks into my room.
I wake up when the cicak makes its sound.
Each day, I wake up at the first ring of my alarm tone.
Im the kind who wants the room to be dark n reallllllly quiet at night.
Im the kind who has a pillow covering my ear because I could hear the clock ticks.

sangat cerewet. heh. I know.

With all the unstable emotions Im going through. I dont know how much longer I can carry on.

Period is painful. Period.

Is the situation I'm in really terrible or is this another round of PMS?

Dear Graduating Students

This year, we are featuring 175 employers at the NTU Career Fair on 22nd & 25th Feb 2011. To help you better prepare for the fair, please visit the event website for the following information:
· List of Participating employers with links to employers website for you to research on the business activities of the companies (www.ntu.edu.sg/cao2/careerfair2011)
· Event Guide provide event layout and corporate profile of some employers
· Job Opportunities in excel format so that you can pick out relevant job roles by course of study

I would strongly recommend that you research on the companies and narrow down to a list of about 15-20 companies per day to make your visit to the fair fruitful. Do mark out the booths that you want to visit to reduce time wastage in locating the booths during the fair. We will distribute the hard copy event guide to graduating students on the Thursday and Friday (17 and 18 Feb) before the fair. Do look out for our email.

During the fair, please make sure you bring sufficient copies of your resumes to present to employers of your choice. However, do note that some employers may prefer that you apply online via their website.

I would advice that graduating students differentiate yourselves from other visitors by dressing up in formal attire. Shirt & tie for men and blouse & skirt for ladies. Do make sure you have comfortable shoes, avoid high heels.

This is a great opportunity for you to secure your first jobs. So, do invest time and effort to prepare for the event.

Regards

Mrs Chong











oh my oh my oh my....
i dun have any shooooooooooooe!!

Blearrrrgh. So many things to do over the short weekends.
Im suffocating.

Nak slim ke nak kaya eh?

Alhamdulillah.
Finally something NICE from the mentor.
Im really satisfied with everything that Ive done! The hardships and tortures (for a year seriously). God knows how many hours Ive spent in MSE lab. U'll be surprised to know that many a times I came to lab as late as 9pm to collect my sample (Alhamdulillah again for the Jurong home). He was pleased to see whatever Ive presented. =)
And the presentation was prepared just 12 hrs before. Oh boy im proud of myself!
I wansnt the only one. I do have friends who would stay in lab doing experiments till 10pm.

Finally he said that Im good. For once, I feel appreciated for all the hard workS.
He did mention that he'll tell the prof I deserve an A. That set me all glowing today =D

With that, Im pretty determined to write well for report and hopefully present well too later on, to complete that A insyaAllah. Ive never tasted an A for core modules and have always been craving for it. an A for a 10au FYP would beat that crave definitely. :)

InsyaAllah.. Ameen2.. mohon doanya ya?

But the problem is I havent start writing anything yet. Not even crafting out the table content can?
With tutorials coming up and online lectures pending, I cant seem to have enough time. I know Ive gotta make that TIME somehow.

Its pretty frustrating when others claim that what im going through as a final yr student is easy, as compared to... theirs, supposedly more difficult final year later. I didnt know that level of difficulty can be just compared by number of modules? geez.

I may seem relaxed but God knows how berserak my mind is struggling through my final yr. God knows how stress I can be thinking about sch throughout the night. God knows how painful it is. Im trying hard not to complain alot this time round and learn to accept whatever is given. Each time Im about to complain, I would tell myself... betolkan niat =)

I believe thats just the key.

On top of that, IVP is next month.


oh well...




baaaaaaam!




Friends, be with me in all these please? :)

Mom,
I know u want ur daughters to be beautiful and
I know i gained alot.
I shall exercise more. Im trying.. i really do!

But it really hurts when u keep saying Im fat n round.





Regards,
Ur very sad daughter

Females. They just want to be assured.
But in the minds of the males, its just... -whatever-

Guys, if u wanna make the girls feel better, just assure them. thanks.
It might not be important to u but it is to them.

Because February itself is sweet =)



I might just get the best present ever this year.
Read here.

New baby yay~
I hope the baby can wait till 10th. lol.
All the more I just wanna stay home, n not here jurong!

And and and my second sis's boyfriend's family gonna masok minang soon.
Double happiness i cant wait!!~


see why my feb is so FEBulous? *winks*

Things will be better. I hope.
No, I pray.
Please.. be better.