Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut, doesn't have a swelled head, doesn't force itself on others, isn't always "me first."

- 1 Corinthians 13:4-5, THE MESSAGE

pingy

dear God I must confess
that sometimes You seem far away
sometimes i forget about
how i stand because of grace

but Lord there's been a change in me
a change i hope will stay
for this is my prayer today

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hey hey. why do i see u guys up late on msn as well. hahaha.

i tot i'm e only misplaced person who has her bio clock screwed.
but i'm really glad to see u guys online while i do my stuff. its just comforting to know that u guys are there even if we don't talk. work can get really boring. even slacking can get boring and frustrating. hahaha...

anyways, the night seem to pass much slower than in the day right? the night is where u can slowly enjoy the time to yourself, slowly doing your work or other stuff... -zoning into my lalaland already

well, life would be so much better without my 9am math lectures. urgh....

ah! i gotta go already! 9-6 full day coming my way. hope it'll end in a blast. i always feel accomplished after a long day. and i would cycle home with a smile on my face. really love that feeling.

i miss home. i miss tv! there's nothing to watch here!!!

i'm really losing it. my tolerance level isn't that high afterall.

i hate it when people refuse to try before asking me.
i am not smart.
i can becos i dare to try.
i dare to lose the marks.

its better that ur grades are not perfect
and u learn,
rather than getting perfect grades,
learning nothing at all.

don't say u don't know becos u know i know and expect me to do it for u.
it is not fun doing the same assignment 3 times.
it really isn't even tho it doesn't take up much time.

how many times must i hint that i am struggling with my other units before u stop.
i've been doing my work for 4 hours now. and its hardly done. a singled page reflection. can u believe it?

please stop. don't make me break.

things are starting to slow down.. and some questions really sparked my thoughts this time round. i dont want to lie about it.
maybe i've been too busy, occupying my time with meaningless things, i didn't stop to really think hard about everyone back home.

so far i've been so cool about things. no feelings towards anything whatsoever. no love, no sadness, no happiness. just ok with anything, everything. i feel so strong that nobody can hurt me even if they try. i seriously did not know when all these creeped up to me. it gets annoying at times. makes me feel like stabbing myself to see if i feel pain. becos i feel so cold, when i really like to be warm. i used to cry alot. but now, i think i make others cry.. this is insane.

but coming back to think of it,
i do miss being home watching tv with my family.
i do miss being in his arms, and the security he gives me just by being there for me, never giving up loving me.
i do miss pigging out and being stupid/crazy with my frens.
i do miss eating my fav fish beehoon with the 19yearolds after church on sundays.
i do miss e little children i teach. wonder how they would look like when i go back man. will they still remember jie jie weiping? hahaha..

slowly typing all these out made me re-live some feelings.
yes i feel it coming back.
break the wall around my heart oh Lord. make my heart fragile again.
i am not a robot. i am a human.
i have senses. i can love.
let me break free.
let me feek real again.

i just had a random thought while in the car with eunice, faith and faith's mum.

becos we had a super full dinner before we sat in the car, (faith's mum cooked for us.. yum yum) and we had to buckle our seat belts since australia is pretty strict about this. and i was just thinking, if i had an accident, i would have puked first before i fainted becos the food is just too much. haha. do u think so?

gosh. i'm having such a tum tum. i DO NOT like the sight of it.

anddd. i just bought a bicycle hemet! haha. cos we'll get fined if we don't wear helmets while cycling. yup. so tmr i'll be wearing it cos i need to cycle to the bicycle shop nearby to get my bike some servicing.


and oooo.
note to berlin: look closely at the picture. not at me tho. hahah. =D

ahhhh. test coming nx nx week. i'm really aiming for distinctions man. i mean. whats the point of coming over here to just pass? i gotta live my life meaningfully. work and play and good grades. sounds good eh. haha. yup. SOUNDS good indeed.
SO. means i have to study hard!! i pretty lagging tho. kinda over played the first few weeks. wish me all e best man. i can do it! yes i can. muahahhaa. =)

i was kinda confused. den i found some explanations.

warning: the below is only for people who has seen jay chou's the secret. its to give a better understanding of the show and not call it lame ok. haha. -thats to u jlow. =P so its pretty much a spoiler la. ppl dont read if u don't like spoilers. haha.

Rain can only be seen by the first person she sees when she goes into the future - Hence the line "At first sight marks one's destiny" - As well as her closing her eyes and taking 108 steps to Jay's classroom.

that explains why the sweeper can see rain. because when rain went back, she forgot to close her eyes and she saw the sweeper instead of jay. that's why when jay look for her, he couldn't find her...

well. maybe u guys already figured it out yourself. but cos the version that i watched, the quality quite bad, so the show very blur and dark. haha. so i cannot see properly. ok - excuses, excuses. ya la! i so cant figure it out. lol.

but but but right, i thought Rain was already dead by the time he went back? Then why is Rain still sitting there smiling?

and and and apparently the piano would be destroyed the moment jay finishes playing the piece in 1999 and enter 1979. so he would be stuck in 1979 and be a 'walking soul' of 1979 and his body would be dead in 1999 right? considering if only the soul would fly over? hahahahaha.

hmmmmm. ok. may the show is kinda lame afterall. someone please explain it to me. hahaha.

From a strictly mathematical viewpoint:

What Equals 100%? What does it mean to
give MORE than 100%?

Ever wonder about those people who say
they are giving more than 100%?

We have all been in situations where
someone wants you to GIVE OVER 100%.

How about ACHIEVING 101%?

What equals 100% in life?


Here's a little mathematical formula
that might help answer these questions:



If:

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T
U V W X Y Z

Is represented as:

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16
17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.


If:

H-A-R-D-W-O-R- K

8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%


And:

K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E

11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

But:

A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E

1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

THEN, look how far the love of God will
take you:



L-O-V-E-O-F-G-O-D

12+15+22+5+15+6+7+15+4 = 101%


Therefore, one can conclude with
mathematical certainty that:

While Hard Work and Knowledge will get
you close, and Attitude will get you
there,

It's the Love of God that will put you
over the top! =) cheers.

and man. i am growing fatter. i can see it in my arms when i bathe. it just looks and feels bigger. ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

i don't want to be a fat ping!

and don't say that its good. becos my current weight is justifyable by my height. so it isn't better for me to grow fat ok! mummy!!

i guess cos i get to eat alot of carbs here. biscuits, bread, donut, pasta, rice... lots of carbs. cos they are the cheapest. ahhhh...

hey berlin. sorry i havent been contacting u guys much. just pretty much coping with my work thats why. =xxx neways, everyone back home take care yea. love.

haha. my housemate's BURNT bread.

pretty funny. she was showing past pictures of her life in perth. den we smelt something weird, but thought there was bbq in the neighbourhood. then i asked her, do u smell something funny? she thought for awhile, den she was like, "SHOOT! my garlic bread!"

den we both ran out of our room to find our living room covered in smoke. its damn funny i tell u. i never seen a bread this black before. i think if u ever eat it, u'll get IMMEDIATE cancer. lol. i was so fascinated, i took photos of it. its cool man. cos such situations are mostly only shown on tv. lol.

ok. back to doing the IPE (introduction to professional engineering) journal. it really takes up alot of my time i tell u. becos i'm so not good at expressing myself. besides the stuff they give us is like so errrrr to reflect on. sian. alright.

ok. i'm slow. i just started watching hanakimi on crunchyroll! and OH MAN. i've been laughing and squealing through the show. its truely a good show. i think i'll buy the dvd when i get back. its definitely a show that i will not mind watching again and again. its DAMN funny! and it never fails to make my heart squeal as well. its always a lovely thing protecting and having feelings for someone in the secret. its like the period when u have a crush on someone that you'll actually feel the happiest. isn't it so? or is it only me that feels this way? is this the funny thing of human nature? the fruit that we cannot have will always be the sweetest, and those that we already have, we usually don't appreciate?

i'm actually starting to enjoy living here. studying is a great feeling afterall. no wonder people will want to study masters and PhD. i mean. studying enables us to learn new things. and i love that feeling. its like suddenly u know so much more. and life suddenly becomes more fulfilling? isn't that right? haha.

i seriously love shows that makes me laugh cry and squeal. HANAKIMI!