Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut, doesn't have a swelled head, doesn't force itself on others, isn't always "me first."

- 1 Corinthians 13:4-5, THE MESSAGE

pingy

dear God I must confess
that sometimes You seem far away
sometimes i forget about
how i stand because of grace

but Lord there's been a change in me
a change i hope will stay
for this is my prayer today

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安静会吵醒旧的事情

quietness may rake up the past

悲伤一步步正逼近

step by step pain draws near

耳边又响起 我爱你

ringing in my ear again 'i love u'

那么清晰 那么锐利

so clear so real



翻箱倒柜 试图忙一点

ramaging boxes and cupboards tryin to be a little busier

想赶走思念

thinkin of driving away the memories

汗水泪水原来一样咸

sweat and tears are actually as salty

像对错最后难以分辨

in the end who's right or wrong is difficult to decifer



说好了 痛苦一人一半

it was said. the pain will be divided equally

转身各自解散

turn our backs and we'll disappear individually

我左边肩膀上的天堂

the heaven on my shoulder

仍是你专属的游乐场 (再不是你想来的地方)

is still the playground you can turn to (the place u wld never want to come again)



说好了 甜蜜一人一半

it was said. the sweetness will be divided equally

让分手不那么酸

so that the breakup will not be so sour

我帮你装上一双翅膀

helping u fix a pair of wings

却用回忆把自己捆绑

i tied myself down with memories instead



失去的原因 没有道理

the reason for the lost does not make sense

我常和自己吵不停

i often quarrel with myself

再多的书籍劝不醒

no amount of books will wake me up

分而不离 离而不弃

breaking and not leaving leaving and not letting go



爱像底片

love is like the negatives of a film

曝光后毁灭

destroyed after exposed to light

抓不住从前

unable to catch hold of the past

今天明天原来同一天

today tomorrow is actually the same day

因为日历撕不掉从前

becos the calendar can't tear away the memories



我不是你缺的那一半

i am not the other half u are missing

你却永远是我另一半

but u're always my other half



ou de yang de 'yi ren yi ban' .. i translated it myself. lousy english. but. haha.

yea. know i was supposed to have moved on. well i did. but its alrite to still have some memories rite? i mean. it'll never go away. i had a dream yesterday.. woke up in a daze. in e dream. he messaged me...asked if i cried. and he told me he was sad. instead of bein happy. i woke up sad. den i wondered. if he really still cared if i existed. i duno. its alrite to have such thots as long as i dun dwell on dem rite?



i duno. i'm back to bein a little fearful again. afraid to bump into him anywhere. i just duno how to react. and i dun want it wen his face has almost faded dat i have to see him again. den memories will all come back again.. it has haunted me enuf.. tho now and den i still smile at the happy times. i'm sorry. i just cant forget. i miss him? =[



well. dun worry. life is pretty back to normal. able to catch up wif the same old pace everyday now. i do not long for those days as badly anymore. tho sometimes a little. now. studies come first. sigh.. even sayin dat. i'm not really doin much work. very disappointed im myself. i duno how i become so slack. its terrible. i need someone to whack me.



life is boring. but fulfiling.. i understand e true meaning of it all now. i've been to many more places now as an individual compared to bein wif him. i learn to love the people around me. not just him(in e past)... i learnt it all. i have so much time for my frens and families now. dey are whom who care for u. who loves u. and will be there for your lifetime. if u lose your frens now becos of a boyfren. and one day your boyfren leaves u. u are left with no one. and a broken heart. i really regret neglecting my frens becos of him. i'm really sorry. i love u guys so much. thanks for always bein dere for me. =)



now is studies. and studies. yes. i must drill dat in my head. we're gona beat dat skool! dey are just one rank in front of us. we'll win them. we will! yes. if i start studyin now. so gOoO! haha.. gettin my chinese O's results tmr. scary. i dun want to cry. i dun want to retake. i dun want. i only want an A.. =\ i pray... and everyone too. get an A.. okie!



everybody! i love u. thanks for makin my life. =)

after letting go. forgiving. believing. its actually not hard to be happy. well. i've been happy for e longest period continuous ever since last week or so. i no longer cry. but there are still times when i think and i get hurt. but at e end of it. u noe its over. and its no pt brooding. live ur live for e moment.



yes. like. study. do work. =[ two teachers have lectured us. and make us feel really bad. and i tink all teachers are unhappy with our class's attitude. we're still very playin. still not really down to work yet. i duno why lidat. sec4s. dey are really disappointed in us. and i'm disappointed in myself too. i sleep too much. do work too slow. come on. buck up.



suffer awhile now. so wad if its no life like going home to study and do work everyday. all is worth it for my future happiness yes? if i play and be happy now. my future wun be as brite rite?



nx week gettin back chinese O's le. i very scared. if i get B3 i will cry? i really put in alot of effort. and i dun want ta waste time retaking it again. i pray. i pray. dat everyone will at least get an A.



come on. push me harder. stress me out. i'm gettin serious. i wana strive for e As. its all worth it. and. i love every single one of u who brighten up my days. thanks. =)