****SIGH**** I need a fairy Godmother!
Yes this is how I feel at the moment, well actually its how I've felt for the last like month or so... School is kicking my butt like I never thought it could!!! I don't know how the heck I'm going to make it through 3 more semesters!!! But I gotta! Ha! There is SOOO much to becoming a teacher, its unbelievable. I don't think I've been more stressed out in my life then I feel right now. Between school, work, my family, Chris and his family and me time I pretty much don't have much of anything but school, work and family (Chris' and mine)!!! I think wanting to cry at least once a day is a given these days! Ugh!!
Its one of those things that kind of makes you feel kinda out of the loop on things, like you have lost yourself... you have two goals in life.... one you can see the light at the end of the tunnel, its right there, in reach, just takes a TON of hard work. The other... well sometimes it seems as though it is right there, getting closer, but then other times, most of the time, it seems so far away, practically nonexistent. And you wonder if you are wasting your time... your energy. These two goals are both so important to me, and I want more then anything for them both to happen, one is semi-easily achievable, the other, well not so easy and I can't really achieve it on my own, which is the other stinky part.
Sometimes I don't feel like I can make it, that the goal is so far away and takes so much work that I just don't know if I will be any good at it, if I will be able to do it. I guess we will find out, huh! I heard this song on the radio the other day, its a new song by one of my favorite artists and I want SO badly to play it everyday around me, so that people will know how I feel. Well I know people know how I feel, but sometimes I just don't know what to think, some days I feel good about it, and others I just want to scream "I'M TIRED!!!! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANY LONGER!!!!" But then I think there has to be a light at the end of the tunnel eventually right...?!
Ugh!!! A year and a half, thats all I have to last... just a little longer. I sure hope I can do it... its not easy, but I'm going to hold strong until I get it done!!! There are a few things that I would love to do this year, and hopefully they get done... but we will just have to wait and see if it all happens! I pray that my goals are achieved and that all of my wildest dreams come true!!
Monday, March 7, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Choose Class
Life could not be any more busy then one would want. I have been sick for the last 2 weeks and am finally feeling better... minus the fact that the awesome (really really really TERRIBLE) cough that I have had for about a week now has popped out a few ribs and I am in tons of pain all day, well until I go see the chiropractor tomorrow. I'm a bit scared, because I'm in so much pain, but I've popped a rib before and he fixed it in an instant! Woohoo!!! Love him! ha! :)
But life is pretty crazy right now, between being sick, early morning school and late night work I thought I might die! But now that I am feeling better I think it'll be tons better! School isn't too bad, I'm going on my 3rd week and I think I'm getting more excited, either that or more stressed out ha! The one thing that is pretty cool about school is that I have all the same people in all of my classes, so we're all already friends! So thats nice and fun!
Work is ok... its not too fun when your sick, but it's not terrible. The working till 7pm every night is a huge difference from what I am used to. I still just really wish that I had my old job, my personal assistant job... when I made $15/hr, could take whenever I needed off and pretty much was my own boss sorta. Ugh... I think about it and it makes me wanna cry, I'm making practically nothing and if I need a day off I have to try and find someone to cover for me... which so far hasn't been the easiest thing. I REALLY hate it.... it stresses me out, because I think of all the trips I wanna do... St George with Chris and our friends... Vegas.... California.... Cruise.... Bear Lake.... Ugh! It just stresses me out and makes me really sad. I don't really know why I lost my job, I mean I do, the company downsized... but I don't know why I had to loose my job.. does that make sense?I just felt so much more secure in that job... made good money and knew that no matter what my boss was 100% willing to work with me, whether it be that I was sick or I needed time to do homework or just needed a day off! Its all just really sucky! Ugh, all I gotta do is make it through these next 2 years and I'll be able to be a teacher! Sometimes I wonder if I've made mistakes in my path.... do you ever feel that way? I mean I know I have definitely made some mistakes in my life.. but I just wonder if I should have left my old job to take the personal assistant job.. I mean I had been there for 3 years... I wasn't going anywhere.. ugh! Man I dont like this feeling of not knowing. Luckily I have some great parents that help me out when I needed it and a great boyfriend who has been great through the whole process. Even though I know it stresses him out that I don't have the best job....
Do you think or look at me like an adult? Because sometimes I don't feel like I am... sometimes I feel like people look at me like I'm a teenager still... maybe it has something to do with the fact that I look like I'm 16, ha! But really... Idk... I think that maybe I'm just having one of those days.
But life is pretty crazy right now, between being sick, early morning school and late night work I thought I might die! But now that I am feeling better I think it'll be tons better! School isn't too bad, I'm going on my 3rd week and I think I'm getting more excited, either that or more stressed out ha! The one thing that is pretty cool about school is that I have all the same people in all of my classes, so we're all already friends! So thats nice and fun!
Work is ok... its not too fun when your sick, but it's not terrible. The working till 7pm every night is a huge difference from what I am used to. I still just really wish that I had my old job, my personal assistant job... when I made $15/hr, could take whenever I needed off and pretty much was my own boss sorta. Ugh... I think about it and it makes me wanna cry, I'm making practically nothing and if I need a day off I have to try and find someone to cover for me... which so far hasn't been the easiest thing. I REALLY hate it.... it stresses me out, because I think of all the trips I wanna do... St George with Chris and our friends... Vegas.... California.... Cruise.... Bear Lake.... Ugh! It just stresses me out and makes me really sad. I don't really know why I lost my job, I mean I do, the company downsized... but I don't know why I had to loose my job.. does that make sense?I just felt so much more secure in that job... made good money and knew that no matter what my boss was 100% willing to work with me, whether it be that I was sick or I needed time to do homework or just needed a day off! Its all just really sucky! Ugh, all I gotta do is make it through these next 2 years and I'll be able to be a teacher! Sometimes I wonder if I've made mistakes in my path.... do you ever feel that way? I mean I know I have definitely made some mistakes in my life.. but I just wonder if I should have left my old job to take the personal assistant job.. I mean I had been there for 3 years... I wasn't going anywhere.. ugh! Man I dont like this feeling of not knowing. Luckily I have some great parents that help me out when I needed it and a great boyfriend who has been great through the whole process. Even though I know it stresses him out that I don't have the best job....
Do you think or look at me like an adult? Because sometimes I don't feel like I am... sometimes I feel like people look at me like I'm a teenager still... maybe it has something to do with the fact that I look like I'm 16, ha! But really... Idk... I think that maybe I'm just having one of those days.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
2011
Well it had been a VERY long time since I have blogged, so I thought I would update the world! :)
Well the rest of 2010 was great! ha...
This year so far has been really good, I lost my job in the Summer of 2010 so that stunk but then I found a nannying job. Well the mom was CRAZY! I was sick with the flu one day and the mom fired me over text.. pretty lame! But oh well...
I started school again in January, I'm in my last two years of school, so I started the bachelors program and let me tell you it is INTENSE!!! For two of my classes I have to have a blog to write responses on... so I thought I should probably update my first blog too! Um, lets see.... Chris' best friend Dan got married in November and my best friend Steph got married just yesterday! So that is exciting! Chris and I got another dog, his name is Shadow. He is the same dog as Alice, Mini Australian Shepherd, but he is a black tri. He is the complete opposite of Alice. He is calm and timid and quiet and cuddly! We think that he was abused at his first home but he is such a sweetheart! And we love him! Alice loves having a friend to play with too! Lets see.... I can't really think of anything else to write! ha!!!
Oh I did get a job at Lifetime fitness in the Child Care. It pays terrible, but I get a free membership and its a pretty ok job! So I'm not complaining. But ya, I think thats about it... I will definitely try to keep this thing updated, at least once a month ha!!
Well the rest of 2010 was great! ha...
This year so far has been really good, I lost my job in the Summer of 2010 so that stunk but then I found a nannying job. Well the mom was CRAZY! I was sick with the flu one day and the mom fired me over text.. pretty lame! But oh well...
I started school again in January, I'm in my last two years of school, so I started the bachelors program and let me tell you it is INTENSE!!! For two of my classes I have to have a blog to write responses on... so I thought I should probably update my first blog too! Um, lets see.... Chris' best friend Dan got married in November and my best friend Steph got married just yesterday! So that is exciting! Chris and I got another dog, his name is Shadow. He is the same dog as Alice, Mini Australian Shepherd, but he is a black tri. He is the complete opposite of Alice. He is calm and timid and quiet and cuddly! We think that he was abused at his first home but he is such a sweetheart! And we love him! Alice loves having a friend to play with too! Lets see.... I can't really think of anything else to write! ha!!!
Oh I did get a job at Lifetime fitness in the Child Care. It pays terrible, but I get a free membership and its a pretty ok job! So I'm not complaining. But ya, I think thats about it... I will definitely try to keep this thing updated, at least once a month ha!!
Friday, July 9, 2010
Happy Birthday Chris!
Today, 7/10, is my Sweetie, Chris' birthday!!
25 years ago today Karen Robinson gave birth to a little boy... and who woulda thought that he would turn out so great!!! Here are 25 reasons I love my man...
1. I love how funny he is. Chris has the best sense of humor.. and he ALWAYS makes me laugh!!
2. I love how he can make me smile no matter how sad I am, how mad I am or in any situation, and I am thankful for that!
3. I love how close he is with his family.
4. I love his smile!
5. I love that we have such a foundation on friendship and have been able to build a love upon that.
6. I love that he believes in the same things as me.
7. I love that he takes care of me when I don't feel good.
8. I love that he trusts me and that I can trust him.
9. I love that he wants to spend time with me!
10. I love his kisses!!
11. I love the way he smells.
12. I love how comfortable we are with each other.
13. I love that we go on vacations, mini and long, together!
14. I love that he includes me with his family.
15. I love how kind he is.
16. I love how honest he is.
17. I love his eyes.
18. I love when he holds my hand.
19. I love when he cuddles with me.
20. I love that he loves kids.
21. I love how much fun we have together no matter what we are doing.
22. I love that we can sing crazyily in the car and just laugh about afterwards.
23. I love that he spends time with my family.
24. I love the little things.
25. I love that he loves me!!
This is birthday number 3 that we've been together for and I must say the years keep getting better and better!! I hope he thinks the same thing ;) haha!! Chris you have been a blessing in my life and I couldn't imagine it without you. You are my best friend and the love of my life!! I'm thankful you have been in my life for 5+ years! You are the best boyfriend a girl could ask for!! Happy Birthday my Love!!!
25 years ago today Karen Robinson gave birth to a little boy... and who woulda thought that he would turn out so great!!! Here are 25 reasons I love my man...
1. I love how funny he is. Chris has the best sense of humor.. and he ALWAYS makes me laugh!!
2. I love how he can make me smile no matter how sad I am, how mad I am or in any situation, and I am thankful for that!
3. I love how close he is with his family.
4. I love his smile!
5. I love that we have such a foundation on friendship and have been able to build a love upon that.
6. I love that he believes in the same things as me.
7. I love that he takes care of me when I don't feel good.
8. I love that he trusts me and that I can trust him.
9. I love that he wants to spend time with me!
10. I love his kisses!!
11. I love the way he smells.
12. I love how comfortable we are with each other.
13. I love that we go on vacations, mini and long, together!
14. I love that he includes me with his family.
15. I love how kind he is.
16. I love how honest he is.
17. I love his eyes.
18. I love when he holds my hand.
19. I love when he cuddles with me.
20. I love that he loves kids.
21. I love how much fun we have together no matter what we are doing.
22. I love that we can sing crazyily in the car and just laugh about afterwards.
23. I love that he spends time with my family.
24. I love the little things.
25. I love that he loves me!!
This is birthday number 3 that we've been together for and I must say the years keep getting better and better!! I hope he thinks the same thing ;) haha!! Chris you have been a blessing in my life and I couldn't imagine it without you. You are my best friend and the love of my life!! I'm thankful you have been in my life for 5+ years! You are the best boyfriend a girl could ask for!! Happy Birthday my Love!!!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
2 years
Yesterday was Chris and I's 2 year anniversary!!
I can't believe we have been together for 2 years!! It feels like so much longer and not so long all at the same time! ha!! Is that even possible?!
He is truely my best friend and the love of my life!! I don't know where I would be without him!! We've been through so much together and have grown as a couple as well as spiritually together, which is not something that you can ever take away! We always have a blast together, whether its hanging out with our families, going to the movies, hanging out with friends, or just hanging out the two of us. He makes me laugh all the time, and I can't look at him and not smile!! I am one lucky girl to have him in my life (and he's pretty lucky to get to hang around me all the time ;) ) I can't wait to see what this year will bring!!! I love u Chris!!
On another note... Alex is coming home in 27 days!! Holy cow!! I can't even believe it!! 2 years really do fly by super quick!! To think back 2 years ago I would have never thought that this is where things would be!! It seemed so far away!!! But here it is... 2 years with my sweetie and 2 years, time for my brother to come home!! :) I'm so excited for him to come home!! I've missed the little stinker! It'll be weird, but it'll be so much fun to have him home again!!! Life has come and gone and who knows what tomorrow will bring, but with having the most amazing people I have in my life it should be a pretty great ride!!! For all those in my life, Nelson's, Robinson's, Smith's, Nixon's, all my great friends and everyone else I wouldn't be where I am today without you!! I love you all!!! :)
I can't believe we have been together for 2 years!! It feels like so much longer and not so long all at the same time! ha!! Is that even possible?!
He is truely my best friend and the love of my life!! I don't know where I would be without him!! We've been through so much together and have grown as a couple as well as spiritually together, which is not something that you can ever take away! We always have a blast together, whether its hanging out with our families, going to the movies, hanging out with friends, or just hanging out the two of us. He makes me laugh all the time, and I can't look at him and not smile!! I am one lucky girl to have him in my life (and he's pretty lucky to get to hang around me all the time ;) ) I can't wait to see what this year will bring!!! I love u Chris!!
On another note... Alex is coming home in 27 days!! Holy cow!! I can't even believe it!! 2 years really do fly by super quick!! To think back 2 years ago I would have never thought that this is where things would be!! It seemed so far away!!! But here it is... 2 years with my sweetie and 2 years, time for my brother to come home!! :) I'm so excited for him to come home!! I've missed the little stinker! It'll be weird, but it'll be so much fun to have him home again!!! Life has come and gone and who knows what tomorrow will bring, but with having the most amazing people I have in my life it should be a pretty great ride!!! For all those in my life, Nelson's, Robinson's, Smith's, Nixon's, all my great friends and everyone else I wouldn't be where I am today without you!! I love you all!!! :)
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Spring time!
Man I haven't been keeping up to date with this blog now have I!?
Well not tons has happened, but things have happened since the beginning of the year! LoL!
January
Was full of fun times and starting the new spring semester of school!! It was a tough one! I had 4 classes and Chris had 2 pretty hard ones!
February
For Valentines day Chris took me to one of our favorite sushi restaurants Blind Dog, in Park City! It was a lot of fun and then we went back to his house and just relaxed! He also got me the prettiest roses ever!! Couldn't have asked for a better Valentines, he's the best valentine ever, and the best boyfriend and best friend a girl could ask for!!! :)
March
Was a lot of fun! It was my birthday so thats always exciting!! The day before my birthday Chris and I went to Tucanos with my parents! Oh man was it a blast! I got to stand up on the bench and shake a tambourine! haha!!! I wasn't embarrassed at all! LoL! There were tons of high school kids there for prom and they were clapping along it was funny! This year me birthday fell on Saturday, Chris took me shopping that morning for my birthday, which was a great present! :) I got some good stuff! LoL! Before we went shopping we had "brunch" at hot dog on a stick! Woot! And in the food court there are TV's now that play music videos, well I would pick a song and he would have to guess what I had picked before it came on! We played a good 4 songs that are "our" songs! After the mall Chris had a friends birthday party to run to so he did that while I got ready and danced around to Selena Gomez with Alice! haha! It was a blast! :) Everyone needs a little dance time with their puppy every now and then! Then I celebrated my birthday with Danielle Satterfield, her birthday is the 30th and mine is the 27th. So we had a huge friends birthday up in Park City at Bandits. It was a blast!! We also celebrated Alice's 1st birthday!! Man we just love that little puppy dog!! She is SO cute! Chris loves to play catch with her, he'll throw the Frisbee to her and she'll catch it in the air! She's so good!!
April
The second weekend in April we went down to St George for a volleyball tournament. Some of Chris' sisters came down and Dan, Emilee, Seth, Danielle, Justin and Kyle all came down as well to hang out and play ball! It was such a fun trip! Friday Chris and I left at 9 in the morning so we could take full advantage of the super nice weather down there! We layed out by the pool and got a nice sun tan! Once everyone got there we hung out some more by the pool and then went to dinner! The boys had to get their carbs in for the next day! Saturday we watched the guys play volleyball! It was so fun, like always and it was VERY warm! Which makes it so much better! haha! Especially when its so cold at home! Chris did a really great job! After we went back to the pool, took the best nap ever and then went to dinner at Texas Roadhouse for Dan's birthday since it was the next week! It was a super great weekend! Can't wait to go back!!
May
School is finally over!!! Chris passed his classes with A's which I knew he would, he's so smart!! And I thankfully passed my classes, with good grades also! :) So now I finally have my associates!! Woot!! Its such a nice feeling to know that I'm only 2 years out of getting my bachelors! I also started the first block of summer semester to get one more class out of the way before fall, its gunna be rough having a class during the first part of summer but I can do it!! Its over June 23rd, so I'm just reaching for that date!! I also got to talk to Alex on mothers day! It was so great to talk to him and spend the day with my mom! She is the best mom I could ever ask for!!! Alex comes home June 28th, which I'm super excited for!! And he's pretty ready to come home and get on with life also!! So that was fun!! We're looking forward to a nice 3 day weekend in memorial weekend... we'll see what adventures come our way!!
Well not tons has happened, but things have happened since the beginning of the year! LoL!
January
Was full of fun times and starting the new spring semester of school!! It was a tough one! I had 4 classes and Chris had 2 pretty hard ones!
February
For Valentines day Chris took me to one of our favorite sushi restaurants Blind Dog, in Park City! It was a lot of fun and then we went back to his house and just relaxed! He also got me the prettiest roses ever!! Couldn't have asked for a better Valentines, he's the best valentine ever, and the best boyfriend and best friend a girl could ask for!!! :)
March
Was a lot of fun! It was my birthday so thats always exciting!! The day before my birthday Chris and I went to Tucanos with my parents! Oh man was it a blast! I got to stand up on the bench and shake a tambourine! haha!!! I wasn't embarrassed at all! LoL! There were tons of high school kids there for prom and they were clapping along it was funny! This year me birthday fell on Saturday, Chris took me shopping that morning for my birthday, which was a great present! :) I got some good stuff! LoL! Before we went shopping we had "brunch" at hot dog on a stick! Woot! And in the food court there are TV's now that play music videos, well I would pick a song and he would have to guess what I had picked before it came on! We played a good 4 songs that are "our" songs! After the mall Chris had a friends birthday party to run to so he did that while I got ready and danced around to Selena Gomez with Alice! haha! It was a blast! :) Everyone needs a little dance time with their puppy every now and then! Then I celebrated my birthday with Danielle Satterfield, her birthday is the 30th and mine is the 27th. So we had a huge friends birthday up in Park City at Bandits. It was a blast!! We also celebrated Alice's 1st birthday!! Man we just love that little puppy dog!! She is SO cute! Chris loves to play catch with her, he'll throw the Frisbee to her and she'll catch it in the air! She's so good!!
April
The second weekend in April we went down to St George for a volleyball tournament. Some of Chris' sisters came down and Dan, Emilee, Seth, Danielle, Justin and Kyle all came down as well to hang out and play ball! It was such a fun trip! Friday Chris and I left at 9 in the morning so we could take full advantage of the super nice weather down there! We layed out by the pool and got a nice sun tan! Once everyone got there we hung out some more by the pool and then went to dinner! The boys had to get their carbs in for the next day! Saturday we watched the guys play volleyball! It was so fun, like always and it was VERY warm! Which makes it so much better! haha! Especially when its so cold at home! Chris did a really great job! After we went back to the pool, took the best nap ever and then went to dinner at Texas Roadhouse for Dan's birthday since it was the next week! It was a super great weekend! Can't wait to go back!!
May
School is finally over!!! Chris passed his classes with A's which I knew he would, he's so smart!! And I thankfully passed my classes, with good grades also! :) So now I finally have my associates!! Woot!! Its such a nice feeling to know that I'm only 2 years out of getting my bachelors! I also started the first block of summer semester to get one more class out of the way before fall, its gunna be rough having a class during the first part of summer but I can do it!! Its over June 23rd, so I'm just reaching for that date!! I also got to talk to Alex on mothers day! It was so great to talk to him and spend the day with my mom! She is the best mom I could ever ask for!!! Alex comes home June 28th, which I'm super excited for!! And he's pretty ready to come home and get on with life also!! So that was fun!! We're looking forward to a nice 3 day weekend in memorial weekend... we'll see what adventures come our way!!
Monday, February 1, 2010
2010!!
Happy New Year!!!
Man I stink at updating haha!!! I wanted to update with pictures, but I don't have time right now... but here are the updates of Winter 09 and the year so far!!
*Winter 09*
Winter was fun, we did a lot of thing we went Ice Skating at the Gallivan Center... my first time there... with Seth, Dani, Dan and Emilee. It was a blast!!
We went sledding with the Perry's and Alice got to run around and have fun playing with the neighbors dog Jax!
We had our annual Holidinner at Chris' which turned out to be a success! It was a lot of fun!
Christmas was great!! Chris came with my family to dinner and we played games, when he left my family had the rest of our Christmas cuz mom had to work Christmas day :(
Christmas morning I went over to the Richhart's and had Christmas with some of the Robinson's! It was so fun! I love hanging out with them!! Mom didn't end up having to work at all Christmas day which was SOOOO good!! So when Alex called that night we got to talk to him! He got to conference Grammie, Mike, Auntie and everyone else on the phone as well! It was such a nice treat!!
*2010*
New Years Eve Chris wasn't feeling great so we got some movies, candy and sparkling cider and brought in the New Year just the two of us! I have to say it was one of the best New Years ever, just being with my sweetie and spending time together!
We really took advantage of our last week off before school and spent time together and just had a blast!! Really any time we spend together is a good time!!!
School is in session now and its a killer!! Ha! Well not so much for me, but for Chris. I graduate SLCC this semester with my associates! I'm SO excited!! I can't wait to be a college grad finally!! haha!!! Chris is taking physics and anatomy. both very tough classes. But he is doing so well in them! He's gunna ace them I'm not ever worried!! :)
Today I just found out that Alex gets to come home a week earlier!! Instead of June 30th he's coming home June 23rd!!! I'm so excited for my brother to come home! I have missed him lots and am ready for him to come hang out with me again!! It'll be nice to have everyone home again!! :D Thats abt all for now.... life is great and I couldn't be happier!!
Man I stink at updating haha!!! I wanted to update with pictures, but I don't have time right now... but here are the updates of Winter 09 and the year so far!!
*Winter 09*
Winter was fun, we did a lot of thing we went Ice Skating at the Gallivan Center... my first time there... with Seth, Dani, Dan and Emilee. It was a blast!!
We went sledding with the Perry's and Alice got to run around and have fun playing with the neighbors dog Jax!
We had our annual Holidinner at Chris' which turned out to be a success! It was a lot of fun!
Christmas was great!! Chris came with my family to dinner and we played games, when he left my family had the rest of our Christmas cuz mom had to work Christmas day :(
Christmas morning I went over to the Richhart's and had Christmas with some of the Robinson's! It was so fun! I love hanging out with them!! Mom didn't end up having to work at all Christmas day which was SOOOO good!! So when Alex called that night we got to talk to him! He got to conference Grammie, Mike, Auntie and everyone else on the phone as well! It was such a nice treat!!
*2010*
New Years Eve Chris wasn't feeling great so we got some movies, candy and sparkling cider and brought in the New Year just the two of us! I have to say it was one of the best New Years ever, just being with my sweetie and spending time together!
We really took advantage of our last week off before school and spent time together and just had a blast!! Really any time we spend together is a good time!!!
School is in session now and its a killer!! Ha! Well not so much for me, but for Chris. I graduate SLCC this semester with my associates! I'm SO excited!! I can't wait to be a college grad finally!! haha!!! Chris is taking physics and anatomy. both very tough classes. But he is doing so well in them! He's gunna ace them I'm not ever worried!! :)
Today I just found out that Alex gets to come home a week earlier!! Instead of June 30th he's coming home June 23rd!!! I'm so excited for my brother to come home! I have missed him lots and am ready for him to come hang out with me again!! It'll be nice to have everyone home again!! :D Thats abt all for now.... life is great and I couldn't be happier!!
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