sounds bad huh? haha..quite bad..but s a human being, let me share d story with u..it might help u to be more careful next tym..n plus,it reduces my stress towards all those things..let me start with a simple word..debate..its a word dat i love..d word dat i am likely being devoted recently..

i attended a meeting yesterday..having a training with full of willingness n d trust 2 try..i wont take it deeply..bcoz i noe, training is a magic word to make me more confident..n towards perfectness bit by bit..but 1 thing,my emotions get stucked up wif a typhoon..(xnk la cte detail sgt)..n as a human being which possessed a hart n feeling,i think i should get things better more than dat..

it has been my mistake 2 let out my feelings up in a wrong way..i sent d message (sms) 2 d wrong person..ouuchhh!! that must b hurt..d message is supposed 2 be sent 2 one of my sis, but silly me,i sent it 2 d person dat makes me hurt..(kire salah send la)..i was jus gulping my saliva n my breath..not able 2 talk 4 a while..i was sooo silly..huhu..

i hate 2 hurt other people's feeling..but trust me,i did..i am a person who strictly obey 2 d protocol n position, where d person dat received my message is a person dat i should really respect..whut can i do except keep apologizing n openly admitted my mistake? well,i was so sad..i was sad becoz i hurt people..but 2 think in a positive way,i should have been very lucky dat i let d person knows whut i felt bout it..

i met my senior 2day..expressing my thoughts n feelings..at last,she soothed me up..i finally can smile..n i will give my self a try before i quit involving into things dat i really love..

so,do have a double check before u send a message..make sure,it goes 2 d right person!!

haha..tjuk dier dah ckup formal fadly! (berterus trg thp cipan)..
las saturday..which is 2 b on d 16th of december 2006..i went up 2 meet my bestfrenz..encik saiful n encik fadly..hehe..whut a luvly day..tp b4 dat i juz want 2 confessed dat i've lost my track at bangi perdana..malu btol jd org bangi..ader ke patut 25minutes sesat nk balik umh..hehe..seb bek la minyak kete x abeh..kalu fuel pon abeh,ader gak yg meraung2 kt celah2 taman perumahan kt bangi perdana tuh..tp xper,malu btanye sesat jln..tp me mmg xmalu..abeh sume mkcik2 penjual kueh me g serbu..at last, smpai gak la kt umah..n trus g ke bilik mesyuarat..(GULAI KAWAH)..hehe..kt sane en saiful n en fadly dah sedia menunggu ngan sebuku roti bwat cicah gulai..me pon mencapai la sket2 smbil mghirup sirap yg ami amekkn..thnx ami :P..pas berborak kt ctu,comettee mmbers bwt kptsn g umh ckmah..dalam kete,sket punyer best..byk tol topic yg bjaye dikupas..ngn sepakatnye,me telah dijadikan batu loncatan untuk membuat alasan nk blik awal dr umah ckmah..(anak dare xelok balik lewat!)..berikut,ulasan kepada agenda meeting pd hari tsebut..

my personal oppinions are,set up a bussiness ngn siblings nie senanye can be really messed up..n i'm sympathized bout whut had happened between them..of course in dis life,sumtyms we should act 2 get d best place..but surely,d everlasting act shouldn't be practiced..sumer ader their own value 2 be proud of..so,ckp2 blakang mmg xgune..nyusahkn para pendengar je (kitorg la tuh)..pastu,in doing sumthing,mmg sgt2 perlukan knowledge bout whut we'r doing..kalu men taram jer,mane la nak jln..dah tntu la i've gained lessons from d meet..how 2 b good n how 2 make other people feel bad..

xper,lupekn hal org2 tua neh..actualy i was relieved 2 see my 2 bestfriends..even though we r not working 2gether,but surely d bond dat we have is precious that can't be bought anywhere..we'r so comfortable wif each other n i'm sure it will remained till d end of our breath..having a fren like both of u relly thaught me so many things..n it is where we can let out our expressions freely..juz b urself n don't ever change it even an inch..bcoz i like d way we are,i would like 2 b dis way eternally..

p/s:xder la truk mane pon kn?kn? realy looking foward 4 d next meeting..misz all of u!

haa..dis is whut happen 2 me last sunday..i went 2 sunway lagoon..brought along my sis..n my bestfren apom was with her sis too (cute sgt!)..we haven't met looooong ago..missed her terribly..dat day mmg pns terik..sampai kt ctu kol doblas..then change outfit n trus tejun msuk air..dat tym me g free jer..apom's fren ader xtra free ticket..so tpt nk maen 2 restricted sket la..dats y la kitorg kjap jer kt ctu..kol 3 dah kuar..then,g plak sunway pyramid..tgk cicak man..klakar la d muvie..tp at last sedey jgk..uu..n i whut i noe is i'm gonna watch d muvie kalu ader smbungannye lagi..dat evening ujan..wlupon x lebat tp melarat..bus pon lmbt smpai..then lecah2 lg..ish..rimas btol lecah2 nie..xsuke sgguh..then smpi la kt kl sentral..dah kol 7pm..actually dah lmbt..me mmg xske balik lwt2 neh..ank dare xleh kuar mlm (bwt peraturan sndiri)..ktm pon 1,punyerla lembab!dr tym nk pegi smpi tym nk balik..asyik delay trip jer..bosan sgguh..dat tym dier delay 3 trip..bygkn la btape ramainyer org! uhh..then tren pon smpi..sumer org bsiap sedia cam nk lumba lari jer..me dah rs xsdp ati..cm ader bende yg nk jadi je..biler pintu tren opened,org punyer serbu thp x igt!! me pon ketepi la,nk bagi chance org kt dlm 2 kuar..

tibe2....
ader sepasang tgn melekap kt my back..n dgn rakus n kasarnye,me ditolak kt dinding ktm (yg belah luar)..sumenye blaku ngn pantas..huhu..tgn n kaki me dah tkunci..pe pon xleh gerak..sadis btol..n me trase ader tgn enter my pocket..dier grab my phone n trus blah..seb bek la dier x amek wallet..myb sbb org tlalu ramai kot..plus me dah button my back pocket..cam susah la nk bukak..pas dat guy blah jer,me nmpk pntu ktm still wide open..me trus rushed in n grab along my sis..sian kt dier..dah la kcik,kne himpit ngn org plak tuh..dlm tren,me pnjm la hpon sorg pkcik neh,try 2 call my phone..kot2 la pencopet 2 pon ader dlm dat tren..tp xdpt..sah2 la dah off kn..seb bek la bkn fon mhl..klu x lg sedey..dah la contact sumer ilang..dat fon me beli pki duit me keje pnt2..mmg valuable sgt..n ngn dat fon la me smpan msg2 yg me syg..byk memori woo..
dat nite,ma bebel sakan..me pon dgr jer la..nk wat cmne,bende dah jd..seb bek ader backup phone..to apom,sori la xsmpt nk msg ucp thnx..d gift sgt laaaa sweet..i really apriciate dat..thnx a lot my fren..im gonna mis u..d next morning,ma n ayah fly g sarawak..de keje..tp tghri 2,ayh call..handbag ma pulak kene ragut! abeh sumer kad kredit,cash,fon..sumer2 la..my mum lg la ksian..contact dier byk tuh..uu..2 la,bertimpa2 mlgnyer..myb Allah nk bg pengajaran..bsyukur la atas apa yg ada sblum kiter kehilangannye..

my shoulder n chest lebam2 after d incident..mmg sape yg bwt tuh,me hrp dier akn slalu jtuh longkang..erm,xbaek la plak..xper la,bia Allah jer yg balas..me ni saper la nk hukum org..
takat nie jer dulu..saper2 yg blum bg fon num, bole bg kt me..so far,yg me dah kumpul kwn2 uniten n mtrix..dak2 terendak,i miss them so much..do let us be in touch k!
December 13, 2006

ahakz,lame x wat font kaler2 neh..dah lame xjengok my blog..nk tulih diari pon mase xckup,pe lgi kt my luvly page neh..well,skang baru la dpt menikmati cuti sem..huhu..tu la,gatai p sebok2kn diri sape suh kn?kn? tp biler pk2 balik byk gak la d goods drpd buruknye..kire me nie spesis brani gak la ek..br 1 sem,dah stat bwat itu ini..cm tkut pon ader..yerla, kg effect plak kt studies..tp kn..klu blaja je smate2,rase cam giler pon ader..

ermm,tp me rase btuah sgt la sbb sumer yg me bwt dpt fmily support..bkn fmily jer, kwn, my honey, cikgu cikgi..senang citer me xder la sorg2..dari pentas teater ke bahas,me xpnh alone..xsemestinyer kite msti berteman ble nk bwt sesuatu perkara..bg me,determination is everything!me dah tekad nk collect sijil byk2.. org nk kater pe pon,me xksah sbb yg nk bwt sumer2 is me..me n me..tym cmni la me nk naekkn self confident me..me nk blaja ttg protocol..nk prctise effective communication..me ni byk lg kurgnyer..n me hrp sgt2..1 day me akan jd cam my idol..

cuti pon xder la lame lg..xsmpai sbulan..me igt nk lepak jer kt umah..nk rehat byk2..biler bukak sem kg me nak struggle more..now my hney pon dah ader kt cni,so bole la hidup ngan hepi n tng..kn me dah pnah ckp dulu..seksa penantian tuh ckit jer nilainyer jike nk dbandingkan dgn ganjaran dier..xperla,syg nyer psl bedal jer..jnji me happy..xder nk sunyi2 lagi..
lately ramai yg tnye ttg progress my novel..i am still writing..tp xbyk sgt la update sbb bz..smlm nk stat nulih balik tp cam beku je ayat..yerla,9 hari dok praktis bahas,nk tulih novel dah rs kaku..ayt yg kuar tuh cm ayat skema jer..huhu..xper,me ngah adjust2 la ni..sbb ma kate ma dah jmper publisher..tp me pon x sure nk publish ker x..me raser xyakin ngan my story..research pon x ckup..myb dah siap nnt me bg 2-3 org bc dulu, bwat xpriment..if feedback ok, bru la me usahakan..doakan la..akhir2 ni,spirit nk trus mnulih 2 cam kurg cket..me pon sntiasa bdoa agar smgt me xbenti cam tu jer..

2 all my frenz,ketahuilah yg me mmg rindu bangat kt korg..me hrp 1 day kiter dpt bwt reu..geng kt tdk n dak2 hayat 6 kt matrix jhor dulu,me hrp korg x luper me kt cni..dan kepada arwah khalid,semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat..sdeh dpt tau kwn kiter mninggal kan..igt,skali kiter bersahabat,selama-lamanya kiter bersahabat!

erm, da lame x jengok my blog..tym is running like all d seconds r shorter than whut it had been remained 4 centuries..tup2 je dah nak rayer..Aidil Fitri dis yer will b such a great celebration as i am getting older..although no more dwit rayer (huhuu), but 4 a gal like me, ader baju rayer pon dah more than enuf..dat day,i dunno y, I made up my mind 2 tour along KL..such a great day..d weather was so nice dat i could hardly feel tired all d way through..on my way,i bumped into dis chinese lady..middle age i think..she lost her track..so, in a good Ramadhan, I brought her 2 d station where she was suppose 2 be..its far from my station but its okay, as long as i have d hart 2 help other people, there'll always b d happiness deep inside me..then, i continue my journey..sumtyms, my legs hurt a bit,but i was ignoring it completely..d sale was great! my fav brand dat is nicole was in 70% sale!! i think i was going really mad..i bought 1 wtout thinking twice..its lot more better than buying at d original price..hmm, some will say dat im crazy..but d fact is i had toured s many s 4 shopping complexes in a day..whut a luvely day..at d pet shop, i stunned at d display cat..which was so very same with my late Juliet..i patted d cat n hve d feeling dat i longed 4 such a long tym..juliet had left me with all d memories dat i will never 4get..huhu..misz her terribly..uu..for dis coming raya, my honey r still on board..i juz dunno when will he get back..its okay, s long s he's in my hart, he will be remembered for evry second dat i alive!

at last!! d teater had been brought out in front of sooo many student..quite a big crowd, i think..i dunno why,d script dat i memorized suddenly running out of my mind..but thank God, everything's going on well and fast..i had make several mistakes but its all covered n improvised spontaneously..wow,whut a luvly nite.. i wish if my honey could b there..but its okay, s long s he remembers me, that's more than enough..well,all of us r very happy 2 giv n let out our best 2 d audience..hope they enjoy it..now, i can fully concentrate 2 my study..math test is juz around d corner..i hope d rezut is better than d 1st one..well, time is catching up soooo quickly..i have no idea dat we r going 2 meet ramadhan n hari raye..seems dat las puasa is juz a few days ago..haha..can go n buy new baju raye!!!!

p/s:da lame xkuar date woo..

adoiihh..these days, aku lepak jer kt umah..abeh2kn mid term break kt ataih katil..i had a fever...quite frustrating lar bcause i had planned to tour all around kl..at last, it came 2 an end where i have 2 b on bed..sad..erm, but it's kinda rest..weeks b4 dat, i had been so struggling on several tasks..luckily i did not join much more clubs..yg ader ni pon dah terkejar2..enough lar..rite now me dok bz mghafal skrip..quite hard 2 memorize all d lines..i hope d play will be excellently performed..bkn sng nk tgk me blakon..hehe..still, when it came 2 training..mmg nervous..nk in character pon raser cam ssh sgt..bkn pe, my character 2 x bape fit ngn watak yg me dpt..huhu..but at least, i've tried my best..so, xnyesal la if anything happen..sesaper yg rajin, mai la tgk teatre 'aym jntan aym betina' kt uniten..its on 18th of sept..lg 2 mggu tuh..me pgg 2nd main role..so, ader jer kt pentas tuh 4 d whole play..tkutnyeee...me pon mls nk bebel byk2..pnt gak mnaip neh kdg2..my novel is still in progress..if 1 day termakbul hasrat me n publish dat novel, i'll let u all noe..okayh,till then...ciaooo

17hb aritu..my very best frend dah slamat gi medan..rihana name dier..insy..doc la dier nnt.. sbuk jer pg2 buta kt klia tuh.. me n fmily bgn awl2..n siap2 nk anta dier..aku yg tido mati ni pon kire hebat la bley bgn awl giler..bkn pe, yg nk pegi neh, aku aggp cam my soulmate la..we shared lots of secret..mkn spinggan, tido sebantal, tgk se'tv', main sebasikal, naek sekereta, blaja sesekolah..arghhh..byk lagi la..yg penting, stkt nk g anta dier is no big deal jika nk dibandingkan dgn 'bond' yang kitorang ader sejk belum lahir lg..as a fren, ake doakan smoga dier bjaye..laen hari, if aku cam tenat jer, dier la yg aku hrpkan..hehe..msg2 pon dah ader haluan sendiri..dah xley la nk slalu same mcm dulu lg..uu..xper, yg penting, msh2 xluper diri..walau blaenan bidang, persahabatan yg terjalin tuh aku pgg smpi mati..skali aku bersahabat, selamanya dia sahabatku!

adoiiiiiiii...dalam aku dok hati2, accident jgk...huhu, perla nasib mlg neh..i was just at d side of d road..suddenly ader dis car overturned n knocked my motorbike..luckily i was at d slow speed..dlm 20km/h jer..if tgh laju, mayb bley jd superwoman! n lagi hebat, dat indian guy bley sengih then trus blah..aku xsmpat nk cam no plat dier..if x, aku nk g repot jer..yerla, it wasn't my fault!! well, there's no series damage..its juz my left hand is still shaking till now..mayb i'hv put 2 much force on it while balancing my motorbike..seksa jugak nk ngangkat moto ni upenye..berat membunuh! huhu, terpaksela suh ayh urut aku 2nite..my waist pn cam x steady jer..well,tiap2 ari aku bc doa b4 stat journey..but 2 obey d God's wish,it seems like i have 2 take it as my fate..Alhamdulillah,im breathing..

uhuuu..dis weekend is totally full!! we went to nilai 3 n shopped for d wedding's things nxt mnth..we were all exhausted like hell..nilai 3 is great..i'll b slim if i go there evryday..haha..the nxt day, my fmily n i + siti went 2 d pameran hantu at shah alam..nk tgelax pon ader..dunno la whut 2 say..d ghosts seem really fake!dat day, my mum la yg pling jaguh..tym kitorg que pjg thp cipan tuh, ader la sorg mamat dewasa nih potong line..xpsl2 wujud lak line baru kt ctu..my mum pon dgn smgtnyer g kt mamat tuh n sound suh g bratur..dat f#$%ing adult pon sengih2 n cbr2 my mum..weh, truk sgt dah moral mamat tuh..ikut ati nk jer aku amek batu, sumbat kt mulut dier yg basi tuh..pastu gulung2 n lempar dari ketinggian 5000kaki dr aras laut dgn mate n kaki terikat..ape, ssh sgt ke nk bratur??seb bek la rmai yg sokong my mum..xpsl2 meriah lak tpt tuh..series, respek aku..aku dok bjg2 jer..klu kulit dier cuit jer kulit mak aku, strait 4ward, dpt back trust kt muker..prangi cam org utan!!

bile pk2,gns gak mak aku nih..dats y la,nk carik laki kene btol2 ikut ckp dier..mane2 guy yg xckup kriteria tuh seriously kene kuarantin la..:p..biler da slesai sumer, aku at last hepi gak la..bkn pe,im proud of my mum..pe yg dier bwt tuh,mamat2 macho kt blakang kitorg sumer xbrani bwat.. n 2 d guy yg kuang hajo tuh,jgn smpai aku nmpk dier lg dah le..

at nite,bz plak gam2 kad kawen untuk jmputan..myb end of dis week da bole distribute kot..pnt...homework pon cm xsmpat siap..hehe..cmtu la nsib....

aloww...arini aku spent tym kt gulai kawah..d place where i used 2 work after spm..g glax2 ilangkan bosan..huhu..my clas finished at 10 am..planned 2 stay but feeling quite dizzy..elok jer nk stat moto, ujan trun mncurah2...well, it seems dat my luck juz flew away...so, i was juz alone sitting on a bench outside d nearest cafe...nak lg suey buku plak bwk skettttt jer..yerla, dah kate klas 2 jam jer..lagi la hebat aku melangok..kilat sabung menyabung, guruh berdentum dentam..nak jer tup tlinge tp org kater tym guruh x bek tup tlinge..huhu..nsb bek x pekak lg..every rain drop dat fall in front of me makes me threw all my worriness away..asyik sgt biler tgk natural beauty..maha suci Allah..hujan yg turun tuh lutsinar kaler nye..bile tgk, menyejukkan mate..sikit sebanyak, ilang la raser berkobar2 nk balik td..tp biler ujan benti, aku still tercongok kt ctu..raser mls plak nak balik..ujn lebat tp turunnyer kjap sgt..camtula manusia, bile ade xhargai, bile dah xder baru la mencari..aku xtau la nape within this week aku cam xtenteram jer..erm, tingat lak zaman matrix..riuh rendah..skng cam sunyi sgt..xder sape yg nak dilayan..xder saper nk bwt teman btepuk tmpar..men2 msg pon xslalu cam dulu..nset dah sah2 la snyp giler..abes klas jer, msti bwt keje sndiri..tym stdy pon ala2 lone ranger gitu..2 la, dr kcik dok asrama, biler dah dok umh agak pyh la nk sesuaikn diri..ntah la..aku neh slalu la slesaikn mslh org.. biler org sdey aku bg smgt kt diorg..klu aku bwat slh aku akn cube baiki pape yg patut..tp dlm dunia nih xkn la manjang jer asyik pk org kn..mslh aku nih xder lak org nk tnye kn..haha, klaka lak raser..aku rase,biarla aku stay camneh..kalu aku bley tolong org,msti la aku bley tlg diri aku gak kn..btol x??

2 day is my 2nd day of class...karat woo nk blaja fizik balik..da 2.5 taun aku tggl fizik tuh..1st day blaja adu da sesat2 carik moto..tahape2..aku bley plak luper aku park moto ktne..huhu..nk tet..tet..bknnye kete..biler aku belek2 silibus dier..bole thn la jgk..aku juz hrp aku bley bwt btol2 kali neh..aku abeh klas awl arini..da bli buku xtau nk mrayap mane..dok la dpn pc nih..cem bese, bkak mails, fster, chat..tp fizi jer yg ade..bole la..pastu cem bese, bile chat jer, aku pon mula bpk2..ngarut jgk otk aku nih..aku slalu pk cmne la muke org tu tym ngah chat ngan aku..aku hrp sumer manis la..juz ade sorg jer yg masam kot..xpon mrh..haha, aku pon xtau cmner nk predict..juz 2 hell with those stupid things..
arini aku tkut sgt tym nek moto td..tiap2 kali lori @ treler lalu, mcm nk gugur jntung aku..kalu helmet xder cermin, da lame dah aku pjm mate..bile aku pcut jer, rase nk tplanting pon ader gak..mak aku ckup rsau..pg2 dier tgk aku smpi la aku btol2 dah pegi.. huhu..jln 2 dah le bz..kete pon cm giler2 je..aku rase kn, aku nyer fobia tu x ilang lg la..tp mmg best la belakon bwt2 muke pro kt jalan.. hahaha...erm, 2 je la...2 all of u, slmt blaja!

erm..alhamdulillah, aku da slamt msuk uniten..epy ade, tkut pon ade..hrp2 kali neh mjdi la ek..tym orentasi tu...byk sgt bende br yg aku blaja..best..upe2nye kiter neh mcm2 dah ader, cume xreti gune jer..bile aku tgk student2 yg juh2 tuh, aku sian gak la...tingat zmn2 dolu msuk asrama..agak perit la..but now aku bsyukur dpt dok umah..tgk muke mak ayah ari2..xder la tensen sgt..yg pling pnting, ader org nk kawal aku..kiter remaja nih slalu inginkan kebebasan..btol x? bg aku, freedom 2 mmg besth..malah besth giler jika kiter pndi gunekn freedom yg kiter ade..tp dah tntu la ade plus minusnyer kn..aku tgk rmi sgt yg hanyut ngn freedom yg dier dpt..yerla, telepas kandang le katekn..rite now mak ayh aku da bg kebenaran aku nk balik mlm..yerla, diorg pon bosan tgk aku dok melangut dpn tv..cam unta jer..well, aku sntiasa bdoa spaya ati aku nih xder la melampau liarnye..cian parents kn klu ank2 dier da coret arg kt muke diorg..aku arap aku x camtuh la..bile aku da besa sket nih, aku mmg slalu la pk..ape sumbangan aku kt my parents..cam xder je..huhu..truk tol aku nih..aku klu bley tnk la jd anak yg hampeh..aku nak nek moto ari2 ni pon mk ayah aku da susah ati..herm, tgk la.. kiter aggp bnde tu cam remeh jer kn..pdahal prents kiter mmg sntiase concern psl anak dier even bende yg remeh2..tym aku dpt twrn kustem, mk aku trus tepon ktua jbtn dier tnye mcm2..sume 2 utk mse dpn..kiter ni sdp jer men2..nyesal toksah dok citer la..huhu..pe pon, sume mnusia hrus la brubh demi kbaikn..aku yakin, klu ati kiter btol2 nk, kiter akn dpt buat bende tuh sesukar mane pon!

hai! let me tell u a story...i was chatting juz now...i found so many people with difference ability n personality...n soon after dat i get 2 noe dis 1 guy...he's nice n hav good knowledge bout article writing n worked in tv3 company...so, within my dumbness bout writing, i asked him 2 teach me bout writing...tell u whut, he cursed me bcoz i didn't giv him my pic...then he 4got bout d damn writing thing n keep us quarrelin with d matter of trust..now dats i wanna share with u, do pic hold d major trust feelinAg??? i think dat's really sux...he should learn 2 respect people privacy rite?? n on dat point, i battled as hell in d chatroom...luckily, i won..n 2day i learnt sumthin..do not obey other people who is just knowing u in a short tym...do obey ur hart, n ur thought dat rule ur body 4 years..dats d best.. but at least, im happy dat i've won...n dat 24 yer old guy lost on me.. haha..
remember fren, do take care of ur pics..dun ever throw it 2 d rubbish man like dat..see ya!