Alhamdulillah, the first day of sch yesterday went perfectly fine and OK for me. Though I initially had the dread feeling of waking up early n travel long loooong distance. But when friends were around to talk n laugh, it felt good again. =D

Prof Comm seemed interesting. Coz I will learn how to write resume, business letter and such, which I will definitely need once Ive graduated. But i dont like writing. Im nvr good with words. =(

And Im having bio mod this sem. BIO. bioL. Somehow I cn hardly understand bio as much as I understand phy n chem, ever since secondary sch! And it will be much to my horror each time I see some modules related to bio.

Again, above are just excuses and laziness from me. I know I should accept whats given and do my very best. Afterall, I do believe that if Allah has put me to it, He'll guide me through it. =)

I'm pretty happy that I have successfully cleaned my room just in time before the sem started. Well, I do need a conducive environment to study and do readings. Seeing a messy room after a whole day ups n downs in sch will just add in to the much hated stress.

I gathered my courage to finally throw all the secondary school papers! I couldn't believe myself either, that I kept all my karangan, composition, homeworks and execises. Almost ALL of them. Every year when I spring clean my room, I failed to throw them away cause those papers just seem to have sentimental values to me.
N wow! I decided that this time round, I REALLY had to cause my uni notes are just TOO many and I cant find any space to keep 'em. *good job!*

But I still keep the text books though. Heeheee.. maybe one day..





Misha has been a really good girl and always excited to help me along. And she's always curious about the things I do. very cute! of course, at the same time I hv to answer tonnes of her wondering questions. I wonder if I were like that at 5... hehe!

She helped me cleaned my room.
And She helped me count my cookies when I baked.
She always make my day! =D




After 4 days of cleaning up. yay!!
I re-organized my desk. So that i cn face the TeeeVeee LOL!
I still think that my room is kinda plain n boring.. I wish I can hv some floral and butterfly wallpaper and pretty abstract bedsheet. I wish to have fresh flower on my dressing table too. If only there's a florist here n Kembangan. I will definitely keep it going. =D




But naah... think I should just keep my wants n wishes for my own house one day...
InsyaAllah!!

Tuhan, aku jahil, aku lemah, kerana aku hanya manusia, kerana aku hanyalah hamba. Dari itu Tuhan, aku perlukanMu dan aku perlukan rahmatMu, kerana aku sedar ya Tuhan aku tidak layak untuk ke SyurgaMu. Namun aku takut jika aku diakhiri di neraka ya Tuhan. Aku tidak sanggup untuk diletakkan disana, maka ampunilah segala dosa-dosaku. Kerana Engkau Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Pengasih... Engkaulah yang Menyayangi...Amiin Ya Rabb

I is so stucked to the TV3 drama. I spent hours n hours in front of laptop watchin episode after episode. I didnt spend my weekend doing any concrete house chores at all! *guilty* All thanks to Janji Kekasih (Not Janji Diana eh, dat one mintak kene scrape!)

But srsly, I looooooooooove love LOVE these kind of stories. y'noe, like nur kasih, cinta tikar sejadah, n now this! wooooTS. It made me cryyyyyy like a babyyyyyyyyyyyyy Im lovin it! y'noe, like buai ur own emosi sorng2 in the room? heheh!

lovey dovey =)






Walau aku senyum bukan berarti
Aku selalu bahagia dalam hari
Ada yang tak ada di hati ini
Di jiwa ini hampa

Ku bertemu sang adam di simpang hidupku
Mungkin akan ada cerita cinta
Namun ada saja cobaan hidup
Seakan aku hina

Tuhan berikanlah aku cinta
Untuk temaniku dalam sepi
Tangkap aku dalam terang-Mu
Biarkanlah aku punya cinta

Tuhan berikanlah aku cinta
Aku juga berhak bahagia
Berikan restu dan halal-Mu
Tuhan beri aku cinta

Ku bertemu sang adam di simpang hidupku
Mungkin akan ada cerita cinta
Namun ada saja cobaan hidup
Seakan aku hina

Tuhan berikanlah aku cinta
Untuk temaniku dalam sepi
Tangkap aku dalam terang-Mu
Biarkanlah aku punya cinta

Tuhan berikanlah aku cinta
Aku juga berhak bahagia
Berikan restu dan halal-Mu
Tuhan beri aku cinta

The boss gonna hate me today. Im sorry but i think ive worked enough. More than enough. The new sem is starting nxt week. i strongly believe that i shud get a well-deserved rest b4 sch drives me nuts.

Im gonna ignore if he's not happy.
Ignore. Ignore. Ignore n heck care!!

'nuff said.

At times like this, I wonder if anyone really cares...

Im a happy aunt coz Misha now has come to the stage where she learns and understands about solat. She knows that all of us has to solat. And that to her, whoever solat is a good person. Cute. =)

She told me she is so excited to solat becoz she can wear her strawberry shortcake telekong. I somehow think it is really a good idea to make design n nice patterns on kids telekong. All the more they will love wearing it. Misha asked me who is Allah. I tried to recall how did I think of Allah when I was 5. She keeps telling me she wants to see Allah. =)






She reminds me of my childhood days. I tried to recall how my mom n dad made me solat. Made me understand about solat. I cant really remember when i learnt how to solat. Im sure its the good islamic environment I had when I grew up. For that, I thank God, Alhamudulillah.

I remember how we used to pray jemaah every single day for magrib and isyak. Each time after magrib, my sis and I had to read Muqaddam and Quraan infront of my dad. Cute memories. I remember how playful my sis n i were, coz we talked when we sujud haha!

And when its Ramadhan, we didnt go mosque for terawih, coz we wud jemaah as a family for terawih at home. Sigh, I really miss those moments. For each terawih, my dad would never fail to recite surah Waqiah, and I would excitedly anticipate for my name to be called out. I felt special =)
He loves to recite that surah over and over again even till today.

When I was in pri 6, I had to memorize surah Waqiah and was tested by ustazah in class. Thanks to my dad, that surah was like already on fingertips and I had no problem memorizing it at all. =D
Alhamdulillah!!~

I really really REALLY miss those days.
I guess everything now is different. I didnt notice the transition line but I know time has changed. Each of us now is an adult I guess my dad leaves it up to us for WE ourselves should whats right and wrong. He wont force us into solat jemaah nor he forces us to read Quraan infront of him.

Im glad he has moulded me into who I am today. Thank you DAdddy. =)


I had this interesting conversation with my girlfriends today during Iftar. We talked about why people make a big fuss about us girls who dont know how to cook abeh nak kawen. Its like, when u dont know how to cook, ppl will say "mcm mane ni nk kawen".
And so we thought, people should make a fuss too about guys who cant lead prayers, be an imam, mcm mane nk kawen?

so TRUE!
I will want my husband to lead me in prayers ofcoz!

This table is never this empty. It'll only be so when its Ramadhan and Syawal. It's usually the messiest part of all where papers, books, food, toys are all over.

I am pretty pleased that I got it cleared up just in time before Ramdhan came.
Well u see, it is this table that we as a family come together for sahur and buka. If its not for Ramadhan, the family rarely eat together. Each and everyone of us has his own schedule which doesnt seem to coincide even if its only for dinner.

Another reason why Ramadhan is so special. =)




Ive started my kuih preparation yesterday. This by far, the earliest preparation ever. I just dont want to be like the previous years. Where in the midst of Ramadhan i got all stressed up with everything. Time is just too precious. InsyaAllah with the early preparation, the last 10 days can be focused for whats best during Ramadhan. =)
Ameen.

This time round, I attempted to make kuih tarts. We have always just ordered or buy somewhere. The result was not really that pleasing but I'm happy that its still ok. yay to a beginner like me! =)

My mom commented that the patterns were not so visible and the thickness are not even. To get all the tarts of around the same thickness is still a HUGE challenge.



But i still think it looks pretty nice though. My mom made the inti nenas. I just handled the pastries.



And my dear sis helped me to bake and arranges them nicely in the 'toples'.

Alhamdulillah, we baked 230 tarts in a day. =)




Today, I made a really easy kuih. Macaroon. Some call it meringue. I rather call it macaroon. Meringue doesnt sound so wow. haha.

The challenge for this kuih is to get the egg white n yolk COMPLETELY separated. There was once, when bits of the yolk fell into the white collection, n poooooooof, it didnt fluff up!

The egg white will only fluff up like a cloud when the yolk is totally out.



The outcome looks reaaaally good. I wish i can have 2 ovens. Making kuih is easy. The hassle is only the baking moment. My oven fits in only 1 tray at a time. And 1 tray will take 25-30mins. Today, I made up to 5 trays. U do the maths how long must I wait till everything is done. =(



Well u see, 5 trays doesnt even fill up the toples fully. :(
I better hide this before anyone keeps munching on it!






Selamat berpuasa :)

The delight of making breakfast for the family :)
On a cleaned table free from mess. Cleaning up the house yesterday is really worthwhile. The feeling of happy morning is soooo great!
LG. Life's good.

Alhamdulillah.





If only I can hv more free days just like today. Sadly, school starts again tomorrow for me. :(

But Im pretty excited coz Terawih starts tomorrow too. Ramadhan. Im lovin it~
LEts get into Ramadhan mood. Nasyids, here we go~








Semoga iman kami akan sentiasa bertambah bila Ramadhan menjelang nanti. Ameen =)

My mom shared something interesting today.

It started off when i was cleaning up the house. I was picking up n arranging stuff here n there. And while i was doing that, dad came n instructed me to vacuum the floor. I was quite pissed off coz couldnt he see that I WAS doing house work n that of course, vacuuming WOULD be done later on for sure. (I know i was very bad to get pissed off. Sinful I know, Astaghfirullah. But it was kinda sudden reaction)

I whined. I blabbed to my mom abt it. And I was quite surprised that she actually defended me instead. Its like she was on my side saying things like.. tah bapak kau nie.. kn org tgh buat tu.. ni lah orang lelaki, cara fikir tk macam kita pmpan.. bla3.. etc.

THAT, cheered me up n simply made me laugh.

She started to tell me that she heard somewhere that females use both right n left brain together simultaneously. But guys dont, they use it one at a time. I dunno how to true is that but ive just gotta agree that the diff sexes do think differently abt certain things.

And she told me how males responded differently too. She said she observed each of us (her kids) when we were babies. When the first 3 are girls, my mom had alot of suprises attending to my baby brother. She said its just the way we responded when we were babies. An example she gave was breastfeeding time. She once thought that there's something wrong with my brother coz his responses were different. All the more cause she had him when she's over 35.

But now that each of us is normal (alhamdulillah),n plus now she has granddaughter n grandsons, she realized the differences was only because of he's a boy!

LOL right.

One thing for sure, something I personally observe and study, females tend to feel more than males do. Friends told me that males DO feel, only that they dont show. but why? Its pretty frustrating at times. Coz when they dont show, how are we suppose to know that they feel us, understand us?

One of a kind creature made by God. =D

sigh... :'(

n its as though the world is falling down... :( :( :(

If one day I have a daughter (insyaAllah), I think I will like to name her Sumayyah. Definitely a nice name :)


Semoga iman kami setebalnya. Ameen. =)