Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut, doesn't have a swelled head, doesn't force itself on others, isn't always "me first."

- 1 Corinthians 13:4-5, THE MESSAGE

pingy

dear God I must confess
that sometimes You seem far away
sometimes i forget about
how i stand because of grace

but Lord there's been a change in me
a change i hope will stay
for this is my prayer today

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST HOUSEMATE EUNICE. =p

thank you for all the times u've taken care of me. =)

happy 21st! =D

school's so bad that during midweek i thought i was in week 2 already. too much going on. tutes started. one drawing due nx week.

hopefully nx week on i can start my ilecs and all cos freshies will be done-ded.

but my house issues are still...
better now tho. cos there's walking space.. no more a maze. i cant wait for a time when my house will look clean and empty. should have came back a month earlier. it really sucks when i don't start my sem right. everything rolls into a huge ball until e end of the sem and then exams will be e killas! not good.

starting 2nd week into my plan and my phone cap has exploded. dang dang dang. so i have 3 weeks left with no credits. topped up eunice's optus number and i was too rash to listen to the operator. i should have changed the plan first before recharging so i could kinda get like double the credits i am having now. aighs.

i seriously wanted to say that i started the week well, attending all my classes. but.. i failed.
the first class i missed was due to the fact that i was packing my kitchen and i just din want to leave it halfway. 2nd was becos i was to end class at 5, have meeting at 6, and choir prac at 730 till 10 or so, i felt that if i didn't sleep in, i would have somewhat died. 3rd was becos i cried myself to sleep and i was throwing some tantrum not wanting to wake up early tho i could. bad.

i guess through all these i still have things/people to be thankful for. becos i'm quite a 'try to do everything myself' kinda person and ask only when i'm desperate. so its good now that i learn to ask for help cos i really cant handle this week too well.

alright. i can do this.

i'm depressed.

i guess its a whole series of things. probably sounds like nothing when i try to express myself. nothing significant enough to explain why. i always cant put them in words or articulate myself properly. sometimes i wonder what i'm good for and when i can stop being selfish and needy.

if God was a tree i could hug so dearly. i would.

i want to go home.

been workin out my muscles quite a bit.
carrying, lifting, scrubbing, running, kicking.. haha.

gotta thank the guys big time for helping me move my stuff too.
what would i do without them, without the church, without God.

i think i wouldn't do too good and i would cry myself to sleep missing home and wondering what i'm doing so far away, studying something so hard, without anyone to lean on.

and so i thank God.

kind of a late post cos had been pretty busy. big change from the sleeping, eating, pooping, shopping, watchin tv lifestyle. back there, life was mostly about me.. but here, hardly have time for ourselves. suddenly there are so much responsibilities to bear and so much to consider. things just get harder when u think its suppose to actually be easier. so many things i've never thought about and i'm already somewhat stressed even before school starts. but its all good. a nice wake up call. i don't want school to start! mummmyyy..

this is kinda a lengthy and wordy post. not really a snapshot frenzy person.. i'm so sorry if u need to go thru the toture reading all these.

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i shld start with my tiger flight. actually quite lazy to explain all the visa drama but i guess i should try in the most summarised form..

they cant detect my visa in the old passport cos i renewed my passport so they went to make a visa for me on the spot and i had to pay $50 cash. turned out it was a visitor visa with 3 months max stay and valid for a year. HUH? i have a student visa. why give me vistor! lots of waiting and debating. apparently they din check wad visa i had in the first place den just anyhow make one visa so i could enter australia. in the end they refunded the $50 bucks and my visa was fine. and cos they took so long.. they somewhat escorted me in cos i was kinda late to board the plane.

and the plane so cute, must walk the staircase one. not the one where they have a walkway to the door. 2nd time i boarded a train this way. first was in south america. pretty cool. ok. i'm bad at summary. this is not summarised at all. haha.

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next is the packing packing packing bijia's stuff and cleaning cleaning cleaning her room. monday night all the way till friday when i moved in my stuff. of cos i went out quite a bit for lunches and dinner and orientation.

my room is cleannn now. at least it feels cleaner. haha. first i wipe the walls with cloth, bombed the room with insecticide den i vacuum the floor, foamed it, disinfect the walls, vacuum the floor again many rounds and disinfect everywhere. lol. Glen20 crisp linen spray rocks. hahaha. so YAY! i have a room now. and it feels clean tho i cant see it. haha. just left with a drawer to buy and stuff so my clothes will not be all over the place.

i'll worry about the kitchen and living room later. haha.

my eyes are dead now. i wld love to write more. but. i'll sleep first. night night.

semester is starting again. its gonna be my 4th sem there, and by the end of it, i would have been in australia for 2 years. how time flies. how it does.

new sem, new cell, new people, new experiences.
i am just glad i have my comfort zone in my dear berliners.
awrghh. i'm gonna miss so many outings!

alright, i shall blog abit on my hols.

and so. i worked for 4 days out of my whole summer hols. i was supposed to work 8. but i guess they don't really need me, so i was only scheduled for 4. pretty interesting working for the cruise.

thats the check in-counters.

thats behind where we eat our snacks and drink our drinks or just go there to sit cos we stand for 5-6 hours straight. like my coffee club job. but its good la, better than having my bum on the couch at home.

and thats right. the other big portion of the time was spend with my bum on the couch.. tv-ing like crazy and doin smthin else. did LOTS of shopping too.. until it gets really sick and tiring. haha. and i spent time meeting up with pri sch, sec sch, jc, uni and church frens too. God has been really good to me.

and yup, my eldest sis is back for good. more people to take care of mum and dad. yay! its really good to have a baby in the house too. it justs makes the house livelier.

and so i was told. after parents have kids, the attention goes to the kids. so when they grow up and leave home for uni and to get married, there's a void between the couple becos for a good 20 years or more, the attention was more on the kids than each other. so they will feel lonely and don't know wad to do. its so sad. i hope they fall in love with each other again. its so hard when they have totally different hobbies and stuff. oh wells. if only they were in church, its so different. serving together, having so many people to hang out with, having such a purpose in life. i think its so awesome and uplifting of spirits. we just got to pray!

anyway peoples. msn, facebook and email is the way. i'll miss you all!

and so i read.. when u're lonely, help someone!

and so i heard.. if u think nobody likes/loves you, and since nobody is perfect, it kinda means everybody like/love you isn't it. hahas.

what can complaining and sulking do? change the fact of certain things? or make life less miserable?

the kind of aura we give out, determines the kind of people we attract or repel.. right?

anyway.. if u catch me whining in any way, let me know.

my circumstances should not determine if i am to be happy or not. that should be up to me.
whats the point of declaring we have the ultimate lover in our lives and yet sulk and complain our way through life? what kind of testimony we are? either be hot or cold right? and not the hypocrisy of lukewarm. seriously, why do we have so many reasons justifying ourselves? as ppl tell me.. excuses, excuses. its scary how ppl can see thru me that way. but i shan't give them the chance to anymore. no more excuse for me.