So sad~

I just watched finish 'Heaven Wedding Gown' and felt so sad for the racer for not being able to get the girl he wants :( Yesterday watched finish 'Lavender' also the same feeling because the girl still died in the end,only leaving Leo beautiful memories. Why love dramas always leave someone unhappy? Haiz.
Left tomorrow before school restarts. *sigh* Why does happy times fly past? 1more day before meeting another year of stress. Oh well,I just hope that it will be the holidays again soon. =]

Wah, too nice?

I just went to get my edusave scholarship today. 500 bucks for being the top ten in level. Wow. Never had anything like this before. Then my dad just now told me he would give me another 500 bucks. Unbelievable ba? Yea,I know. It appears that it has also been the same for my brothers. My dad would give us the same amount the ministry give us,as a reward I guess. Hehehe. 1k for a year's effort. :) But it was sort of a surprise 'cuz me and my dad had a pretty fierce argument before I went to get my prize. So... =] I kinda thought he was pulling my leg. Then again,he never kids about money. Wow,all of a sudden,I felt like I might be allowed to go and watch a movie alone,after all. But,ah well...I don't think it will happen till a few more years go by :)

Merry Christmas =]

Christmas is supposed to be all about family and friends ba? But how come my my family isn't even together? One brother off to shalet with his friends;the other went partying with his group of friends;my parents watching the news and I playing games. But I suppose I ought to be glad that my family aren't those kinds that would invite people over to the house easily for I don't really like my relatives a [huge] lot . 'Cuz we only meet at New Year,which I am dreading because I keep forgetting how to greet them =P The other reason is that I am not really comfortable with huge crowds of people for I wouldn't know how to behave. I mean exactly which kind of good behaviour is expected from me. For example: friendly and try to talk with people or just be quiet and be out of the way or just be a christmas deco. Moreover,there aren't much relatives my age. This night is gonna be boring. Oh well,Merry Christmas,everyone! =)

Shag

Happy Birthday,Mum!:)
Though it is actually tomorrow but my family celebrated it yesterday. We went to Crystal Jade to eat dinner then went over to Xin Wang HK cafe to eat dessert-a mountain of ice,topped with a dollop of mango ice cream and mango juice[i think]. It was pretty good,though my nose,hands and mouth were cold and numb by the time I finished eating it. =) After that,we went shopping for awhile at Suntec then finally went home at around 10pm. Have a shower,then played Runescape for a short while before I slept like a log at 12.30am. At long last,I today can finally play games for a long,long time :D

Omph!

I guess today can be said as productive ba,after all I got a couple of clothes =P I went out to Ikea with my parents and 2nd bro to eat brunch. Then went Giant nearby to shop for groceries. After that,bro went off with his friends to catch a movie and the rest of us went off to rest for a couple of hours at home before going out again. My mum and I went OG to shop and my dad went to buy "chinese groceries". Yay,I managed to persuade mummy to buy a pair of really cool marine colour for us to share[my mum and I can wear each other's clothes] and jeans for me. Came back at about 9pm. Found out that my 2nd bro had 2-As and 4-Bs for his recent exam. Woots! Jiayous for the next few years~!

New spectacles

Yesterday I went down to Millenia Walk to get a new pair of specs for a new year that is coming. This time,I chose a pair with black frames that made me look kinda sophisticated =P When I went for the eye check up,I learnt that my short-sightedness had not increased. But,my shanguang[whatever it is in English] had,by a lot :( I don't wanna become blind. Sob. Guess I really have to make an effort to restrain myself from lying on the bed to read. *pout* Lucky my short-sightedness didn't increase at all for 2 years. Hope that it will be like last year,nothing increased :)

I hate you,you hate me....

Wah. My other side of the hand(not the palm) is brown till my fingers where it is the normal colour.That goes the same for my arms. Now I finally understand why nid to use SKII magic lotion. =) At least now can't be called a white chicken le. Hee. Training on every other day isn't really tough la,just that I can't resist the urge to NOT eat those cup noodles the drink stall sells for my break. Too much cup noodles isn't good for health,I know,but those are pretty nice leh. =P

I hate me

Know what kind of day is my favourite day? A day when no one is at home,raining outside,dark clouds,computer can be used,no clothes hung up and the floor is free of dirt. In short,having silence and semi-darkness is my favourite time. An old guy once said to me that when I grow up,I might be shut in my own world and refusing to speak to anyone. At that time,I thought he was nuts. But now that I think about it,it might be true someday.
I am pretty sure that no one in this world totally understand what I am like. Not even the people around me. Only 1 person might know me well. My 2nd bro. Perhaps my parents know this bond between me and him,that he has begun to be a spy. That is to put it bluntly,a spy on me. However,I can feel that the bond between my parents and I is becoming further and further.
How would I know? Yesterday at dinner,my father hinted extremely strongly that I forged his signature on the consent form for Project Red Cross Love. But,damn! I didn't! Though I know that the form was signed by my father quite a long time ago,but I can't believe that he could suspect me of doing such a thing. The feeling I felt was kind of a mixture of anger and sadness. A strange emotion.
That put me in a bad mood throughout the next few hours before I went to sleep. I am afraid. I am afriad that if this continues,I will no longer have someone to talk to,someone to play with,someone to consult advice. Should I continue struggling to maintain good relationship with people around me or should I just give up? Sometimes I really hate myself,dammit!

A cute,cute guy

Happy belated bdae,Qiao Ni!
Sorry wor,never give you present :( Your fault anyway,who ask you never tell me beforehand..pout* Hee,just joking!
Yesterday I went to Queenstown CC as a volunteer to help out in Project Red Cross Love. The whole event which started from 9am-6.15pm was pretty cool except for long waiting minutes with nothing to do. The volunteers need to help these kids that are from homes to enjoy their day.
I got a very cute guy whom I thought was less than 9years old. He had kinda chubby cheeks and very ticklish. Hehe. But later on in the day,I found out that he was 11years old,Primary 5 this year!! Guess I mistook his height...
Too bad I couldn't take any pics of him for we weren't allowed to bring our hps with us. I don't think I will ever forget that little guy,but I won't be able to see him again....sigh*

Terrible

Oh my god,I just briefly looked through my sec 2 textbooks and they were...gross. The stuff I learnt in sec1 doesn't seem to connect much with those stuff. Even my 2nd eldest bro also said it was gonna be hard. And he is 23. If he says it is difficult,then I am way beyond death. Urgh,I just hope I can manage to wade through next year's mess.
On top of my studies,my social life is just about to break into bits. Why? Easy. 'Cuz my dad don't allow me to go out with friends to even watch a movie. The only time I am ever allowed to go out with friends is on my bdae. How am I supposed to build up friendship when I am not supposed to meet them? GGrrrr.
That is why I always wanted to become an American for based on what I have read,the adults there are pretty OK with their child to go out without their supervision. I will always love 'The Princess Diaries' and 'The Files of Madison Finn'. Those books are way cool[in my opinion,anyway]. :P
Alright,I guess I better get on with my studies. Damn.

Endless idle time

Lolz. I just spent half a day wasting my time playing Pirate Puzzles and 1hr on my piano session. Haiz, how boring my life is. Just my luck that I don't have a younger sibling to play with me. *Pout* Play computer games too long,kenna scolded. Watch tv too long,find it boring[might even get scolded also]. Play piano,fingers will pain. No more storybooks to read. This is totally disastrous.

During Holidays

Slightly more than 1month before school restarts again. I am already feeling kind of going back to school already. normally,this kind of emotion doesn't happen often la,only when I am really,really bored of the holidays. But on school days,I wish for the holidays. Hahaz,so it is sort of vice versa ba.

Most of the time during school holidays,I do the usual routine of spending my time:play computer games from morning till night until I get a couple of warnings from my parents about my eyes before I start on reading storybooks. Then,the school holidays would end there. But this time,things are kinda,erm...say,different ba. Err...'cuz at the start of the school holidays,I got banned from playing any kind of games. So...next on the list is reading storybooks. I went to the library a week later and borrowed 10thick novels,hoping that they will last me a couple of weeks. But.....1week later,I finished reading the books...And now,I found out annother way to cure my boredome,which is watching videos on youtube. But sadly,this is also followed by a warning from my parents about studying for next year and my eyes.
So,I am watching youtube only when my parents are not payinig attention. Hehee. I am so bad. :]

Daddy's Bdae

Wow,I can't believe my dad is gonna be 55 2mrw lo. Perhaps it shouldn't seem as a surprise to me ba,after all,my bros are already 20+ le. Oh well,but it really didn't seem much like a birthday dinner. I mean,though there are much more dishes then normal,something doesn't seem to be there. Maybe it is the atmosphere ba. ^_^ After the main dishes,my eldest bro's gf brought out the durian cake[with a choco layer] for my dad as his birthday cake. Hmmmm.....that was YUMMY. Hee. Every single one of the family members,love durian,so we all pretty much enjoyed it.

OK la,just finished watching Romantic Princess and I LOVE it. I think I am becoming a fan of the main guy le wor. So suai. Hehee.

Kkz, Anyway,Happy Birthday to my Daddy,oh! Hee. Muackx!

Back form Melacca

Yay! I am at last back in Singapore yesterday evening at 6.30pm. Hehee. I am slightly darker than before lo! Hee. The trip to Melacca was with my CCA's people so much more fun than going with family. The excurtion was pretty fun la,just have a lot of walking about. At least 5hours of walking under the hot sun on the 2nd day,so shiong,walk until leg cramp.
Then we met the Red Cresent's people there[Red Cresent=Red Cross] and had a lot of fun with them. But there is a litle age gap la,after all,they are like 15-17 years old. Other than that,we learnt a lot lot lot more about Melacca than we used to. The history of Melacca is kind of scary and a little bit is linked to Singapore.
1 troublesome bit if that we can't drink the tap water in Melacca,then very troublesome,'cuz need to buy mineral water every day or else will dehydrate. TO me,the nights are the best parts. For the 1st night,me and 2 other friends in the room slept at 2am,they two talking,I trying to sleep. Hee. 2nd night there were 'parties' all over the place[except at the teacher's rooms]. I at 1am+ cannot tahan liao,so go sleep,the rest think I they slept at 4am. Then every morning need to wake at 6.30am. So most of us didn't get much sleep and slept on the bus on the trip back.
Overall,the trip was very fun la. Hee,'cuz can dun need to stick with family mah. ^_^ whoops,I am so bad. Hee.

Reason behind me being quiet

Most of you are pretty interested to know why I am always so quiet during lessons ba. Let me explain then.
I found out that words can make a person change his/her mind about you. Like everything else in the world,there are pros and cons. Words can make the person change his/her opinion in a positive or negative way--which also means that how ever the peron look at you, there will be an advantage and disadvantage as well.
I want and like peace. I don't want trouble in any kind. Thus,I thought that keeping quiet might be the best way to escape the trouble monster. It seems like I am right AND wrong. By keeping my mouth shut,the teacher would not call on me to ask for answers or whatsoever often. Sometimes,the teacher might not even remember my name. However,by being silent,I prove to be a perfect target for a bully[not that I get bullied much]. Not only that,the teacher that writes my report card,will never notice what I am really like outside the school. I mean,as in how I behave around my classmates.
I always try to speak up at every start of a new year but loses courage to do so after awhile. I guess I am destined to be a girl that no teacher would worry about for my results are generally quite ok. I am writing this as I have nothing better to do as my eldest brother now forbids me to play any games....I am going insane.

Happy Bdae,Yinglun!

Happy Bdae,Ying Lun!♥Hope that you will have a very sweet 15,o!Hehee. I just posted some pretty gross pics I viewed yesterday night. Hehee. Btw, the bat is preserved and thus,the body looks slimy[thought it IS cute]. Ant the shark is a baby shark[if I am not wrong]. And the skull and frog...hehe. Think what you like about them. ^_^ Cheers!

Happy Bdae,Yinglun!

A

A very very bad feeling

Disaster struck in the evening. I was back-stabbed by a friend[now ex]. A friend that I used to trust. I never thought that she would actually do this to me. And now,I have a bloody huge mess to clean up after her. This is the 1st ever time that I am feeling this kind of emotion and it is really terrible. I was so distracted that when I had my shower,I used the wrong type of soap. I used the shampoo instead of the body soap. Jeez.
Just now,my piano teacher called and asked if she could move the lesson tomorrow from 9.30am to 8.30am. Without even asking me,my father said"sure". Goddamn. This is the holidays,for christ's sake. Holidays are for resting. So why do I have to wake up so early?
I haven't even practise my piano[though I have finished my theory stuff] since last friday. On top of that,I still don't have a solution to my problem regarding my ex-friend. This holiday is really really miserable for me.........

Scrabble competition

Oh my,I won 3 out of 4 games. How sad,I was the best player among the teams and we lost. My sch teams didn't even get to paticipate in the 1st round as we were late for the teacher was late arriving. =.= My team played against Yuying[twice],mayflower and a team made up of 2 schs. Yishun Town Sec Sch provided the place for us to have the games and chocolates and Hi-chews for us to eat while playing. The sch's library has 2 levels! Omg,the sch took up at least 5 soccer fields.
As a total,this is how the 2teams from my school scored: 1 scored3 out of 4;2 scored 2 out of 4; the rest scored 0 out of 4. I wonder how will we win by these scores. Haiz,how sad. There was an upside of this competition though: I could pon Red Cross training. Hehee. Thought I had to spend almost 1 day at Yishun Town Sec Sch,it is still far better than marching around under the hot sun. ^_^
My brain is totally exhausted from all those thinking of words. Urgh,it is badly needing brain juice. Anyone can provide? Hee. Jk, jk....

My bones are breaking

Oh god,please, spare me the agony of going through this damned holiday. It is getting from bad to worse and it is only beginning. I never thought I would say this,but I really want to say this: fuck the holidays.
Today is another tiring day. This morning,I had anothe Red Cross training from 9am dragging till 2pm[including briefing for the trip to Malacca]. Straight after that,I went home to have a bath and shower. Then,my father dropped a bomb shell on me. I had a piano session from 3-4pm. I received the news at 2.26pm. What the hell,I thought,I haven't even finish my lunch!
I thought that my father would arrange the piano session to next week seeing as I was almost asleep. But apparently,no. I had to go for the goddamn piano. GGrrrrr. I was so angry at my father for the thoughtless arrangement of the piano lesson that I shed a couple of tears. How 'well he knows me',I thought at that time.
Later tonight at about 7pm,I have to leave my house for English tuition. Jeez,the only time I had for relaxation was from 4.30-6.30pm. 2miserable hours. Jeez. Haiz. I better go eat my dinner now and get ready for my tuition. Haiz. How disastrous the day is.

Getting unattached to games

Oh God,my arms and legs are still aching from the training yesterday. Argh,how many more months till the competition is here?! I wanna get it over with and fast. Grrr.
Oh well,I guess I will be reading late ino the night again,like I did yesterday night. I am just too engross with books I like. Hahaz. But that is because I am really,really,really,really bored~~
Sobx. I just don't find any games interesting anymore. I really hope that I am outgrowing games for next year,I will be sec2 next year afterall. At sec2,I need to decide my topics and would need o put in a lot of hardwork in it. At sec3 and 4,I will be busy studying for O-levels. At JC or poly,I would need good results if I wanna get into good local universities.
Thus,I guess I will have to stop being addicted to games as I once had been and really,really concentrate on schooldwork. Though I doubt that I will get very nice results for I don't really like studying. In fact,I detest it. Haiz,what a saddening thought,for 1chain leads to another(if it makes sense to you)....

Totally exhausted

Oh my God. I just finished my first footdrill competition training and my hands are already aching from locking it. And this is only the first 4hours out of at least 75hours of training I am going to suffer in the following months. I came back home at about 1pm+. Thank god it was my father that drove me back,for I have no idea what I will do if he didn't. I wouldn't say that it is my most tired day ever in my life but it can be ranked as 5th.
Today just started off too badly. I went to school on my own as my training started at 9am and my dad needs to work and couldn't drive me there. As most of you guys know,there were heavy downpours through out the entire morning. Just as I had almost covered 3/4 of the distance from the bus-stop to my house,the freaking rain started pouring down. [Dun laugh!]But then,I couldn't be like very wet for my training or I might catch a cold[though I currently have the flu already]it over my head till the bus came. It was not until the moment when I stepped down from the bus did I realise that my 5th horrible day had just begun.
Before my eyes,the damned rain was pouring down so fast till I can barely see the raindrops. Cursing the rain,I trudged through puddles of rain that were on the sideroad. I was walking against the direction of the raindrops for the wind was blowing it towards me. By the time I had reached my school,my shoes were soggy wet[which also means that my socks were the same],my trackpants was damp and not to mention my bag which was pratically forming puddles of rainwater on the floor.[That was how wet it was]
After that,I had to endure almost 4hrs of torture by trying to lock my elbow and obeying the same commands again and again and again. But we had 30min of break which was the only positive thing we could have during the training.However,to pay back the break time,we haad to stand under the drizzling rain for almost 2hr. And at last,our training ended. I was surprised when our training ended that it had only been slightly less than 4hrs for it had seemed to be and eternity for me. I just spent the last 2hrs reading storybooks and think that it was a better use of time than my training[Though,no offence meant towards my In-Charge]. ^_^

2nd blog

At last,I am done creating this blog,thkx to the following people for giving me their comments on my last blog:dar,Elysia,ah pek and Weiqian. My 1st blog was at multiply: http://cutebbs.multiply.com/
But I can't have a cbox at multiply and thus,set up this blog. I ain't gonna move the blogs posted in multiply to this site though,'cuz feel that it is kinda troublesome. So just post any comments that you have on multiply on the cbox here,k? Thkx. ^_^