Yah.. I havent blogged for a while.. I was too tired the day b4.. so I slept early.. b4 tt, my bro was hogging on to the com.. like now.. tt's y I could only gain access now.. sigh.. I need a router.. desperately.. sigh.. anyone wanna provide me with one?

Nth much happened these few days.. sch.. played pool.. gt back.. gave tuition.. yah.. tt's all..

Hi ppl.. yah.. it's early in the morning.. n I'm nt tired..

Many things had happened during this short span of 2 days.. I shall nt elaborate..

All I can say is tt my heart's aching.. like seriously aching.. the gripping feeling is back.. n I dun think there's anything any doc can do abt it either..

I keep getting bruises outta the blue.. I dunno where they come frm.. prob I was careless n knocked against smtg.. I dunno.. I really cannot rmb if I did..

My right toe.. if u all know.. some person wonderfully stepped on it n dropped a tray on it.. causing my toe to become bruised.. well.. tt's nt the worst.. the worse thing is.. it's oozing pus out now..

I'm having lotsa probs.. sigh.. nt gd..

N yes.. I'm supposed to go to sch later.. I'm supposed to wake up at 7.. I've gt lessons at 9.. bt I'm still awake..

I dunno how long I can keep at this.. I seem to be getting weaker by the moment.. yah.. health wise.. otherwise.. I'm still as stubborn.. maybe worst.. haha..

Ok.. I cannot really rmb what happened the past few days.. bt.. what juz happened is unforgettable..

Went out to trim my hair.. it's nt v visible.. bt it's lighter.. then went down to Orchard pt's Mushroom pot to fill in my appln form.. then went out with Hester, Dillon n him..

I talked to Robin.. n.. well.. I'm currently uncommitted to anyone..

I've gotta do smtg.. I feel like I'm falling down tt way again.. like.. no matter what I do.. I'll still end up alone..

Dar.. I know u'll be here.. guys.. I know u all will provide me with some sort of morale support.. bt.. it's juz different..

I've walked so far.. in the end.. it doesn't even matter..

Ok.. I rmb.. yest.. 25/12 rather.. went out with Cherie, her mum, him n nat.. Cherie, nat, him n I went to watch Phantom of the Opera.. it was GOOD..

Then we went to "Lao Bei Jing" to eat.. the food was nice..

Aft tt, nat, him n I headed to esplanade.. the view was great.. the plc was crowded..

I'm feeling tired now.. bt somehow.. I cannot slp.. my eyes r like on the verge of closing.. zzz so tired...

Hi! Ok.. Christmas is round the corner.. in fact, it's tmr!

I've finished my Christmas shopping.. or most of it.. for those who I left out this yr.. I'm sorry kz.. really dun have the time to get smtg for everyone.. n I dun have the $$ too.. yah.. tt's y.. sorry peeps.. bt rest assure I do rmb u..

To:
Min Li.. thx a lot for ur msg.. :)
Marcus.. u've been a great fren..
Tisa, Zhaoz, Hun.. thx guys.. u all have always been here for me..
Chin Pei.. thx a lot gal.. thx for being such a great fren..
Sayang.. although we're no longer in the same sch.. no longer sticking to each other like glue.. we still do meet up on sun.. thx for being with me..
Dar.. I love u.. this yr.. we're in the same class.. out of SO many ppl.. the possibility of getting into the same class is very minimal.. bt we're able to.. God muz have a plan.. :P.. Dar.. thx for being with me thru thick n thin...
AK.. u muz cherish! Muz!!! If there's anything u dunno.. can ask me.. I'll try to help u in any way possible..
Chris.. u've been wonderful in more ways than one.. thx for being there when I needed someone to be..
My dear class TB03.. u guys r great.. bt we muz bond more.. muz be HOMOGENIOUS.. muz GEL together.. haha..
Those frm kb.. u guys r wonderful.. I nv felt unwelcomed there.. didn't feel like an outcast at all.. thx a lot.. :)
Dear.. I.. I dunno what to say.. there were gd times.. n bad ones.. we've been thru a lot.. I know u have probs of ur own.. n I've some of my own too.. bt.. u muz share kz.. Love u..

Last bt nt least..

I wanna thank this v impt person.. Chan Xian Xiang.. although I know tt he'll NV get to read this.. I still wanna thank him for making my Christmas wish come true.. in fact.. he gave me more than what I asked for.. thx a lot..

What's Christmas to u ppl? A time of giving? or a time of receiving?

It's actually neither.. it's to commemorate Christ's birth.. ok.. in a way.. it's God.. giving Christ to us.. God's always there.. He knows our needs.. Christ came down to the earth for a purpose too.. to die for the sins of the believers.. Wonderful huh..

Ok.. my timetable for the day..
1. Go to sch - 1000 - 1200
2. Go to church for choir practice 1430-1730?
3. Go for carolling 1830- 2200?

And for Christmas day..
1. Go for gospel mtg 1100- 1230
2. Go for choir practice.. (time unknown)

Oh! I wanna thank all those ppl who gave me presents for this yr's Christmas.. this yr's the 1st yr with the most Christmas presents..
1 frm Dar, 1 frm nat, 1 frm Alice jie, 3 frm auntie jacqueline (Cherie & Leon's mum), 1 frm Xian Xiang, will be mtg Chun Xiang later.. he told me he wanna give me smtg.. so I surmise tt I'll be getting another prezzie.. :P.. the prezzies I have frm my aunties.. so tt'll be 2.. so I should have a minimum of 10.. :) cool! haha.. shouldn't brag.. so bad.. bt.. yeah.. thx!

What will happen if...

The world is full of egoist, arrogant ppl...?

The world is abundant with pessimistic ppl?

Everything in the world's the same..

U're surrounded by ppl who dun feel a thing to others..

It'll be monotony.. it'll be v saddening..

Tt's y our world is nt like tt.. everyone is made different.. created for a specific purpose.. one in which.. I still do nt know of..

Dear.. I hope tt u'll nt keep saying tt abt urself.. it hurts me a lot to hear or see u send those msges.. I know tt I dun show it.. I know tt I seldom say it.. bt I feel it.. I feel frustrated.. I sigh a lot.. I think a lot.. I dun talk a lot.. bt I write a lot.. u should know tt..

All those ppl who THINK u know me might nt actually know me.. if u THINK tt I'm an extremely extroverted individual, u might be shocked to find out tt I actually dun talk a lot.. I'm more inclined to write.. interesting fact?

I can do many crazy stuff.. esp when I'm feeling frustrated or agitated.. believe tt?

I can truthfully say.. tt even my family do nt know a lot abt me.. cos I keep lotsa stuff.. my parents said tt I've changed a lot.. I agree.. I used to be a bubbly, talkative child.. now.. I'm nt tt outspoken.. many things r kept in.. bottled up.. where they'll stay for a long time.. many of the things will nv be let out ever..

As for the rest..
It's for me to know...
& for u..

NT to find out...

I'm back.. I went out to do my POA tutorial juz now..

Went to ank mac to do it cos diana's sick.. sigh.. ppl r all falling sick these few days.. I muz be STRONG! Cannot fall sick.. wait.. I alr did.. hmm.. ok.. muz nt fall too sick..

POA tutorial work was ok.. besides.. I had a POA pro doing with me.. what could go wrong? Our ans tally.. so.. my ans are 99.99999% correct.. haha..

I dunno what's going on.. I dunno what's wrong.. dear.. can u help me..? I dunno what u want.. I dunno what u need.. u said tt u keep wanting more.. of what? Haven't I done enough?

Kai Siong n me outside Heartland Mall.. 

Kai Siong studying the menu.. 

Hey! I juz reached home nt so long ago..

Dar, ak, Benny n Wanni didn't come to sch today.. dar's down with fever.. ak down with flu..

Did presentation for BMgt today.. was ok...

Skipped maec lecture in the middle.. too bored..

Met Kai Siong for dinner at Kovan's pizza hut.. nidce dinner.. haven't seen him for a long time.. it was great seeing him..

Bao Bei.. I know u're reading my blog.. :) u tag my tag board kz..? muz let me know who u r..

Nice pics? :) Look at the one with the 3 of us.. toning.. Dark, tan, light.. nice rite.. haha.. shades of skin colour..

Yah.. n I'm still nt on my tutorial.. what in the world have I been doing.. sigh..

Squeeze... Alice Jie took this.. notice tt Norman's the only one in safety belt.. haha.. he didn't wanna get demerit pts.. 

Norman, me n nat.. I took this in the car 

The finished Twister.. haha.. masterpiece by Portia 

Twister.. only left with Hester n me on the mat.. 

Me, Nat n Norman.. Charles is beside.. Notice tt we're all wearing black.. :P 

Norman n Charles 

Norman with nat sitting behind him.. at the left corner is Marcus then Felicia.. 

Shifu n the bbq pit 

Jason (looks scary) 

The Sims' Christmas tree 

Me n the tree 

Nat's Christmas tree 

Ooo.. I forgot to blog this juz now.. dar gave me an early Christmas prezzie.. an anklet.. nice.. :)

I've been receiving quite a few early christmas prezzies this yr.. Gt frm auntie, nat, alice jie, dar.. I alr know 2 of them.. haha.. nvm.. I'll open or use them only on Christmas.. or aft Christmas.. no cheating.. :P

I haven't done my tutorials yet.. bt at least I've done most of my ppt slides.. n I did it by myself.. :P

Nat's torturing me by tickling the sole of my feet.. n laughing at my rxn.. it's nt funny... :'( n now she's making my neck n my head.. ARGH.. nt funny!!!

NO! I'm nt like an animal! I'm nt like a penguin.. neither am I like a cat.. no.. I'm nt..

I wanna eat ice-cream bt she dun wanna take for me.. hmph.. sigh..

He's having a long wkend off this wk.. he only has to book in on the 2nd.. so cool rite.. like as though it makes a diff.. I still hafta go to sch.. no diff..

I post some pics.. :) Let u see the cute Norman.. :P

I'm at nat's.. went down to orchard juz now.. yah.. then came over..

I'm SO tired.. I dunno y.. bt I've gt lots to do.. I've nt done my tutorials for tmr yet.. sigh.. I'm so slack! This will nt do.. I muz buck up..!

I'm in sch alr.. haha..

Sat was ok.. we didn't manage to swim cos it was raining.. I went down to kb bbq.. he didn't.. I dunno.. kinda feel like we're having probs.. he feels it.. I feel it.. hope nth goes wrong..

Sun.. had choir practice.. then went out.. caught 1/3 of Ocean's 12.. yeah.. haha.. lame.. then I went home..

I'm having BCA now.. it's quite lame.. cos I'm like typing while the tutor's talking.. :P so bad.. n.. it's well done.. all of us have no tb.. sigh.. how to do work like tt...

Dar's finished cross stitches.. 

My finished cross-stitches.. Nice??? 

I.. went to teach Cherie.. yah.. then went to causeway with her n her mum.. bought some stuff.. tt's abt all...

I dunno.. I'm kinda temperamental now.. I dunno what really happened.. guessed I'm a bit angry.. we didn't quarrel.. it's juz me.. I'm juz too sensitive.. I dunno.. I dun wanna think.. I'm v tired.. really v tired.. I dunno how much more my heart can take.. I..

Dear.. I'm sorry if I sounded hostile or anything.. really am.. sorry..

My mum cut her finger with the can.. sigh.. it's quite a deep cut.. I hope she'll be fine.. by the time I came home, her bleeding has alr stop.. at least it has stopped..

Today's the 17th.. I might be going for the KSS invitation to this yr Sec 4s celebration.. I mean.. since I've gt no where else to go... y nt? haha.. can help with bonding as well.. so.. it's gd..

I guess I should go rest.. nitez..

I know I haven't exactly been blogging for the past 2 days.. I apologise for tt.. been tired.. sigh..

The lecturer for yest's maec lecture was.. lame.. haha.. at least I dun slp during lectures.. which.. is what I do for the rest of the lectures.. :P naughty.. sigh.. still nt used to waking up so early.. n.. it's DEC!!! sigh..

Went for tuition.. went home.. yah.. tt's abt it.. Dar n Rachel went to KAP's cold storage to ask for a job..

Today.. was late for POA lecture.. haha.. well.. dar n I had breakfast b4 we went down.. so.. we went in during break time.. haha..

Our maec tutor is a canadian.. umm.. Mr Remy Antonine Braun.. yah.. he's a gd speaker.. great eye power.. nice eyes.. haha.. whatever..

I'm at nat's plc now.. receiving stuff.. :P

Dar, ak, paul n rachel are at ps.. they're watching a movie.. national treasure if I'm nt wrong.. I didn't wanna go cos no 1. I've gt no $$.. no 2. I'll be a live wire.. so.. I shouldn't go n "spoil" the romantic atmosphere.. yah.. it's my problem for nt getting someone frm sch.. so.. I can't blame anyone.. can I? haha..

Dear.. love u.. *muacks*

Hey.. I wun be writing much today.. I'm sick.. yah.. as in ill.. Having flu.. sigh..

Today's maec lecture was ok.. lecturer was LAME.. I fell aslp during BMgt tutorial.. cos the tutor was TOO boring.. okok.. nt her fault.. I shouldn't have fallen aslp.. AK fell aslp too.. haha..

I'm feeling a little drowsy.. so I'll go now.. byez..

:P

I'm having my BCA workshop now.. basically it means tt I should nt be blogging now.. bt.. haha.. nvm..

Sigh.. we having a LITTLE prob with proj.. dun wanna elaborate.. was unable to get online juz now.. apparently the com was "acting smart" n turned off my wireless LAN card.. Grrrrr..

OH! The class nxt door is doing "New Kid on The Blog".. it's to set up a own personal blog page.. yah.. haha.. if I'm supposed to do tt.. I'll prob send mine in! Haha..

Smtg's wrong with the pics I posted.. if u really wanna see.. maybe u can click.. try.. I dunno if it'd work..

Dear bought sm cream for my cracked n dry skin.. feet.. yah.. it's GD! Nice! :)

Gotta eat later.. haven't had a thing today..

Sat..
Went for kb.. then went out with dar, ak, nat, him.. yah.. tt's abt it..

Sun..
had choir practice.. quite tiring.. cos had to lead.. aft tt went to Far East.. walked ard.. had subway for dinner.. nt bad.. interesting.. nv ate it b4.. :P

Caught Blade Trinity.. it's.. ok.. nt tt bad.. bt LOTSA vulgarities.. n I really mean A LOT..

Went to Nat's for gua sa.. now my neck's like RED.. like lobster.. argh.. haha..

I gotta slp.. lessons for later is early.. what am I saying.. everyday's the same.. 9-3.. sigh..

Nat's timetable for this sem is GD.. 2 days 1 hr lessons.. sigh.. bt if it's me.. I wun like it.. cos I've gotta travel FAR.. haha.. okok..

Cammie (Rachel's dog!) 

Di, me n leon 

Coriander Catch @ Jurong Pt's Fish n Co 

Meal worms... 

Cherie n me 

Sweet.... he bought! 

Hi ppl.. I know I'm quite late..

Today, I attended my 1st POA lecture.. I haven't done ANY of my tutorials yet.. I'm so going to die.. ARGH.. muz work hard..

Aft lecture, dar, ak, paul, rachel, zw n I went Jurong East Swimming complex to play.. it was fun.. then we went to rachel's plc to swim.. the gals had a steam bath too.. it's nice.. relaxing..

Aft tt, dar n I went to Jurong pt to have our dinner.. we ate at Fish n Co.. ppl.. do NT go to Jurong pt's Fish n Co to eat! Their service is VERY bad.. The both of us complained SO much.. We asked for a recommendation n the staff recommended EVERYTHING tt's on the menu.. sat there for 1/2 hr n the water was nt refilled.. asked for soya sauce n they said tt they didn't have.. So we complained.. it's nt cos we're juz being unreasonable.. as a restaurant, they should have the basic service tt is expected of them.. what's more.. they're a well-known restaurant! Their service shouldn't be TT bad.. we didn't wanna pay for their service charge.. n the manager gave us a diary meant for customers who spend above $50.. whatever.. I'm def nt going back there to eat again.. the food there isn't all tt nice either..

Went down to J8 to check the price of sm stuff.. yah.. then came home..

Dear.. so sorry for nt calling u.. dun be too upset abt ur obstacle course.. u're sick.. n tired.. I'm sorry...

Sayang.. if there's anything at all.. pls.. tell me.. tt piece of news today came as a shock.. I was having lecture when u msged me.. I was so stunned.. I was unable to concentrate.. pls.. pls.. tell me kz..

Hi.. had BMgt lecture today.. it's a portion of OB..

Went to tutor Cherie today.. she's such a sweetie.. v nice of her.. sigh..

He gave me a bottle of sweets which, I cannot bear to eat..

ZW passed me a packet of worms today.. no joke.. meal worms.. I gt Cherie n him to eat.. n my sisters.. esp Crystal was particularly interested in eating it.. they only knew it aft they ate it.. man.. I'm so bad.. :P Hey.. it's Thai imported ok..

Been thinking a lot.. dun even know what I'm thinking of.. juz thinking.. n thinking..

Dar.. tc of urself kz.. I'm sorry.. I know tt I can't always be there for u.. more so now than ever.. bt I'm always here when u need me.. I'm juz a call away.. I'll always be here..

Dear.. u really mean smtg to me.. pls.. dun doubt.. I wun take u for granted.. I wun..

Ak.. if there's any probs.. anything at all.. dun hesitate to come look for me..

Hun.. it doesn't mean tt cos I'm no longer in the same class n sch as u tt I wun be there for u any longer.. I still will.. keep in contact kz.. I do care abt u..

Sayang.. if at times I do seem overly bz.. n seem as though I dun care abt u at all.. it's nt true.. I do.. juz drop me a msg to tell me how impt ur prob is.. I'll call u back.. else.. u can drop me a msg.. then call me..

My blue roses.. 

Tabi, me n my sis Rachel (check out my hair.. should I cut this length?) 

We're leaving soon.. (see the bags behind?)