I feel like I'm standing at the border of bothering and being nonchalant..

I feel like I'm between closing myself up and not..

I've not felt like this in a long time.. I don't even know what started this..

But now.. I feel pain.. Like this numbing pain sensation is running thru every fibre of my body.. Trying to take hold of whatever it can get to..

And now I'm left wondering.. Should I fight it or just let go..

It's been a long time since I've last blogged..
I've actually stopped posting a long time ago..
So there might not even be readers..
But a blog being a blog is a place to air thoughts and feelings..
So I'll just type whatever I want..

Jealousy, envy..
Never nice feelings to experience..
The only reason I can think of is that people will only feel that way if they compared themselves to others.

So if I don't compare..
I won't feel that way?