Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut, doesn't have a swelled head, doesn't force itself on others, isn't always "me first."
- 1 Corinthians 13:4-5, THE MESSAGE
pingy
dear God I must confess
that sometimes You seem far away
sometimes i forget about
how i stand because of grace
but Lord there's been a change in me
a change i hope will stay
for this is my prayer today
This is the umbrella i've been talking about! ahaha. u can literally hide inside when it's raining. i'm soo gonna get it.
it rained in perth today!! So the temperature dropped. no wonder i felt 'air con' when i was sleeping even when the windows were closed. i woke up, almost ready to go to school, den i looked out the window... oh. its raining. lets go back to sleep. ahahaha. but i didn't la. just rested awhile den i went off with eunice's umbrella. a taste of winter.. duno why i felt comfortable in this weather. besides the getting wet part, i think i kinda like gloomy days. hmmm...
safe in His arms | 1:36 AM
again, i am shown that i am super protected under His mighty hands. He never fails me. A big thank you still wouldn't say enough.
nevertheless,
THANK YOU!
Thursday, March 27, 2008
part of something | 8:33 PM
i miss being in a team. tough trainings. sweat and tears. being pushed to the limit. working together for the win. encouraging each other when things get extremely hard and exhausting.
even tho i always used to feel that i didn't fit in very much cos i wasn't very good. and had a high level of inferior complex becos no matter how hard, how much i tried, i still aint anywhere near good.
but i do pretty much still miss all of it. its weird i know. but i guess these are all the things that builds us.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
i can't wait | 10:13 PM
yesterday i saw this couple playing in e supermarket. hide and seek that is. they were prolly in their late 30s. the guy was pushing the trolley around, hiding from the woman. its obvious cos he peeked into every aisle before he proceeded. ahaha. den i saw the lady walking around, looking for the guy to put her items into the trolley.
its so funny cos i can see both of them, but they cant see each other. i had this excitement to tell the lady where the guy was when she walked past me. but i didn't la. i din want to spoil the fun. ahahaha.
i could very much picture myself playing such stupid games still, when i grow older. haha.
oh what fun it is to go to a supermarket.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
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Monday, March 24, 2008
Easter | 12:42 AM
At the cross I bow my knee Where Your blood was shed for me, There’s no greater love than this. You have overcome the grave Your glory fills the highest place What can separate me now?
let us not forget the reason why we celebrate this occasion. happy easter to all.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
in rememberance... | 3:07 AM
the entertaining red spidey.
note: u wld have to tilt your head to the left to see the true orientation of the video.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
I'd like to teach the world to sing | 1:08 AM
I'd like to build the world a home and furnish it with love, Grow apple trees and honey bees and snow white turtle doves.
I'd like to teach the world to sing in perfect harmony, I'd like to hold it in my hand and keep it company.
I'd like to see the world for once all standing hand in hand, And hear them echo through the hills for peace throughout the land.
i grew up singing this song to myself now and then. it just makes me feel fortunate. growing up in a home that didn't lack much.
i could pretty much buy any toy i wanted. but of cos i was already very sensible at a young age and didn't ask for exorbitant stuff (that's prolly my self indulged point of view. but its true to a certain extent alright. thats why i still aint got an ipod now. see. haha).
and now i'm here in this foreign land, where the school fees and lodging are almost 4x time amount back home. tell me. how can i not be thankful.
right. back to how the song lead me to all these thoughts.
cos my dad used to sing karaoke as his pastime at home. and so he had plenty of LDs. like really plenty! of LDs of movies and karaoke songs.
i wld very much believe that not many families wld have that luxury until the more compacted and cheaper VCDs came out right?
even if i'm wrong, i wld still think i was and am very fortunate. and i love my parents so.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
=( | 2:07 PM
no wonder i hated chemistry.
i still do.
and i thought it was still ok for a start. what was i thinking.
came home. ate last night's sub. and drank remaining juice from the 2L bottle. like i was 'drowning' my sorrows in that big, close to empty bottle. well. things are just getting dimmer. but i'll just have to stay close. He's the only strength left in me that i can draw from right now.
such an emo post. ewww.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
dead cricket | 2:47 AM
haha. i have a dead cricket in my room. permanently. cos it got stuck in the cracks of the floor while de xin tried to pick the baygone covered cricket with my pencil marking filled paper from math last semester. ahaha.
thanks de xin!
its times like these that makes me think of my prince galloping on a fine handsome horse, coming to my rescue. sweeping me off my feet. ahaha. i know. its kind of dramatic. just over a little cricket.
i always believed what guys can do. so can i. we are no weaker.
but i realised, some jobs are just meant for the guys (even tho girls can do it too). jobs that will make the girls so thankful and in awe that it'll also boost the guy's ego. and den to sum it up, its a happy ending.
what was i trying to prove, that i didn't need guys cos i can be as strong if i train enough. trying to be independent and self reliant. what for. what was i doing. i have no idea. but i figured. its definitely not good to be a totally weak girl either. just gross. ahaha.
i think i'm starting to be incoherent cos i'm really tired right now. i could just put a comfy rug under my table and hide there when i feel like crashing. or when i feel like building a wall around myself.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
dugong | 5:05 AM
i'm so happy to see my little orientation group people hang out together. its like i had a part to play for them to find each other. like i had an important role to play. even tho their fate may have already been written when the international centre placed them in their respective groups.
i wish i could just sit around and observe. the world is just way too beautiful. and i'm honoured. because i actually can. makes me feel better when i feel horrible.
how are u guys doing back home? i miss ya'll.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Hosanna | 11:28 PM
Break my heart from what breaks yours.
everytime i hear that. i am overwhelmed by the grace He so freely gives. because i know i've broken His heart umpteen number of times. Yet He still loves me yesterday, today and everyday the same. so secured. so blessed. in His love.
have you found this love?
Friday, March 7, 2008
fridays in school.. | 5:51 PM
today is the first few times i'm in school on a friday cos last semester i din exactly have school on friday. and... its so empty man.
i think only 20-30% of the population is there.
oh wells. i have my fellow engineers with me. ahahaha.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
music and songs | 3:43 PM
they bring you back to the time frame where u were listening to those songs for that period of time. and it brings back so much memories.. attached with them are the feelings as well.
i think its just so cool in certain ways.
be it a sad or happy moment back then, now u just listen to them with a smile and think about how far u've come.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
godzilla | 11:38 PM
oh man! i almost felt like slapping someone today.
i was sitting next to this girl in the lecture hall. and she was SHAKING her legs the WHOLE time. not taking any notes. making bored tsk noises. i was really affected by her shaking cos i was just nx to her. so i cant exactly concentrate. and that really got me on my nerves.
and looking at her shake those legs... it was like some slow motion godzilla movie where her legs played the lead role and it just jiggled. in slow motion. it was that horrifying.
like seriously. i so wanted to SLAP her legs. or at least politely ask her to stop. but u know me. i don't exactly speak. i just had to take deep breaths to calm my nerves and wish time just passed faster.
oh well..
and i'm so glad i became an ogl. tho i made some mistakes here and there. i'm really glad i am of help to my freshies. i gave them my number and told them they could call me if they need help. and a few did. and i just feel so good i could help.
anyway. met my ogl today too. he's in his final year. ahhh.. i really wish time cld fly faster. 3.5 more years to my graduation.
anyway... i just feel like sighing.
sighhh..
Monday, March 3, 2008
day dreams | 11:50 PM
if only i could just bask in my dream forever and never wake up. or if only we could all dream all our sweetest dream while we are sleeping. but i guess that wld be bad. cos then nobody would want to wake up.
sighhh.. first day of school and i had a bad dream. dreamt i couldn't find all my lecture venues. and when i found some route to make it there, the route is blocked by like some kind of a haunted house path. which obviously i ran away from the freaky looking person at the entrance trying to scare me. den i ended up in some building that was like a maze and everyone seemed lost. hahaha.
alright. first day of school with all 4 lectures kind of have a overwhelming effect on what is expected of me this semester. tho i sort of know what i was in when i chose those units.
bear with me if u hear me whine. cos i know i'm gonna do it often. already bugged a few frens on the first day of school. lol.
no time to daydream anymore. back to living life the way i should.
i think exercising does get stuff off your mind. its good to sweat and exhaust yourself. alright. good night. no more late nights for me anymore. =[
This is the umbrella i've been talking about! ahaha. u can literally hide inside when it's raining. i'm soo gonna get it.