Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut, doesn't have a swelled head, doesn't force itself on others, isn't always "me first."

- 1 Corinthians 13:4-5, THE MESSAGE

pingy

dear God I must confess
that sometimes You seem far away
sometimes i forget about
how i stand because of grace

but Lord there's been a change in me
a change i hope will stay
for this is my prayer today

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yay! so its fun touch today.. woke up at an exact time wif a shock. haha.. ate bao and oats den zoomed off to meet estee at my bus stop. heh.

okie.. sooo.. ccab.. thing starts at 2. we lose like mad.. but after we kinda got the feel of it.. we improved.. and win a little here and dere.. oOooo yes.. was happy today even tho we din win anything.. really a enriching experience for me.. but sajc2 won e shield runner up and got left over breads as the prize.. lol.. dats rather.. haha..

oh yay... i got the teeshirts the teeshirts.. so excited.. its just like super nice la.. i'm liking the sport more and more.. faints..

man.. the last game our group played.. got wad extention time.. and we were like the only people left on the pitch.. other pitches are all done wif their matches.. and it was like sudden death. TIRING i tell u.. really mental and physical.. so straining. its like playing cats and dog. den dogs and cats.. its just here dere here dere.. and we keep repeating the same mistake.. so did dey.. so the game drags on.. until finally elsa made the breakthru.. and we all like gone mad.. yes.. happy. =)

yea.. the whole thing ended bout 730 lidat.. so i had full blast of the sun..

when i went to the toilet to change. JIAN GUI LE! my face was like maroon in color. haha.. pangsai zua! haha.. so black la!

okie dokie.. ESTEE I'M SO HAPPY FOR U.

den.. went j8 to eat mos until i was pregnant wif mos's rice burger's baby. haha.. full until cannot walk properly. haha.. cos i drank the milkshake.. and i was so thirsty.. i ordered one more applesoda. faints..

ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm just so hyped now.. like some crazy mad saleswoman.. was like STARHUBBING to someone who's like FINALLY gonna get a new phone.. i'm telling ya. i dislike ur phone.. =S haha..

yippe!! i'm happy. sooooo happy.

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

exclamation.. ITS LIKE.. FINALLY THE HOLS.. i'm like really glad..

really.. i meant. really.

tho first week's kind of busy.. shall dedicate 3 whole weeks to mugging.. its a Mug Month Man.. MMM.. and if anyone.. just ANYONE comes to spoil my plan.. dat person.. haha.. i also duno wad happen.

hoOookays.. ms tan has been reeeli nice.. cancelling our tutorials cos she has finished the syllabus.. thanks man..

hooray to my wonderful pw group..

eh.. just to say.. i'm REALLY HAPPY TODAY. yum yum..

tmr's fun touch at ccab.. woOooo..i want the t-shirts.. t-shirts!! my sis is like so desperate for one.. she say see any lying around just take.. if dey sell just buy.. dun sell.. beg.. haha.. ok. its all about experience.. just do it! i love the game. i want to play it well.. come on. come on!

Read this before.. but ripped this off someone's blog.. hahaha.. =S

In front of the person you like, your heart beats faster
But in front of the person you love, you get happy.

In front of the person you like, winter seems like spring.
But in front of the person you love, winter is just beautiful winter.

If you look into the eyes of the one you like, you blush.
But if you look into the eyes of the one you love, you smile.

In front of the person you like, you can't say everything on your mind.
But in front of the person you love, you can.

In front of the person you like, you tend to get shy.
But in front of the person you love, you can show your own self.

You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you like.
But you can always smile and stare into the eyes of the one you love.

When the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.
But when the one you love is crying, you cry with them.

The feeling of like starts from the ear.
But the feeling of love starts from the eye.

So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears.
But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever.

kerr's blog entries are meaningful.. hmmm.. and dey make me laugh too..
haha..
lonely.. i'm so lonely. i have nobody. to call my own~
yea.. i did msg myself before.. man.. we are all very lonely and so called crazy ppl. its funny wad lonely people do.. but sometimes being lonely aint so bad.. at least we can laugh at ourselves. haha.. sadistic.

ok... my brain is REALLY KUKUFIED.. its like REALLY SLOW.. like.. i take hours to a day just to finish ONE pathetic assignment. at this rate i'm going. MATI liao. i haven passed a single test since skool started... i'm so so so gonna cry.. even my physics.. this is super disgusting...

which leads me to have no motivation to study = lonely. haha.. ridiculous.. kerr. i tink dat list is ridiculous..

its like.. really slowing down.. my brain is not working right.. its sooo slow.. its like really slow.. ahhhh! its.. ahhh! i so so want to like put it on a running track.. or putting some current through it to shock it. i'm like such a big fat pig.. thats like so so lazy..and i'm like growing fatter by the day.. like.. my ass cant fit into my pants anymore.. hahahahahahahaha.. okie.. dats kinda gross.

but i'm like REALLY IRRITATED wif myself...
I NEED a direction and motivation dammit!!

copyrighted. PiNg. -resulted from too much thinking.

Week 9 MCQ test

Hi, this is the MCQ test scheduled for Term 2 Week 9.
Pls take note of the instructions:

There are 15 questions.
You have a maximum of 30 minutes to answer ALL questions.
You must get ready papers, a pen and a calculator with you.
Good Luck!

Attempt
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Time taken
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Completed
Tuesday, 17 May 2005, 11:31 PM

Grade / 100
0.0

Time limit: 30 mins

The quiz is available until: Thursday, 19 May 2005, 12:00 AM

No more attempts are allowed

Your final grade for this quiz is 0 / 100.

VAD THE.. i login moodle in skool at about 4+pm.. clicked on it.. and the timer started.
when i reach home.. i din even had the opportunity to TRY.. i got a BIG FAT 0. I AM IRRITATED. was worrying bout this BLOODY thing the WHOLE DAY. and.. dey wun even let me ATTEMPT it... its fate. dey want me to drop econs NOW. dey are forcing me to the edge.. i already took the form. wad i lack is my mum signature cos she ain't coming home tonite. ARGH.. ANGRY.. very ANGRY.. FEEL IT.. i AM ANGRY.

ECONS is DISGUSTING.

lonely.. i'm mr lonely. i have nobody. to call my own...

jc life's straining.. and w/o bw.. i'm dyin.. everybody is lacking sleep. everybody is falling every single test.. and i'm everybody.

bw!! i miss those times in auntie audrey's car.. in the van.. all the times we walked home tgt during the O's period.. the times we came back to school for physics remedial.. mr yau. our oh-so-fav teacher.. crazy videos.. I WANT YA'LL BACK! back back into my life!! whys jc life so lonely.. or is it just me.

i'm once again lagging in tuts.. cos suddenly one whole tut is gone thru during a lec period. so i'm SUDDENLY lagging by 2 tuts for fma. one for fmb. actually can say.. infinity.. since january.. june hols is in for me.. it will be plain sleep mug eat. haha. MUG!

i don't want another pretty face
i don't want just anyone to hold
i want u and your beautiful soul...

oh. i finally rmb wad i wanted to blog..

it happened again. i hid behind a toilet wall nx to the door.. hoping to bump es when she came in. but when she walked in.. just a slow walk. i got frantic. and the nx thing was dat i jerked and i lost balance. haha. stupid. scare ppl end up scaring myself..

haha..

-listenin ta collide.. smiles.

DEPRESSED. why? STUPID CHANNEL 8 show. i thought it was rather RIDICULOUS. yet i cried. lol. irritating. after the show ended. i STONED at the screen. thinkin bout things.. din know some things can affect me so badly other than the show.

i'm stretched like mad. i have not done many tutorials. even if dey are.. dey are half done. almost all. =X and till now, i have not done a single phy tut. shhhh... i dun even understand anything la. like there's time to. haha..

funnier thing is.. i dun do my tuts.. yet i'm one of the selected 7 students in my class to be in some match enrichment thing that require us to do some spreadsheet thing, calculating the different kinds of plans, loans, leasing when a person with a salary of $3500 per month and savings of $20000 wants to buy a car. we have to present the different kinds of way and like the monthly expenditure all dat. all i want to say about this paragraph is - SIAO AH. i cant cope wif my work u choose me for this kind of thing. super weird. =S

ookie.. so. i had my 2.4 and 5 items this week.. just to say. i got 29/30. evil. DAMN THE SIT-AND-REACH freaking wood and metal thing. when i stretch i can almost flat hands reach the floor la! but i got a B! pangsai. just feel sa is so different from cedar. and i miss it. the way we do our napfa tgt. its just different.

to the soccer guys.. and all of TEAM SAJC. WE ARE PROUD OF U ALL under all circumstances. don't look so sad in skool yea. we all saw how KAYU the ref is.. SA love u guys. cheer up. be strong. don't be disheartened. we're all here for ya.

oh wells. screw everyone who is so prejudice against sa.. evil evil. all the bias people. SOooOo evil.

hais.. DAMN SAD. everything's sooo sad for sa.

today trg was pt.. man.. it was like working out the muscles til it was like.. painnnnn!!!! tmr i sure cannot get out of bed. but somehow. it was quite fun. i can feel my stomach pacs growing out. lol.

okie.. lots of work in store for me.

gawd. i screwed up. i hate bein so insecure. taunted. dweebish. and totally stupid wif suuper low self-esteem. wads up wit me?

screw work. i need sleep.

-Sometimes i run . hide . am scared. but.

kerr. i love u too! u don't know how much this means to me. to keep me going..
how i miss u. like mad. missing the times u helped me thru heartbreaks. my o levels. my work. me. for all these...
thanks.

get well soon cos u must.


you gotta take good care of yourself too yes? focus, never stop trying and giving your best shot. God will always be there for you, so will i and everyone else. we all care alot, and i care berberyy muchi tooie! :) man do i miss you and all the slowww tings we did. i hope to see you really soon dearie.
meanwhile you gotta hang on tight in this hella ride. its gonna be an experience and soon you'll emerge stronger than ever, a mini power station! jamppacked with experiences and values to pass on to manymany others. to inspire de lil kids yu see every weekend, to teach what yu learn. :)
i love you

-kerr

A simple tune.. in a wonderful story.

Wishing to encourage her young son's progress on the piano, a mother took her boy to a Paderewski concert. After they were seated, the mother spotted an old friend in the audience and walked down the aisle to greet her.

Seizing the opportunity to explore the wonders of the concert hall, the little boy rose and eventually explored his way through a door marked "NO ADMITTANCE."

When the house lights dimmed and the concert was about to begin, the mother returned to her seat and discovered that the child was missing.

Suddenly, the curtains parted and spotlights focused on the impressive Steinway on stage.

In horror, the mother saw her little boy sitting at the keyboard, innocently picking out "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star."

At that moment, the great piano master made his entrance, quickly moved to the piano, and whispered in the boy's ear, "Don't quit. Keep playing."
Then, leaning over, Paderewski reached down with his left hand and began filling in a bass part. Soon his right arm reached around to the other side of the child, and he added a running obbligato.

Together, the old master and the young novice transformed what could have been a frightening situation into a wonderfully creative experience. The audience was so mesmerized that they couldn't recall what else the great master played, only the classic, "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star."

Perhaps that's the way it is with God. What we can accomplish on our own is hardly noteworthy. We try our best, but the results aren't always graceful flowing music. However, with the hand of the Master, our life's work can truly be beautiful.

The next time you set out to accomplish great feats, listen carefully. You may hear the voice of the Master, whispering in your ear, "Don't quit." "Keep playing."

May you feel His arms around you and know that His hands are there, helping you turn your feeble attempts into true masterpieces. Remember, God doesn't seem to call the equipped, rather, He equips the 'called.' Life is more accurately measured by the lives you touch than by the things you acquire.

So touch someone by passing this little message along.

ooohh my.. failed both my math. failed econs.. wad more to come. physics? i haven been listenin at lecture either. dats like a haha.. mamamia.

nothin works. gotta admit sports ppl are more at disadvantage wif the skool so far.. plus trg days.. only get to reach home like 8+9. eee.. eat bathe sleep. haha.. tut? understandin? =\ nx time. ha.

unmotivated. duno why. too tired i guess. but sports is the only thing i enjoy at skool. love runnin..

econs sucks. i tink i'm gonna drop it sometime. haha.. fmath is as equally brain wreaking. i'm just lookin forward to june hols. ha.

... its just amazing how God works.
in e midst of all

glancing thru frenster.. i found my face so wet..

i miss dem so much.. be it bball team. man bang. bw.
gawd.. typing this makes me run like a tap..

i feel so empty without u guys..
sometimes its so difficult to go on..

how i miss u so..
yet its so difficult in the midst of the schedules to meet up.

somehow its so difficult to make new frens.. it just doesn't really work.. tho a made quite a few in my previous class.. dey too are separated from me.. =(

just like wad kerr said.. how i long to be 15/16 all my life wif u guys.. cedar really rocks!

now life's just about catching up wif tutorials.. and i oh-so hate dat.

i dislike everything. so much.. dat sometimes even praying seems so difficult.. and i hate feelin this way..

i dunch want ta grow up! i hate separations.

but one thing i'll always love is
u guys.