i cringed and nearly teared when i saw how these chinese resort to animal torture to earn extra money. i hope the carnivores will learn to open the bus doors and give these tourists a surprise.

WARNING. THIS IS REALLY NOT FOR THE FAINT HEARTED. IM SERIOUS.



i really wonder how God feels about animal abuse. i absolutely cannot tahan animal cruelty. i hope these people receives punishment. disembowelmention would be a good choice. evisceration too.

I SAY, BOYCOTT THE BEIJING OLYMPICS.

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i had to post these pics. all taken at taiwan.

(1) disyneyians. no limbs! and one outsider with a huge head...
(2) eh~ very familiar. msn emoticon
(3) valley of the pigs
(4) this is frighteningly scary. like rat carcasses. only in cute pink and blue.

=fav peanut choc waffle
=ally mcbeal season 2
=roland garros
=free mango
=hopekids
=ipod
=psp

wo hen hehppy you mei you~~~ banzai!

nice talk with the ah hwa last night. more communication - i'll pray you =) and i had a pretty open talk with my baa today. im glad ^^

but i think im most happy about the arrival of my new housekeeper, maria, her real name! sings *maria~ i've got to see her~* the song's by blondie, most recently heard from 200 pounds beauty.

Your Brain is Purple

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Brain?

hmm interesting... btw, what's purple in teochew?

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serving in Hope, there are times when duty calls for leading pnw. but God is gracious, not to me but to my cg =p. through out, there'll bound to be someone who can sing really well or play guitar pretty decently so that i dont have to torture the rest. no difference this time round. previously, my ex shep is a worship minister and my ex sheep are in choir and now, my current unit is made up of the ex wamers. i have meimei ^^ and esmond who can play the guitar, susi and livi who can sing and davyd who can do both i think. and my sheep can sing pretty well too =D very heng. but what if one day i want to go for mission trips and no one plays the guitar? someone has to do it right? so... well... okay im declaring in my blog that im gonna take up guitar from jon. omg. i hope i dont shoot myself in my foot this time. =x

2nd interview this tues.

:: everything - michael buble ::

take time

take time to think; it is the source of power.

take time to read; it is the foundation of wisdom.

take time to play; it is the secret of staying young.

take time to be quiet; it is the opportunity to seek God.

take time to be aware; it is the opportunity to help others.

take time to love and be loved; it is God's greatest gift.

take time to laugh; it is the music of the soul.

take time to be friendly; it is the road to happiness.

take time to dream; it is what the future is made of.

take time to pray;

for it is the greatest power on earth.

im going for an interview later. mixed emotions and all. but i know mr big is in charge =)

well... something to look forward to ^^ buffet dinner tonight!

:: summer samba (so nice) - bebel gilberto ::

"bygones"

with all due respect. i have an unjustified dislike for a particular person. uncalled for. redundant. bo liao. i really wonder why am i such a petty person. i could well be a bumbling chicken being a victim of my own choice. perhaps im fraught. well, than again, emotionally, im an idiot. and as much as i want to drip with sarcasm at her personal expense or choose to buffer all kinds of insults on her in this blog, i guess my friend is right. why waste my breathe getting all hyped up over a start up issue so... so... insignificant?

sometimes, i need a space to vent out my thoughts. and this is my blog.

but i do apologise for my hostility...

and such frank dialogue cum entry troubles me. i need to take a moment.

:: faithful in loving unlovely people too? ::

im packed this week.

mon: housework
tues: housework and cg
wed: housework and visitation!
thurs: housework and buffet dinner!
fri: housework and tamako dinner!

raoul and valentino visitation ^^

:: red red wine - ub40 ::

"being faithful in a relationship is a MUST, not a bonus" as told by na. y'know, these excuses are somewhat like, "i never do anything that let you down what" which equals to "but i never touch the illegal drugs what". pffft. i just find that the society nowadays doesnt really regard marriage as important or as a significant union that will last for a lifetime. i went -_- when a friend told me that if it doesnt work between couples, break lo, and if marriage doesnt work, divorce lo. his face was just itching for many slaps from the rest of us i tell you.

look at what mtv is showing, i do enjoy boiling points and punk'd but those music videos showing half naked people grinding and humping just saddens me. half of their derrière exposed and sometimes you even see little children hired to lip sync the lyrics and dance/act with them in that same manner. our future will be on the hands on people who either grow up on such junk or they choose the right path. they must be taught well. and we have a role to play too.

i just bought a box of combat ant killer. and i am really REALLY pleased to see ant carcasses all over the floor. yes i am thrilled. beyond happy. there was a quivering sense of satistfaction when i see the worker ants biting the bait, carrying the poison back to their colony, distributing the poison to every single one of them. and SOON, the whole entire clan will die.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i was telling my shepherd about talents that God give us, its true, when we're not faithful to excercise it, it'll be taken away. btw, sometimes it's not such a bad thing when the things we believe in, especially if its our plans etc that are taken away because usually, they reveal the true purpose that God wants for us at the end of the day. ^^

and one of my inspiration has got to be pastor jeff, because he cant sing, cant play any musical instruments and is tone deaf as well. BUT he's a great teacher. i begin to see hope...

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yeah! she's back!

for ally mcbeal fans only.

yeah! thanks to veron for ally mcbeal dvds. though yes, the topics are quite immoral but those courtroom dramas and hallucinations are so funny. i like "biscuit" the most. i think he's seriously the most sane among all. and as for fish and his fishism, its all about the "piles" and "wattle" - wt. and for the main character, ally, i can identify with some of her out of this world imagination at times. i heart this dramedy ^^

ozzie is not feeling well. breaks my heart to see him vomiting for the past week and not eating. gotta bring him to the vet tmr. he cried and he just stood there behind the sofa and stared at me with his sad eyes...

my dear sister bought 2 cakes from Canelé Pâtisserie Chocolaterie! her friend proclaimed," if the strawberry tart is not nice, i will pay you back the money". and yes the strawberry tart is darn delicious. and that dark choclate gateau is to die for la. seriously speaking, i went past their confectionary on sunday and boy was i in awed! i have never seen a cake covered in such a perfectly laid marzipan and in a shape of a beautifully decorated castle - where princess and prince charming deserve to live at with bling bling of moondust sprinkling the whole castle that kind okay. fine maybe i exaggerated a little but if Les Amis Group is the lao niang behind this, it has to be more than just good. perfecto!

pearls asked me what i received for my bday. hohohoh

ipod
psp
u2 cd
a gary larson
the screwtape letters
ang bao
ai xin decadent chocolate muffins
makan treats

im so blessed. but beyond these gifts, the one im most happy with are the wonderful quality time i spent with every single one of you, you and you =D but i still heart the gifts la!

:: the book of corinthians ::

omg. 23. says my nick. turning 23 was a quiet event. and i actually like that. perhaps im really getting old so i cannot havoc anymore =p i better blog about the past week before my short term memory rubs in.

i really cannot remember what happen on wed, thurs and fri. i am really getting old huh...

fast forward to saturday

attended my first ever Hope church wedding aka my cousin's wedding - beautiful =) everything deserves 2 thumbs up. the flow, food, venue and everything else. took many pics of "jet" which btw, jet's his real name not jack. reason being, older folks cant pronounce jeT so it evolve to jaCK. ha funny. i love church weddings. because it's build on God's truth and its so dreamy...

sunday

my caregroup lavishly treated me to lunch at soup restaurant. din tai fung was overcrowded but im glad we went to soup instead. poor livi was having some sort of food poisoning so all the food she initially digested, was regurgitated out in a clear plastic bag *view for all to see*. all dishes became some sort of a "5 in 1" creamy bak chor + veggie soup texture like liquid within 30 mins after the meal. she's much better now ^^ . went to meet 4 js, joN, joel, jon and justin for a late lunch =) enjoyed myself thoroughly. then its off to home for a bday dinner at havelock road's bak kut teh with my family.

monday

jon came over and prep dinner while i baked tiramisu. hurhurhur. should have taken a pic of the dishes he prepared but judging by the judges, i believed he scored a high 80%. babyee came over and presented me with my gift!!! love it! THANK YOU! lastly, my family gathered and we all blew the candle together. the night was ended with a nice convo with mr Big ^^

i really want to thank every single one of you who smsed me and showered me with gifts. from my family, my cg, to dians, to my classmates, my buddies and i even received one from aroon all the way from thailand! you're all a great bunch of people. every single one of you touched my life in a way or another. once again, thank you =)

more bday dinners coming up this week and next week! yeahoo! pics galore. enjoy.

btw, God is love.

yummy munchies!
jet
joshua & jet ah beng wannabe
everybody say "awww"
2 aunties "tao pok" the little boysnoop oz
snoop jon
22 hours sleepy head

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yay! double happiness!

(1) roland garros is starting on 28th may 2007!

(2) jon's coming back tonight!!!

:: \(^o^)/ ::

happy 19th birthday yokies!

my ex sheep. serving well in di ministry and God healed her by shrinking the blood clot in her brain to a small pea size after she went for the healing meet! \^^/ praise God!

saturday night at davyd's house. the 2 highlights was giving the bday boy, esmond a surprise and the second was having esmond and davyd belting out hokkien songs, singing in unison and frankly speaking, its a pity jack neo didnt recruit them in his liang jia ban gang, waste of talent i tell you. and i have to admit, that steamed chicken davyd cooked was really yummy and tender. whats with the guys in our church man. how come they're (a good majority of them) pretty good at housework, cooking and baking? whaaat, we hope girls have no hope meh?

went for my check up at ttsh this afternoon. but bad service nearly ruined my happy monday. haiyo, everyone is paid to work so do your work well la... otherwise we pay tax for what... anyway, admin mistake so doctor's fees was waved and instead of ttsh, i had to go back to sgh for my checkup. oh well, never mind, after the checkup, i went over to square2 for some korean rice balls. i tried some purple rice and multi grain rice. and both gave me the tummy ache and it claims its healthy because of the sugar/fat free rice but tasting the ingredients... very giam lo, msg laden..

btw, my cl wants me to blog this out in bold. i shall obliged her. hahaha

the lady who pledge to find a partner and she did, whom pastor ben was referring to, is not my cl nicole wong, as confirmed by jx. it is not her, i repeat. it is not nicole wong.

so funny =D

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lisa nowak drove 1,500km to assault her victim with pepper spray. a former trained nasa astronaut, and with her level of intelligence and accomplishments, she was caught wearing adult diapers so that she doesnt have to stop for any toilet breaks in between the journey - this shows how desperate she was to get her hands on the assumed rival of her lover's affection. she simply snapped. how can someone trained to remain controlled and level headed in life and death situations go berserk over a man? and i thought that brillant, outstanding women's EQ and IQ should be on par. right?

apparently no. effects from such manifestations of anger or uncontrolled emotions can lead to what you'd say, *i shouldnt have done that* or *what have i done?* consequences. i learnt this from a cool level headed person. she said,"digest first, then think, then speak." i quote this from the bible, james 1:19 my dear brothers, take note of this: everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry. in other word, from the word digested, i think when one calms down, positive brain cells are being awaken, rather than the negative ones which will presumely dissolve during cooling down period (thats why its good to digest well).

back to lisa, other women in her calibre who went cuckoo as well include a millionairess who hired a hitman when she was being cut out of a beneficiary will, a chief podiatrist who stabbed her husband's mistress 18 times when she discovered their affair and a higly educated professional who became obsessed with her ex by stalking, dropping very frequent visits to his office, threathening to kill herself and kicking up a huge ruckus when security tried to remove her.

so, when we look at superwomen aka high achievers, we assumed that they must be able to suck up pressure like a sponge in order to be where they are but we forgot that everyone has their own private kryptonite - fear of abandonment, dependent personality or perhaps a psychotic core thats veiled by an accomplished persona. a recent study shows, 84% of women have fantasised about killing someone, almost always a rival in love. but thats not so far fetched to say that we all have a latent time bomb... though its scary to think that way...

attended my first hopekids ss. ^^ next slot 27th may!

my own coined term of the holy trinity: cleanser, toner and moisturiser. but my favourite holy weapon has got to be an exfoliate scrub.

:: zzz ::

He healed me.

it was so bad that i nearly broke down. i prayed, but having a cynical mindset, i struggle with the issue of faith. i cant even move from my sitting position, least get up and walk to the kitchen. then came the thought of skipping cg. since im in such pain, it's okay that i can forfeit attending it. but faith reminded me through;

Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

it made me realise that the reason why i'm always falling ill is because im not faithful enough. not just on believing that He's the Lord and King of kings, but in almost everything i do. overtime, this grows on me until i mask it normal. and again, i gave myself many excuses that its normal. and thus i grow stagnant in my faith and walk with God. and hence i find myself shooting my own foot most of the time.

okay, back to that healing touch from God. almost immediately, the cramp that came from the delay of 2 months visitation was instantly removed. not only could i stand, i could walk. i could even washed the clothes and bring out the bamboo poles to dry the clothes. and in the end, i attended cg as well =) and boy did i benefit from the lesson. im glad i choose to develope that lil mustard seed size faith.

<^7^> ** Prawnkid ** http://prawnkid.blogspot.com says (3:08 AM):
Jesus loves the little children
<^7^> ** Prawnkid ** http://prawnkid.blogspot.com says (3:08 AM):
I always think it would be becoz the children will believe in watever He says or teaches like how I would listen and believe watever my Dad says

this brings back the fact about having a child like faith. this i want to grow in. thank you prawnkid for reminding me once again =)

i cried buckets today, with mixed emotions settling in. from the sense of guilt to overwhelming sadness to anger. i prayed again. i apologised for the many empty promises i gave to Him and for not loving Him enough (this came from elaine's prohesy about daily honouring Him) and for the many *i know i shouldnt do but yet i still do it mistakes*. i give myself so much leeway because everyone's doing it with that kind of mindset. in the end, i'm not only not standing apart from the rest of the world but im allowing myself to slowly dissolve into the world which initially im supposed to be different from, which is to be a light, a beacon to shine in the dark. i want to grow in this too =)

then comes the relationship between jon and me. under the scrutiny of many people, we didnt start off easy. some call it an underground rls. some view it negatively while some gave us their blessings. we both want to work together biblically, to honour God and to expand his kingdom. a relationship is all about getting to know each other and walking together, both having to walk in unison and of cos having Christ as the driver. the road that lies ahead is full of bumps and curves. acceptance as a whole is tough, and while having a benchmark yet wanting each other to reach that certain level is even tougher to accept when the opp party fails to do so. we're both learning and of cos we dont use this *we're learning as an excuse when we both fail* but we're trying our best. this paragraph is a heartfelt reminder to remind both of us that in Christ alone, things can be ironed out. and i thank God for you, jon lee.

:: you raise me up - josh groban ::

this is a very personalise entry of mine.

i feel like a soaked sponge.

lower torso's all heavy and achey. my head's spinning and the post effects of drowning the toilet bowl while draining the digested particles in my intestines is not over YET. and best, i had to have flu right now. every sneeze that comes out, i squirm. eeew.

women. what an interesting life we have.

and i have cg later!!! how?

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upon receiving the email from my lecturer, i promptly typed a reply and thank him. despite feeling a little disappointed, i sense that everything is still under God's control. im glad i have a big guy who always look after my every step and movement.

weather's been rather chilly lately. so drink more warm water and rest early people. health's important.

He raise me up.

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