Wednesday, October 31, 2007
when your mind's in a mess, so is mine. | 1:06 AM
Monday, October 29, 2007
selfless or selfish? | 3:39 PM
A holy man was having a conversation with the Lord one day and said,
"Lord, I would like to know what Heaven and Hell are like."
The Lord led the holy man to two doors.
He opened one of the doors and the holy man looked in. In the
middle of the room was a large round table. In the middle of the table was a
large pot of stew, which smelled delicious and made the holy man's
mouth water.
The people sitting around the table were thin and sickly. They
appeared to be famished. They were holding spoons with very long handles
that were strapped to their arms and each found it possible to reach
Into the pot of stew and take a spoonful. But because the handle was
longer than their arms, they could not get the spoons back into their mouths.
The holy man shuddered at the sight of their misery and suffering.
The Lord said, "You have seen Hell."
They went to the next room and opened the door. It was exactly the
same as the first one. There was the large round table with the large
pot of stew which made the holy man's mouth water. The people were
equipped with the same long-handled spoons, but here the people
were well nourished and plump, laughing and talking. The holy man said,
"I don't understand."
It is simple," said the Lord. "It requires but one skill. You see, they
have learned to feed each other, while the greedy think only of
themselves."
When Jesus died on the cross, he was thinking of you.Remember that I will always share my spoon with you.
blessed | 5:16 AM
i am blessed.
too blessed.
didn't take time to appreciate.
but its not too late.
its not.
and i'm hungry again. man..
Sunday, October 28, 2007
| 6:04 AM
it pierced.
but u had your rights for saying so.
i'm the biggest scum alive.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
God's alive and well | 4:32 AM
When I see the stars hang in the sky
When I watch a bird spread its wings and fly
And each time I hear the wind blow through the trees
With every breath of air that I breath
All the things I can't see
Still inside I believe
In a baby's laugh
In a mother's eyes
Little miracles around us
Every day of our lives
The way the sun lights up the dark
The hope that I feel in my heart
And as far as I can tell
God's alive and well
Just like the Earth cradles the moon
How that far-away sun still makes the flowers bloom
And the joy only heaven can bring to us all
If trouble comes, I am safe in the hands
'Cause I know there's a plan
My heart understands
God's alive and well
Friday, October 26, 2007
what an ugly sight. | 5:10 PM
man. 8 hours of sleep.
another 8 hours later. i'm caught sleeping in front of the com, on my chair, with my mouth wide open.
what an ugly sight. what an ugly sight.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
power slicer | 9:51 AM
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Platonic | 7:52 AM
Pla·ton·ic [pluh-ton-ik, pley-]
–adjective
1. of, pertaining to, or characteristic of Plato or his doctrines: the Platonic philosophy of ideal forms.
2. pertaining to, involving, or characterized by Platonic love as a striving toward love of spiritual or ideal beauty.
3. (usually lowercase) purely spiritual; free from sensual desire, esp. in a relationship between two persons of the opposite sex.
4. (usually lowercase) feeling or professing platonic love: He insisted that he was completely platonic in his admiration.
Word History: Plato did not invent the term or the concept that bears his name, but he did see sexual desire as the germ for higher loves. Marsilio Ficino, a Renaissance follower of Plato, used the terms amor socraticus and amor platonicus interchangeably for a love between two humans that was preparatory for the love of God. From Ficino's usage, Platonic (already present in English as an adjective to describe what related to Plato and first recorded in 1533) came to be used for a spiritual love between persons of opposite sexes.yea its cool to have a best friend of the opposite sex.
and thinkin bout it.. i do have a few.
cool.
Monday, October 22, 2007
home. | 3:30 PM
Mon 26 Nov 2007
Departs
Perth (PER - Perth Intl) 16:50
Arrives
Singapore (SIN - Changi Intl) 21:05
cool? all's cool. thanks mum and dad.
promise i'll be good when i get back.
i'll do some studying.
be darn well prepared for nx sem.
yeah.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
It's personal | 3:56 AM
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I.
The path that I'm walking, I must go alone
I must take the baby steps till I'm full grown.
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I forseek the dark ahead if I stay
it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity.
Friday, October 19, 2007
nightmare | 12:29 PM
i was running and running and running.
i was delayed, i went the wrong direction, i was 2 hours late.
what a nightmare. what a nightmare.
but it was the only time when running seemed so easy. i didn't had to catch my breath. but i could feel the resistance to my legs.. like in video games.
sleeping has become my 2nd nightmare.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
这种甜蜜 | 1:23 AM
Monday, October 15, 2007
its all in the mind | 11:53 PM
i am actually smarter than i think i am.
but i have believed in the lies i told myself for way too long.
its time i break free.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
room window | 5:38 PM
afraid of the cold, i've never opened my room window.
today i finally did.
and this is e freshest my room has ever smelt.
e mild wind has like totally swept away all the bedroomy smell.
its like suddenly i'm alive.
and i picture the image of me dancing with flower trails behind me..
like most air fresherner commercials.
lol.
yea. back to work.
daybreaks.. | 5:36 AM
are the prettiest. with the freshest of air.
next time.
i'll sleep at 9pm. and wake up at 5am.
den i'll eat breakfast, and go take a stroll or ride along the river.
how about that!
be awake when the land is most beautiful.
and when is the next time u say again?
i think u said 45 years later.
Friday, October 12, 2007
week after week | 7:07 AM
i need my break. i think my body is breaking down as well.
i feel it in my fingers. i feel it in my toes.
but i thank God for no headache.
if not i'll really give up studying.
24 hours awake! another 17hours or so to go.
go IPE meeting!
just hope i dun fall asleep in the meeting.
pray that i can do my part fast and leave.
uni life is just abnormal. i see so many random ppl online at like 4ams in the morns. and going to school just to hand in their assignment and head back to sleep.
i think i'm gonna eat huge breakfast.
like left over rice.
super hungry.
yes.
den i'm gonna crash and be in coma right after i come back from cell.
hahas.
the view of number 1 | 2:06 AM
i am supposed to be doing my math assignment now.
but i cant concentrate.
i cant stop thinking how clogged by brain is. and i cant stop thinking of u.
i remember how i used to peer towards the field. hoping to find a glimpse of you while i trained with the girls.
and i remember how much i love looking at u while the match was on.
i'll forever remember that green shirt. different from everyone else.
u were the special goal keeper. and i was so proud of u.
how did i lose it.
day and night i ponder.
i can't sleep.
i can't do my work.
i cried and i cried.
i took a ride, i stared at the sky.
hoping for an answer.
but i couldn't get one.
its like rummaging through your whole house
trying to find something that is so important to u.
u try again and again and again
but u just cant find it.
people around u start losing hope.
they believe u shld just give up..
but.. it was something so important to u..
your life could change.
things wld never be the same.
we didn't talked much. my heart ached.
i could feel so much hopelessness when we hung up.
i am such a disappointment. u deserve better.
right from the start. i told u, i wasn't good enough.
but u believed in me.
and yet..
i wish i could disappear along with the shooting star.
alone.
and never come back.
u deserve so much more.
so much more.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
who am i | 9:13 AM
i just read my friendster testimonials all the way through, right from the start.
its good to start from the very first one..
becos towards the present, it kinda became like another form of a tagboard.
dont get me wrong. all the comments mean very much to me.
i had a great deal laughing and pondering.
some characteristics were overly emphasized. it just didn't feel real.
some were short but so impactful.
some were long.. and i cld really feel the loving..
it kinda made me re-live my life over the past 4 years?
i think i'll go print them out someday.
to keep. to treasure. to reminisce.
i thank you guys for seeing so much in me.
normal | 7:09 AM
finally. i slept like everyone else.
for once. i was normal.
but i woke up. feeling like i've just gotten rammed by a car.
its a good start.
i'm gonna boil some water and make myself warm.
den i'm gonna start doing my work.
i will complete it.
even if it means going back to abnormality.
perhaps.
its easier being abnormal.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
peaches and blues.. | 8:06 PM
yea i saw them today..
somewhere among the grey clouds.
i just love riding around after school.
one day i'll study at the jetty.
i don't like grey skies | 12:11 AM
it was really like a dream.
it felt like i was free for a moment..
den i got struck back down, real hard, to reality.
i crashed.
school ended.
i sat at the lab and i kept doing my work.
they were long and tedious..
i had to keep going thru them
becos i had made mistakes somewhere along the way..
mistakes that were really hard to find.
half of the time i was thinking and staring at the questions real hard.
even simple multiplications and divisions made me cringe my forehead.
noisy people around me made me really frustrated..
but
i contained it..
slowly.. people started leaving.. one by one..
and the place grew quieter.
i couldn't go on..
i packed up
and headed towards my bike.
i didn't want to go home.
i cycled into routes i've never been before.
hoping to find the place in my dream.
that i didn't find.
all i saw was the very grey sky..
Monday, October 1, 2007
its over! | 8:49 PM
gosh. its over. one week. i wished i didn't had assignments. den i cld have had much more fun with them.. really great to have late nights tgt. staying up thru e night, with kerr watching shows and me doing work.
only kerrin can do that man. having the owl life with me. i felt so... not alone.
i can only imagine more people leaving perth very soon.
newbie me has 4 years left here. and most of the zph ppl i know are already in their 2,3,final years. i guess its something i have to get some using to.
i am really lucky to be a child of God. its just so different. when everyone else is trying to hard to cope with the loneliness overseas.. i'm loving my God and friends over here.
i actually liked perth royal show. still very much a kid i guess. its just such a happy place.
a place to bring your kids once a year to have fun.
a places for guys to show off their skills and for girls to collect the prizes. hahas.
figures that out becos i came home empty handed. hahaha.
refer to kerrin's blog for PERTH's update. lol. i'm so piggishly lazy to blog. can refer to facebook for pictures too! plenty plenty.
one more month to exams. hectic hectic. so many things to learn again. helpppppp!
