handwritten cards

i chanced upon one of the many cards that yokies wrote to me when we first became shepherd and sheep. it was a simple card saying thank you for listening to her. i recalled the days when we talked till dawn. i smiled. i know you're reading this ^^ be good ya?

i then came across livi's cards. her lovely handwriting and heartfelt words reminded me of my di days and how much i still enjoy listening to her (though most of the time im talking and she's listening) and that "wise" nod with closed eyes always made me feel better after accounting something terrible -_- oops hehehe

then it was meihwa's messy but stylo handwritten card. we're somehow very similar yet uniquely different. and i know that the cards she wrote, are never one of those last min postcard kind but those that she thought hard and thorough about what should be penned instead. and i appreciate that.

then i saw joN's. i have to admit this, she's one of the few who actually made me cry while chatting over msn. i do think of her regularly and often wonder did she ever think of me too (did you joN? did you huh?! whahaha kidding... BUT you better i tell you... =p). i still share the same heartbeat as yours.

and then came pearline's cards - with one sent all the way from down under. but honestly speaking, the best one she's sent was the msn msg during my 21st bday. i dont think we'll ever EVER forget that.

and then it was jane and shelby... let's start with jane. from her cards, its those it'syourbdaysoihavenochoicebuttowritethemkind. whahahah~ her cards are few and they speak a lot and somehow it'll always end up with the same verse acts 20:24. which i suspect that's the only verse she know =p and then's it's shelby. with one letter, she wins all with the frank words she penned down =)

oh. and those cards! from babyeee mice. im ashamed to even mention this la... she never fail to send me a bday card ever since some donkey years ago and i've yet to send her more than 5. our friendship like what she describe as 2 eyes that never see each other but know that we'll always be there. awww... =p

lastly. cards from my sister bon. every year while she was studying in britain, she'll send me 1 bday card and 1 xmas card. without fail she'll encourage and spur me on. now she's beside my room and she'll never fail to nag and heh give me bible studies on saturday night. cool huh~

many came but few have impacted me in my tertiary days. but honestly speaking, if i didnt join Hope, i wouldnt have know so many people and get to know such great people.

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my sister fiona.

warning, this will be a very lengthy entry.

last night my second sister came prancing into our room and said "how come you never sms me happy birthday? yvonne smsed me. you leh?" i got out of bed, stretched my arm and said, "happy birthday" and was about to lie face down in order to ignore her and pretend that im dead so she wouldnt harass me anymore.

she grinned and before i know, it's a "iknowit'smidnightandicantellfrom
yourbloodshoteyeshowtiredyouarebutidontreallygivecarebecauseit'smybirthdayandi
wannatellyouwhathappenedjustnoweventhoughyou'reignoringmebypretendingtobedead" conversation that will sure last a long long time. oh boy, how's that for giving my sister 'face' just because it's her birthday. i'll probably strangle her if we didnt share the same parents.

so i sat up and she sat down. she took out a new phone and said, "see my new phone!" yeah i can tell its a new phone but honestly they all look the same to me. then she said, "and my new agnes b phone strap!" ok hoorays and congrats agnes b who've just earn some moolah from brand conscious pinheads. now i can sleep. (look, all those "" are really spoken and if you notice, i didnt really speak much)

and then she took out this lil box which obviously as a girl i know what that familiar lil box contains. a rock on a ring. i widen my eyes, wore my glasses and took a good look at that rock. i laughed and said "bluff one la where got so big one"

it's the size of a green pea and it's from an admirer who prob should donate the money to the SPCA instead or just save up and buy a bigger something =p. on second thoughts, how come i dont receive anything like that? muahahahaha

cut the story short, she told me that she's returning it back to the admirer and yep, i thought that was the end and it's really time to just plonk back to my pillow and say sweet dreams.

O no. she's very persistant like how she is with getting discounts and making sure that her rally driver skills are constantly on par with schumacher/alonso. she kept asking me to taste her birthday cake from canele and kept on repeating that it's a chocolate gateau cake and it's from canele and its a chocolate gateau cake and its from... yeah you get the pic.

ok ok. i got up and said i'll try a little (all these acts of obedience in hope that i'll get to bed soon but NO i failed!!) she then dragged me to tell me about where she went for her birthday and show me some pics (all these at 1am) and then her phone rang which means she'll leave me alone! hooray there is a God afterall!!! now i can really sleep.

her friend bought her something and want her to go down to collect and yadayayada... zzz and she was gone from my room and my house! hallejulah! BUT! she came back 15 mins later, crashed into my room and started her,"iknowyou'rereallytiredbutthiswillbethelastharassment
you'lleverreceivefrommeever.ipromise." yeah right. as if.

she started her where she was for the past 15 mins story and what happened there... ok again, cut the story short, she came back with many slices of cheesecakes and that was the surprise she got. ooohkays. as quick as she was doing an appearing act, she disappeared as fast she appeared. i was then finally granted a night sleep with no sudden disturbance.

moral of the story:

never ever entertain a birthday gal/boy during their birthday night. esp my sister fiona. but then again, maybe because she hit the big 3 so probably she's venting her hidden frustrations on me because she's now 20 years closer to being half a centry old. and i'm 7 years closer to 30.

ps, as much as i 'lament' on my terrible night, i still love my sister very much ^^

pics up soon!

:: happy birthday na! ::

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that my dear, is a cake.

i'm embarking on a new journey.

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ok. i just got onto the facebook wagon. after 15 mins of nonestop keying in the details of favourites, i decided to stop. vey tao tia.

i know merv cant wait to "pok" me and my sister cant wait to have an additon to her already massive growing list of facebookies. but nope, i shall take my time to fill out my profile list and learn how to deliver virtual cakes to my peeps. hey, at least it's free =p

dad's experiencing some heart pain. pray that it's nothing serious.

:: hey there delilah - plain white t's ::

i miss salted duck soup. the teochew style kind that my mum makes.

and that cabbage glutinous rice of hers too.

i miss her.

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feeling christmassy already

:: santa baby - eartha kitt ::

gah. there's one hundred and one things that i wanna blog about but i just dont know where to start.

one thing for sure. God did speak to me recently. after many stubborn attempts to siam His voice, i finally turned back and said, simi la... ok i was kidding on that one. on saturday's unit fishing trip, He let in a little word, perservere. it's weird though because i always think that im very capable of surviving/shouldering the biggest hurt, the nastiest word spit or the harshest scolding. the truth is, im not. who am i kidding man, if there's any prize for the biggest loser, prob i'll get it, with distinction hahaha. anyway, yep, i thought hard and thorough about the what's in my life recently, work, social life, family and most importantly, what do i really really want in my life - am i really able to perservere through it all?

im glad. really. and this perfect song sums up my feelings too ^^

i dont wanna go - avalon

You changed my world
when You came to me
You drove a passion
in my soul down deep
Lord, to follow You in everything

i don't want to go somewhere
if i know that You're not there
cause i know that me without You, is a lie
i don't want to walk that road
be a million miles from home
cause my heart needs to be
where You are, so I don't want to go

so come whatever,
i'll stick with You,
i'll walk, You lead me,
call me crazy or a fool
for forever i promise You that

without Your touch
without your love
filling me like an ocean,
for Your grace is enough
enough for me
to never want to go somewhere
if i know that Your not there

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during lunchbreak, daphne and i were gawking at a particular local A list model while she was grocery shopping. when she picked up a bittergourd, we went "ku gua!" and when she was done (we actually waited till she came out >.< ) we were gaping like 2 groupers. honestly speaking, she's a real fine thing to look at. really. toned legs, a very well proportioned body with a streamline silhouette and with that face of hers! no trace of make up at all. and the way she picked up and swing the basket spells fashionably cool. i could almost hear RuPaul's Sashay as the background music while she literally sashayed down the grocery lane. and before that we saw lum may yee. breathe takingly beautiful. no, we're not bian tais.

:: God is strength too! ^^ ::

no more.

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of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.

ode to cat's tongue

i love cat's tongue
they're crunchy and yet not rough
absolutely yummy i would say
so gimme 10 boxes anyday!
slightly salted and sweet
these tongues that i'll definitely eat!
so livi dear take my hint
and please pass me the recipe ^^

livi gave me a box of biscuits made by her grand aunt. it's called cat's tongue and it takes a shape of a well, cat's tongue and it's rather thin too. i wolfed them down without a hint of guilt because... so thin what, how much fat can there be? when i passed some to my colleague, she came for seconds, thirds, and somehow, within a day, only 1/3 of the biscuit was left. bad daphne. baaad. and yesterday, we bid goodbye to the last 2 pieces. gosh i need to take a moment...

:: gentleness ::

band members and girl guides
\(^0^)/

well apparently the "codfish" we ate at the hotel wasnt codfish afterall. it was oilfish. that hotel is banned from my list of foodie place from now on. whether they sell the best chix rice or not. 5 star hotel...

ah yes meimei~ i saw that on your blog ^^ thank yew!

:: 1 Cor 13:4::

alright, so i got tagged for the 6 weirdo stuff thingy. here goes~

rules: each player of the game starts off by writing 6 weird things about themselves before choosing another 6 of their friends to sabotage. people who get tagged needs to write in a blog on their own, 6 weird things about themselves and state the rules clearly.

1: i dont chew my nails, so i cut them when im ultra stressed.

2: i hate to be replied K. period.

3: i only started eating bananas 5 years ago. before that i think that they're the most disgusting squashy fruit.

4: i always wanted to be short, like 158cm. so that i could wear heels and still look small. height is not always an assest.

5: i cannot stand to be disturbed when im bathing, relieving myself and esp, when i'm reading the newspaper. i treasure these private moments for reflecting and learning A LOT. yes i reflect when im in the toilet.

6: i am uber pangtang about the condition of my facial skin. praise it and it'll grow pimples. DONT EVEN TRY OKAY. IM RISKING MY BEEAUUTEEFUULL SKIN AT THE EXPENSE OF ALL YOU WHO WANNA KNOW ABOUT MY 6 WEIRDO THINGY. btw, do not attempt to risk your life by trying to be funny and doing what you should not do. you will very well receive many blessings that are not meant to be.

next 6 peeps tagged are...
babyee, christopher, shuping, merv, junming and jon

prior to my previous entry, im fine, just going through some rough patch that needs to be prayed and fast over. nevertheless, thanks for the encouragements tagged ^^

went for my company's DnD on wed night. theme was back to school. many came looking like they've just stepped out of "hit me baby one more time" mtv. and as for daphne and i, coming from the creative department, we had to be original and so we went as girl guides! and i won the top 10 best dressed!!! pics soon ^^

and on thurs, i had diarrhoea. seek the doc on fri and apparently it's some intestine virus, which means, my food is not disgested well... i was soo afraid that it might be pancreatic cancer because the symptons i had was too similiar... bah i think i should change my name. germs is jinxed.

:: i have a very caring perd, cl and cg mates ^^ ::

i think i need a lil' bit of encouragement.

:: draw me close ::