First day of school! First day of school!

And I have to admit I was a little like Marlin from Finding Nemo....uhhh maybe your not ready yet...next year. But its the next step and it will be really really good for her and her speech. And I heard her teacher is in top demand! I'm just so used to having my little baby next to me all day!! I never understood why my Mom freaked out when I started Jr. High and High School....and now I know why, because they grow up WAY too fast!!

Dropping her off the second day wasn't any easier! She really loves it, but we are still doing a lot of catch before she is considered "average" (She is who she is...I don't like the phrase average in regards to learning)

I'm finding it hard in not being so hands on with her learning anymore. And in fear of being "that crazy helicopter mom" I haven't yet talked to the teacher to see what she does in class or what we can do at home to help her out. I hoping that I get a one free ticket in this area, because I'm struggling with the fact I drop her off and that's it. I want to know what she is doing, working on in class and get to know the other students and parents. Maybe its because my school was set up WAY different then a traditional elementary. And while I thrived (I think for the most part) on a more laid back setting, I honestly think Lily needs more structure and that is what her Pre-School class is giving her. I just don't want to be too nosy; I just want to know what she is working on so I can continue to help at home. I guess I am just curious to know what she does in class, I really liked having everything explained to me when we were doing the home visits with early intervention.

I'm an always want to know why person. I don't like being in the dark.

I about cried in front of her teacher Tuesday because she told me was aggressive to the other kids. My sweet Lily!?!? No? But I know why, she gets really frustrated when she is trying to talk with us and we don't know what she wants, usually with us she yells and no no no's us or throws or hits something. But I guess with other kids she gets aggressive, which to a certain extent is a 3 yr. old trait, but add in the can't communicate factor and we've ended up apologizing to other Mom's and kids at nursery in church about biting issues. SO EMBARRASSING! It's just a lot to deal with for her, a new space, new kids, new rules etc...

So in hope of getting her to communicate better her teacher and the in room speech pathologist will be having her use a machine that looks like one of those toys where the kid pushes a button or turns a knob and a character pops out. Its set up the same way, but instead it has little pictures put on the front according to what the teacher wants her to learn to ask and when she pushes that button the machine says somethings like "my turn please" or "can I please" It can be programed to say many things, but there are pictures you can change out so Lily can match the picture up with what she wants to say. Yeah it sounds like the machine will be talking for her and I expressed my concern about that. The teacher said she uses it with several students and has had great success with it. It more helps them see the cause and effect of using words gets you what you want.
I dont' know if I explained that so it makes sense, but we will be able to use it at home, so I will have to post more about that later.
Also I got some adorable pictures of Lily running to the school doors on her first day of school. My mom took pictures of me my first and last day of school and I wanted the same for her. She booked it to the doors she was so excited last Tuesday. And today when we drove up to the school she was babbling away all excited. Unfortunately I took them on my Ipod and I can't get blogger to read them, so until Jason helps me translate them this post will be picture less. I just really wanted to get my first child going to school mommy panic attack/feelings down before I forgot.

I know its the best thing for her and I'm happy she really likes going, its just so different to have your baby right next to you and having to check on her to make sure she is not destroying anything. Her class is only 90 minutes, but still I found my self checking the clock every 5 minutes to see how long before I could pick her up. It was nice to do some cleaning with out having to worry about her, but I missed her!