Wow time has really gotten away from me and I have not blogged in such a long time! We turned off our internet at home to help save money for our next adventure! Not to long ago Matt got orders to Germany!!! We are so excited to move to Germany but have so much to get done before then. We are scheduled to leave no later then September 30th. As many of you know by now we are also pregnant with identical twin girls!! We are so very excited and elated. Noah will be a busy big brother to say the least. At the moment we are having some complications with the twins. They have whats called twin to twin transfussion. (http://childrens.memorialhermann.org/texas-fetal-center/ttts-surgery/) <---if you would like to read a little bit about the syndrome. Basically one twin is taking more blood from the other twin. This is obviously dangerous for both twins and we have had to make some challenging decisions. Right now we are currently in Houston being seen by some of the best physicans trying to decied when to have surgery. The surgery comes with major risks so the want to make sure that its worth it before putting the babies lives in further danger. They do lots and lots and lots and lots of fun crazy ultrasounds to determin how much fetal distress the babies are under. Then they rate you from 1-3. 1=babies are stressed but they are still doing well and they dont need the surgery at this time. 2=Prime time for surgery. They are stressed but have the best survival chance at this stage when doing the surgery. 3=The most critical time for you babies and you need surgery imediatly to help save there lives. This stage you dont want to be in because the sucess of the surgery is a lot lower considering the babies are very stressed and you put them under more stress. Right now we fall in between a 1 and 2. That was as of Monday. Today is thursday and we go back to see if im progressing into the 2 stage, or if im staying about the same, or im degressing wich would be amazing!! If i have progressed into a 2 we go ahead with the surgery. If i am kinda the same we get to go home and i will see a specialist in abilene 3 times a week. It has been challenging to hear the risks and complications but we know in the end its all in Heavenly Fathers hand. I am so greatfull for the testimony I have of Christ. I know that this life is only temporary and we are supposed to face challenges and trials. Some may seem simple and some may seem so difficult we cant bare them. The trial as of late has seemed umberable at times. To think about losing one or both of these precious angels is umberable to think about. Yeasterday matt and i went to the Houston Temple and it was so peacful and humbling. I feel at times satan trys to whisper in our ear that life is tuff and if we follow him he can make things better. He trys to tempt us into anything when we are at our weakest point. Im greatful that our Father in Heaven knows and understands me personally and helps to keep my mind focused and straight on the path. While at the Temple i felt so comforted that no matter what happened we would be okay. That even threw our tuffist moments He will not leave my side. That He loves me so much. Life is hard but its not ment to be a cake walk. Im greatful for my trials but im also greatful for the calm in my life as well. Im happy to have such a strong supprotive husband who has allowed me to express my frustrations, fears, and tears. He has truly been a sholder I can lean on. Im also greatful for all of our wonderful friends, family, and church members who have graciously stood up and said how can we help? what can we do? Even though we are going threw this difficult time I have truly been blessed. I hope next time I write I can bring better news. As of now we are waiting to see how things pan out. We love each of you very much and hope things are going well at this time for you. Always remeber that you are a son/daughter of a Heavenly Father who loves you personally and knows you personally. Always look for blessing threw your trial and I promise He will help you threw them.
