i've decided to update. somehow.
I found this new billy gilman song in my received files. everything and more. seriously. i'm very shocked. i forgot who sent it to me. its in billy's new album. came out last year. and i din know. i felt so ashamed! cos i remember last time. i sorta like vowed to buy all his CDs and be his fan like forever. haha. how hilarious. i was mad about him last time. i even wrote in to Nashville and he replied with his signed postcard. haha.
looking thru the lyrics of his new album. Alot of it are christian song, and man am i glad. i may go look for the album tmr and buy it. call me crazy. But songs about Him, just makes my world so peaceful.
"Cause your love is like a river
It runs through my heart and soul
It's deep when I'm thirsty and warm when I'm cold
And when I feel forgottenI come running to your shore
And find peace of mind time after time
You give me everything and more"Thanks to the person who sent it to me! haha.
Well. Block Test One is Over. like how everyone has blogged. And the conclusion is that the school is crazy. I think almost all the papers are hard. How are they going to pass the conditionally promoted people this way? They are so mean. i have limitations to my brain u know.
One more thing. I think i feel that i prefer studying to going to town. haha. some who don't know me may not be surprised. hur. i just have a feeling i looked so drowned in studies when i walk around in school. i think i actually am. i don't know why. Maybe its the momentum that the march hols have given me. maybe its the company i have. going to town now feels so redundant and waste of time to me. its weird isn't it. its a little scary too. I don't feel like myself since the moment i step into Jc. everything's just so fast and so wrong. just so wrong. not the way it used to be. the blue and grey way.
And its true. everyone has this feeling about friendships and JC life. people are different. things change. people change. maybe some friendships weren't built to be very strong yet, then it was time for us to go to different JCs.
Even cliques in the same JCs drift becos of different classes. I heard jlow says they seldom meet in the morns anymore.Is this really what is going to become of frenships? Are things gona stray worse or will things get better? Do we have a choice to change it? We do. But do we all have the time and energy to change it? Maybe we do. But i think, most of us don't. From studies to cca. JC life is just straining all of us like mad with the amount of content and the quality they want from us. Its hard. people drift becos there's no time to meet up. no time to encourage each other often. no time to really SIT down and listen to every problem a friend have. no time to care much. i'm not saying no time at all. but just
very little maybe i'm just exaggerating situations.. haha. i think i'm typing to much. they dont have to make sense. aha.
Drifting is sad. its like talking to a stranger when that person is actually your close friend. Its like suddenly being very careful with words becos we do not want to leave a wrong impression. its weird. how can close frens still feel this way? close frens just go straight to the point and laugh about things. its like. we cant talk how we use to be anymore.
sometimes. its really sad. i just want to tell them, the drifted. That i love them very much. and i'm so sorry that things turn out the way they do.
mabe life IS like that. to come and to go. it really is.
people say. its a blessing to have a friend. i should consider myself very blessed. becos i have more than one. and all the more i have a very great friend, Jesus. I havent been very good to Him in giving my time and following His words, but nevertheless, I still feel He's always with me. What i great friend i have.
Summary. I just dislike JC. Its horrible. Its probably the word that caused all this rubbish. haah. i'm just putting all the blame on it becos i dislike it. oh wells. evil me as well.
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crying my heart out
skillful romance - romance that is directed by what is true about God and about the world He has made.
the relationship between
wisdom and
romance is like the one between a
string and a
kite.
Romantic love is the kite that catches the wind and tentaciously heads for the sky; wisdom is the string that tugs downward holding it back. The tension is real, but healthy.
There are times when the kite feels tied down by the string. But without the string holding it in the face of the wind, the kite would quickly come crashing to the ground.
In the same way, romance without wisdom will soon take a nosedive. It becomes selfish, indulgent, and even idolatrous.
It's not enough to simply
have romantic feelings. Anyone can do that!
Long-lasting romance needs practical, commonsense wisdom that knows when to let the wind of feelings carry us higher and when to pull back. When to express our emotions and when to keep quiet. When to open our hearts and when to rein them in.
-boy meets girl
