First Annivesary

Terence and I celebrated our first year annivesary on the 27th of May 2007.We still can't believe how fast time flies and that it's already been a year.

And of course there were presents!

WOooHHhhhhOOOO!

Thank you and you and you

thanks for your words of encouragement,

Terence, Jess, Joan, Clara, Clarissa, Sharon, Abi and Derrick

All i can say is, Thank God and Thank God for E-support.

(:

hundreds of thousands

so the husband knows the ONE in the Hundreds of Thousands of ways to make me happy, and then fat. All the way from sydney airport, here come the Krispykreme! The teeth did feel like they were all gonna fall out after.

i quit

i dunno how some people do it but im not that some person i quit. i quit being someones mother and wife and daughter. its just too draining and i surrender. i tried but im too tired. i dont have ANY time for myself at all anymore. I'm always rushing from one point to another, thinking about what i have to do now and finish by what time so that i can start the other and not be late so that it wont drag on to the other thing that has to be done. my brains are tired and my meridiens are reversed. i cant stop thinking about stuff from the moment i wake to the moment i sleep. This, my friends, is not quality of life. Its just functioning. one day, your batteries will die. mine are dying. the only time i get to shut down completely is when i fall asleep. even sleep has its functions right now. just so that i can function tomorrow. I quit . right now.

as good as it gets

We miss terence. He's at a fake war, and being held "hostage" by terrorists.

He's on a hostile evironment course which basically means he's going to sydney to get kidnapped and then taught how to negotiate himself out of the situation in the midst of recognising different types of bomb shelling and bullet wound treatments. I think he's looking forward to the fake blood that they apparently use sometimes. Sounds like a bad tv drama set like the one down in Tuas but i'm sure he'll have much fun. sounds quite drama doesn't it???

We heart borders

oh yes we do. very very much but i was utterly disgusted by the mess that was left late on a Saturday night at the childrens' section. I don't blame the store at all. I blame the parents. What kind of parents would allow their children to leave books all over the floor after reading them?! This is a lawsuit waiting to happen. Someone just has to trip and break his/her teeth. I'm not kidding. I've seen mess. My room. But this is really really bad. I'm so angry.

can't put my finger on it

i've been thinking about this for quite a while now. well, it took me a while to think about it cause i guess i was trying to figure out exactly what i was feeling and perhaps to reconcile the thoughts with feelings. I've suddenly become pretty freaked out when i see pregnant women. not freaked out in the OMG she's pregnant way. but i feel a little uncomfortable about the whole thing. Yes it seems ironic and weird that i'm feeling this way NOW after 6 months of giving birth but i guess it's because i am very visual and after giving birth myself, i know EXACTLY what everything looks like in a pregnant woman's stomach. I mean, i've seen a freshly born child, i've seen what the placenta looks like, and i've even seen the waterbag that held both baby and placenta. What's even more disturbing is that the baby comes out AS IT IS which means i can now picture how it looks like curled up in the uterus. when i was pregnant, i knew what was happening in me based on textbooks and documentaries. but it wasn't real enough for me.

squeezing my way through honour guards at the istana for an assignment

Ignorance IS bliss as i now look back and remember how i just sailed through my pregnancy without thinking TOO much about it. If i did, i don't think I would have hopped onto the bow of that narrow unstable dragon boat with all my camera gear, while 8 months heavy to do a photo shoot for work. Not because it's dangerous, but I wouldn't be able to concentrate, thinking about what it looks like inside the stomach as i shift from one weird bent double position to another. Ewww. I wasn't trying to be a Hero but that's the nature of my work and i was doing all things normal. I always believed and was advised to do what is normal for me. For me, carrying 8kg of equipment and walking around, sporadically contorting into weird positions was normal. My normal is not normal for others. But then again i think i was pretty crazy.

Now when i see pregnant women, i have X-ray vision, and then i feel very strange. This is starting to be an occupational hazard, being visual. How can something so natural seem so un-natural.

1..2..3..

STOP!! PUT THAT DOWN! you really don't wanna eat that. after reading this article, i really think i should be dead by now. I'm anticipating. Now you go think when was the last time you did it too!

botak is the new thing

so apparently this is the new look

nate met up with uncle tay once again at richard's birthday party