Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut, doesn't have a swelled head, doesn't force itself on others, isn't always "me first."

- 1 Corinthians 13:4-5, THE MESSAGE

pingy

dear God I must confess
that sometimes You seem far away
sometimes i forget about
how i stand because of grace

but Lord there's been a change in me
a change i hope will stay
for this is my prayer today

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The love that completes me and gives rest unto my soul.

It's the love that says I am precious, chosen, and worth dying for.

The love that all little girls dream of having.

Time isn't what heals all wounds.
It's love that heals.

i think the next best thing in life that ranks below knowing God is the moment where you stand at the altar.. looking at the other beginning of your life standing next to you, holding your hands.

just received a wedding invitation from a friend. my sister's friend actually, but still mine too okay =)
and i aww-ed a few times while going thru the card. it just makes me smile altogether.
i would think this is my first friend's wedding. the previous were all relatives. i think its cool. soon i'll reach an age when my friends will start getting married one by one. hahas.

i know i know. its overated / there are rare happily ever afters / people still can divorce what / its only the beginning, you only see the good side..bla bla bla as people say.

even when life experiences and heartaches joins the jeering crowd. i still hope anyway. its funny how the heart can be so strong and so weak at the same time.

you know people dream of becoming a boss of their own company, earning big bucks, becoming superstar and such? i just dream of coming home to a cosy family, tucking my kids in bed and a morning kiss everyday. i know, that just seems like an eventual thing to happen for most people but its pretty much my 'big' dream. its like i can't even imagine what job i'm gonna take up, but i just imagine the moment when i come home.

i honestly think its not easy to come to a point where 2 people decide to get married. it does takes quite a bit doesn't it. so much of it actually. to actually get to that point. its definitely worth aww-ing at.

my day will come. it will. some day. so i smile anyway.

why do some farts hit you right in the face immediately after you let it go, and why do some take a longer time to travel to your nose?

just a honestly curious question.

i am thinking the room temperature affects.
the warmer it is, the faster the air molecules move and thus a better transportation of your fart gas.

hmmmm... or is it the density of the gas?


*edited

according to leonel:

"i think the velocity of the fart is important
the higher the velocity, the more turbulent the flow
thus causing a lot of movement and spread
and then the delta T
the bigger the difference in temperature, the higher diff in internal energy
so the fart molecules will move around more and scatter the air"

anymore inputs anyone?

senseless blabber are just awesome. it takes some sense out of the senseless and makes it sound professional. lol. the previous sentence is a fine example i believe.

sometimes

when i can't find an explanation..

i wonder what's wrong with me.

i got home sick.

and i cried myself to sleep because i had a sudden bad tummy ache and was reading a book that totally explains how i feel in words.

i just wish someone would tuck me in bed and put me to sleep. i didn't really get that much cos my parents don't exactly stay with me. i have a complete family. just a little short story and a lot of independence put in it.

indeed there are times i just wish i could sulk all day and wonder what did i do. but no. i can't and i don't have to. most times i don't want to actually.


"Daisy, when we are hurt, it's instinct to cover the wound and hold back anyone from brushing up against it. If you want your wound to heal, and it sounds to me like you do, you need to stand up straight, pull your arms away, and let the light and breath of God work its cure on you."

"But how do I do that?"

"You need to let go. Of Daniel, of your unmet dream. You were not meant to have Daniel for your husband. You must trust that God was looking out for you, Daisy."

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness no sickening
No hiding You hold me now,
You hold me now

hey guys. thank you so so so so so much. i enjoyed myself much and i wish i didn't had to leave so soon again. =[ got to meet almost everyone i wanted. =)

thanks for the talks, the encouragement, the shopping, the hanging out, the badminton session dat got us all aching, the notes, the candy, the eating until our stomachs burst, the time even tho u had work the next day, to meet me even tho u had thousand and one things to do, the effort to travel all the way to the airport... everything, and most important of all, the love.

with all my heart, thank you ALL. it was a good 15 days.

i don't know why. i subconsciously compared the day i flew back to perth one semester ago and this time round. i had the same farewell lunch - beef noodles. the same airlines company - tiger. but. things are different now. yes they are. and i accept it. i have to.

"if he's really into you. he'll make it happen."
i won't say its an extremely nice movie. but i guess there are some truths in it. mostly actually.
i'll just wait for my exception.

sleepy sleepy yawns yawns. nights.

flowers fade, the fruits of summer fade,
they have their seasons, so do we
but please promise me that sometimes
you will think of me

Crafter TRV23/N - 3/4 acoustic guitar. S$300++ i forgot the price. saw it at bras basah the other day.
Epiphone PR4E Acoustic/Electric guitar. 429AUD. looks pretty pretty! haha.

i've always wanted a 3/4 guitar, so it'll look and feel more mine-ish. haha. something i would be more comfortable with. but this epiphone looks so so tempting! it just has this very clean look. but it looks regularly huge. sian. if only i can shrink the guitar. haha.

meanwhile i be thankful for my sis's old one.

wooooo. that's wad i bought today.

a skirt i waited over 5 months to buy. a cheap and nice dress. a really sweet skirt. and a vintage bag!! i loveeee the bag. it looks like one of those leather vintage brown camera bag. something i've been eye-ing longer than the 5 month skirt. haha. they are the things i cant say no to when i ask myself, "do i need them?" hahahaha.

and guess wad. i got a present from my bro-in-law too. =D a beeig blue pillowy-soft toy. good for me when resting on my table in front of the lappy. thank you thank you! i was that close to buying it for myself when the "do u need it" and the "huh, buying soft toys for yourself?" question came. maybe they saw me staring at it for so long, they bought it for meee. tgt with the little seats they bought for Zia.

poor Zia hit his head today. =[ the table kinda made a small cut so there was some blood. man. it was really quite a heart dropper. kinda my fault. my brain wasn't really working nor functioning fast enough when i was standing next to him. bahhh.

i hope i'll be a good mum next time. actually i hope to be a pretty pretty bride first. hahaha. of cos la!
21 years old already lo. if 25 is when i wish to get married.. i have 4 years left. by then about a third of my life is over. wow.

i am happy any way.

i'm glad i don't have it. so scary there is actually severe pms where they can't really control their hormones and go crazy like throw things and slams doors. and wad do husbands do? get frustrated. okay, i shall not discredit the few good guys left out there who tries to understand and help. haha. all e struggles between the different gender. no wonder ppl turn to partners of the same orientation. its sad. don't get me wrong, i still love boys/men. haha. was just expressing how homo feels.

another quick question. wad if u are in your toilet shitting, and something of your worse fear creeps in? eg. insects, reptiles or animals. do u suck your poot back and run or cont shitting and pray e thing doesn't come nearer to u? i think i'm e latter plus i'll take out my pants or shirt to try shoo it away. hahahahahaha. wad a stupid question.

john mayer.
he is so into it.
tho towards the end he looks kinda awkward. haha.
his eyes were closed the whole time, my maid thought he was blind.

yes, she is awake because she can't sleep. too much dreams i think. she doesn't watch much tv cos she pai seh, even after being with us more than 10 years. but she watch if only i'm around. so i'll stay up so she can watch. if i off she won't stay one. she always read of celebrities on the news and get pretty excited. i think she watching the funeral would be good. so many celebrities. but i'm pretty tired alreadyy. gawwrrg.

one week's gone. one more to go. i am not ready to leave home again. sigh.

u know how i always pinch my nose and close my mouth when i sneeze so its like an internal explosion and i won't spread my germs all over?

just now i pinch my nose..
and my fingers slipped at the most crucial time
becos
my nose was oily.
and i think i almost sneeze my throat out. hahahahaha.
*imagine sneezing with your mouth closed.

actually its not the first time this happens.
but i just thought how funny how oily my nose is. lol.

i thought i was a size 3 for converse shoes. turned out i am a 2. =O yes, even i am surprised.
i definitely can't wear adult patterns foreverrrr now.... ahhhh. yup. so i bought a kids one today. haha. it has this internal checkered flip tongue thing. i like. it looks really really dark navy at times and purple at times. i just saw its purple side after i bought it.. and i'm like.. uh oh. i am not really a big fan of purple. haha. but i still like it anyway. =)



so the sales guy asked me "you shopping alone ah?"
"yea, just to buy some stuff then i'll head over to my friend's place" (also thinking.. wah! super not sensitive lor u. asking that question makes my life sound so sad and like i have no friends. i mean, usually u would just think that question and not blurt it out. hahaha. right?)

so then as i was paying and waiting for my transaction to get through, he said, "my name is max."
and i was like, "oh.. okay." nodding my head.. why he tell me his name. so funny. so i looked at his name tag and it wrote sales assistant. so maybe i thought they didn't print his name so he wanted to tell me. then i nodded again.

the next question came. "so what is your name?"

it was then things kinda pieced together for me. oh man! so funny. yeah so i told him my name and yay! the transaction was done.

"nice to meet you, see you again."

wad an experience.

watched 3 movies at lowel's house. man, we were just 3 pigs lazing and snacking around. hahaha.

just a quick question. what if you find someone who look exactly like someone you love. what would your reaction be? i'm just curious. would you want to know that someone even tho he's a total stranger? hahaha. just got inspired from some tv show.

some things we don't talk about
rather do without and just hold the smile
falling in and out of love
ashamed and proud of, together all the while

you can never say never
while we don't know when
but time and time again
younger now than we were before

a typical sunday here in singapore.

quite a bad start actually. its as if i woke up on the wrong side of the bed or something. my mind just couldn't stop fighting itself.

but when i entered the auditorium, things just sorta blew my mind. the presence of God just can't be explained. peace it is called.

singapore is known as a complicated crowded place. but you know, i realised things just feel all simpler hanging out with my friends here. the things we laugh about. the things we are contented with.

my guy friends are so different from those back in Perth too. maybe we've trained them well to be real gentlemens. haha. they went to borrow vcd and guess wad show they picked?

bride wars! its a chick flick! i was honestly amazed. they said becos there were more girls than guys and that they didn't mind. at the end of the show we (girls) reckon that chick flicks actually do help guys know more about girls and relationship matters, and they (guys) agree. wow.

guys in perth are just so.. errr. happy with their manlyhood, they... *shrugs
(no wonder they are still single.. shhhh)
then it was family dinner at the steamboat place. good.

the day is good if i say its good.

i know its natural to yearn. but please, take it away.

these tears can't flow anymore.
this pain shouldn't hurt anymore.
if letting go is it. why am i not at peace.
is it me?
am i the wreck?

this is what i learnt today.

loving someone doesn't mean i am not giving God my 100%.
tho initially to be honest i knew i wasn't..
and it is actually common for couples to feel like that at first! i just found out.
becos u just want to spend so much time with each other. but after the whole honeymoon period, and a lot of talking through, things get better after that.

my friend also gathered from many older couples in the church and they all think they think very differently too. but relationships are all about give and take isn't it? but how then, when sometimes we just don't listen to each other nor try to be in each other's shoe? well, that's when He comes in. when relationships can't prosper without Him.

honestly, i don't know what to do.
i am confused.
when i don't pray about us, you say it shows how little i treasure our relationship.
when i pray about us, you say it shows what i treat God as.
do u understand my dilemma?

take this longing away.

with or without doesn't seem to bother me anymore.

shopping has lost its charm.
"do i really need it?" "no." and then i move on.
i could do without facebook, msn, whatever.. if i want to.
i just want to read. and read. and sing.

i can do ok without a man in my life.
i can take care of myself pretty well..
as time passes, u just learn to live, with or without what you had.


but the longing remains.


and i read there is nothing wrong with that.
i was made to think it was wrong. becos if that doesn't go, it would mean i don't value Him enough to be satisfied. but maybe it really isn't that way. it just isn't something we can kill no matter how hard we try. because its simply the way we were made. not to want someone to rely on, but to complete us.
He made it complete with His final creation.


The Lord God said, "It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him." -Genesis 2:18


i hope i made sense. somehow.. a little bit? =/

how many times
have I broken Your heart
but still You forgive
if only I ask



Dear God,

make my heart like yours.

Love, Weiping.

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and again. i opened myself to another heart break. wad an idiot. xD

budget air seats are really straight.
i think a set square would fit comfortably on them, but definitely not a human backbone.
haha. i'm not complaining. i just thought its a funny comment to make. a geek just had to say her piece of mind. haha.

watching 'Noel' on the plane was a bad idea. i cried really badly. it has been awhile now.. it was a christmas show. i got it free from woman's weekly eons ago. yeah its odd i know. i thot it was some dodgy show too, dats why i never touched it till now (on tiger with no entertainment unless its self-service. haha). but apparently its not. its pretty heart warming.. and penelope cruz was in it too.

"when you find a love like that, u just don't let it go without a fight." -Rose

i guess it all boils down to the fact that everyone just wants to feel loved. to be loved. to know that they mattered. to be forgiven. to repair broken ties. when that is taken away from them.. the world goes crazy, in all sorts of ways. i guessed God knew that. well, not guess. i am sure. that is why he sent Christ down. to show how much He loves each and every single one of us. He may not be visible and all.. thats why He puts really nice people around us, like our friends and family. or someone.. at the nick of time.


coming home sure gives me all sorts of feelings. somehow i just got reminded of the very day i left this place about 5 odd months ago. still very vividly i remember i was all excited to see the man i thought i was gonna spend my life with, waiting to pick me up at the arrival hall. but now.. sometimes all it takes is 1 second to turn someone's life around pi radians. like a car accident. it wasn't 1 second for me, but all i can say is that "He gives and takes away, my heart will choose to say, blessed be Your Name".

"He didn't give up on God, and I'm thankful for that. But sometimes I think he's given up on people" -Father Laurent from Blue Heart Blessed