Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut, doesn't have a swelled head, doesn't force itself on others, isn't always "me first."

- 1 Corinthians 13:4-5, THE MESSAGE

pingy

dear God I must confess
that sometimes You seem far away
sometimes i forget about
how i stand because of grace

but Lord there's been a change in me
a change i hope will stay
for this is my prayer today

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i'm back on track..



i'm glad. he's there. =)

i hate myself for being so mao dun.



is everyone like that? or is it just me...

talked ta him last nite..first time! he told me his story.. his penang trip.. he kinda escaped death twice? i tink the tsunami happened on 26.. and dey were dere right at the beach on the 25 celebrating christmas and lighting fireworks..



another is.. hengily the bus he was in stalled and dey were late to go to a certain adidas shop..



and also.. a skool nx to the hotel he was in was like in ruins.. walls all toppled and stuff.. scary? scary. heng is hotel on higher land or something..



last heard death toll was 60 000 for me... i only tot it was 10? like how dumb i was..i din realise how serious it was.

den.. its like not only death's the problem.. how are we gonna burry so many people? if we are unable to burry? dey decompose.. den there will be a virus.. infecting the living people.. and the dead people in the sea pollutes the water.. i mean.. its really amazing how people can tink so far.. i never really thot bout the dead bodies..



and also. if the aids don't arrive in time... more people will be dying..

all the stories on the miracle kids are really miracle.. its on yest straits btw..

oh.. and es has send her old blankies and stuff over.. hopefully dey'll get it..



so.. today i went to pass my little sis her birthday present and she was super delighted =) i love it when people are happy.. i guessed she loved it alot.. of cos! its expensive ok..

den went over to pass my sis's fren's sis her dan brown book back.. den.. shoppin wif bw..

yea.. bote a book today.. and 2 fbts dey bote for me yest.. i'm so broke now..



i dreamt of his bro last nite.. its scary.. quite a long dream.. we were chatting online? and he asked me lots of question.. remembered one of the dem.. "why do u tink my bro left u.." i cldn't rmb my reply.. nor wad happen in the dream after dat.. but it just seems so weird.. wad a dream..why the dream? =\was just walkin ard the streets and i realised i kinda miss him? like how once we were so.. and how now we are so.. it justs makes me feel so weird all of a sudden..like how prolly his family has long accepted her like how dey accepted me.. like going to family gatherings and all.. its really a great thing and i miss his family? =( and how dey are always stucked tgt.. and me.. just thinkin bout dem..wad dey're doin? at his hse..or in town.. all these stupid images still pops in my mind.. yes i'm happy.. but dat doesn't meant i've stopped missin him sometimes.haix.. wazzup wif me.. i'm so mao dun.

God loves me. and i love Him too.



He's different from the rest. Trust and Believe Him.. and he makes your life almost perfect. [in a way.]



do not live for no one.. esp if u live for your boyfren/girlfren. DON'T!. it the DUMBEST thing to do.

live for God.. He's ALWAYS dere. so you'll never be alone nor be hurt. cos he won't ever leave.. unlike men. true wad.



men=humans la okie. i not so bad one.



just felt like writing an entry on how i'm saved. how life is so fulfilling each and everyday.. how happy i am. He has showed me so many things that i once thought i wasn't.



i used to think i was worthless.. that i'm prolly rather ugly too..that he left me for a girl with much better qualities.. but recently. He showed me that i'm not worthless at all. Dat i'm actually.. haha. paiseh. i dunwan say. lol!



and what has resulted from all that?

me being closer to God.

me able to concentrate all my time on my O's.

me being able to judge people better.

me seldom cry now.

me... just plain happy even at simplest things.

i guess in a way. i grew stronger in many aspects of my life too. =)



realise too.. when people are happy. dey cant be much bothered wif the sad people feelings cos dey are unable to relate..like the sad people can get really irritating to the happy people..if u get wad i mean..dat is why... argh.. nvm.. shall put the past behind me.



forgive and forget.. the only way to heal.



i'll say this again. i'm happy time had brought me to where i am..



thanks people.

supersupremes - kerr.pk

man bang - kerr.pk.hua.trina.

berlin wall - es.shuyu.pk.mere.huihui.jlow.bernice.

bball mates - es.trina.kaihui.peiz.linnet.

lina.shena.yvette.geraldine.liming.

bball juniors.seniors.

1n.2n.3p.4p - meifeng.meiting.dorothy.shinying.

aud.michelle.carmel.

buddies - darwin.ewen.jasper.nat

6hope - yunhui.yusze.amy.engtheng.jasmine.jamie.

everyone at lsbc - amy.elizabeth.sharon.joanne.lynern.shuen.

eugene.2joels.samuel.simon.kahwan. jonathan.benjamin.. aiyooo.. so many. cant name. but u guys noe i remember yuu.. =)

last but not least. yes. u nicholas. the one who lead me into my turning point in life.

THANKS!

yes! i believed the musical was a success! well i guess it is. everyone was happy. i'm sure HE is too.. heard this year even tho the people coming were lesser than previous years.. but there were more people SAVED..



yes yes.. HE's really good to me.. giving me such a wonderful life that i'm happy and contented. i'm glad HE has planned so much for me. u duno how happy i am.. and how much my life has changed.. and sooo glad 2005 is coming soon too.. A BRAND NEW YEAR FOR ME =)



i shall put everything bad that happened in 2004 behind me... moving on to a new year of my life's journey.. meanwhile.. i shall enjoy my last week of pigging around.. cos skool is starting soon.. no matter how far sa is.. i believe its gonna be fun.. dun worry! i'll grab hold of myself. i'll attend every lecture. =)



okie dokie.. i went out wif BW today.. great. long time since we met up cos i was busy wif rehearsal and so were the others wif christmas preparations.. tho christmas is over.. i still feel it right here in me. =)



okie dokie.. so i bote a 3/4 jeans! fitting.. nice.. i like.. 32 point something bucks? not bad. yep.. the press of the pin again. haha. thanks mom!



den watch The Phantom Of The Opera... i felt it was good.. really good. but my frens thot it was boring? hmmm... mabe i have artistic taste dat enable me to appreciate musicals. <--- self praise again.. haha. i love myself. but really ma.. the songs very nice.. and the story a little sad at the end.. yes! good show.



B-E-A-UTI-FUL! so contented. so happy.



single is the best policy. i mean. for now. not for life.

enables good acedemic results and err.. perhaps more suitors den being attached? =\ haha!



PLAN W



1) secure good results.

2) be smart. be really nice too.

3) get a good job.

4) have a stable income.

5) get a good husband. =D

6) err.... become tai tai if my husband is filthy rich? lol.. if not.. i'll cont working.. and we'll build a home together. =)



ta da.. my plans.. haha.. hopefully.

i'm acting like a baby... I WANT TO EAT SWEETS AND CHOCOLATE!



bOooO.. so evil.. i haven been eating those quite long le.. cos my sick has been there on and off.. just that now more serious and its still not going away..



hmmm.. but me being me.. i shall stay positive and be happy.. its CHRISTMAS u noe. not just another ordinary day.. i'm sick. but happy. -smiles



just now had a weird weird dream.. freaky. but if that cld happen in real life.. means i've let go. and i guess i prolly can. =) i've stopped thinkin already.. ho ho ho. glad i din take a year yea? lol.. life is so good to even start thinking of negative stuff.. yes yes..



okie.. chrismasy! lalala.. shall play my ancient billy gilman christmas cd sometime soon. lol..

okie! currently updating from my new dell dimension 3000.. no matter how basic the stuff are.. as long as its good and fast man! wEehoOo..



yes. been spending almost everyday in church.. rehearsal.. today i'm sick.. cant go. down with fever. sorethroat and some cough.. just now nose also got blood.. =X pray i'll be well real soon.. dun wana miss anymore rehearsals..



haha.. a freaking coincidence on tues.. cant believe we actually wore the same shirt but different color. are we that alike? haha.. =X



and i cut my hair like some punk. lol. my hair is forever standing even if its after bath.. after sleeping worse.. no need use gel.. haha.. guess i wasted my 12 bucks on gel? lol..



but punk hairstyle good.. shall scare the guys away. hoping not to get a boyfren anytime soon altho temptation surges within me.. =\ but the otherway round.. they thot my hair was nice.. =\ CRIES..

actually i tink its quite nice. lol.. just like i look like small boy.. lol. or mabe.. sum.. crazy woman? lol. nvm.. heng my hair grows fast..



okie.. gotta go sleep.. cant continue to be sick.

now i'm happified to the moon and back.



something really great happened..still happening to me. i cant believe it. feel so blessed.



btw. i'm a christian now and happy about it. =)



posted to St Andrews. =) i screamed "YES!" into the phone like some crazy woman. jumping out of bed immediately.. but bad point is that its so FAR! and i dun want to have so much fun i neglect my studies. but definitely shall meet up wif aj old pals to discuss skool work. hahas..



estee my buddy.. yes! same skool again. lol. gonna stick to u le.



vj is in high high demand man.. scary. my appeal results will be nx wed. slim slim chances..



oh wells.. but i'm posted to sa. shall accept God's plan for me.



the musical box of love.. has become a pck edition of karung guni music.. and my role has been change to Crystal Jade Phua.. Best.. now got amended script.. we better do well for the performance sia.



yes! so excited bout christmas being round the corner too.. wEeEee.. I LOVE KERRIN FOR THE WONDERFUL EFFORT. i mite not have time to do the same.. but i wish to make u as happy as u made me. =)



1 , 2 , 3.. turn the lights off and its time for coma-ing. zZzzzZzzz..

haha... so.. this morning.. i spent 2 hours snoozing my alarm clock.. just refuse to wake up.

i mean. why must wake up? its a holiday. haha.

den supposingly am late for rehearsal but den i'm not. good.



man i had a great time today.. played bball wif dem. its been prolly 8-9 months since i last played. gooD! i still can shoot.



den when i was bathing. i saw this tadpole lookalike in the toilet bowl.. it was wriggling.. but still i decided to pee.. and something happen..



it rose to the surface.. den split into two. one became gray.. and one had legs.. i'm like. wad is happening? den i realized prolly it had just shed its skin..



after i finished.. about 5 seconds later. the thing stops wriggling.



I KILLED THE THING... with my pee. HAHA! i have toxic pee mans.



i still cant believe it died. =

ok. i just ordered a dell dimension 3000. its like quite scary? at a click of the mouse suddenly i have to pay thousand over dollars. and like. i'm gonna get a new com? cool. <--- sua ku.

i duno how dey gona confirm the order wif me. cos i only gave them the house number.. but most of the time i wun be home.. my maid will prolly "huh?" the guy if he calls.. so HOW? =X

i dun even noe how/where to mail the cheque. even if i mail. how to dey noe its me? haha.. ok la. fyne. i'm dumb ma.



but i have to wait till dey deliver the com. i scared by the time i start skool oledy.. den abit no time to install all the programmes for the com. printer la. modem la. aiyo.. haha.



okie la.. write christmasy cards time. good nite.

am i bored or am i bored. i am bored. ha! also sjb. kikikukukakakeeEeeEe...



i always tell people i laugh like pangsai.. den kerrin replied. imagine the pangsai laughing! haha. den imagine the pangsai shaking while laughing. =S well.. it doesn't matter if u dun find it funny. or u find me lame.. or mad. laughing at slightest things dat does not amuse u. its ok. i'm like that.



i'm kukufied. really mad. why cant skool starts at 2 and ends at 6. so will be dinner. homework. sleep. lunch. skool again. yipee!



sleeping before 0000 is curfewed/no life/no homework/very tired.

sleeping at 0400 is me.

sleeping at 0900 is pro. [also me] =D



waking up at 0600 is forced

waking up at 1000 is time to go out gai gai

waking up at 1300 is just right for lunch =@

waking up at 1740 is to get a shock at your alarm clock. then feeling damn pro about it.



haha.. i'm once again mad.. so sad kerrin com is down. if not can stay up late together and bould.



=X skool is starting. kinda dread it. but SA will be fun. dat is if i get in. 2 more days to the results.



ok. time for boulding in bed. good nite.

question:



is one happier when the other half is completely different.

whom doesn't share the same interest..

whom seem so special cos he's so different.

thus dey fill your other half.

1/2 + 1/2 = 1



or



is one happier when the other half is like one.

whom share the same interest..

whom doesn't seem so special..

but so comfortable to be with.

and thus 2 become 1.

Chaque fois que tu t' en vas

je pretends que tout va bien

yar! this is the one.. everything is touch sensitive..



no strength needed to press any buttons..



but it doesn't seem to be available anymore.. besides this, the new one. still got another design.. the one with the buttons at the side of the wheel and not on it.







how? where to get the first one? Singapore seems to be selling the one with the gray wheel only.







hmmm..

good! haha.. i can wear my contacts properly.. but still must try a few times. haha.



okie.. woke up. den sister drove me to serangoon garden.. go there 'da bao' cafe cartel food home. cool ar bo? wear hole-ly shirts and drooping shorts walk in there like some poor begger. den 'da bao' somemore. haha! best la! but the waitress like all look at us so bo song. haha. who cares. these people ah. dun deserve to be working in the service industry. so rude!



den went ntuc.. bote food.. eh.. frozen prata.pizza.fish nuggets.. black pepper ham. and some potato chips.. all prepared for my slacking events at home.. good. now i have good food to eat when i'm at home.



now my sis and her bf off to attend a wedding at fort canning. den later gonna meet up with dem to eat marche and mabe catch a movie.. BUT MUST RUSH HOME IN TIME FOR PRINCESS D.. cannot miss! if miss.. I GO BUY VCD AH. ok set. yay!



perhaps now shld go pack my stuff and stuff. ahaha. yup! tata.

met carmel! kuppai torti! she has long straight nice hair. so pretty!



den went macs to eat lunch. i ate the new duno wad chicken fold.. the packaging looks quite huge.. but manage to finish it. so i tink its not so huge afterall? haha.



den went lido watch blade trinity.. COOL.. good show. kinda like this kinda shows.. but den hor.. normally this kind of show teevee got. but then hor. today no more show left. so thumbs up! also cos got hAmsUm man [that guy from two guys a girl and a pizza place? yar! that guy.] haha.. it was comedy in a action pact show.

and got pretty girl! the eldest sis from 7th heaven. i tink called jessica? cool. she's got the ipod that i want! its different from the one selling in singapore now. dat type no need use strength one. the play and next buttons are all touch sensitive. i dun like the new design now. den she knows how to ride the bike.. then her arm muscles so shape-ish. haha.. i will train up! =X

then went shopping.. bote a black long sleeve shirt from topshop. a white shirt from zara and a white hairband from mini-bits. happy happy! actually i tink i shld get a brown shirt instead. hmmm.. depleting my mum's resource again. i cant control! i really like clothes now.



den went toa payoh for my contact lens check up.. finally! i'm late by 4 days.. bad. cos dey made me buy a protein removal tablet for the thing which i suppose to use once a week. =\ make me pay again! bluff me. haha.

if i cant change the color of my hair. i'll change the color of my eye. =X i was afraid of myself at first. lol! i dun look normal. i look.. evil maybe? =\ haha.. but now use to it le. its actually really nice..



came home watch teevee!! auntie speak english so cute!

pork = pok! [no money]

cheesecake = qi gek [give up hope]

watermelon = wo de mei ren [my beauty]

grey = quay [sticky cakes]

got many others which were in other dialet also.. like how mart-che [how much]

aiyo.. i luff my ass off.. and yes. my mum tinks i'm mad again.

and i specially called estee to tell her to watch. she did. she laughed as badly as me. =D



PRINCESS D tmr.. channel 8. after news.. 11 or 1130.. EDISON AND DANIEL! two in one? mama! i'll stick my eyes to the teevee. glue dem. haha.. anyone passing near my house in the night? dun be shocked if u hear screams.. its me. yes. again.



fruitful day huh.. movie shopping eating. ok la. i can say. fruitful week. i'll go swimming again sometime. gotta go beach soon ah! yippee!

so... was supposed to meet at 1030 today.. woke up at 910.. so tired.. so i msg trina.. change to 1130.. haha.. den she said ok! cos she also wanted ta sleep.. haha..good.



wear my contacts.. first time it drop.. search low and low on the floor. DUN HAVE! den i found out its sticking on to the wall.. second time drop.. on the floor. alemak.. still very lousy. den when i wear. got bubble! so must move move to get to air out. =

haha! at Northpoint.. we saw powerpuff girls.. deedee and dextor.. HAHA! very funny.. they were all bouncing and jumping on that tiny stage.. somemore they so fat.. so scared dey bump into each other then fall.. then they were singing with the high pitch voices.. haha.. quite cute la.



okay.. so went to yishun safra.. but din rock climb cos the weather looks bad.. and must book 4 hours at one shot.. so.. ya.. we went to bowling alley instead.. haha! yay! i learnt how to play bowling.. got a score 60 for beginners.. haha.. i noe lousy.. but at least i hit the pins! and once.. cos the ball like very oily.. i bowl.. and the ball flew backwards.. ha! laugh like pangsai.



den we played pool.. fun fun.. trina is good man.. only played twice before and she plays like a pro. hmmm.. at least i manage to hit the balls.. and i got the bridge! getting more accustomed to playin it. and one of my ball U-turn.. haha. its the o-so-pro tactic thats 0-so-tyco. ha.



went to sembawang to make a new card.. but the person say duno wad thing like 3 more weeks to jc and stuff.. so i shld just wait first.. cos in jc moe will renew the duno wad la.. and stuff.. so guess i'll be using adult ezlink and coins.. =[ very expensive. ezlink can like finish 10 bucks within 3-4 days. =

din go contacts check up. lazy.. tink dey'll nag at me or something. haha. came home. snacked yesterday's double decker. den. fell asleep..

something just spark my thoughts.. i cant be sure. but i tink its her! haha..

saw someone's frenster who took a picture wif her and she looked like her.. but saw the 2002 yearbook and she din look like her.. is it her? i tink its her.. rather small size and long hair.. plain and sweet looking..



haha.. i'm talking bout my skool's o level invigilator.. from the first day of exams.. had my suspicions already.. on the chinese paper.. well.. reminded me of things but well hey! its the exams k. cannot be distracted.. I AM NOT LESBIAN LA.. its not bout her looks.. but bout her.. i mean. her name.. i mean. her! =\ but in the end. DARN. chinese was tough and i doubt i'll get my B3 back.. say A. ha.. i'll be happy i dun get a C. =X



haha.. i will say it again.. I AM NOT LESBIAN!! -screams .. but den some girls are just so pretty.. haha. i mean guys will think that other guys are good looking other than themselves right? unless they are super egoistic.. lalala..



well.. the person i'm talkin about is ms justina lu..too bad the invigilator's tag no name one.. but she's small size.. and just have this STRONG feeling its her.. haha.. i dun care.. its her.

woke up early went trina's area for a swim!

i finally learnt AGAIN how to swim the froggy way.. all along.. i've been swimming the doggy way.. which is like any-o-how hands and legs coordination.. so long as i stay afloat and able to move like 1m/5seconds...

a little tan..

and we tried to dive like how swimmers do at the start of a race? but we all ended up having pink thighs cos we "PIAK" on the water.. HAHA..PAIN LEY. we duno how to dive la. nobody teach us wad.. we just anyhow. lol.. now i tink i got a broken blood vessel.. cos like 'orh qheh' lidat. haha..

dun anyone think that the jacuzzi is like as if we have like such a enormous babobilanious fart when we pretend to put our ass at the jet part? haha..

and some weird steam room where its so steamy if the person stands at the otherside of the room. u cant see her. lol.. its actually hot steam.. so 5/6 of the time when i'm inside. i cant exactly breathe cos the air was so hot! we duno if we were sweating.. or the condensed water droplets from the metal ceiling drip on us.. cos.. how can we sweat like as if we just came out of the pool?

after bath.. trina spotted my pimple outbreak.. it was in a shape of the letter "S".. haha! how come i din realise.. last time it was the volcanic belt.. den it was the solar system.. and the square.. haha.. why all got pattern one? haha..



den went trina hse to cook! we ate so much..

spegetthi..

cambelle soup..

nuggets and fries..

all cooked by hua, trina and me.

i sliced up 3 sausages for the sauce.. cook and stir the sauce(which contains minced meat. sauce and sausage!)

occasionally stir the noodles.. and lastly.. i was the one who mixed the sauce and noodles together with great skill without spilling the mountainous lump on to the table.. it was on a plate k. man i good. ha! aye.. i not only noe how to cook maggie(u noe the girl with curly hair whom i cant wait to chop her into pieces and cook her?) k. how dare thy despise me. hurmph.



den we watch that korean movie.. the lead actress is that olympus cam ad girl? and she's a police women.. yup.. another love story.. haha.. u noe i'll get all excited and happy just watching them la.

oh ya.. the guy said.. nx time u feel the wind.. u'll feel me.. cos he believed he was the wind in his previous life.. but had to leave halfway cos i had a church meeting.. but i already know the ending.. the guy died.. CRIES.. and everytime the girl tries to commit suicide.. the wind will do something to save her den she cant die.. "awwww..."



my leaving the hse gift was two vcds of that awesomely cute and super nice guy i was talking about on sunday..part one and two! found out his name is wu yan zu/daniel wu and the actress name is yang qian hua. yup.. actually is borrow only la.. not gifts. haha.



meeting was quite fun la.. i'm given the role 'queenie' cos alot of ppl going overseas.. so left me and some other people whom aren't going anywhere and can have full time for rehearsal.. kinda scared tho.. its like my first time acting.. for so many to see? scary.. and besides i kinda just joined like 2 weeks ago? hmmm.. actually this event is called the 'box of love' on the 26 of dec.. yep! even tho i'm new in almost everything.. i'll do it. and i'll do it well!



den took 53 den..decided to stop halfway and take the usual long walk home with a packet of double decker chips in my hand..haha.. i went to buy one.. after the meal at trina hse.. i still hungry.. well.. things still the same as it is. well it felt like so.. weather was once again great.. nice cooling breezes.. yay!



the 9pm show.. darn.. i hate that LAO KOK KOK.. kept scolding him under my breath.. wad an as.h.le! pangsai face! make her cry until lidat.. make your own son tear also..want to find another woman just to have baby.. jiao yi so good to u. U MAD AH.. want so many baby for wad.. so old liao.. and got a son so big liao. u digusting thing. not say very handsome somemore. eEeEeeEee..



i realise if i watch teevee dat i really like or too immerse.. i cannot hear if u talking to me one.



so the days end with me fixing the puzzle and being online again.. i'm so happy its almost done.. left bout 70-80 pieces of total BLACK.. wish me luck huh.. the boy and the girl so cute!



tmr is off to making new ezlink.. CRIES... why nooobody return my card.

and perhaps if got time.. a contact lens check up.. i'm late 3 days already. = haha.. busy playing.



PS- the part about maggie? i was fakin it.. have no fren wif curly hair called maggie. yup.. throw all the crutches at me if u want. thank you. thank you -bows..

so... i din went out today.. carmel felt a little sick. so the meeting was cancelled. was quite disappointed.. but i'll be out tmr wif bw! its not like i haven been out of the house a long long time.. just dat.. i'm perhaps. bored. actually very bored. everything seems so monotonous.

-_- zZzZzz...



okie.. packed the whole study room today.. well.. only my own stuff la. haha.. now.. so much space and everything looks flat.. no more piling up of books and files.. tink i'll perhaps pack the dark room upstairs tonite.. too many stuff jumbled on the table..



I NEED NEW CLOTHES AND LOTS OF MONEY. ha. who doesn't. well... i'm gonna be darn cheapo and cannot lugi..



alemak.. realise christmas is round the corner.. i abit no money to buy other people present. haha.



i really have no idea which jc they gonna put me into.. of all my choices. i can only make it into the 6th choice. how nice.



i have a feeling i'm gonna fall asleep soon even when i woke up at bout 12+ today.. -yawns.

WARNING : this entry may contain rather pangsaish words. - opps.



back from pee-ing, pangsai-ing and bathing..



while ps-ing.. kerr was messaging me.. she tinks i'm online. told her she shld know how long i take to ps. if i'm online. i wld need a laptop and a wireless internet connection in the bathroom..

she said. why not build the bowl in the com room. isn't that better? haha.. yay! we had a good laugh.. our replies started with.. "HAHA..."



den. told her i need to concentrate and message her later.. yep.



so now i'm here in the dark. in the com room. and my mum just came around to say.

"HEY. GO SLP." =X SCARY..



yes i'm goin.. have not been slpin much lately due to bloggingmania.. lol.. BYE!



its like a black dot on a piece of paper. no matter how u look away from it. it will always be so prominent on that white piece of paper. sometimes sunlight will shine on it and it will be too bright to see it. but when the sun sets. the black dot is still dere. unerasable. -just like a scar. that never will heal.

i am currently watching the channel 8 show dat starts at 830.. "love undercover". rushing here during ads just to type...



haha.. ok. the show ended.. and i'm gonna tell u ALL about it. the awsomely cute looking and extremely good natured plus SUPER sweet baddie [-faints] falls for this girl undercover cop...and he's sooooooooooooooooooo nice to her.. i cried.. cos its too sweet la! not becos its sad. i cannot stand such shows.. i will start screaming hysterically at the tv.. [u noe like all the sound effects when i get excited? hahas] the ending was really happy..i love sweet endings la.. lol.. yep thats ALL about it.. my summary sure score full marks one.



preciously i was laughing like someone with asthma becos of the American's Funniest home Videos.. my family was eating dinner in the kitchen behind and i was laughing so loudly, echoing thru the hall. i tink the neighbours can hear. den i can hear shouts from the kitchen.. "what u laughing at? SIAO AH!"



well.. mad.. i just get happy watchin tv..



morning went to church wif eyes dat cannot be opened.. but after worship and all the jumping and praising! i woke up! den all the way happie happie! even like raised my hands up HIGH to feel the wind at the overhead bridge while walkin home.. i was just so happy and the weather was so great. so happy to see my pri skool best fren! we'll have lots to catch up on..



madness? mabe.

laughing from deep down my heart? perhaps.

love sweet endings? DEFINITELY. =)



and carmel's back from melbourne! yes we're gonna meet her tmr.. so happy! bet she grew much prettier with the wonderful weather in aust.. yep! i cant wait!



okie.. currently stink. and have a extremely full bladder piercing with pain.. [pai seh la! too excited bout the show..]

so what shld i do now? BATHE LA! okie okie.. here i come! eh.. i need to pangsai too..

pri skool mates! i'm late as usual..1230 became 1250 =X sorry. slept late. thus. unable to wake up. lol.

well.. its been a long time.. lots to talk about. ate the same chicken cutlet at far east as we usually do.. yup. nice and cheap.

den we walk around everywhere.. talkin.. eatin some snacks on the way.. den we decided to watch bridget jones 2.. it was 330 den.. and movie starts at 510.. thus we went down to yoshinoya and talk talk talk till it was time.. just so much to talk about la.



the show.. it was rather funny.. tho some parts were a little boring.

love stories..

most of the time.

sweet endings.

but bitter at times.

we cant avoid it.

its part and parcel of being in a relationship..

unless people choose to be leading happy single lives.

miss the feeling of loving someone..but actually dunt remember how it feels.. even forgot all the horrible things and unhappy times.. mabe i chose to forget. i tink i did.

things are just as stone as it is. boulder perhaps. time continues ticking..life goes on. sad or happy. its up to us to decide..and be determined about it.

OK! back to topic.. drifting abit far. i watched bridget jones diary 1 like two years ago? so i cant rmb the story.. gettin kinda lost. haha. but i still like it on the whole..



den.. when about ta go home.. i realised my ezlink card was lost. =[ so we went back yoshi to ask.. dey said no. went to cinema. dey said movie already showin.. so if i want to find it.. its like at 925pm? so i left my contacts dere..please call back and tell me its dere.. bOoOo..



thanks to my frens too. both of dem supposed to go ta their grandma hse. but late becos of me..told dem to go first. but they insist on helpin me.. really. thanks. i'm so sorry.



i hate losing things.. its like the feeling. at one moment its wif u. the nx. its like u're never gonna see it again. den it like.. i'm all lost. i dun have my ezlink. how do i get home.. i noe.. there's the card from the machine for mrt and coins for buses.. but it aint the same. u get wad i mean?

it aint the card dat has been wif me for bout 4 years now.

it aint the card in the plastic holder that has been used millions of times.

it aint the card that has a few hundred mcdonalds points.

it aint the card wif your hilarious primary skool photo dat has the constipated face.

it aint the card.



den once again i'm left all alone. frens off to their gramps. and its time to go home. i stoned all the way home.. just thinking. and thinking.. someone please find my card and be nice to return it to me? becos i'm gonna cry soon. u can finish out the fare inside..watever. but please return it after u finish using it? =[



now i'm on a binge. its like the chinese meaning of "jie jiu siao chou" just that the "jiu" is replaced by food.. bote $2 of fried beehoon and a HUGE fishcake.. 2 cookies and one brownie from mrs fields.. CRIES.



i'm not mad.. perhaps just a little too emotional..why do i have to think of you every moment even after 7+ months have past. and why dun i feel happy from the bottom of my heart.

this can be a happy night for anyone living in this world. but its my own perspective that the dim lights from the lamp posts along the path to my house has casted long lonely shadows of me.

met kerr.. took train to queenstown.. she couldn't find her shoe. =[ hope her coach can get her a cheap comfortable one.



kerr has netball trainings.. i want to have trainings too.. i miss sports.. really.. tho i dun wan bball again.. i wld like to try either hockey or touch rugby.. other than dat, i'm definitely joining odac. hmmm.. gotta join two ccas cos odac like no achievements one? den how i use cca to go university? dat time went meridian jc open house.. dey allowed me to play floorball.. but still like not very recognised.. as in dun really have proper training.. only RJ have? but i cannot go in? so floorball not in my list. hockey is about the same.. so i like. VJ hockey is number one.. if i ever get in.. den i'll forget about odac.. which is also sad! odac!! duno.. i'll see.



want ta do so many things.. gonna climb the rock wall at yishun safra soon.. i got a cert k! certified to climb. lol..

hoping to try wakeboarding.. but lobang chibabom.. cos dat guy had his leg burnt cos the motor exploded or somethin? =\ hope he's ok.

den prolly going to wild wild wet on trina's bday.. heard its small.. but just go see see la. haha.

suppose to go canoeing.. but nobody called me up yet.. chicken!



went ikea.. haha.. me and my fetish bout boxes.. haha.. inheritance from my dad.. mum always scold why we buy so many box.. but aiyo.. very nice la.. just wana own dem.



bote the christmasy metal round one wif one inside the other. 3 for $9.90.

the plain metal rectangle one for putting letters for $8.. cos i want dem to be well protected.

a nice long bottle for my stars..only $2.90 =)



yes.. ping is happy today.. cos the stuff are rather cheap. and i pressed my pin no again. lol. =X



dad says we'll buy the com after he comes back from malaysia prolly nx weekend.. boOoOo..

cant really play games on this com cos its so lag..



tmr gonna meet my pri skool frens.. i'm gonna look so small among them again.. even tho i grew a few cm.. =[ short just makes me think of something so sad. its not my fault i'm born short.. my parents are short.. my sisters are short.. tall people are just plain mean. humpf.



oh wells.. look to the bright side.. i miss dem.

Girl: Slow down. Im scared.

Guy: No this is fun.

Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!

Guy: Then tell me you love me.

Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!

Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.

*Girl hugs him*

Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.



(In the paper the next day):A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. 2 people were on it, but only 1 survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.



If there's anyone you love this much, re-post this into your journal. if only there's someone to love this much.. i would.

hmmmm... most jobs want full timer.. if not all post taken.. we're late by a few steps.. well.. got job as promoter tho.. still considering.. tink i dun wan.. workin hours bout 9h.. den.. aiyo. lidat cannot go out already.. cannot cannot.. i dunwan. i wan slack and town and sport. lol..



well.. things i wana buy.. guess gota rely on parents till after A levels.. lol.. thinking far already. nvm.. i wait.. wait.. shall be super ku ku kampong ger with no gadgets now. haha.. wait for inventors to invent like a superpowerful multi purpose gadget..

like how many many mega pixels cam

mp3 wif many many giga

voice recorder

video recording

radio

bluetooth

external memory card

super super nice.. black is good.

no matter how ex.. by then shld have save up money to buy le ba. haha.

hopefully i want to get my new com today.. gota call dad later to see if he free..



ok..decide.. no jobs for me unless its a day or two like usherer.. mabe to sesame street.. but PANGSAI! i duno which number on the telephone book to call..



boOoOoooOoooooOooOoooo.. so wu shuo shi si.. nvm.. shall pack my stuff... throw rubbish. recycle recyclables. send stuff to salvation army. sell books for money. please hor ppl.. dun throw stuff dat can be recycled ok? haha.. i already recycled 14kgs of worksheet. =) and got $1.40 in return. pathetic. lol.. but at least got money.



alemak.. kerr just called to go out. goin buy fbt if got time. yesterday still wearing 10cm hole pants..haha.. ok. guess i shall do my packing another day..



AND I'M SO HAPPY! cos my thousand piece puzzle is about half or more done..did so much yesterday. left the boy,part of the girl face and the all BLACK parts. [dieeeee]. den after still got 2 more thousand piece and a packet of straws. haha.. no time for job la. i be housewife.. eh. no husband. i be housepig. ok.



die. talkin to myself again. like dat song dat goes..

man i just turned my life upside down.. lol! i had a coma from 840am to 545pm.. wad a pigg.. C= cant stand myself.

den i woke up.. pack my precious drawer.. dats wad i used to call it.. cos alot of nice things i buy since young inside..

pack pack.. den saw the small small notebook with all the sms messages i copied from my 8310.. all the memories and promises came floodin back.. but. numb. just stared at it..dun wana tink. den transferred it to the precious moments box with all the folded stuff, my personal 03 calendar and seeds den i put it high high in some other cupboard.. bye bye.miss u so much la.



read this.

when sylvester gets eliminated..

who wld be the happiest?

certainly not u or me..

Taufik?

Nah..

of cos its TWEETY bird.. hahas.. =)



cute la.. very cute msg from someone.



something else super funny.. haha.. me and kerr talkin on phone before i came online.. we were talkin bout jobs.. lol.. imagine we have to shout lay long lay long to sell toys? scary..

haha.. den talk bout garang guni..

den i said.. haha! wonder if garang guni have a headquarter where they teach them how to sing. becos i was wondering why all garang guni sounds the same.. "laydio..teevee..pou zhua..something something" i duno how it goes la! den got the "pa poo pa poo".. haha..true wad! why all of them sound the same.. not creative.. sure got headquarters..



heh.. and i tink my legs are slimmer. cos the muscles become fats.. den i tink the fats duno go where.. lol! pangsai face..



okie.. go play game now..

must go learn warcraft if i have time.. lol.. i shall conquer all!! [u wish]

suddenly just feel like coming here to irritate people..



wo gang cai hai POOOT le yi sheng



anybody watched that advertisement before? the little girl with a tummy ache? haha.

i'm back! the terminator ping. =) - goofy smile. ok. i'm a little mad..

first! i gotta apologise sooooo long nv update.. even after O's.. cos of my lao kok kok com.. heng gona get new one soon.

i am wowed at where i am now. well.. cant believe i got thru O's.. will miss all the mugging times with my peng yous tho.. hmmm.. everybody will do well right? yes we will. =)



okie.. lotsa stuff to update.. after O on the 19 nov 2004 at about 7pm. we were at suntec having pizza hut for dinner! man.. the food was not enough! but at least its celebration..



nx day. shopping... actually i spent almost whole of last week shopping. town town town again? lol. bote many many things at the press of the pin number.. =X mummy gonna kill me. heh.. but dey din! only tease me.



wonderful wonderful.. now my frens got purple(es), blue(mere) , orange(ber) hair! din really see trina's one.. but i tink its red.. all is streaks.. nice.. shoe you got hidden streaked light brown hair.. very cleverly masked.. lol.. shall go try one day.. and cannot let mama find out!



mama saw my 2nd ear hole and say say abit but den after.. dun care le. lol.. heng she still haven see my... i tink she'll kill me. =X



oh ya.. i learnt to play pool too! haha.. but my hands too tiny to form that stupid bridge thing to stablize the stick.. but somehow den. i form a tiny bridge for the darn stick the rest upon.. fun fun fun! at least i can hit the ball and not mis-aim. lol. gona play more.. =D



26 nov 2004 is shoe you the fly bday! plus our prom nite.. everybody is gorgeous gorgeous!! mama.. some i have to stare quite long den realise who they were.. REALLY MAN! everybody was so CHIO... it was kinda my second third time in make up. first was my kindergarden play. den the ndp dance. den now.. done by the night before learn how to make up JLOW! yet so professional. she's GOOD man.

haha.. den the 7 of us squeeze into aunty audrey's car from my hse to skool.. thanks aunty audrey!

wonderful night.. haha.. shall go clubbing in high heels nx time.. we dance like so mad people in our own berlin circle.. HILARIOUS.. even got beyonce walk.. best man we..



on monday i collected my contacts for one eye.. so funny. cos i only pay half price.. only wear contacts for one eye.. cos i'm special.. -[pukes].. I AM K! but i scared! i still duno how to wear.. lol! everytime it goes in is tyco one.. like.. i'll be like.."aye?" its in? blink blink.. HAHA! its dere.. okie dokie.. now i realise how scary contacts are.. wad if it gets lost.. ahHhh! LaSiK..

oh ya.. talkin bout lasik.. seahorse hui's parents shared the lasik! so sweet rite? each one of dem lasik one eye.. den the other eye.. dey shared a pair of contacts again.. cos save money.. so cute.. -smiles.. i love happy couples/families... dey produce happy nice people like hui the seahorse!



btw. my name now is mummy poko pants pablvo pingy pong pig pangsai aka david yeo but not anymore.. haha.. cheezy smile.. dat day in same lift in cine wif david yeo and beverly. lol.. den wana luff.. cos his twin.. me! is in the lift.. however at dat pt of time.. his twin dun look like him anymore. lol.. muahaha.. glad i cut my hair man..



happy a girl i may be. sometimes i fall.. but i spring back up! cos i installed a spring at my butt.. =) it'll grow stonger each day.. i help kerr install also.. so.. i'll still be up up up! NO PROBLEM! ok ok ok la. ok ok la.. does anyone remember the mr OK on channel 8? i doubt so.. stay POSITIVE! but i dun wan to attract negative ley. ok.. den i stay North ok.. den cute guys will all be south.. =) yes! the power is in my hands..



oh no.. haha.. TOO MUCH PRATA.. PRATA MANIA! LOVELY de food.. oH so lovely.. haha.. lovely sugar.. curry.. even the flour taste so wanderfool.. had CHEESE prata today.. nice nice.. berRri gOood.. and i bote strepsils the whole box for $2.70! 7-11 sell so ex.. heng i din buy e other time.. extra strong flavour also lovely de sio.

-i cham cham indian and japanese slang.. too bad u guys cannot hear me talkin to myself while typing.. haha..



okie.. dats enough crap huh? LOVELY DE SIO! mummy poko pants..



OH! talkin bout tv.. "HiEeeEeEe!" haha.. pck maid! she's so pretty!! the downtown girl.. cannot stand it.. she's like the "double ok" video cam ad girl.. all the pretty pretty people! i cannot stand it de! i will keep screaming at the tv until my family say i siao.. tell me go work in kindergarten.. i dun mind! so cute!!..

haha.. shall be my new irritate ppl method.. "hiEeeEee!"

okie.. time to say.. "biEeeEee!"