Road to Recpvery - Phase 6

Alhamdulillah. i can now solat as per normal, no longer with the help of a chair. =D
The painful part is when I have to bend all the way down and sit on my legs. for now, i will always have do a bit of adjustment first and put more weight on the right leg.
Adjusting.. rai said like nenek2 LOL!

Physio now is once every 2 weeks. No longer every sat...!
On a negative note, Im so lazy to do those therapy at home, when im supposed to do it 3 times a day -_-'
Sometimes, I just couldnt find the time. Padahal im not busy with anything. Time seems so short nowadays.

N now that its fasting month.. time is even shorter!
sahur --> kerja --> buka --> terawih ---> tdo.
very short indeed.

And seriously I need more energy. Ive been falling asleep at work lately.
I dont like this draggy dreadful feeling.


Oh well,
bilal looks cute *melts*

Im having the worst feeling at work now. I made the same mistake twice today!
The exact same mistake. And this mistake is not revesible.

ianya umpama nak potong kain ukuran 10 inci tapi da terpotong smpai 8 inci?
mane nk cantumkn balek 2 inci tu?? spoil kn spoil kn!!

n this sample im handling, i overshot grinding it! n there's only one sample sent for test. no extras!

Its a terrible feeling ok! im gonna make my supervisor mad very soon.

I must stop brooding of what I dont have and be thankful and appreciate of what I have.

Thing is, eveyone knows that. Easier said than done. I cant help it but to always forget and feel that way.

So another thing is, how do we put that theory into place pratically?

I hate it when its time for period. Terrible I tell you. Disastrous.
Each time, its like my world is falling down.
Falling down.
and down.

Firstly its the physical pain, which is super unbearable, and that, u wont understand how painful it is unless ure a female too.
u cant afford to even smile to ur collegues when ure trying hard to control the pain.
I'll usually resort to the pink panadols, no matter how hard I try refraining from them. I heard that its not good to depend too much on panadols. but heck! im now a monthly-panadol-dependant.

Secondly, its the discomfort experience. I wont feel comfortable sitting down nor lying down. And toilet is always the destination every 2-3 hours. Longer than that, Ive to work hard to do some cleaning up. if u know what i mean.

garhh!! horrandous isnt it.

And so, thirdly.. the third one goes to the emotional aspect. Ahh this one, this one I think no one can understand. Coz at times, i cant understand myself either. it feels like everything is against what i want when actually everything is perfectly normal. The abnormal one here is myself, but at times, i will tend to blame any others but myself. Everything doesnt seem like what I expected, and the prob is, I expect nonsensical things.

When everything is ok n so normal, i will start to create any trouble and so there is something to be mad about and there's someone to blame. Pointing this out, pointing that out. This kind of feeling is something i find very hard to control, and i just have to.. just HAVE TO show that tantrums off.

complicated isnt it? again, u'll understand if ure a girl.

And now im very sorry for causing that hectic quarrel. When im all ok now, I find it very stupid. I feel like an idiot.

No. 3.1 is the sub topic of emotional aspect.
Its not the marah2 mode of emotions. Its the feeling of being SAD n DOWN for NO REASON.

U start to think how ugly u are, and u are sad that u look like that.
u Start to think how stupid u are, and sad that ure not so smart.
U start to think how fat u are, and sad that u cant look good.
U start to be jealous with ur girlfriends who simply have more than u do.
Garh!!! when the fact that u are still that same as any other day. The same 'ol u as when ure happpy and cheerful as the birds chirping in the morning! u cant help it but to think and feel that way.


burok kan?


So to sum it up... all these happen when the period starts.
I hate it.

The long weekend was nice. Can I have another one?

Road to Recovery - Phase 5

By right, today (5th august) should be the last day of wearing braces. by left, Ive not been wearing it since days ago! =D

I couldnt be bothered anymore with that bulky thing. If I have enough strength I wouldve break it into two! Im angry! YOu should see what the brace have done to my 2 newly bought jeans!

The velcros have caused my jeans to become berbulu u know! N i just bought it few weeks before IA starts.

But then again, since the brace has helped much in straightening and protecting my leg, guess i'll give it a spare. ok.

Enuff with my knee.

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First week of August is OK!. And i cant wait for the long weekends! Ive numerous plans in mind! =D

July, by far, has been a wonderful month. I had many events in it.


It started off with the great chalet I had with my girls. It was some suprise birthday party for raudhah n arafah. That chalet too, marked my last moment of the long school vacation.



Then my IA started. It was kinda tough for me initially. To transit from the super lemak days of enjoying home life, tidor lambat bngn lmbt n no one cares, to waking up early n off to work every day monday to friday!!

To make it worse, i found my work scope very hard. To prepare samples manually using the machines n my own strength, a job I nerver did before.

But alhamdulillah, days after days, I managed to pull myself through.. n hey! my work is not so bad afterall now. I can prepare a sample, scan it and make a report of it in a day now. =D
N its not so frightening as it was before.

And I kinda like my situation now. Of course, without this girl here below, I think I cant survive in Hitachi. Because of her, Ive always have someone to talk to and go break with, 3 times each day!! (curik tulang mode) hahah!



Thank you Suzana, for choosing Hitachi so as to be with me. awwwww...!!~



After my body was able to adapt to working life, Ive started goin out aft work too!! =D
Well, u know, initially when I started working, I think about home all day long, always cant wait to go home. Once its 5.30, I would straigt away go home n continue my sleep! Coz I always felt tired. hahah!

Just few days ago, I went out with laling Raudah.. where to?
geylang!! Coz we wanted to get tix for Rentak Singapura!! hey got Taufik u know!!

Heh, im now addicted to Ria for entertainment at work.



Unfortunately, the "seller" doesnt look "selling" at all lor. He like dunno how to treat customers also lor.
But nvm, who cares, what matters is we got the tix!
We'll be goin with mary too.
Tell u more abt it aft the event itself.

N tankiu gerl for the Arnolds treat! No ayam beats Arnolds'...!



Then there's once I had a dine-out session with my girlfriends when We were practically bored with work. We had Eatzi for dinner!



Dinner-cum-arafah's brithday!! Coz it was just a days after her birthday.
See gerl, u have double celebration u know u know. mass n mini ones. haha!
lucky u =P


Im hoping for my August to be better! What more with Ramadhan in it. Im very sure it WILL be better. Hopefully insyaAllah, by then, Im able to perform my solat properly la! I still cant sit on my leg n still depend of the chair for solats!

Its kinda embarrassing when I prayed in the mosque coz I had to join the neneks area at the corner. :(
I hope I wont have to do so for terawihs later on.

Readers, doakan la saya sembuh cepat2 okeh?
okeh!