I'm back!

oh man! how long has it been? like almost 4 months! whaha... okie.. I've really been very busy, believe it or not.. kinda got flooded with stuff 1 aft another.. work...... choir....... the dec angel thingy...... assignments....... exams...... i din even hv time to go online.. like wat I always tell u peeps... I seldom go online... if u see me online.... tat means I've either an assignment to do or some choir stuff to do... but rite now.... I'm here to catch up..... it has been a blast being busy..... but now during the long weekend... I finally get a chance to slow down & reflect on things around me..... I start by looking at how some of my frens got married in 2008, some r even preparing to get married in 2009..... really happy 4 them..... during the coming months or so..... I'm gonna be stretched...... in ministry & work.... God has given me such an awesome job with a great boss & senior to look up to.... guess in 2009, I wont be having anymore job 'crisis' anymore... tink I've been having a fair share of those 4 the past 3 years.... breakthru is finally here.... just like my cgl & choir ICs (M & I).... I've a boss & senior who believes in me.... u know.... u can really sense it when some1 is viewing u as hopeless or hopeful by the way they look at u.... glad I saw the positive side in their eyes..... it matters tat I do stuff rite & correctly.... I hate messing up..... I hate it when ppl view me as messed up..... but the funny thing is...... I'm not a perfectionist...... contradicting eh? anyway..... tmr's gonna start early with a bang... visiting my relatives..... bet they're gonna ask me the same thing again..... "so how? got bf anot?"......... hiaz...... I really wonder.... when will I eva get the chance to stop answering those kind of questions....... I always believe that if it were meant to be.... it would definitely be meant to be....... our lives are pre-destined ppl..... so no use taking a peak at the future when there's a chance to.... it WOULD happen anyway.... so let's all just wait 4 it to happen..... I tink wat God has planned 4 me will be awesome & it is always worthwhile waiting..... halllleeeellllluuuujjjaaaahhh!!

Comfort Zone

It's scary.. sometimes u get so comfortable in life and you wan out... nv eva get contented.. feel u need tat kind of challenge... hiaz..... alamak..... super hard to please rite? when things are rocky.. u complain... when things get too comfortable also complain... how ah Mandy? whahaha..... think I'll just hv to be brave enough to step up and step out... hmmm..... funny talking about bravery.... most ppl think I'm very very bold & brave bcos of how I look and portray myself... but let me tell u guys... my bravery is super circumstancial k.... just tat I dont show it out only... hehe.. BF is finally here... another time of sowing and reaping... roughly I hv tat figure but God is always on time... He may change some stuff during the svc itself..... looking back at how He brought me out of the sinking pit & rescued me.... hiaz... it just brings tears to my eyes... tink I'm gonna cry alot this coming svc.... betta get ready my tissues....... oh my gosh... u knw y i'm super typing nonsense rite now? cos my bro just came back from Australia aft a month... I came home for dinner aft work & there was sooooo much food.. so ate lor... no choice ma.... I'm suppose to be slpin rite now... getting ready for work tmr... but I feel super stuffed... cant even lie down la! wha..... God....~! help!! dont wanna be a walking zombie tmr morning man..... it's gonna be a long day tmr....

Thankfulness...

Dont know whether any of u hv experienced this... Sometimes u just stop in the midst of ur busy schedule to take a look of stuff around you... In the midst of discontentment this week, I found thankfulness... thankful for the small things around me... frens, ministry, work... hmmmm.... the simplicity of some of these things I desire in my life sometimes comfort me.. It clearly shows that He's watching & caring in His very own way... when I'm alone, tat's when He's most evident in my life... Although not all things tat I desire hv come to past but I believe that sooner or later in God's very own perfect timing.. it will happen... maybe it's just stretching my faith... maybe it's not meant to be yet or not meant to be at all... maybe it's just a test of my patience... maybe it's part of a moulding process (cos there's nv a end to this)...I remember Pst saying that God is more interested in your character than your comfort... He knows wat He's doing... Yeh Pst... I sooo get the full picture... Tink I'm really a living example when it comes to this statement... not just me... but my best pals too... when u see ppl goin thru stuff (some worse than wat u're goin thru), u stop feeling lonely goin thru it all on ur own... my best frens r really awesome cgls... they really hv a great calibre of faith... some of u shld hear their stories... but they still hang in there no matter how tough it is... everytime... still loving their members to the max... really to the max... wow... I salute u guys man... it is not easy to live for Him... it has nv been... but we just gotta keep on moving... not for status sake but more for wat or how much He matters to you... Who is He to you in your life? What do you regard Him as? I would admit tat I am a very very imperfect person... ask my leaders & best frens... they know me best... they know my struggles... but I am loyal to those who have given me a chance to grow.. loyal to those who choose to rebuke me in love... grateful to those who choose to see my strengths instead of flaws... tat no matter how many times I mess up.. they just keep telling me to believe & try..... cm'on Mandy... u can do it... this phrase "you can do it".. it sounds so simple... just a very simple statement... but to me.... it means alot... it takes some1 to really hv great trust in me to actually say tat to me... sometimes it takes 10 positive statements to fill up 1 negative 'hole' made by someone who hurt u in ur life.. so take time to fill up tat hole... just like me.. time heals... I can say tat now I've recovered... I'm ready... up & going... except for a few 'punches' thrown at me every now & then.. otherwise... I'm fine... Loving once again.... He has built me up fairly well...... *closing my eyes & taking a deep breath*..... Thank you God..... I love You...

My fav watch is gone....

Hiaz... not everything lasts 4eva... even my fav watch is also affected by this statement... Once it's gone.. it's really gone... today I accidentally hit my watch against 1 of the cupboards that was left open by 1 of the finance staff..... the sound was so loud... I was shocked & looked at my watch immediately... the next thing I knew... the face of the watch was broken... I've tried to replace the glass but none of the watch sops have tat kind of glass so it cant really be replaced..... Arrgghh... hiaz.. I was sooo upset 4 the whole day.... it's really my fav watch & it has been with me 4 like 5 yrs... tat's half a decade! some of my finance colleagues heard it... 1 of them still told me,"wha! Rolex ah!"... I was already like so upset already then she still so sarcastic... wha.... 4 once I really felt like smacking her sia.... anyway, I just ignored her & went to my cubicle to sulk... took me a while to recover fr the 'shock'..... just sat there starring at my watch 4 a full 5-10 mins... this may sound drama.... but I was really very very upset.... 5 yrs & it's really gone just bcos of 1 knock... accidentally summore! also not purposely!! every1 thinks tat the watch must be very expensive but it's not... it's brandless... it's just tat I have lots of memories attached to tat watch & it has a lot of sedimental value in it... I do shop 4 clothes & assesories but not 4 watches..... I dont shop 4 watches at all coz all along I've only been using tat 1 watch... really... funny rite? but it's true! hiaz.... really very upset... hope something betta can replace this... sorry 4 braggin guys... but I'm really very upset abt the loss of my favourite watch... HIAZzzzz.... Sobzzz.....

Disturbia...

I've come to a conclusion tat Rihanna only sings the best songs 4 dancing... heard this song in Double O tat day... sth new.... this song rocks.. erm... for now.... at least.... cos u kinda get sick of her songs when u hear them for too long... haha... oops.... no offence to Rihanna fans... So peeps... if u like it... rock on too... whooo....

I still believe in destiny... tat u & I were meant to be...

Nice song........... Somehow I know I will find a way, To a brighter day, in the sun....... Somewhere I know that he waits for me, Someday soon he'll see, I'm the one. I won't give up on this feeling, And nothing could keep me away. ........'Cause I still believe in destiny, That you and I were meant to be.I still wish on the stars as they fall from above,'Cause I still believe, believe in love. (Na na na, na nana, na na na, na nana) I know what's real can not be denied, Although it may hide for a while. With just one touch love can calm your fears, Turning all your tears, into smiles.............It's such a wonderous feeling,I know that my heart can't be wrong........'Cause I still believe in destiny,That you and I were meant to be.I still wish on the stars as they fall from above,'Cause I still believe, believe in love.......Love can make miracles, change everything,Lift you from the darkness, and make your heart sing (make your heart sing), Love is forever, when you fall, it's the greatest power of all..............Oh I still believe in destiny,That you and I were meant to be. I still wish on the stars as they fall from above......... 'Cause I still believe, believe in love.Yes I still believe, believe in love. I still believe in love, (na na na, na nana, na na na, na nana)I still believe, believe in love,I still believe, believe in love............