Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut, doesn't have a swelled head, doesn't force itself on others, isn't always "me first."

- 1 Corinthians 13:4-5, THE MESSAGE

pingy

dear God I must confess
that sometimes You seem far away
sometimes i forget about
how i stand because of grace

but Lord there's been a change in me
a change i hope will stay
for this is my prayer today

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theme: hollywood

guess what i went as?
wasn't really hollywoodish, but i lurveee it.
its the first time i rented a costume for a party. i don't think i want to be any other character after being this! Xena the warrior princess. lurve it love it!



had a crazy photobooth time with my outfit after i came back. haha. use the most of my 38.5 bucks eh, dun let it go to waste. ahahaha.

thats about it.

back to school and assignments.
mother!

suddenly my old pimples that went away for quite awhile came back altogether in one shot. outbreak!!!!
now my face is nucleated.

i wonder what went wrong.
same routine.. same soap.
maybe its time to change my bedsheet?
crawwwwpppp.. its bad. its sooooo so bad.
save me.

finally. one wave of assignments done. i feel another wave coming. but at least i am having a breather right now.

played a little tennis right after i dropped my assignment into the box.
not really played. more like learnt.
pretty cool. got the hang of it, kinda.. and had a few nice swings... i think. way to go! but i don't think i can be an elegant sports person. i like rough sports. aha. i shld try to be more graceful, really.. read below..

den we had dinner..
and i had this huge loud BURP.
and i heard the most disdainful "YUCK" in my life.
that kinda made me embarrassed.
i've been burping out loud my whole life, i think i got used to it, so did the ppl ard me.
until today.
haha.
but.... arhh heck. it was a grade A burp alright.
berlin would know. =)

ended.

a wave of sadness came over me as i was watchin the closing ceremony.
16 days came and went.
all good things coming to an end.

i need a breather.
i should stop being so negative. really.
what a horrible testimony i'm living.
i ought to be ashamed.
i can only suffer in silence.

omgosh. sooo scary.

i woke up this morning. and i saw that my toothpaste wasn't in my cup on the sink. so i thought maybe it dropped on the floor or something. but nope. den i thought maybe the girls accidentally packed it into their toiletries bag. but nope. so as i walked into the toilet, i saw it there, in the shower area. this is so puzzling. i don't brush my teeth in the shower, so no way i cld have transferred it there.

den eunice told me she heard like my door sound open when technically i'm already one hour into my sleep.

did i sleepwalk? if i did, freak out!

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

why do people play with one another's mind?
why do they/we indirectly say things just to actually shoot it right at us/them?
i just fell into this whole dazed period for a moment and started on something i have not done since 4 years ago. i felt so lost, so fed up, so over the edge, i thought it could all end with me gone.

and some friend had to play the 'ghost pop up on screen with a sound effect while playing a game that needs concentration' prank on me. i did anticipate it/doubt the source, but somehow i chose to trust that he wouldn't hurt me for no reason. and he did. i threw my headphones and almost burnt myself with the heater next to me. i know he meant no harm. but i just felt really disappointed..


"The Joker took the best of us and tore him down. He wanted to prove that even someone as good, could fall."

What are the signs of spring? They are as familiar as a blooming daffodil, a songbird at dawn, a surprising shaft of warmth from the afternoon sun. And, oh yes, don’t forget the aurora borealis.

It turns out that magnetic connections between the sun and Earth are favored in springtime. It’s a matter of geometry: As Earth goes around in its orbit, Earth’s magnetic poles wobble back and forth. (The poles don’t really wobble, but the combination of Earth’s 23-degree polar tilt plus orbital motion makes the poles seem wobble from the solar point of view.) Around the time of the equinox, Earth’s magnetic field is best oriented for “connecting-up” with the sun, opening the door for solar wind energy to flow in and spark Northern Lights.

ScienceDaily (Mar. 10, 2008)

i wonder what will this spring bring..

the line between what's real and not gets all fuzzy every time when i first open my eyes for the day.
i get very confused. and then it gets so hard to get out of bed becos i don't know how to face what's real.

anyway, thanks for all the input while i was sick, i'm feeling all better already. =)
we all get sick once in a while so that when we get well again, we'll appreciate all the things we can do that we couldn't. right?

i missed all 4 lectures today.. looks like my old habits are back and the owl never dies. i better get all my work and ilecs done. starting from now. taa.

my fever is back for the 3rd time.
my head is spinning and my heart is heavy.
how long can i survive this.
how long?

The space between our wicked lies
Is where we hope to keep safe from pain.

school is getting less lonely now. i have lots of friends here and there i actually think its pretty amazing.
i haven't noticed, but today i looked around me and i realised i was one out of two girls sitting on the right side of the lecture theatre. and suddenly i think about it, it dawned upon me that all my friends that i can ask for help for school work are guys. i sure have been blur-ly going thru my first year of uni. engineering. i don't know why i want to be an engineer so much. i think its becos i like legos and screwdrivers. oh wells. just pray hard i survive the remaining 3 years.

my mind's sooo messed up.
my emotions are leading me nowhere.
i'm just waiting for someday where i get busted,
then the sky can fall on me.
and i'll just have to surrender.

just kill me.