take a look at the picture below.
umbrella. opened. in a bus.
haha.
this was what i saw on bus 53 on the way to the airport to send my cell mate off, friday afternoon.
cute i would say.
i just read peiz's entry about her mum in her blog. and i have so much feelings inside of me.
till now. i always dislike my mum cos she is strict, old fashioned and naggy. and also cos she lies, about certain issues. and that makes me very upset why. its decades of lying, not just once. i guess that is why i lost some respect towards her in some ways.
but i know a time will come when i come to know the phrase ' u'll never treasure something till u've lost it.' but i don't want to wait till i've lost it. but i cant get the feeling right now either. i love her. but i know i definitely don't show it. its hard.
its so hard to get the connection between my mum and me.. becos she links things together ridiculously so as to restrict me from doing so and so. and she really treats me like a primary school kid. saying things like not to let my fren know my bank PIN number. i mean.... really...
its sad that the whole of berlin is going hongkong and i'm staying back. i think i'll miss a lot of it, becos it is bondings as such that brings people closer together. staying overnight and such. but i've pretty much missed out on many such occassions in my life already. so its nothing big really...
i know she has her reasons. she doesn't want any mishaps happening to me and she feels best when i'm home 24/7. but its just this time of growing up where u just don't want to stay home that much anymore. sigh.
i think i've been such a bitch in this entry. its mother's day, and yet i just couldn't help but say such things... i really wish i can love my mum more and be slow to anger whenever i'm around her.
God. please help me. before its too late.
