4bia is so fucking scaring!!

Oh my god, 4BIA is really way too scaring.. It scare the hell out of me, holy shit.. I was covering my eyes if not my ears half of the movie, of cause i shouted hell loud and i cried too.. And i don't understand why must guys laugh every time when they are watching horror movie, some told me they find it funny to hear girls screaming like no tomorrow and some told me because they know is just a movie is untrue, nothing to be afraid of.. And i now understand why we need a guy to watch horror movie with because they are brave enough to let us feel not that afraid somehow.. Luckily LADIES didn't watch it together, if not i think we will be hugging each other and cry it the end, isn't it funny? Ha.. But like what honey told me is right, everything happened for a reason even for horror movie is the same.. Tim told me not to think about it after watching finish the movie it means finish, thinking more about it will only make myself more afraid.. After that cabbed to honey's house for monopoly.. Due to we both were way too afraid, we decided to bathe together is good to have a accompany..

Cam-whoring is fun..

Girls other from dolling themselves up, gossiping, shopping, having high-tea and dating the favourite pastime of every girl i think should be cam-whoring.. Cam-whoring with sister is always fun, fun and fun.. Yesterday had a short conversaion with Tim, he let me understood loads, he told me loads of things that i never ever think about.. Yup, maybe he is right.. I should really believe in love and relationships again..

Out with LADIES : )

Yesterday met LADIES up for dinner and shopping session.. Took neo-print and of cause cam-whoring too.. Have fun like usual, they always make me happy.. Discussed to watch Thai ghost moive 4bia, but in the missy gin kinda chicken out and missy mabel seems to be having cold feet too.. I think in the end only missy sokkie and i go see together already, THE TWO SCARY CATS(s0 timid).. Omg, today when i was sleeping soundly(morning 8 plus) my honey msg me asked me go to town to accompany her to buy Tim's birthday present..In the end, everything went well and she brought her stuffs and i saw a Fred Perry's wallet is pretty, so I'm buying it.. And somewhere out there you are sitting on my nerves, if you had chosen to leave then just fuck off from my life.. After months of pretending you don't know me, why now act as if you are concerning about me? Even though everything had passed so long, deep down inside I'm still afraid, very very afraid..

Honey, this is for you!!

I'm soooo glad, really glad to have such a wonderful and great dearie by my side.. This sweetie of mine who knew too much about me.. Honey, you always know when to give me a hard scolding when i deserves it, you always know when to give me a big hug when i needed it, you always know when to lie or just sit quietly beside me when i just purely need accompany, you always stay with me when you know I'm too lonely to be left alone.. Honey, thanks for being there, always and forever.. Although sometime i don't tell you stuffs at the first moment when it happened, but you will never be the last one to know.. For all you had done for me, i truly appreciate hell loads.. I LOVE YOU MANY MANY!!!! : )

Money not enough 2

Sunday afternoon went bbq with classmate.. Had yummy foods.. Have fun and of cause loads of laughter.. Then headed to Ps for movie.. Watched Money Not Enough 2 with Sam.. Omg.. What everybody said was right, it was hell damm funny at first and it was freaking sad in the end.. I cried like nobody business, resulting in swollen eyes.. The mother in the movie, how her sons treat her really broke my heart.. But is really a good movie to catch, may i say is awesome.. It somehow teaches me what is the real meaning of being poor.. Being poor isn't just concerning about how much you had in the bank, is whether when you are in the hard time will there be anyone to help you, unconditionally?

Happy DAY!!!!

Had a early celebration for my dearest honey's 19th birthday.. Went to the usual meeting place, and i didn't expected that sis and me was the earliest among all, so EVERYBODY STOP CALLING ME LATE QUEEN.. Headed down to have steamboat, loads of funny stuffs happened there.. To marina bay then, and omg is flooded, SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY FLOODED!!! But everything is worth it because of the awesome beautiful fireworks, i loves fireworks, but things that are pretty it normally ends or finish quickly.. Just a blink of eyes it's gone.. Wei rong and Ginny are just too funny, they are cute when they are together.. Kept using my hp to take pics.. Ha.. Back to Ms, and is super crowded to walk through city link is just like having a war.. i happened to saw my cousin, i didn't saw her at first was Sam who told me, of cause we hugged like we always do and cam-whoring is a must.. Ha.. Everybody decided to watch Journey to the centre of the earth, it never came to my mind to watch but it was not a bad movie after all.. Had a heart-to-heart talk with you, sorry for being sooooo selfish at that point of time.. I'm sorry.. Other then sorry i don't know what more to say.. Maybe after sometime, you will find that is not worthwhile to had done so much things for me..

If it can return to the past..

If only i can make time go backwards.. If only everything can return to the past, how good will it be? But i knew it too well the past it's done, it's unchangeable.. Life has to goes on, i have to move on even I'm not willing to.. Don't worry about the people in my past, there's a reason they didn't make to my future.. Oh my.. I still miss you sometimes.. I miss the one whom once i loved deeply for four long years.. This can't be, could it?

Is tiring but fun..

Today lessons suppose to end at 4, but because of make-up lesson, i reached home at 4.30.. Ha.. The first time i see whole class so quiet and attentive, but for guys they are bored to tears.. We learn loads of stuffs, like what skin types we are, what food to eat to have good complexion, what colours suit us, what kinds of foundation we should use and many more.. We learn to make up in a correct way and of cause learn to remove it in a right way too(using Za's products is faster then before).. So after the lesson everyone of us are with make-up, and many of us brought stuffs from Za.. I brought a powder foundation, hope it is good.. After i reached home realised mummy and sister went out, left my poor darling boy at home alone so i decided to cam-whoring with him.. Ha.. See how poor thing the both of us are.. Then went to bathe and have a nap with him together in the cooling air-con room.. Omg.. Singapore's weather kills.. Can someone just shoot the bloody sun down?

I'm not happy!!!

I'M NOT HAPPY!!!! Even i had everything i wanted, I'm still unhappy.. Somehow i felt empty deep inside.. I'm hell sooooooo tired, but i can't get myself to sleep.. I have the strong urge of crying, i seriously don't what's wrong with me.. I just feel terribly upset.. I don't how to make this fucking unbearable feeling go away.. I have extended my heart towards its further end.. I'm truly freaking exhausted.. FUCK!!!! FUCK!!!! FUCK!!!! : (