the more i seek You - Christ for the Nations

the more i seek You
the more i find You

the more i find You
the more i love You

i wanna sit at Your feet
drink from the cup in Your hand
lay back against You and breathe
feel Your heartbeat

this love is so deep, its more that i can stand
i melt in Your peace, its overwhelming

:: gratefulness ::

i am an official member of NG8D2 ^^

pastor ben's sermon inspired me to give more to the church. both of us decided not to eat at cafe like places anymore instead, kopitiams or home cooked food shall fill our tummies until we fulfill our pledge.

wfl's good. elaine my new ul taught about how to be a beautiful woman in God's eyes. our worth is not determined by anyone but God. trying our best to be a Proverbs 31 woman is quite a mission impossible but dont fret, it's still possible. another note to add on. women dress up for different purposes, for sheer honest feel good reasons to dress for the occasion reasons. but visual men think otherwise, we do it for them la ar bo who... haiz i guess, the men don't get it. interestingly, our wfl homework; to ask our brothers what their ideal woman is. ha!

watching letters from iwo jima with 12 people is fun! we have shirls, livi, yaoguo, veron, roy, shuz, g, jon lee, gerald, hendra, joel, eugene & justin. the whole entire cinema was filled up except for our 2 empty rows in the middle. being late made me felt even more paiseh. movie tagline of the day,"do what is right". enjoyed the movie.

sheer madness. no sleep for 36 hours straight. studying in nafa is health hazardous.

do what is right. period.

:: draw me close - the katinas ::

it's a beautiful day ^^

:: o rejoice - hillsong ::

chungking express, 重庆森林

my fav scene...

tony leung aka cop 663 talking to a bar of used soap

"you lost a lot of weight."

"you used to be chubby."

"have some confidence in yourself."

taking a new bar of soap much later, cop 663 looked surprised and said

"how come you're so fat?!"

another fav art farty movie of mine. i think it's the best wong kar wai's film to date. perhaps hmv might have on sale ^^

surprised babyee with a bag of meiji goodies! went to mustafa to change some moolah, only to invite uncomfortable stares with the stack of notes in my hands. thank goodness i wasnt alone. the emergency ward at kk was quite busy, saw a couple of children with the fever pad thingy on their forehead, must be lny goodies, too heaty, causing fever and such. poor kiddos. finally jaime came out with all smiles and all, despite her third night shift ^^ happy hols in bangkok!

carefully planned surprise + a kway chap treat for pengyew = priceless expression. ha!

:: the gentleman who fell - milla jovovich ::

for your viewing pleasure. presenting... johnny and the kweks ^^

lets start from the top 4 squarish pics

1: johnny and his too small for his head beanie =p
2: johnny and sm lee. wax figure of the latter lah~ you'll get k by doing that to the real thing.
3: johnny (look super happy. kio tio!) and my mum's pretty!
4: mum and eldest sis yvonne =)

now for the 3 pics below
1: happy g
2: pfft. *middle child syndrome expression* (thats my second sis fiona)
3: g

and now... lets start commenting from the smaller pics first

1: toi simi?
2: pre fishmonger days
3: successful pai kia lookalike

moving on to the bigger pics

1: johnny and the ramones
2: at macritchie reservoir

johnny just left for bangkok and i'm already missing him. one of these days, im gonna bring him to red star for morning dim sum ^^ my treat of cos.

alrights, its crazy lah. now its 230am and im not sleepy yet. im too excited. wanna finish my catalogue projs. but before i start, its time to talk and pray to mr Big =)

:: sakura zuka - fukuyama masaharu ::

gong xi fa cai!

well spent chinese new year. with the fever phantom, flu bug and the phlegm man. eeew. typical day spent by visitations to pop and mum's side. second day was spent bowling with some of the twam guys because the rain just wouldnt stop, thus bball had to be forfeited... and i thought i could lose some lny's weight gain. played with all my nephews =) jack, joshua and justin. i still havent seen the newest member of the quek family - jeremiah quek. soon soon, pics up!

smsed my new cl mrs leong aka nic ^^ "happy new year mrs leong =) what time am i meeting you all for ss this sunday?" cant wait. im going for my first sunday ss! first sunday wfl! first prayer meet! (not so excited about the time though...) and my new cg and unit! my cousin and his fiancee are also in the same sub D as me! received an sms from a lady. called back and asked her, who is my perd? she replied, oh~ a very pretty lady... who else?! (and i thought my skin was thick enough...) o my... livi melinda =)

ps: to the 2 wise men
thanks for the invitation to kbox, but like you i cant sing very well, in fact im doing you all a favour by not going =p saving your ears you know... ha!

KFC is bad for health. period.

:: my back aches from carrying a heavy 70kg cow. heh heh ::

g n fiona

happy lunar new year!

mad shopping rush at vivocity with sis. treats at corduroy cafe and kim gary!!! the best bit of having a sister... she pays for everything!!! ok lah i did offer to buy her a ring but she refused... oh wells... but seriously speaking, i always treasure outings with my family members ^^

:: kueh lapis - my fav cny snack ::

babyee and g!

ace and jessia

di east girls
ah bi

g & p

my sheep! love her to bits la =)
" LAU TEK WHA"
mr sharapova and leafy
eons ago. ray, jon, jaime, g, joN, p and ben
ah bee

with charls and leafy
pretty joN
my fav cl mate... jingmin
teng neng =D

happy friendship day!

these people from church impacted my life somehow or another. there's my besties, ex perd, cg, sheeps and many more pig friend dog friend (zhu1 peng2 gou2 you3). many more pics but i cant seem to find them... part 2 coming up soon.

send me pics!!!

:: ::

post valentine's day entry.

before i start. i want to declare that womEn are a contradicting lot.

being given roses and elegantly wined and dined on V-day does nothing for me. plus its really stupid to pay all that much to have the same set meal as every other couple. worse, i have to sit through the whole thing and pretend im enjoying myself while wondering how to politely get rid of the flowers because my arms ache from carrying them around. not to mention... carrying a teddy bear around looking ridiculously like a toddler minus the sucking thumb.

thats not to say i dont want to celebrate V-day. i do. i want to remember the importance of setting aside a day for the precious thing that is love and how lucky i am to have it, in one or all in all forms. i want to take a look at my man and appreciate what he is to me. but flowers die and food get digested and erm, processed. but then again, love is not sustained by a one day declaration effort.

so i say, pooh! bah, humbug! to being winded and dined on V-day.

give me a foot massage when im tired. save that beach picnic for another unexpected evening. kiss me on fat, bad hair, acne prone days. exchange secret smiles with me when we meet undesirable company. be patient with me when i get into my bad tempered rants about you and the rest of the world. come to me when you feel down and in need of nourishment.

so on V-day, rebel with me and make it as good as any other day we spend together.

but then again, i think i'll NIAM NIAM CHAM if nothing is done on V-day.

prior to my second sentence. therefore i am one of the guilty ones. o bother~ womEn~

this is a totally random nonsense entry.

now for the real thing.

on valentines day 2007. i went to have my watches fixed. took a slow walk around toa payoh. received a couple of smses from babyee who will never ever sms saying, where you now... replied, on the way home. afterwhich, i had a fabulous dinner with mr johnny kwek ^^ while prep to get ready to settle down and start my proj, i received a call. surprise!!! that special someone totally caught me off guard. =D anyways, while we drank cyprina and ate choc waffles, babyee called.

b: where you now ah?
g: at home
b: ok. faster grab oscar, im outside your house now.
g: huh?!

gek hway~
poises and waffles from babyee!!!

ok back to proj. hee

:: banana pancakes - jack johnson ::

johnny!

catch of the day

\(^o^)/ thats g and aunt lulu

2kg = $98. winner~$40 per kg, high cholestrol and all. a must have for CNY

mad crowd at the fish market today. i was so exhausted by the time i finished selling at 12pm, i fell asleep on the living room floor when i reached home. received a freshly baked butter cake from a pretty customer ^^ while her husband stood beside her, acting cool...

last night's dinner conversation... (reword)

g: what is ghost rider about?
joN: oh its about this marvel comic character whose head turns into a flaming skull at night
g: oooh~ then if rain how?
joN: -_-'

i chanced upon a dictionary at a books bazzar - "the pooh dictionary". should have bought it, the words and their meanings are quite funny though some are quite true... reminds me of "the tao of pooh" and "the te of piglet" i read when i was young. interesting way of introducing taoism though.

christ centred, prayer, meditation, petitions and all. thats how it works. agreed.

o bother~ women, made of water, emotions and all. jingmin you're such a dear =)

:: stronger - delirious ::

YEAHOO!!!!! first thing i did. thank God!!! then i started to jump and hopped at 1234am from my room to the living room to my dad's room jumping for joy at the amusement of my pop. he only muttered "ok good for you" while preparing for jurong fish port. i bet my dad's secretly happy for me too. whahahaha~

the 3 bands that i really really would love to attend their concert would be queen, beyond and U2. freddie mercury passed on, so have kar wai, so...leaving U2 as a complete band... but then again, youtube is always around. was watching freddie mercury's 1992 tribute concert held at wembley's. when "radio gaga" was played, the sheer massive number of audience is sooo overwhelming, they kinda resemble moving dominos, the scene of the concert was jaw dropping... its quite interesting that "i want to break free" sung by lisa stansfield was relatively good compared to axl rose's bad rendition of "we will rock you" way baaad la. the concert featured brit acts singing cover versions of queen's songs and some singing their own songs. the brow raising point. zucherro came and sang, powerful vocals... and i thought he only sing ballads. but oh wells, visual aspect of the concert is so much better than the audio one. ah beyond's concert is just as good. but i still prefer past concerts when kar wai was around, the "gam gok" is undeniable... one of the best songwriters around in my opinion =) well... as for U2, if they ever decide to drop by singapore, i will def go.

anyways back to my first paragraph, i smsed people who knew. then plonk back to bed. woke up to replies from friends. one of those was from babyee *winks*. cant wait for another overnight =D

ps: both my arms ache from carrying oscar you know.

:: knocking on heaven's door - guns and roses ::

when was the first time you did something for the first time?

memories are def here to stay =)

i remember my mum buying a keroppi bag from people's park OG when i was 7 years old. i have that bag still =) i recall my dad smiling cheekily while posing with the wax figures of our senior minister (he stroked his head!) and dalai lama at madame tussauds (london). that skin tingling warm sunlight that kissed my face while bon and i strolled in hyde park. and na bringing me to her hairdresser where i had my first ever cropped mop (trying to follow g paltrow's sliding doors character).

the first time i answer back at my parents, the first time i ran away, the uncountable times i failed maths hahaha~ the memorable first time when i sneaked into my parent's room and steal some cash... my first pet dog,"bingo" and my first pet parakeet,"polo". and of cos, my first brush with my pets' death was unbearable. my first pay cheque after waiting on the tables, my mum smiling when i passed her a sum taken from my pay and my first pair of levis using my own money.

i remembered my first taste of alcohol in sec 2, my first entry into the club scene at 14 while trying to fool spark's bouncers just because of the height advantage (i got in lor~). plucked my brows for the first time at ang mo kio and of cos, my first crush, first kiss and first breakup.

the day lucy left.

and the day i accepted Christ.

my first ever attending polydi ss sitting beside mandy, jaslin, jasmine, shufen and joshuarine. my first shepherding with livi at OA bakery. my first time jumping to the praise, this is how we overcome. my first easter cg at citylink (we made eggshell musicians ^^). the very first time i broke out in tongues, my water baptism. the first and last time i ever touch the guitar. the first time i led games, holy comm, praise and worship and announcement. my first time changing of shepherd, my first farewell (i cried!), first time outreaching, sharing and my first sheep! first time teaching, and first time seeing my sheep backslided *heartache*. my sheep pen grew. my first time leading a cg and teaching sermon (1hr 30mins!) first time acting and directing, taking care of a ministry, then cried buckets when i had to email to ask for the dismissal of image. then stepping down, being a norm member again, all these, such strong memories =)

i too remember the people whom i had developed a strong friendship with over the years =) you are all very important to me you know.

about 2 more weeks and i'll be attending my first sunday service =)

:: ::

most of my phone conversations with joN makes my ears ache. from talking too long that is. ha! fight on joN, encouragement is what can help inch you further but God is still the source of motivation amen? =) jiayou joN, i believe in you. you'll achieve what is needed. see you in 5 years time ya? =D

last night's dinner with pearls, livi, jon and joel was enjoyable. though most of the time we kept the 2 botaks out of our abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz peppered conversation, they managed to entertain themselves pretty well. self sustain entertainment, must be something that the army teaches. anyways, the carbonara was good. i believe joel teared when he took his first bite, livi raised her brows and said,"this is gooood~" while i was melting the extra slab of butter into the noodles, pearls just kept quiet and ate silently, though the occasional gaffaw can be heard from pearls, drawing weird looks from the next table, must be overwhelming hunger pangs. cockroach and lizard jokes are aplenty. this kind of dinner outing i treasure loads. coming tuesday, it'll be muffin galore. those who asked for it will receive it. ^^

mr beasly

you don't have to drive a fancy car
don't have to quote me shakespeare
just to woo me
yeah i see your nervous laughter
when you're trying to crack some joke
well you don't fool me

i'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
don't try to hide away

just be yourself mr beasley
i don't need your show of attitude
cos it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you
fall in love with you

you don't notice but I see you
in the church when you were playing
you just move me
and my friend Sue she tells me
you've been teaching kids for free
mr philanthropy

its simple, i start my day with a commitment prayer to Him. thus i manage to do well with what im suppose to do. in fact far better.

:: linger by cranberries ::

our yearly overnight affair was great. great company, chix curry, garlic veggie, hit biscuits and kisses from oscar was memorable. another night to remember =) next year's overnight at livi's. till then, red wine and fried rice is a must.

im still quite stunned about everything. i hope there's a reason behind every step you take my friend. i hope...

chinese new year is here. seafood prices raised. aunties getting agitated. purses opened. demands and reservations are not to be taken lightly. like i said, aunties are getting agitated, and when they do... they're quite scary. reminder to all... a couple of years down, you me and all will be like them... *shudder*

ps, anyone wanna buy fish?

:: porcelain - moby ::