Tuesday, February 27, 2007

=)))
Everytime the quarrels just make me feel so sickening, hateful, angry and of cos upset. We tend to forget all sweet times when we are in the heated argument. he was tired too. So we talked things out and manage to find PEACE. =))
One thing about quarels is that we learn more about our dears. I managed to understand more on him and what and how he feels. he also managed to find out how i feels and understand me. =))
Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
i love you for you, so i wun get you change for me. we just need some space.
So yeahs!!!!! cheers. i hope nthg gonna get wrong ever again. i trust you.<3

ilu
yun loves jie. <3

With ♥ 9:45:00 am

Monday, February 26, 2007

ARRGHHHHHH!!!!!
idiot. FUCK FUCK FUCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate you.
i feel so much like crying. all because of you. You dun understand. you can never understand.
fuck you la. nbcb
all within me you cnt understand.
the insecurity, the worries.. blah and blah.
why are everyone doing well wit their steads and not me??
Why am i having so much trouble over tis relationship.
it is worsening day after day.
and we jus started. wth is happening here??????????????
i feel so much lk killing you.
so much lk walking straight to the wall and bang my head and die on spot.
fuck.
why are the bickerings nv ending????
izzit gonna end lk tis?
are all these falling apart?
baby i just couldnt trust you.
cos theres nthg there which can prove ur relability.
go die la you.
tmd.
鸡蛋糕。破坏我的心情only.

With ♥ 12:51:00 am

Thursday, February 22, 2007

21feb07

I was so tired so vexed. Was it really my fault? Did i caused this? Somehow i knew i was the reason. And i was just trying to fool myself to make me feel better. I know how it feels, i underwent such treatment too, before. It feels bad, betrayed. I know. Why am i hurting her, when she never do anything to me before? Why? She don't even know me, i don't even know her. Why am i doing this. I dunno whether is she hurt, but i guess, most probably, she is. i feel so much like going straight t the wall, bang my head against it, and die right on the spot. My mind just couldn't stop spinning, couldn't stop hurting. wtf.

Ok. next topic. I feel so contradicting. How can i help when he dun even wan to help himself. What got him into this. Himself. Why izzit such that the sch dowan him, want him out?
1) the teachers hate him.
2) he dun turn up in sch at all.
3) he is lazy, simply no studying.
4) he did sthg wrong, veh veh wrong, which i tink he wil regret yrs ltr.
5) he had no ambitions in life.

He is a clever person. If he is willing to do it, he can get good results. I helped him. i taught him chemistry. But i found out tat his foundation for sci wasn't even there at all. =.= He dun even know the symbols for simple, common elements like potassium, calcium, sodium, chlorine, blah blah. When all these are supposed to be memorised long ago, back in sec2?
tel me how to help. He asked me for help. Yes, he want to get good grades too. But he isnt trying. I did force him to study. And he manage to absorb 1 chapter on metals. This isnt the way though. cos the whole book he isnt sure at all. he jus randomly picked tat chapter.
I shud teach him from chap 1 onwards but he just wan random pick de. lidat how to study? confirm get blur. BMC teach til so slow. how to cover all?
this year he Olvl yr, and tat stupid sch fucking hell kick him out. black hart, bo xim. bloody hell. mei you ren qing wei. couldn't they jus let him finish his sec5, at least??? fuck you.
haix... People, tell me how to help can. I dun feel like leaving him to waste his life. As he alrdy wasted by dropping into NA. HOW TO HELP??? or leave him to go simei ite meh. ==
zzzzz
you all might think tat i kpo. But if you all ever know him, know bout his past, i am sure you al wanna help too.
I just dunno how to help him.
Ok. next.
went fisherman village today wit both jxs and hami. ordered lots of food. Nice place.=))

With ♥ 9:25:00 am

Thursday, February 15, 2007

This time, i gonna enjoy my holidays to the fullest finally!
Weeee!~ Cos i'm telling them i shall QUIT right after chinese new year =))
I dun care what shit they would give me this time. I just wanna fly free=)))
and guys! hey, i will be joining you all in ur world soon. and i gonna look forward to it.
I shall live up my promise and visit sentosa, too.

cos, i miss my own life, greatly.

With ♥ 9:59:00 am

Friday, February 09, 2007

2feb07

i am surprised, very, very surprised.
I did not expect this kinda results in the first place.
I don't expect to get A2 for Dnt at all. As you all already know, er hem... my er.. the pathetic artefact can't work totally, at all. Mr Leong told me before, once the artefact cannot work, its almost impossible to get an A already. UNLESS, folio and theory =))) . folio is er .. ok ok lor. so i guess its theory's magical help . =)) i didn't expect that, really.
Secondly, for combined humanities, i can't believe my eyes. Cos i thought i would do rather badly? As i did not finish my Social studies paper. =( Due to going to toilet in the middle of the exam. STILL, i almost thought i blur diao or sthg. i actually got A1 !!!
=)))

Yeah, 6 distinctions.
i am quite proud of myself actually. I have done well.
Only bio got B3. BUT nvm. i am contented.
Funny thing is that i am only quite happy and surprised for a mere minute. Afters, my mood is like. Like that lor kinda feeling.
I wonder whats wrong with me nowadays. Everyone is getting worried ytd, which is the day before results are out. BUT me, ONLY ME, who is not at all anxious? ytd, after getting home frm work i slack abit liao jiu start my spring cleaning le. Despite countless peeps who smsed me and told me how worried they are, i am not stirred at all.
=.= rite.
ok. den get result le shud be happy. but i wasnt that concern??? I feel dead.
no more feeling left within me, since that day. that day which everything totally ends.
Fine. forget it. Like this is better than getting anxious too much rite? this is more relax. no stress at all. Still, CELEBRATIONS=))
shop and shop. both jx are getting buay tahan le. cos i anyhow buy. see it, like it, take it! lol.
they told me dun anyhow buy liao. must save up.
ya.. i want to. But its difficult to resist, you know? lol

Me and xt. =)) i miss her. =((

I feel sorry for dad. he took today off to wait for my results. also i promised to treat him a nice dinner. BUT, instead, i forgot all about him and went out shopping with jxs instead. den leave him at home and wait and wait. when i finally pick up the phone he told me he waitng for me to come home den can go eat tgt. den i told im i alrdy eating outside le. he sound veh disappointed and kinda .. sad?
SORRY!!! i promise to make it up to him on my nx off day. But when i off, he not off. so how can i make it up to him??? i felt very very bad.=(((

pics.
Dinner at Jack's Place

Den today so ps. we dunno Jacks place nv accept nets. den we order separate bills ma. den eat liao the pple say nv accept nets de. den me and sjx dun have that much cash. lol den njx dun have that much cash to pay for all 3 of us either. so me and sjx nid pia al the way to atm to take money, to pay for the dining. lol..... like so pathetic lidat. haha. so lame today.
but love it la.. But this is my last off day liao. after cny den can off. =((
k. nitey!! <33

With ♥ 11:09:00 pm

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

i hope i hope, i pray i pray. I just wanna pass my Olevels with flying colours... =)))

PS.: I dun care about what others think. Cos i'm no longer like the past. Come to think about it, why should i care about what others think if this thought is going to jeopardise whatever i am doing? I live for myself. Living for others is just like not living at all. Cheers=))

With ♥ 11:24:00 pm

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

This fri take results. OMG. i am totally not ready yet. I am scared, very very scared. but anxiousness is, luckily, stil steady and haven took over me. =)) i think on that day itself i wil be trembling with fear and happiness. the day i waited so long and yet scared. =))))) anyway. anyone knows whether registration is through online or through filling forms and submitting or through visiting the poly it self to register straight at the poly?? tel me by sms. thks lots. loves!
ok. enough.
erhem....
so tired working at hougang mall. there the customers are sooooo many and in crowds that i simply feel like screaming at them to get out of the shop. so we could at least hav some rest.??
lol. and if this happens, i wil sure tio sack straight away. =DD
and there de pple very very GEY GAO. and i mean to the extreme. I have nv seen customers like that anywhere since i was born. you will feel like slapping their mouths out of their damned faces. or shout at them 'BA PO' like wat xiao lian calls them. idiot women. siao zhao bo. They are like haunting us. keep coming back to the shop to FAN REN. so fan lor. buay ta han . tmd.
oi. hen fan de leh. tats wat we TOLD the idiot customers. lol. lucky no complaint.
if you are with us you wil understand. siao de.
=.=
LOL.
enough. i am tired of ice lemon tee. i wan to quit la. so lethargic and no energy de. i falling sick because of that shop la. damn it. i seriously dislike the mgr somehow. she dun seem to like me too. everytime throw me to those zapalang ulu shops far away. siao. den during the day before cny eve. i nid to work at marina sq til 12am. listen up. 12 am. leh. ki siao. i hope they would change their mind. siao de lor. i 16 nia leh. ltr halfway police catch den how. fine and probation ah. siao siao siao. my mum wan kill them can. stupid. fuck them.
=X
nite.

With ♥ 11:55:00 pm

Friday, February 02, 2007

camwhore=)). let the pics do the talking.

hah. playing wit kiddos.