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So defn. for some reason our internet has decided to not work. Of course the people at AT&T have NO IDEA what is wrong and can't send anyone to the house until tomorrow. So my internet usage will be at a minimum until this gets fixed. Seeing as I don't have class after tonight, if they don't get it fixed until tomorrow (or later) you won't be hearing from me. So fear not, Im not ignoring you sweet readers, just dicking around with AT&T.

Had my oral surgery, it was terrible, and Im in a great deal of pain...BUT there is always hydrocodone APAP..otherwise known as Vico.din which is helping me make it through the day.

That is all my news for now except that, oh yeah, I might have a cyst on my left ovary*. Congratulations to me.



* Every fear I've had about not being able to conceive my own biological children is now playing like a bad movie in my head on REPEAT

The WORST

Today was, pretty much, the worst day I've had in a LOOOONG time. I don't want to go into details right now because just thinking about it makes me have bile in my stomach and I've had a "I feel the need to vomit" feeling all day long...well since 11:00am. I just keep replaying what happened over and over in my head and I can't seem to make it stop. Everything is fine w/Evan and I. It was, as always, a preschool thing. I want to quit that job SO bad, but I can't. I love the kids (especially Moo), the pay is better then I'll get anywhere else until I get my degree and no other place (I don't think) is going to work w/my school and externship schedule like this job does. But the stress is making me sick, literally. The gossiping is horrible!! Sometimes, like today, I just want to quit and I want to be done and NEVER go back. I also have the other half of my oral surgery tomorrow and since I have this bile in my stomach, I can't sleep. I didn't think I was going to have to take the Vali.um but I think I will just to get some sleep. Maybe I'll tell you all about what happened later, but for now, Im gonna try for some sleep. I'll be out of comission til late Wednesday night...And Im going to try and not let a week go between postings..

Genevieve Elaine

Today would have been my sweet Genevieve's 5th Birthday. I sometimes wonder what she would look like, if she would have the same habits as me, if she would have my eyes, if she would have blonde hair or red hair, if she would be short or tall, how smart she would be, how much she would know, how much she would talk. If she would be a smart-eleck like me, if she would like the color purple. I really, REALLY miss her. I would have loved the chance to get to see her grow up. I know everything happens for a reason, but I would have made a really good mamma to her. Happy Birthday my sweet girl.

Why am I still awake?

So tell me why Im watching the Miss Universe pageant & Miss USA FELL again, just like last year!! LOL! WTF? I think she was probably thinking too hard about nto falling like her predecessor and ended up doing it anyway. Why am I even watching this? Ahh who knows.

Anyway, sorry for the lack of updates. Im just boring and busy. In 2 days, it will be Genevieve's due date. She would have been 5 this year. It always gets me that day..Im just kind of sad. So this week my parents are gone again, church camp, and we all know how I struggle to sleep. So on Tuesday Viv's EDD, Moo-Moo is coming over to stay for the night. I think that will help me with that being her b-day. Anyway, thats all for now.

I don't know

Sometimes..Im just shocked by how insensitive, rude etc people can be.

Let me just give you the short story w/o all the details because the more times I retell it the more bodily harm sounds like the way to go. Evan's dad has decided he is not paying for ANY part of his share of the wedding costs including, the alcohol at the reception (which just LAST WEEK, he said he would be paying) and the rehearsal dinner. The deposit has already been made by Evan's mother and cannot be refunded. We aren't even sure if we can get out of having the dinner there or if we are locked in. At the same time, he felt it necessary to make asinine comments about my parents because they have managed their money well and are doing the rigth thing, and he has chosen to be a dickweed about his money and spend it all on his new wife who basically DEMANDS diamonds all the time and for no reason. Not to mention, she has him on a choke and Evan told me he could hear her in the background of their phone conversation telling him what to say. Linds & E both have told me he was NOT like this before he met & married her. So now, we get to pay for it. And his dad needs to know that actions have consequences & his are coming. Thats all for now. My everything hurts and it's time for bed.

Let me just add..

That taking a nap, no having the prescription strength decongestant knock you out, at 7pm knock you out so that you sleep until 9:30pm makes it really ROUGH to try and tell your body to go back to sleep at 10pm, which is why at 10:57pm, Im still awake. Neat-o. Also, an "aside" the move "300" is AMAZING and filled w/super hot, buff guys and I've been obsessively watching it and want to name my first born son, Leonidas (Leo, for short, seriously.)

Ooops you left a little drama over here

Drama, drama everywhere. A certain person at PS 1250 is causing WAAAAY too much drama, and before she knows it, it will be back, with a vengeance, to bite her on her huge ass. I hate drama as much as I hate gum in my hair, I never was a girl to like drama and I don't like it when people feel the need to start rumors and gossip about me and then LIE, boldly, to my face, when they are confronted with their bad behavior. You'd think, as a 50 year old woman, she'd be mature past that point, but defn. not. And she wonders why people are rude to her and don't want to be around her. Not to mention, dispensing medical assvice when you aren't a medical PROFESSIONAL in any way, is dumb, not to mention, can make you libel if some part of your "advice" is wrong.

Sickness is also everywhere. I went to the doctor today and have bronchitis (what a surprise) and a URTI*. So Im on a really strong antibiotic and some cough medicine. She also gave me something for the phenomenal cramps that accompany my pe.riod and something to help me get some more restful sleep. Yahoo. I caught her on a good day. A LOT of the kids at PS have colds/flu/sinus issues/allergies/tonsillitis and the parents STILL send them to school. Please stop this. I know people have to work, but this is how us teachers, and the other kids get sick. There's one little girl who has been SO sick, and she is seeing an ENT on Thursday and most likely will have to have a tonsillectomy, and the parents came and ask me about it today..Yay! I can use my medical knowledge* Im dreading having to go to class tomorrow, but at least I get off at 12, so I can take a nap before class. The decongestant I was prescribed is STRONG.

Anyway, thats enough for now and good grief, did I use the CAPS BUTTON ENOUGH!?


*URTI: Upper Respritory Tract Infection
* I, in no way dispensed medical assvice, I just explained maybe what the ENT will talk about and what a tonsillectomy entails, just in case you were wondering

Just a few things

1. We did urine PG tests in Clin 2 Lab today & Miss Candi is NOT pregnant!! YAY!!! (Neither am I for those that were wondering, but we knew that)

2. I am sick...again. I haven't been for awhile..but anyway..I thought it was just an allergy thing, and a few teachers at PS 1250 have been coming to work w/stuffy noses/sore throats etc. and so I was feeling stuffy on Friday, and it has just gotten progressively worse since then. Now I have a 100.5 degree fever and the mucus has changed colors (which is a sign of infection.) I have doctors appointment tomorrow in which I need an antibiotic because I CANNOT miss class this quarter and some pain pills for the cramps Im hoping to get next week (and not because I love my pe.riod but because that was I'll know my body can do a menstrual all on it's own.)

3. 3 of the 4 BM dresses are in and they are GORGEOUS!!! Angel & I went to the store to see hers and pick out tuxes (w/Evan) and she looked so pretty. The colors turned out fantastic and the tuxes match beautifully.





I believe that to be all for now. Im tired and can barely breathe through my nose.

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"Freedom has it's life in the hearts, the actions, the spirit of men and so it must be daily earned and refreshed-else cut like flower from it's life-giving roots, it will wither and die." Dwight D. Eisenhower

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

It's my momma's birthday..and since I can't celebrate with her (she's in Canada this week) Im sending her a little shout-out from my blog. I love, love, LOVE you!!! Have a fantastic day!!