Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut, doesn't have a swelled head, doesn't force itself on others, isn't always "me first."
- 1 Corinthians 13:4-5, THE MESSAGE
pingy
dear God I must confess
that sometimes You seem far away
sometimes i forget about
how i stand because of grace
but Lord there's been a change in me
a change i hope will stay
for this is my prayer today
i had to climb 8 stories just to go to the toilet after being bugged by my sister the whole time before and thus cant study.
i am so sleepy my eyes can't open. i don't even know if anything i read is going in.
please give me some sleeeep.
| 6:17 AM
bad dream. not funny. i always dream about things regarding what i'm studying but way harder. so i start to panic, but subconsciously i know its not real also because of all the snoozing action going on.
also dreamt i was drenched in the rain with AGAIN, not enough time left to study because i wanted to borrow an umbrella.. but duno drag until where..
oh yay. tonight is the night. where i can get my round the clock sleep. hopefully. all the best to my test. yes. all the best!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
cosy | 5:30 PM
its spring. but here i am, in my room, with the heater on next to me. its so cosy. and the apple scent is still there.
half a hectic week is over. assignments somehow just worked its way out. left with one more 25% test for the week, tomorrow.
i am sooo unprepared. but somehow i'm feeling peaceful. maybe the jitters will come tonight. i'm falling sick again. 3rd time this sem. gotta drink more water. more water.
anyway, on my way back just now at the bicycle bay, a handsome angmoh smiled at me while he was unlocking his bike. it wasn't a big smile, but i'm quite sure he did. maybe its the 'u've got a bicycle too' smile. or maybe he was just smiling at someone else. haha. smiles just make life that bit easier when u're drowning in school work. thats what i like about it here. u can just smile at totally random strangers just because u feel like it, u're happy, or just it being a polite gesture.
sigh. back to studying. but i feel like sleeping. its that drowsy evening feeling where the sun is starting to set, and u're in your room alone, and u just want to sleep. cos u're nose is not functioning properly and ur head is heavy. yawns...
Sunday, September 21, 2008
family | 5:11 AM
something in me tingled when i saw a family picture. no words. just the way it is. a picture. yet it speaks. just like how they have been doing all they can/giving all their best to us silently. Father And Mother ILove You
did the word family really originated from that? like the person who came up with it and put it in the dictionary under english. hmmmm.. i think it would be cool if it was..
even if i don't get to see them much. nor talk to them much. i hope they know i love them. i wish i could do more for them. because i've been blessed so much.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
cell day | 1:08 AM
spent the whole day with my cell.
from bbq to wii to cooking to eating to praying to arcading. kinda threw my studying/doing work aside for the day. and now that it's over..
DENG DENG. i am soo squashed by the workload.
i need a miracle to freeze time + not feel sleepy + motivation to do productive work. wad a headache. literally. but it always works out in the end when He's around.
time for a warm bath to drain away the headache. good night.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
| 5:15 AM
i'm sorry i can't be perfect.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
peek-a-boo! | 1:08 AM
=)
nothing can sum my day up better than that. funny what a baby can do to your day. =D
went to ikea early in the morning. i got myself -a unit of roll-able drawer -an alarm clock * u know those annoying beep beepbeep beepbeepbeepbeepbeep ones before handphones were invented? now i don't need to squint to see the time anymore because there are big numbers on the clock and a snooze light for me to press! -a thick wooden bowl for the legendary indo-mee * expensive stuff i tell u. but being able to hug the bowl of instant noodles without burning your fingers makes it all good. -an apple scented candle * smells like my favourite sweet!
came home -fixed up the drawer -packed my room -arranged the shoes outside -sweep the floor all over -magic clean my room and the toilet -vacuum the floor for fun (extra cleanliness) -lighted the apple candle -change my bedsheet -did the laundry -blew out the apple candle
now my room is clean and smells like apple! i think the fruity smell is making me smile.
went out for dinner with my sis and her friends (who are my friends too cos we all are in the same church) at viet hoa. beehoon is yum yum.
then my sis and family came over, and we photobooth-ed! i seriously think baby is growing cuter and cuter as the days go. i love him!
den went with the girls to moon cafe for some coffee. i had white hot choc with marshmellows. so good! not many places sell white hot choc. usually its only hot choc. yupp. but i was bursting already man. eat so much!
what a day! didn't get any work done. which really stresses me like 101. BUT looking at the photobooth pictures and smelling my awesome room just makes it all worthwhile.
=)
Sunday, September 14, 2008
sleepy thought | 3:33 AM
we are all selfish in our own ways. humans are such annoying species. oh so complicated. full of excuses. impossible to decipher.
if i was an animal or an insect, all i need to do was do what i was born for. to work to find food or to just mate and die. hahahahahahaha. so simple. well.. technically, generally.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
panties! | 1:54 AM
i'm running out of panties. only left 2 fresh ones in the drawer as of tonight. busy busy man.
sooo bad. i've been neglecting my house chores quite a bit this semester.
so crappy. i'm sleepy.
i want time to pass. fast.
Friday, September 12, 2008
more dreams | 6:03 PM
very dark. there was this old building i could see thru the window. then there was this moonlight lit place with zoned out people and dogs walking around i was living in this run down place like a big jail. a figure came to visit, not anyone i know of. in contrast, he was dressed in a clean pressed suit. besides him. all i could remember before i woke up was this colourful magazine in the midst of my greyish cell-like home. then he left, out the door. leaving me wailing.
den came the phone call that woke me up. wad a relieve. its scary how i can remember so much about my dreams.
i'm having such a headache. one week of study break is giving me more stress than without. time to catch up girl. no more night mares for me please.
oh yeah. my sister's in town. for a church friend's wedding. pretty cool. i get to see baby Zia here in Perth. hahas.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
dreams | 6:50 PM
i dreamt that i missed my jellyfish deadline. somehow i was in this hotel when that happened. i tried to find a quiet corner in attempt to do it. but everywhere i go, someone had to come along, and sorta either irritate me, or poke fun at me. it was a panic panic. especially with the whole logbook hoohaa.
had a dream about 'superman' too. he scares me. i dreamt that his face changed shape or something and he was mad at me. must be the 'i hate asians' look. =/
den i had a dream about a HUGE crocs warehouse. like hugeeee. and i could climb around to get the pair that i wanted. but somehow in that big place, i couldn't find the common maryjane colour that i like. its supposed to be so common. but it didn't seem to be around. and i was with my dad. hmmm...
i had many more within the duration of these few days. cant remember the rest tho. but i know they weren't too good either.
why sometimes 1 month seem so long, yet a few years seem so fast? relativity. arhh. i don't want to touch on that. it'll probably blow your mind away. study hard people!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
crazy hair | 2:05 AM
yup. i just bathed thats why. this post is for hway cos she requested it. aha. not very short. its just short. thats all. =)
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
看電視 | 11:44 PM
我看呀看著電視 越來越有意思 說著我生命故事 我看呀看著電視 擁抱未來往事 知心陪我一輩子
oh my. found this after clicking ard in youtube. singapore tv took up half of my life. i used to do work, study and eat in front of the tv. its like i cant concentrate if there's no tv. haha. what a potato right. but i still get good grades ok. i miss singapore tv! esp the 9pm ones. its the time where the family gets together and just bleagh on the couch. best time ever..
i have a lecturer. He's tall and big, pretty handsome too. me and my friend call him superman. haha. He has the exact build to star in one of those shows. i used to just go for his lectures during my first sem here even when that unit did not have a end of sem exam becos he was funny and well.. pretty good looking. hahahaha. but i have a feeling he doesn't like asians too very much. just a kind of look in his eyes. a little like i feel stupid whenever he looks at me.
him aside is the friend who calls him superman. i was his ogl. we took the same unit last year and somehow we always ended up sitting at the same corner. with him is another guy i ogl-ed. and with them is another guy that lives in currie hall and happens to take mech eng too. so the 3 guys and me hang out together pretty much since last semester. one uncle and 2 korkors, all singaporeans. hahaha.
its cool cos i can help them in their work quite a bit. but i used to be a little overwhelmed becos it can become kinda hard helping people when you yourself have a thousand and one assignments to hand in as well. but soon enough, i realised its all a give and take. i help them, they would always gladly help me in whatever they can when i need help.
they made my life in uni so much better. this is why i never regretted ogl-ing, tho i sure was scared to a hysterical point when i was one. haha. i used to have zero friends and like plenty of acquaintances. but also becos last semester sooo many more church boys (i call them cos they're younger than me) came in to engineering as well, along with more poly students from singapore. so i have many many friends in engineering now. plus many many nice to talk to acquaintances which i made during my tutes and group work in my 1st semester here. so its all good i guess.
school work is getting harder. i failed a test already. but hey. lets see it on a brighter note that i secured 2 out of 10 percent for that unit. it gets to me that many people have failed this unit. i do my jellyfish dilligently and solutions usually spring out if i stare long and hard enough. but i don't have that comfort to do so in a few hours of exams. so i guess i have to buck up, with all the rest of the units i'm taking as well.
buck up weiping! 2.75 more years to go~. lol. what a good way to look at things really. hahahaha. right. back to work. hopefully sleep if i do my work fast enough. ahh....
Sunday, September 7, 2008
the hoyt's | 3:43 PM
wanted to blog about this too after seeing wilson's blog.
nothing much i could say about this tho.. its all in the video. it made me rethink what love really is in our own small world. its just. so much more.
choices | 2:38 AM
part and parcels of life.
i am not someone who's good at making decisions. neither am i one who likes making them. know me long enough, and i'll irritate u with my 'i don't knows'. haha.
how many good choices in life have we made?
that i'll never know. prolly made more bad than good. but i know i made one good one. and that's ALL that matters. just that ONE.
He has always been there for me. rain or shine. good or bad. happy or sad. even when i placed others above Him. even when i turned a deaf ear to Him. even after hurting Him numerous times, He never left. never left me to rot. showed me the way to life. gave me the reason to live.
happy Father's day to my greatest Daddy up there.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
psalm 139 | 12:56 AM
You search me You know me You see my every move There's nothing I could ever do To hide myself from You
You know my thoughts My fears and hurts My weaknesses and pride You know what I am going through And how I feel inside
But even though You know You will always love me Even though You know You'll never let me go
I don't deserve Your love But you give it freely You will always love me Even though You know
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
hair cut | 5:26 PM
i got a hair cut yesterday. and yes i cut it short! been procrastinating for too long. to cut or not to cut? since like the summer hols. and yay. finally, i chopped it off.
which means bad hair mornings are here to say hello to me. i'm gonna wake up and freak myself with weird random hair layouts on different mornings. aha. i have no more hair to squeeze dry after shower. its just the towel and me now. my hairrr.. lol.
my bike was very naughty today. usually i just get very minor skin scratches or bumps from it. frequency - about 1 a day. haha. but today the scratch was a little mean. naughty bike.
just a little picture i took a while back. the rainbow was on the table and i caught the end of it in my hands!very random post indeed. tmr test. stress but not stress. bad. urghhh.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
catch a falling star | 12:24 AM
Catch a falling star an’ put it in your pocket, Never let it fade away. Catch a falling star an’ put it in your pocket, Save it for a rainy day.
For when your troubles startn’ multiplyin’, An' they just might. It’s easy to forget them without tryin’, With just a pocketful of starlight.
Monday, September 1, 2008
its late | 5:33 AM
a quarter of my life just whizzed past me as i shuffled the songs on my itunes. etched in each song is a memory of the different time stamps in my life. with it comes the emotions attached as well. funny what music can do.
spent the whole day with my cell.
not very short. its just short. thats all. =)
very random post indeed. tmr test. stress but not stress. bad. urghhh.