Cleansing of the soul!

It has been a long time since I have blogged, but a few friends have inspired me to re-begin my blogging! It may not be very interesting to you, but this writing helps me release some of the stresses in my world!

   Life has been somewhat crazy! This semester has kicked my butt, Chemistry is one dang hard class. For all of you Chemist out there... WHY? Ugh. It is not very comprehensible to me, and I still don't understand why it is required for Nursing majors. None of my nurses can even tell me why! OH WELL. Just one of those things I need to get out of the way.
  In other news..  I have been super frustrated lately, with life in general I suppose. What it boils down to is I don't know the plan for my life specifically, and I have to trust in the unknown of life. How hard is it to come to terms with that? To trust so fully in a plan I have no idea what will happen, but to know that it is in my best interest in life. God knows who I am, he knows what I need. Shouldn't that be simple enough? Why do I let Satan in and cause me to doubt? He sneaks in when I least expect it, and I am down in the dumps all over again! I have been feeling an empty void in my life lately, it comes and goes.. Its when I am not doing what i'm supposed to be doing that I feel this way. Its like I want to punch myself in the face every time I am like this because I KNOW. Is it okay to just say, we are all human who make mistakes? I am just ansy and frustrated, wanting to know right this very minute what is in store for me, or what I need to change to get on the path to what i'm supposed to be doing. But I suppose that is my trial in this life. Keep clinging to my faith, and surrounding myself with good people! So thanks to all of those around me who are good, who encourage me to keep moving forward, and for never giving up on me. I know without out my support I would have given up on my dreams long ago.
 Because I have to work a lot of Sundays, my school schedule makes me work more Sundays than I would like, I live for the Sundays I get to actually attend church. Every Sunday I go I am uplifted! The talks, the lessons, everyone around me is so inspired by the spirit it is amazing! Here's a few highlights
 "No one will stop your progress but yourself"
The Lord puts so much faith in us, can't we put that much faith in him?
Individual worth-"We are perfect to our Heavenly Father"
-God loves us even when we are on the wrong path
-Trust the plan
-No matter where you are, what you are doing, you are not invisible to God
-Your experiences/trials are not for forever
-"If only you can see yourself the way I do"
-Be aware of our temptations, and know how Satan will use our weaknesses against us.
-The Holy Ghost will show us all things we should do
-Satan has NO confidence in our ability to choose right from wrong, God has total confidence in our decisions
-Hope = believing and expecting things will happen
-Sometimes we are discouraged and feel lost and empty. It is these times we must cling to the truth of the gospel and have a hope it will work out by holding on until we are back in the light

So many lessons! I have learned so many more in institute and by the people who surround me daily. I am working on surrounding myself with good people ALWAYS, and stand on my own out of the darkness of Satan. Life is good. It is hard every day, but that is the trials of life. We are ever supposed to be clinging to the rod to move closer to our Heavenly Father every day. May we live every moment as if it was our last (kind of cliche), and that if it was we could be happy with the way our lives have turned out. Even if we have strayed, or even if (when) we sin, God knows our true hearts. He knows what we really want, and who we really are.

Day 21. Some of my most favorite places and people..

  Pictures make me happy in general.. but lets see if I can find one that truly makes me happy! :) All of these people/places make me happy.. I have been to all of these places, sometimes many of times before.. Someday i'll going to the temple! :) Love life.

Day 20. Marriage, Marriage is what brings us together today!

   Someone I can see myself marrying? Well.. Obviously I don't have a name because I am currently a single woman, and totally looking ha, but.. I do have some requirements that I have decided are the most important things to me in this life.
  I need a priesthood worthy husband, someone that respects the authority God has given him if he continues to live worthy.
   I need someone who has as much love for the church as I do and NEVER wants to be away from it.
   I need someone strong enough to keep pushing me forward with my goals 
   Someone with a sense of humor, with a good laugh, and a beautiful smile he is not afraid to share with the world
   Someone who loves their family as much as I do. They are my world, and I want to share them with him. I want to know his family too.
   Someone who will want to go back to the temple with me often.
   Someone who has a passion for something in their life.. Like I have a passion for learning and for the medical field, and educating those people around me.
 Loves ALL people.. Wants to help as much as they can
 Puts up with all of my crazy antics, and quirks..


   I feel like this list could go on, and on, and on... I want a husband that will match me in every single way. I know someday it will happen. Maybe not now, or in the next fews months, or years.. But someday when the Lord knows i'm ready.. Keep telling me that when i'm feeling down and out! :) I love this gospel and my life! I know God is ALWAYS mindful of me. He loves me. :)

Day 19. They call me....

My family has always called me Meerry.. haha I don't know how to type it so you can pronounce it correctly.. and i'm not exactly sure why I was given that nickname..
Most everyone calls me Mall, pronounce Mal, my entire life. I love when people call me Mal. It makes it seem more personal rather than using my full name.. I do answer to Mallory, obviously, but Mal is used most commonly.
  When I worked at the movie theaters I had MANY different nicknames.. Some I loved.. others I did not! MIDGE!! (Yes you must yell it when you say it..) Its pronounced Midge, but its supposed to be MIJ, which are my initials.. Rachel Hicks/Eastin, and Stefenie Anzalone/Frisbee used to call me this ALL the time.. In fact they still do, on the rare chance I get to see slash talk to them! Miss you guys, and I love it! It brings a smile to my heart every time!
  Mal-Function, Fire-Marshal Mal-... These are a few nicknames my dear friend Kellen James decided to give me.. I think he just got a kick out of calling me Mal-Function.. Fire marshal Mal has a story that goes with it.. Maybe i'll tell you about it someday! :) imagine a movie theater, a popcorn machine, a fire extinguisher, and a HOUSE FULL of customers.. Good times..

Day 18. The Sky is the Limit!

Plans, Dreams, Goals
   Sometimes I think I have too many plans, or ideas going so many different ways! The one set plan I have is to become I nurse. Its what I want to do, its who I want to become! My new job has exposed me to the actual nursing field, and actually what I will be doing in the future. I am LOVING it. They have so much knowledge and have the ability to REALLY help people!! Isn't that awesome?! Within the next few years i want to be in nursing school, keep my current job, maybe find some love along the way. Enjoy life to the fullest!!!
  Dreams.. I dream of someday having my own beautiful children.. Working at the hospital exposes me to many different, beautiful children, and I yearn to have my own someday! I want to be a mother, a wife, a housekeeper, a support system, a beacon of light to others around me! Someday I will have my love, have my children, have my job, have my temple experiences, and be a faithful, active member of my church. I know someday i'll get there.. It'll happen. It just has to. God's timing is the ONLY timing.. He knows all. :)
  Goals.. I have future goals, current goals, long term goals, and life goals. My Book of Mormon goal should be finished in the next 2 weeks! I am SOOOOOOO excited to finally have that one under my belt, and for the wonderful blessings that i've experienced and for the wonderful blessings to come! I am grateful for my support, for the confirmation from the spirit for my future, and for a wonderful life to come!! :)

Day 17. Trade Lives?

   Pondering on who I would switch lives with is hard! I think everyone has it rough at one point or another, and we are all blessed in many DIFFERENT ways!! If I could switch.. I'd probably want to be a singer.. Carrie Underwood, or Kelly Clarkson.. Their music has inspired me at different points in my life and I LOVE their voices.. I want the chance to experience singing to the max! Wouldn't that be a sweet life?!

Day 16.. Pictures Galore!

 

Skydiving pictures are OLD! But good times.. That was my 2nd time going.. What a blast!!! I LOVED IT! :) Even better in a HUGE GROUP.. :) The shooting pictures are more recent.. I like to go shoot.. I'm not necessarily very good, but its still fun!! :)