i

am

such

a

lazy

bum.









o bummer.









my dressing sense is totally lup sup to the max. i wore jon's tee with my antique berms and that geeky glasses to work. to think im in charge of image. simi lai eh.

cmi. must change.

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broken yet patched.

your trash may be my treasure ^^

:: sock monkey and his friends ::

buying people gifts feels better than receiving them ^^

Acts 20:35 (the message)
... 'You're far happier giving than getting.'"

im bounded and chained by certain issues i cant let go of. i'm still learning a particular lesson that im half excited about yet finds it so hard to change. it's like a sin with clawing roots that hangs on to your every cell and to require one to pluck this sin out is like feeling the pain of your toenail extracted x n³². excruciating painful and long. and i realised that i cannot take hardship. i complain my butt off, i give up uber easily, and i rather walk away - defeated than face the music.. and that facade im constantly building, who am i bluffing?

but i still do hear God's voice calling out to me, to be strong for He is strong. to be the best, simply because He's the best, do not fear, for He's is here and lastly... to be real because He loves me for who i am.

:: amen ::

my sister taught me a small teeny eeny lesson while she treated me to crystal jade (my fav pweet²!!!) the moment my butt touches the chair, my mouth poured out countless complains about work. she interrupted me saying:"remember the verse i told you to memorise? say leh" so i did and i continued to complain. again she interuppted, saying, "remember the verse i told you to memorise? recite". this time, i understood where she was coming from. the rest of the dinner was a good. simple and sweet =) afterwhich she bought me some clothes. o, and lanterns too ha!

our relationship started way back in 2002. it's like love at first sight (cheesy i know but it's true okay~) i was searching for the one and he was there ^^ his physical appearance made me swoon. he's tanned and has rippling muscles on his fit fit bod. and he's sooo sweet! not forgetting, he's an absolute creamy dreamy hunk la! whenever i see him, i'll hold him with my hands and not let go until well, it's time to go home la. but somehow we didnt last too long together. so there i was, high and dry until a year later, he appeared and we got back again ^^ but this time its different. he suddenly vanished and no, i never saw him again. or so i thought.

i bumped into nutzi a couple of days ago. he disappeared for like 4 years and i was searching for him almost every week whenever i walk past that shop, hoping he might go back to work again. i cant blame him for that, many new faces emerge and somehow, he slowly become nonexistence. the competition is tough. he tried his best at sales but somehow it just doesnt match the rest. perhaps he needed a break. i was surprised to see him again. i smiled and i felt a smile coming from him too. we hung out together til i reached town. but this time, he's changed, he doesnt appear to have that lustre happy look he always have and somehow...he's not as creamy dreamy like i first met him 4 years ago. but it's ok because i believe he's been through a lot because competition can wear one out.

nonetheless, he's still my favourite loti from breaktalk.

:: river - joni mitchell ::

ay, like everyone, im gonna blog about anniversary, jump! and everything else ^^

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY HOPE SINGAPORE!!!

from the top row to bottom:

1st row: charlie, brian, daryl, jeremy

2nd row: jinqi, wyn, vanessa, ruiz, g

3rd row: candy, celine, ting², ziying

4th row: i forgotten hers... paiseh... shirli, ruiqi, jorris

i wanna thank my image team! simply for being faithful ^^ from reaching on time, 7am! to getting our hands dirtied. we all worked hard didnt we? seeing all the leng zai and leng mui after being made up is totally exciting. doing the best for the KOG and the best at what we're at is what we do \(^o^)/

i did learn a few lessons about image during anniversary. working with people is the hardest yet the most challenging. few days to the actual day, i actually fumed over words and my perd reminded me of a prayer that i've made about, wanting to be in a ministry which i can make full use of my strengths to expand the KOG. which means challenges are not discounted. not easy really. thinking back, if im in my old shell, i'll prob scratch and claw many eyes out.

jump concert was great!!! the smoke was even greater! so much that it covered most of the screen on stage hahahah~ anyway, i really have to salute the Bangkok band. they really know how to hype up the atmosphere! i really feel like im an energizer bunny minus the drums with the non stop jumping whenever the Bangkok band is leading (our band is just as good too ^^) btw will there be a 2nd jump!?

work - d&d coming up and our theme is back to sch... many aunties in the office are so excited about wearing pinafores and tartan skirts. o, plaits too - maybe it reminds them of their once youthful days =p

just a thought:

can one claims to be concern when one hears nothing from them?

:: spanish guitar ::

i have a wardobe. and it's filled with dresses. black, black and more black. and recently i started to steal shirts from my dad to wear. and jon too.

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okay dokies. the past month and first 2 weeks of this month has been and will be taken up by store set ups. meaning, the whole shop is empty until we fill it with our latest collection. meaning, we'll be at the store by 9am and leave at 10pm. meaning i have been slogging like a donkey once - twice everyweek. meaning by the time i reach home... zzz

and with church anniverary preparations coming up, weeeee! i like! all the buzz and fuss and mind boggling one hundred and one things to do ^^ i really do enjoy every moment of it. thank goodness there's Ziying to bao the admin side and Ruiz to bao the chapalang side.

sunday's sermon spoke about faith.

1) my faith must go beyond my words
2) my faith must go beyond my feelings
3) my faith must be lived out

and this:

B: BASIC
I: INSTRUCTIONS
B: BEFORE
L: LEAVING
E: EARTH

Romans 12:1-2

Therefore i urge you brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrific - holy and pleasing to God - this is true worship. Do not conform yourself to the patterns of this world but be renewed by the transforming of your mind. Then you'll be able to test and approve of what God's will is. His Good, Pleasing and Perfect Will.

:: amen! ::

the radio station played maniac monday by the bangles. why monday? why not everyday?

:: zzz ::

ok. i am convinced that i am a very unhealthy eater. because i've just seen the list of trans/saturated fats and most of my favourite food appears on it.

i must stop eating peanut butter neat.
i must stop eating milo powder neat too.
i must stop adding chocolate couvertures to my milo.
i must stop adding japanese mayonaise to everything i eat.
i must stop eating skin of any kind of poultry.
i must stop.

i waited 2 years for this opportunity. i dont know how but i really must thank ziying for helping and backing me up - as you know... she is def not a lady to be trifled with. hehehe lets do our best for this coming church anniversary ^^ ooo~ and xmas ss too!

Oh.

i must admit that i have a tendency to blank out/float away when given details of any kind of matter. and because of blanking out too often, my colleagues have given me an honorary and i must say, quite a regal nickname...

LONG PIAO PIAO

figuratively im here but im not really here. y'know? sia la... no good. must stop.

:: imuststopfloating x n ::