This is an absolute torture. Oh God.. I need more internal strength. And this simply ain't the correct time coz PMS is driving on the road. N i can't believe its for another 2 days!

heh! more explicit explanation on how gerls feel during these times were written by susu on her blog. I found it 100% true though. Esp when other external factors added, acting as stimuli on it. Im going nuts!

Urgh!!! someone, pls entertain me. Im in need of that. Thank You very much.
Gerls, lets go out! out! out!! bring me out!!


ok great, Wei Fen's party is tomorrow N i simply cant come due to meetings meetings and meetings! its frustating when u have already look fwd for it. unless, if she opens her door till nite, Wen hui n I shall come =D

So wen hui is the reserve. N that means, im playing the game. hahhaa, n im like the only girl lah. surrounded by 3 hunks. hunks? ney.. i woundnt call them that. They're just studious-specs-dedicated-students. heheee
1 day to go~ and the nervousness is crunching in my tummy. Makes double nuts for the night.






-im off-ed

Wasted my time to Lavender. Went there alone is boring. Well, its not that Im not used to roam around alone. Just that, handling some important stuff alone scares me.

N I went there just to know that my passport photo was rejected! heh! I don't know why its being rejected. The lady was telling me some shadow and tone thingy..hmm.. didnt really catch her explanation. But the main thing is, Ive to get a new photo. But how come its not rejected when I used it for new ezlink?

and Yes, Ive a new ezlink now. I feel much better coz I can travel freely. N its the second time I lost my ezlink. But Im loving it, coz u noe why, its a new picture la! instead of the one that u'll find in yandao.com for students photos haha!

So I didnt complain much coz ICA is just in Lavender. I went out around 3 plus and before 5, Im home! If its somewhere in woodlands or Jurong, i'll get cranky all day long.

N hmm.. what should i do tonite?? im tired of studying. Ive completed my fyp first presentation. Ive been singing since just now. Not just any songs but nursery rhymes ok! N i just realize that twinkle twinkle, ABC and the bunny song.. the I love u u love me we are happy family.. they all have the same tune! haha! just different in words.

N susu showed this vid? super wow! u gotta see it. ?N pls visit the dove website. esp gerls out there! Time to appreciate urself i tell u!!


ok. I feel so different. 4 days is a torture.

Its 1.59pm and everyone is still asleep! hahaa, im not sure if this is their nap or they are just like me, sleeping all the way till noon since morning.

Im still sleepy. We reached home like abt 3.30am in the morning last nite. So much of a late night supper and shopping! heh.

2 journals down. Dat leaves me with 3 more plus 1 book.

My aim of today:
Finish up 2 more journals.


After much reading, I find the topic quite nice and interesting. It wasnt as bad as i think it would be.

Its all about dental restorations. In simple term, fake teeth. hahah!

teeth.teeth.teeth.teeth.teeth. I wonder if these dental materials im learning about, be inside my own mouth when I grow old. hehee.. mai pakai gigi mas? hehehee

Oh some facts that I came across about pores. You need to massage your face in a circular motion atleast 30 times to clean your pores!

And toner helps to minimize pore size! so that's it.

next stop: toner.

Guess who woke me up today? the adorable Misha woke me up. How suprising is dat. And it shocked me. The moment I opened my eyes, i saw her next to my bed playing with my sweets and junkies. Oh dear, and my Belgian chocs are all out if their places. hahaa!

N i think I instaneously popped up from bed. how on earth can she be up here in my room. She must have climbed up the stairs all by herself! How dangerous is that! True enough, coz I found out that everyone else was alseep. Musli must have brought her out of her cot and accidently doze to sleep. Leaving her roaming around the house on her own.

Kakak, u better start fixing the gate soon.

Now I lost 2 of my sweets. She's cute alright.


But then again, I caught musli eating my sweets and chocs! haha! and to him, he's helping me. Saying that he's preventing me from getting fat. yah rite, nice of u. So now its either him or misha that made my Belgian chocs out of place. Lol.

Kids and my loved ones never fail to keep me from smiling. but then again, there are some that always make me cry.


Ive beginning to think. Somehow I feel that ignorance and sellfishness overtake me. Its true I tell you. The cries-and-shoutings scene I witness everyday. I cant barely hold on any longer. And Ive been ignoring it for months. Darn, I shouldnt have behaving this way. Where am I when the people I love need me? All I think is for myself to be happy. True, I am happy. But I dont each time the scenes appear before me every now and then.

I believe its time for me to get back in action. But seriously, Im not strong enough. I can easily give up like wat I used to do. Leaving them in misery. I keep praying that I have all the will in world to help as far as I can.

There's this one ayat from surah Ra'd, which I had to hafal it when I was Sec2, which I always find quite true n meaningful. And I always use it as my personal motivator.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
"For each (such person) there are (angels) in succession, before and behind him: They guard him by command of Allah. Verily never will Allah change the condition of a people until they change it themselves (with their own souls). "
-verse 11


So I believe that if she herself doesnt initiate for a change. Then I guess dats it. But I dont think she wants to be like this either way. Sometimes I wish I have the power to change everything. But I dont. So I must make her change, somehow or somewhat.. better. But then again, I dont have all the time in this world for her or for them. It saddens me alright.

What I can see is that... their level of patience is higher than a mountain. Despite those things, they never give up just like that. N i feel that mine is shorter than a tree. Coz i just run away from what Im supposed to do.

Yea so everyone knows that God is Almighty and Great. He's everything one should turn to. Qudrah..Iradah. I know he can change everything. There's always a hidden hikmah behind every sufferings He give. That leaves me to just continuous Do'a then..




Im like freaking emo lah.
Believe me, all I want is a.....

ooops Im a day late. Musli!! u better read this!

Hey 15 is no longer lil kn? hah tkpe2!! mintak present tk agak2 nk kasot! hehehehe.. I'll get u one if its cheap! else, nxt option kk?

Da besa jgn ponteng solat! njoy ur teen life boy~

For the first time, I received pillows as prezzies. not one but 2! N I think Misha loves the pillows.

It was enjoyable walking around with raudah. The girl who gave me this cute lil pillow. Tanx!!

The 2 of us make a perfect bimbos. We were from Kallang, watching 'em played soccer or futsal, dunno wat la. We were there just to support our friends coz we don't really understand how the game goes. N I think we asked too many questions between ourselves. haha! nvm, it doesnt matter.

All we did was eat n talk n eat n talk. We just had mee rebus and mee soto, n we already planned to head geylang for mee kuah. But then again, we were lost and we headed straight to woodlands. Its not that we boarded the wrong bus. Its..we just boarded any bus coz we dunno how to get out of that area. And end up, dunno where the bus went. So we just hopped off to any MRT we saw. And it happened to be City Hall. We gave up n went woodland. We fed ourselves kropok leko, hotdogs and cempedaks. we ate $2 worth of kropok leko each.

N If you can see the pic on the papers next to me, dats one of the topics we always talked about. Not just us, but common among girls. About bodies. hehee.. I dunno why girls always want a nice figure, and they tend to feel low self esteem when they see theirs are not as nice as those in advertisements, TVs, papers, etc. They just want to be beautiful coz girls love to be complimented... positively ofcourse. N I think their biggest fear if guys commented negatively on their looks. *shruggs* its nature I guess.

Well, arafah n I always have that kind of conversation too. hee.. gosh, she posted pix of us on the last day of sch! wheeeee~ its true i love them. Sad that I didnt follow them walking around coz Syamid n I headed off to Sports complex. ney.. there's always other days~ but holidays are tight. I dunno if we can hooray2 like we what we always do.

I must say.. Yr 2 Sem 2, is the only semester that I eat lunch with the girls ALMOST everyday. I kinda like it. Fun! they're always so hectic yet funny.

Of enuf of them. Fir booked a pit for us just now. N he chose 5th of March.

n this thing above saddens me. I wanna go to the pit lah!! Idiotic preparation of solutions!

Now I understand y the yr 3s always say FYP is a killer. It kills. I just print out up to 30+ pages resources to be presented on the 28th. Oh, not fogetting the 4 library books we were forced to loan. Dhoom. I cannot stop complaining. forward! forward! I wanna grad just like them!

Talking about grad.. u shud see the vid Zul made.. so touchy.. its on his blog. or u can view it here:http://youtube.com/watch?v=NeaJfXojBfw

The team is getting bigger n bigger! n the team spirit rocks my socks!

its bedtime now. daa~

[I want a happy family]

Holidays are here. But I'll be very busy. Even Weekends.
People, busy woman soon to come.
Till April.
*sobs*


Im a careless freak.
I lost my Ez-link.

I call this 2g.



And I call this 3G.
3 generations.
now I can picture how i look in like 30 yrs and 50 yrs to come.. hehee

I wanna say tanx to everyone who wished me!! n gave me any kind of prezzie~~

tanks! syukran! terima kaseh!

I love u all lah.

Cant wait for the last day tmr! yayness~

I complained. On the biasness of Joy Tan. On the unfairness of the system. Its just unfair.
Doing something Im not interested in?
N its supposed to be 1-yr stretched FYP.

hmm... but I believe its getting more n more OK once Ive started reading up.

Dental materials, Im forcing myself to drill on you.

But oklah.. after looking through the books we borrowed.. I think I was just demoralised by the unfair treatment in the first place.


Im gonna be a busy woman soon. woman? neh.. busy girl.

- A lit review by 27 FEB
- Quiz tranings. I still don like Alvin though
- N my ever still pending PP. haha!

Im mentally tired.

Even 5 days Silat trainings do not tire me as much as those above do.

Reading and reading and reading. Words turn me off. Show me picutres and numbers please.


Off! off! off!
Im off to sleep!