Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut, doesn't have a swelled head, doesn't force itself on others, isn't always "me first."

- 1 Corinthians 13:4-5, THE MESSAGE

pingy

dear God I must confess
that sometimes You seem far away
sometimes i forget about
how i stand because of grace

but Lord there's been a change in me
a change i hope will stay
for this is my prayer today

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yay! kids make me happy.

today. Jamas brought his soft toy cat along. and he carried it everywhere he go..
i can NEVER forget the expression he gave when he hugged the cat. he gave out a sweet smile while hugging it tight. OMG. i can never forget that. SO CUTE. i'm swoon..

after class ended.. teacher hugs e little kids. a few kids came to hug me.. man i DIED of HAPPINESS i tell u. i love dem to teeny weeeny bits.. i'm gonna have MANY babies when i grow up.. =)

I GOT MOLESTED by elizabeth younger bro. BUTT AND TOP. ahhhhh! he smacked my butt like a million times. and we ran around in circles so dat i cld avoid him. i end up being super giddy and vomity.. pangsai!

And i bought a Christian Soldier shirt today at j8. TOTALLY LOVE IT. its like the best shirt i ever bought. haha.. i'm serious. 33.8 bucks k. dun play play. haha.. yeppidaperdo!

okay.. tmr half day skool. WEIRD. its dumb.. i want to go skool. but pon class. since like almost many many people is ponnin skool. i haven done any hw. and i win. yay!
i always win. haha. cos i declare dat i win. yes yes. wEepedOo.

i am stupid! lol.. i feel so stupid..

i tot today got cell meeting. was dere at the house 30 min early.. door not open.. so i eat macs mcflurry downstairs first.. 745 i went up again. press the bell. nobody come open door.

i panic.

i msg joel.

he called and told me today is in the church.. special.. -SMACKS FORHEAD LIKE MAD...
i forgot!! den i ask him "am i very stupid?" in estee's tone. lol! ok.. malu points earned..

now..

my fren showed me a pic of her ( ex and his class) picture just to see how he look like recently compared to last time.. i forgot it was dat picture and i told her the guy in yellow was cute.

den she replied.

"IF YU REALISED LIU WEI PING
THAT IS MR **
AKA MY EX BF"

goodness! so paiseh ok...

conclusion - i am stupid.

haha.. raymona.. i just had to do this. i just have to embarrass u in front of my frens again. tho this happened on thurs.. i felt a need to type this.

he opened the phy lab door the wrong way. dere was an OBVIOUS hinge dat we are supposed to swing the door outwards instead of towards ourselves.. but he pulled the knob..

IMMEDIATELY.. i broke down at sat on the floor LMAOING away.. and everyone just stood dere to look at me. lol. den he laughed at himself.

LOL! u good. u are really good i tell u. if i stay in SA. u are dead. u'll be a pale ghost by the end of 2006. lost of blood. good luck to u.

mr HONGMEI made me laugh till i almost died today.

its wonderful to have such a classmate with such a lovely name. HoNg Mei.

its difficult to fall for again

perhaps its becos..
i don't want to.

and also in a way
i can't.
a mental barrier.

its been ripped before.
once.

and i wun be
brave enough to face it.
not now.
just not at this time.

when i'm so contented
with just frens.

anything more.
and i'll just shy away.

i guess
i just need
loads of time.

meanwhile i lead a carefree life.
i'm happy =)
studies are my first priority.
period.

life has never been this good.

its not that im sour about you
having a great life
i defnitely am not feeling sad
and is but of course happy for you.

its not that im still dying to have you back in my life
i long passed that stage

its not that im alone
or i feel alone

ive grown to realise i have the support of many

its not that im unhappy
nor upset
i noe im not
and i wont be
because ive stopped crying since

and like you im enjoying life
laughing screaming
bring everything to its greatest height

and of course i pray all the best goes to you
like how i do pray for my frens too
blessings,
best wishes

but somehow
someway
i have this feeling in me

deep

and i wish i can explain.

-kerr.. its amazing how we feel at exactly the same time.. like the cheesy cheese holds our feelings so close. supersupremes. ilu.

shagged. i'm achin all over. the water bombs impact were like orh qhehfied. lol.

yest was sajc campus rumpus funfair.

got wet like how many billion times in a day. or.. never dried in actual fact.. every single time i go back to the gallery/grandstand.. i get wet. MAD CLASSMATES i've got.
i walk around as if i had been continuously been peein in my pants. cos i sat at this table den when i left there was a BIG puddle of water beneath.

and the soles of my feet are like burnt. lol.. cos i've been runnin around skool barefooted.. and the ground was like SUPER hot due to the SUPER power sun. but good la. burn the bad hard skin away. haha.

tho its been a long time.
better unseen than seen.
its wad i realised.
but no doubt she has a nice smile.

last thing i went before playin the last round of water bombs was the haunted house..
IT WAS SCARY + HILARIOUS..
haha.. i had a fun time in dere..

i held both my frens hands.. and i closed my eyes.. everytime dey scream first.. den i open my eyes to see wads going on, den scream after seeing the ghost. haha! after screaming.. we'll all start laughin..

herng liang was constantly makin me scream becos he was actually in charge of the haunted house. but he came out to tried his own game, with his makeup still on. he was the guy in front who lead the way with his handphone. so every single time he shone the handphone at his face. i screamed. haha!!

my fren actually held one of my hand. but when she scared. she grabbed me with her other hand in the dark. in my mind i was thinkin.. "WHY THE GHOST GRAB ME SO LONG.. can she please let go?" LOL! cos got ghost keep grabbing our legs ma.

den one of the guy fren behind us he kept screaming.. continuous but in sections.. so its like ah ah ah ah ah ah.. not ahhhhhhhhhhhh.... FUNNY!
once he lost hold of someone's hand. den he was like screaming.. SOMEONE GRAB MY HAND. i need my mummy's touch. he also told one of the ghost to shine at one of the soft toy hanging at the ceiling. and it turned out to be a bloody rabbit. he SCREAMED again. LMAO! dey all said he's someone full of shit. i realised its true. lol.

serious. it was good. boy. .i sponsored myself and my frens 54 bucks of fun. from my angbao.. all for the fun. i guess its worth it. =)

came home. bathed. slept... church. slept. now.

after now. study for 3 test and do tutorials. =X

tooth pain.

wisdom tooth.

its horrible.

cant eat for days.

cos the molar gums swell to SO BIG dat my jaws cant come tgt to bite the good.

i eat chicken must use tongue to hit it against the teeth.. so can swallow..

CRIES.. it hurts.. i dun want to be wise..

why am i wise soo early!

bOooOoo.. i cant eat tmr funfair food already.. so so sad.
okie la.. i shall be wise.. i'll bear with it for few days of swell..
den after dat few months of on off pain..

one side already 1/9 out. dats why i noe how the other gonna feel.. CRIES!
why cant both come out tgt?

AhHhhH!!! i'm starting to cant close my jaw.. bOOooo!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. haha.. wad a toothy entry..

The HAPPY girl number2 is BACK too! lol.. =)

great! just dat.. I NEED TO FRIGGIN STUDY MY NOTES..
cos i've been sleepin in alot of lectures dat i TOTALLY dun understand wad the notes says.. UNTIL i spent time readin it. =X

better pray i have TIME to read and understand.
so.. tata prata..
gotta leave for cell now.

i am.

stoned
worried
afraid
upset
tired

i cant catch up with skool work.
skool is far and i have panda eyes.
O results are coming next week.

and i tink i did something wrong.
its so embarressing.

yep. the thing's still on. stayin single for the nx 3 years.
prolly just afraid.
unless God has a different plan for me.
i'm placing it all in His hands. =)

loveli hannah and shovess is back today! hannah is a really loveli girl. she came crying for daddy.. but after carrying her a little.. talkin to her.. she's like totally alright. so guai.
den.. during craft time.. she came over to shovess and took one of the colour pencil.. but she asked first! she said to me.. " i take first ok? later i gif u back." i said ok and smile..
den she turned to shovess and repeated the same thing. GAWD. i'm in love with this kid.

i helped shovess with her colouring. i passed her the colour pencils.. while she did her colouring. =D

haha.. i had to sing. "God is so good today. =)"

oh.. den this kid while sitting on teacher's lap and crying.. SHE PEE-ED through her pampus.. gosh.. and wetted my teacher's pants.. but she so calm bout it.. use tissue wipe wipe abit.. she continue telling her story. till the whole session ended did she go toilet to put water wash.
somemore she was supposed to go out after that. not home. =
i realised.. i have so much to learn.
i definitely wun scream at the kid. BUT. i'm bound to be upset bout the pee..

today learnt.. with God helping me. I can do it! - Wilma Rudolph.
go read up on her. olympic gold medalist..starting out wif a childhood dat she cant even walk.
RESPECT!

loveli.. walked to the bus stop wif eugene and joel talkin bout passing motion.. we laughed the wadever out of our wadever...
and its so painful.. the crunches i did on fri.. made laughin difficult for me.. like as if my internal are gonna bleed if i laugh. lol!

okie.. valentine's day is creeping near.. and i do not have a valentine! lol.. its ok la.. i have a date with a sharp head and tail ball anyway. (touch rugby). lol.. and another date with studying for phy test the nx day.. two dates. beat dat. =P

okie dokie. i STILL have not touched my hw. nor studyin for phy. =X. tryin hard just to read my notes to UNDERSTAND now. so i can do my hw during tutorials. hee..

i will do it! nothing is too difficult for me.. i WILL and CAN rmb the formulas.

okie la.. now must help my sis burn a cd of one song she composed. play guitar and sang for her beloved..

friendster! i was so surprised i wanted to post a bulletin.. cos i love the lovely pink soo much.. but i scared ppl think i siao.

dey shld change color like every month or something. den nice. =D

today so bad one.. our skool no holiday one.. sob sob..

i slept in phy lecture.. tired. heng i haven dream yet..
during fma lecture.. got break.. den i slept. lol.. din want to wake up.
heng today day quite short.

den i STONED in the cafe after eating fishball noodles.. so so only. i really stone dere for bout 2 hours.

den odac started.. PT.
well..it really isn't bad compared to cedar bball trg.. after bball trg will be like breathless and super shagged.. all sweaty.. but today quite ok.. except dey made us do pumping on sun scorched concrete/track.. roasted my hands and knees. reeli pain.. heng raw skin haven show yet..

den eat steamboat for dinner.. with family. send my sis and bro-in-law off.. dey going back ecuador.. den.. my sis ladle of fully filled soupy food clash with my hand.. pain awhile den ok le.. now not even red..

so do i have thick skin not? lol.. the concrete roasted my palms. but hot soup did nothing to my hand. =X

lol.. and i'm getting black again.. bOohOOo..
once i get tanned. i cant get white again..

last year it took more than half a year just for me to LOOK OK. like normal color. but still.. orientation ppl think i malay.

nx time i shall try indoor sports.. lol.. i like being tanned.. but sometimes i also like to be feminine and pretty pretty ma. lol.

ok la. talk so much.. thirsty already.. nx time talk again.

GONG XI FA CAI!



chinese new year... only two days!! bOoohOoo.. i've yet to do my hw.. =X

this year's new year.. we crashed the houses.. lol.. think about it. its quite funny..

we just go. den shake hands.. happy new year.. get angbaos.. eat abit.. den byeE.. gotta go. lol..



cos this year my mum need to go home to cook for my grandpa.. lunch and dinner.. maid gona back.. waiting for old old maid to come back. so now my mum take one month no pay leave..

she's so shagged.. all her white hair coming out..man i really want her to rest..



me and my sis have been washing the dishes sometimes..either she wash i rinse. or. i wash she rinse.. yup.

actually washin the dishes is not a hugemongous task.. just that we aren't taught that habit since young and now everybody is lazy.



gosh. been seeing too many kids lately.. makes me one to have one.. i like to teach little kids. lol. mabe i shld go be kindergarten teacher. I LOVE KIDs.. esp those dat can reply u /SMILE =) /listen to what u say. those guai guai kids.. i ADORE dem. love dem like PANGSAI.



tough jobs are..

1) stop dem from crying

2) stop dem from runnin about. ( its easy to grab dem cos we're stronger. BUT.. we cant hurt dem.. lol.. so in the end. i end up playin catchin wif dem. DUH! lol.. cute la. )

3) get them to do something.. ( its as if i'm speakin foreign language)



lol.. however wadever.. dey are still cute.

i must! train my kids to be the guai type.. SUPER DUPER ADORABLE. first thing i'll teach the baby to do is. SMILE. =D



tada.. my pangsai really comin already.. but i made an effort to survive thru typing this entry.. so tata prata. cya later.

life is so good. i've got nothing more to ask for.. i duno.. it just came up to my mind. i just don't believe how some things work so wonderfully.. almost everything falls in place for me..



nah.. i dun have a boyfren.. watever for. lol.. single is good. single = happy. haha. attached = alot troubles/waste time/waste money/waste tears.. lol.



eh.. just generalizing... i mean for now. i mean.. we're all so young. so naive.. studies come first man! occasionally can think abit la. lol.. spice up our lives.. but really no point OWNING one. nah..



watever for. everyday cry bout love. there's much more meaningful things to do. like making little bookmarks/stars/hearts? for everyone on valentine's day, than stupidly spending all your money on one person. if i can make 50 happy. why do i only want to make one happy? hmmmm..



its been a long time.. and i've i guess forgotten about the feeling of being hurt. cryin day and night. even if i try hard enuf to remember the details.. they are all also just a memory dat don't affect me no more.



we're young man.. LIVE everyday to the fullest!



guess i suddenly think about all these cos a guy in my class broke up wif a girl recently. he came to class all shagged and a little teary eyes. initially i just tot he was tired.. but he spoke no words and continued to put his head down even during tutorials. den. he asked me a question. and i saw his eyes. they were wet.. i tot they only had a fight. din noe its so serious. well.. somehow. as the day passed by. he went a little mad. sometimes laughing a few hours like nobody's business.. den bein all quiet..

seiously. i'm quite upset about it. those pair of eyes. =\ i dislike people to be unhappy.



in the end. he also told me. he shld stay away from courtship for 5 years. till he goes uni. for me.. 3 years.. cos i no NS. hEe.. yuP!



takkaire dude.



PEACE ON EARTH.. well.. i know my day did not come wif my own effort.. i had God with me all the time. supporting me.. pushing me up. to the person i am now. i think the inferior complex is also gone.. (eh. did i spell it right?) haha..



okie.. time for joke of the day..

go around.. ask a girl if she's a lady..

if she says yes..

ask if the name in finger. lol.



tata prata.

hmmm.. been quite long since i updated huh?

yay.. my hair is growing.. but too fast sia.. its like becoming back to normal soon.. but okie la.. now am comtemplating between having short hair for life.. or grow long hair again.. i wan tie plait and be pretty pretty.. lol.



i cant catch up wif my work! wad a slacker.. lol.. but the teachers are really going at lightning speed.. so like hours and hours of lectures are all copying and copying.. nothing much absorbed.. i tink i'll fail alot of things sia.. now i noe the true meaning of fmath = Fmaths. literally a F grade. fail..



wa.. den learn the binomial.. is the n! r! bla bla.. den must differentiate/integrate the binomial factor.. haha! POWER SIA. after dat lesson.. everybody either want to suicide. go poly. or pon skool. LOL..



oh boy.. really competing wif time sia.. duno if i can make it to vj not.. even if i do.. i cont lidat.. DIE LIAO. i no need sleep liao. everyday do work.



oh..i did rock climbing at labrador today. love it la. i love odac.. EVERYBODY is nice. like. can just talk to anyone. but one thing is.. i TOTALLY DETEST writing proposal.. odac oh odac..



man.. i miss sec3 camp la.. going back to the same camp site.. time flies.. soon i'll be in uni sia.. SCARY.



okie la.. i'm quite tired liao..