Saturday, April 30, 2005
| 11:12 PM
lala.. flag day today. booth at city hall. went to toa payoh. ppl weren't dat nice. cos i collected so little. lol. decide to change place to j8.. WOOT. stand at bus terminal work wonders.. people auto give. i can understand why too. cos i'm so experiece. j8 is a place where ppl get to to go to town. so dey quik get a sticker first before meeting up wif other people in town. haha! ok. its funny to look at those faces ignoring u and all. haha. it doesn't affect me. cos i'm one of them haha..
but. its still laughable. oh wells.. finished my stickers 2 hours before deadline. yay. efficient. j8 rocks.
after dat met up wif lowell and hui hui!! mamamia.. so long. just so long. too much just too much.. miss dem like mad la. if only we were still tgt. gosh.. i love to bits...
den i went to j8 again. bought jeans and 3 socks. haha.. woot!
okie.. i'm done wit my PI draft yest. so happy. yay..
tmr got pot luck wif the touch rug seniors.. think its gonna be really good. but no estee! i tink i'll feel rather lost. haha.. i tink i really depend on estee alot. she's like my mama!
okie dokie.. time to sleep.. its been 2 weeks and more since i have dat single day wit the 12hours sleep. i'm seriously DYING. like brain and body dead. DAMN tired..
sooo.. GOOD NITE. =)
Saturday, April 23, 2005
| 6:32 PM
hOoooOoo... BREATHES.. man i'm really slow.. i cant do my work man.. DYING..
and.. what is pw? =X shrieks.. i dun even understand the question..
lol. the perfume in my room is sooo strong.. i tink i'm fainting. sneezing like mad..
and i got my new boots! lovely. =) all black.. sleek total 90. i noe its really common. but... its the only one dat have my size.. and its below 50bucks. haha.. contented.. =)
Saturday, April 16, 2005
| 12:46 AM
okie.. so. i'm sick today and i din go to school.
i got an mc last night from the doc.
i seriously needed to skip school badly cos i did not do many many tutorials. and i'm really shagged..
if i went skool i had to COMPLETE 1 econs tutorial.1 clao essay. 1 fmb tut. bout 30+ fma questions within like err.. 2-3 hours? IMPOSSIBLE LA. besides i wasn't in tip top condition to do hardcore work.
and i've only done 1 tutorial since the whole day today. some stupid three dimensional problems and my slow brain. argh! so dead. if only i had super brain. den jc life wldn't be so bad. =S
i'm reeeeli stressed out. din expect jc to be DAT tough. yet there's no one to be wif me. cos my classmates are generally hardworking. so i'm always the only one getting the scoldings.. sooo sooo dead. no more mass ponning.. no more people in the same boat as me.. hais..
and econs. OMG. reading it seems easy. doing it is a WHOLE different thing. just as bad as remembering definitions.. wad normative.opportunity cost. elasticity.. eeeyur.. i'm SOO not this kind of material. really regret swopping over..
i know my classmates are REELI nice. i mean really nice people. BUT. i just cant click wif dem.. dey're not the crazy sort like bw.. man i miss bw. how will i survive thru w/o bw by my side literally..
hang on. hang on. hang on. its just wad i need to do till things get better. Lord. Please watch over me..
i'm falling deeper..
Thursday, April 14, 2005
| 11:21 PM
happy birthday to me. lol. how rubbish..
i wld like to thank many many.. too many to list. but so many. tho i want to list those many many. sadly i have many many homework and dying from little little sleep. now i have many many tissues filled wif those water comin out of my nose..infer.. i'm sick. lol. on my birthday. but i'm still happy many many. =D
to the many manies. thanks a whole bunch. for your wishes. your presents. I LOVE YA ALL MANY MANY!
gonna thank ya'all many many..
after this whole entry. does many sounds weird to u? like so kind of word dat doesn't exist properly? yes. cool. no. try again. many many.. THANKS!
Sunday, April 10, 2005
| 7:38 PM
well oh well.. i guess i'll blog nothin much bout the week.. cos dey are all dreadful lectures and stupid stoning hours spent in skool..
fri.. there was the house talk.. venn hse was a little rubbishy. the last thing dat happened was to sabo two representives to cross dress as nerds.. guess wad.. the weipingS were saboed. yes. the guy wei ping in my class and me..
wei ping looked hilariously hilary.. i looked at him and i sat on the floor laughing like mad.. the venn house captain liked his looks so much dat he took so many pictures of him. his skirt was all the way up. wif specs. hairband. a whole stack on books and a tightly strapped bag.
dey did the same thing to me too. just dat i was wearing wei ping's pants. and it was really baggy..
dey really took a hell lot of pictures of ugly nerdy us. big time malu.
den came the jc1 touch rugby orientation..
was put into a group where i knew almost none of the people dere. quite saddening. i kept quiet the whole big time. i din noe how to do it. i've like lost touch of how to make frens.. like how i usually am. i became the so called-outcast. even in my former class.. hais..
being short isn't really a so good thing afterall.. tho people mite be joking sometimes.. and we mite be a little immune.. but still. it hurts.. but of cos i dun keep it to heart la.
yay.. anyohowingly. our group tied with another group for first place in treasure hunt games. cool. and we got ice cream as a reward. yup.
at night.. bout 11.. the brought us to this classroom as a holding place saying dere was a interview in pairs in another room.. and in this holding room. dey made us watch 'SHUTTER'..
like huh? i was half watchin. when the first disk stopped dey changed to the 'anchorman'.. was quite disappointed.. cos when i watch scarrie movie i must watch to the end.. somemore the actor was like saying the story of him and the girl [ghost]..
i fell asleep.. when i woke up.. dere were bout 7 people including me in the room left. and me and es was nx.. we were both preparing wad to say for the interview.. but when we stepped out of the room. the seniors were like..
"this is not a interview.. its a nightwalk..follow the raffia strings to the lt4 toilet and retrieve a plastic bag.. den make your way round the whole school and back to the classroom block to sleep.."
-when i heard. i was just like quite calm. cos i was half awake. nightwalk den walk la..
but as we were reaching the lt4 toilet.. staring at the long lt4 corridor. i felt like OMG. the was just a pitchblack passageway leading to the BLACK HOLE[toilet door].. den somemore a senior was sitting by the corridor motionless.. eeeee...
but the other pairs had worse stories like creeking toilet doors..banging on the door and bowl flushing.. we were damn lucky.
estee was reeli brave la. she held my torch light and said.. lets go.. and i was like.. holding on to her shoulders..
as we walked past the cafe reaching the E block.. i was halfday dreaming and i heard estee scream. the nx moment i saw this black thing coming. so i was like running backwards like mad/screaming and dragging estee along.. super funny.. after dat we laugh and laugh..
den we had to blindfold ourselves to do some obstacle thingy with the senior guiding us. after dat. we walked the track.. and suddenly. a chair tumbled down from the grandstand.. we screamed and run for our lives again towards the field.. den we started laughing like mad again.. i was saying.. "why we so stupid.. we know its not real.. haha."
continue walking the track and the nx pair was behind us at the black ghost station screaming.. we burst out laughing from the other end of the track. haha..
from den on we were like SUPER on guard. even when the wind blew the plastic bags and papers on the floor we stopped to wait. haha.. hengalaosaily.. nothing happened and we went back to sleep.. by den. it was 2+am already.
went to sleep.. i duno if i slept. but i woke up freezing... changing all sorts of positions to sleep. i only had my pe t and blouse to cover me.. until i ren wu ke ren.. i went out of the room..
at bout 5 someone off the aircon and i slept from den on til 630.. so tired..
ate breakfast. bread wif nutella and icecream. yum yum..
dere was the njc carnival for touch rugby at farrer park.. i was in the Skittles team..well.. tho its my first time playing.. hais.. i duno. as people know. i'm someone who speaks really soft whereas in touch rug. dere's a need for lots of shouting communication.. and also.. many things dat make me think of myself as a loser la. like ever since pri skool i was in reserve for everything dat i do thingy... feeling super lowly of myself.. like wad am i good in. why cant i find anything i'm good in. oh wells.
joined the seniors at ps food court for lunch. i tink the seniors are all REALLY nice la.. like really nice bunch of people.. somemore all so chio.. wif good figure..krystle is cute la!.. laughing at everything and anything in a world.. haha.
den went home to sleep.. from 4-1145pm.. wen i woke up i got a freaking big shock. like i totally missed dinner. so i went down got some food.. bathed.. den sleep again. til i woke up for church. haha..
had a meeting wif terror woman.. and she was really kind of nice today.. prayer really helps. AMEN! praise the Lord for anything and everything. I LOVE YOU!
Saturday, April 2, 2005
| 11:22 PM
i slept like nobodies business today and i had a mushroomy haircut..
i look so round.. so irritaskin..
| 12:23 AM
hais.. things are just not like dey used to be.. i guess many 17 year old will be feeling this way..
so much separation and good byes..
orientation wasn't as good as the first one. becos many beloved were not dere..
how i miss 05s31 like mad.
dey were the best classmate i cld ever have gotten.
a small and cosy class..
not having to worry during pe time becos every single one gets to play for the whole hour.
a totally un-nerdy computing class..
with many lovable people.
i miss u guys so much..
i'm not mixing well wif my new class now. i'm so sorry. feeling so guilty for it. have been hanging ard wif either estee.. or raymona and shouzhen..
its like i'm ostracising myself from the class.. i flee whenever possible..
sob sob. i duno why. i just feel we dun click.. or that i'm hanging on to the past frenships like mad.
WHY? dere are like hardly anyone i know in my new class. i feel so strange. so alone...
nothin will ever be e same again..
but i'm still happy.. becos.. its always good to keep the special feeling as part of a precious memory.. i miss u guys..
lovelove..
